A/N: Hello my darlings :) Here's the second part of that nasty cliff-hanger I left you on. Longest chapter (6,496 words eeeep) Took me ages but finally did it thankfully :) I hope you enjoy it. Obviously you all know me by now and the fact that they're probably mistakes in this. I'll get round to sorting them out...one day xD Enjoy xxx Ps: This is for Sirius and Loey :) much love
Severus Snape had always wondered where Remus Lupin disappeared to every so often. There were always at least a couple of days every month in which he completely and utterly disappeared. Through-out the years, Severus had been very intrigued in what the Gryffindor was up to and had soon realised that each occurrence happened around the full moon. He had put two and two together not so long ago and had decided to see if his ideas were correct.
He also had the feeling that Black, Potter and Pettigrew had something to do with it as well. The four pranksters were always together in whatever they were doing and so he had decided that Lupin's disappearances has something to do with the other three boys.
What Snape really wanted to do was catch them in the act of doing something they should be. It would be glorious for him to get them into trouble for all the times they had made his life hell. Okay maybe not directly Lupin and Pettigrew, but defiantly Potter and Black. He would do anything to get them back for everything they had done to him.
He had known ever since Lizzie had refused to tell him about her brother that something was up. He knew she was hiding something and so after not being able to get it out of her himself, he would go about it his own way. That was why he was hiding in the Entrance Hall, just waiting to see if anyone walked by. He knew Lupin would do with Madam Pomfrey by his side but he wasn't just waiting for them. He was waiting for Potter, Black and Pettigrew to turn up because surely they wouldn't be far behind.
Severus had spied on them two or three times before, always completely out of view and had noticed them go out of the doors from ten minutes to half an hour after Lupin had. This was why, after he had seen the Gryffindor go out of the doors looking extremely pale, he waited until the others turned up. Then he would follow them as silently as he possibly could and see what they were up to. Hopefully everything would go to plan and if not...well he'd think of that when it happened.
So hiding in the shadows, he waited until the sounds of distant voices filled his ears...
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''Stupid idiot...'' Sirius mumbled as he quickly made his way down to the Entrance Hall, taking any stairs he encountered two at a time. ''Why the hell did he have to do that?'' A scowl covered his face as he descended lower through the castle. He and James had been placed in the same room for detention that night and James had thought it funny to blow up some of the jars full of ink they were meant to be cleaning. That obviously meant that they had to stay later and clean up. It seemed that the bespectacled boy hadn't thought of that and even though they had worked a hell of a lot quicker than they normally would to clean up, they were still extremely late into being with Remus. On top of that, James had forgotten the invisibility cloak and so had had to go up to the dorm to get it. Sirius not wanting to waist any more time had made his way down to the Entrance Hall to wait for his friend.
Sirius already knew they were dangerously late and there was a good chance that Moony being too far gone in his werewolf state might mean it would be too dangerous for them to actually enter the Shack. Sirius didn't like the idea of leaving Remus on his own and knew nothing good would come out of it. He had after all promised Lizzie he'd look after him at any cost and knew his girlfriend wouldn't be happy if he couldn't get in the Shack to look after her brother.
He got to the Entrance Hall and immediately had the feeling that someone was watching him. Turning around slowly on the stop, he tried to spot any un-wanted spies. He sub-consciously gripped his wand in his pocket as he searched for something that would tell him that he was being watched. Sure enough he saw the shadowy figure of Snape in the gloominess behind a statue.
''Snivillus, what are you doing here?'' Sirius said glaring at his rival. He knew the Slytherin was up to something. Why else would he be here? Sirius hoped he wouldn't cause any trouble. For once he didn't want to fight him or make fun of him; all he wanted to do was to get to Remus in time. The clock was ticking away and the animagus was sure they were too late.
''I could ask the same for you Black.'' Snape sneered. Of course if his calculations were right, he knew why Black was here, but he didn't want to give him the benefit of the doubt. ''Probably up to no good again aren't you.''
''That's none of your business Snape.'' Sirius listened for James' footsteps but everything was silent. Maybe he should just hex him; that would just solve the problem for now and then he could just sort it all out later...no...no that probably wouldn't be best.
Severus made sure his wand was in reach, just in case Black did anything funny. He needed something that would get Black to tell him what they were up too or at least something that would get him to follow them. He knew the Gryffindor wasn't stupid though and so he would have to do it with caution. ''It may not be my business but it certainly is McGonagall's...or maybe even Dumbledore's. I'm sure both would want to know why you're sneaking around at night...''
Sirius growled slightly. He didn't want to give into Snape, but at the same time he didn't want McGonagall to find out what they were doing.
''I mean, you can't be the only one up to something. I'm sure McGonagall would be delighted if she found out that Potter, Pettigrew and maybe even both of the Lupin's were in on whatever you were doing...'' Snape knew he had hit a sore spot and tired not to let a smirk cover his face.
''Leave them out of this Snape. You have no right to accuse them of anything.'' He was mainly talking about Remus and Lizzie and Sirius knew he wasn't doing himself any favours by saying that but he just couldn't let the Slytherin say that about the people who meant the most to him. He could feel his anger bubble up slightly inside of him. It would do no good to get angry now but he just couldn't help it.
Snape knew he was getting somewhere by the sound of Black's voice. He bore into Black's grey eyes seeing how unsettled they were. He knew that if he pushed just a little more than he would finally get through to the information that he wanted. ''I'm sure they're both apart of this, especially Lizzie; she's defiantly one to keep secrets...'' He knew he had finally pushed over the boundary when Sirius got hold of the front of his robes and looked dangerously at him.
''Don't speak about my girlfriend like that Snivillus, I'm warning you...one more word...'' Sirius' anger was now at boiling point. He had known what Snape had been trying to do and had foolishly let him get his way, but not for much longer. Sirius wouldn't have him talk about Lizzie like that. After everything the Slytherin had put her through...well Sirius had to admit he didn't know a lot of what had happened, she had only told Remus the full story but he knew it was only to look out for him. Lizzie had told him that if he knew then he would do something that would get him in a lot of trouble.
''Have I hit a nerve Black? It's true though isn't it...she keeps a lot of things hidden, a lot more than you think. There's so much she's never told you...stuff that she's told me. Maybe she doesn't trust you Black, I mean who would? I bet her brother has things to hide as well but I'm sure you know about that...''
Sirius had had enough and reached for his wand from his pocket. He still had hold of Snape and with his other hand pointed his wand at him. He seriously didn't care what he did to the Slytherin now; he had gone way too far and Sirius had a mind to beat the shit out of him. ''You don't know anything Snape .'' Sirius spat and let go of his robes. ''But you know what? If you want to know then go down to the Whomping Willow and press the knot in the middle of the trunk. You'll find all of your bloody answers there!''
It took about seven seconds for Sirius to realise what he had said. In that time Snape was already running out of the front doors.
''SHIT. Shit. Shit...'' He cursed himself and ran a hand through his hair. How could he have been so stupid to have said that? He felt his hands shaking in anger at both himself and Snape and for a moment his mind went blank. Panic was starting to bubble up inside of him, something that didn't happen very often. Should he go after Snape? Stop him? At that moment Sirius had no idea what the hell he was going to do. It was then that he heard footsteps coming down the stairs. Turning around on the stop he saw James and Peter racing down the stone steps taking them two at a time; James had the invisibility cloak in his hands.
''Padfoot? You look like you've seen a ghost.'' James said coming up level to his best friend. He frowned at the look on Sirius' face.
''I...I...Snape...Whomping Willow...Remus...'' Was all he could get out.
Realisation dawned on James' face and he stared at Sirius. ''How...how?'' Seeing the guilty look on the boys face hit James like a rock. He wasn't even aware of his actions and the next thing he knew all his anger that burst out of him and he had punched Sirius squarely in the face. ''WHAT THE FUCK PADFOOT? WHAT THE FUCK GOT INTO YOU TINY BRAIN AND MADE YOU TELL HIM? DO YOU EVER STOP AND THINK?'' James yelled furiously not even bothering to see if Sirius was okay. He then dragged Wormtail along as he ran out of the doors to do whatever he could to save the situation.
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It took several more minutes to realise that James had punched him. He could feel the blood trickling down his, what felt like a broken nose. Again he couldn't move from his spot, he could think of what to do. He just stood there in shock of what had just happened. Thoughts started to swirl around his head. What would happen is James couldn't get there quick enough? What would happen if Snape got to the end of the tunnel and found Moony? Merlin no it was too bearable to even think about. What the hell had he done?
It seemed like an age that he was standing there with no noise apart from his uneven breathing. Then out of the blue he could hear footsteps coming down the stairs again. Panicking slightly he waited until the unknown person turn the corner for him to see. It was Dumbledore. The headmaster didn't seem fazed to see Sirius standing there, his face covered in blood. The aged man walked up to him and peered down his half moon spectacles at him.
''Stay here. I'll go get Mr Potter, Mr Snape and Mr Pettigrew.'' He said calmly before walking off briskly the way that James and Snape had gone prier. Even though Dumbledore had been calm, Sirius knew he was going to be in a lot of trouble; those electric blue had said it all.
Before long Dumbledore was back with all three boys in tow. James wouldn't look at him and still seemed to be furious, Snape looked a mixture of scared and of loathing as he glared at him and Peter just seemed out of breath. With a little nod of his head, Sirius followed the other three boys silently up to Dumbledore's office where they filed in one by one.
Standing in front of his desk, Dumbledore looked down at the four boys in front of him. ''Sit down please and I would like someone to tell me what happened.''
Even though no one looked at him, Sirius could tell that they were waiting for him to explain, however before he could open his mouth, Snape cut across.''
''He tried to kill me that's what. Telling me to go down that stupid tunnel. It'd not safe having a damn werewolf in the school grounds; it shouldn't be allowed...it should-''
James cut across him, the look in his eyes dangerous. ''One more word Snape and I won't be responsible for my actions.'' He said his voice low.
''That's enough boys. Now Mr Black would you kindly tell me what happened?''
Sirius didn't dare look over to the others and just kept his eyes on the headmaster's desk. ''I was waiting for James and Peter...we...we were organising this prank and...I got to the Entrance Hall first and whilst I waited Snape turned up. He kept saying things about Remus and in the end...I don't know what made me say it...but I told him how to un-freeze the Whomping Willow and...'' he couldn't carry on anymore. It took all of his strength to not start shaking again.
''Then I presume Mr Snape did as you said just before Mr Potter and Mr Pettigrew turned up.'' Sirius just nodded. ''You do know the serious of you actions I take it Mr Black. If Mr Potter hadn't been there to save Mr Snape from pursuing further towards the Shrieking Shack then it could have been disastrous for both him and Mr Lupin.'' Another nod.
There was silence in the office with only just the soft ruffle of feathers from Dumbledore's phoenix.
''I think with the nature of this event we will have to confer with Mr Lupin in what he wants to happen. I must insist that you are the one to tell him of the events of tonight however Mr Black and for the mean time no drastic actions shall take place. It is possible however that what has happened could lead to expulsion.''
Sirius looked up at Dumbledore trying to keep calm. He should have known it might come to getting expelled. Again all he could do was nod. He didn't trust himself to open his mouth.
''Well then boys, Mr Black, Mr Potter and Mr Pettigrew, you may go for now. Mr Snape I wish to talk to you further. Mr Potter you will receive an award for you bravery tonight. Good night to you all.'' And with that he dismissed the three Gryffindor's. As they walked out off his office, down the revolving staircase and out onto the corridor there was no communication between the three boys. Sirius' face was still covered in blood as he walked several steps behind James and Peter. The two other Animagi didn't say anything to the boy behind them and kept on walking like he didn't even exist.
''Prongs, Wormtail...please I didn't mean to say it...'' Sirius said after a while as the silence was slowly driving him insane. He nearly walked into James as he stopped short in the middle of the corridor.
''It doesn't matter if you didn't mean to say it Black, you still did. Did you ever think of what could have happened to Moony if he had attacked Snape? They would have killed him. How the fuck did that not come into your head? Why did you have to say that to him? I don't even want to know what was going through your mind at that moment but you've really caused some shit now. Have fun telling Moony about what you did...oh and Lizzie.''
That hit him like a train. With everything that had been going on he had completely forgotten about his girlfriend. How the hell was he meant to tell her this? She'd hate him, probably forever.
''And don't talk to us okay?'' And with that James stalked off, Peter running to catch up leaving Sirius alone in the corridor to dwell on all the bad things that would most probably happen tomorrow.
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The morning came far too soon for Sirius' liking. He had managed to clean himself up, fix his broken nose and go to bed in the early hours of the morning and now he had woken up with the sun streaming into the dorm. It was quite apart from the snoozes of James and Peter. Knowing it was best to get up now then to wait for them to wake up, Sirius got out of bed and got himself dressed and ready before heading down to the Great Hall for an early breakfast. He knew his time was limited before he had to tell both Lizzie and Remus and so he tried to think about how to do it in the best way possible. The thing was he didn't know which was going to be harder to do. Tell his best fired or his girlfriend. Either way he would probably lose both of them.
As he ate a quick breakfast Sirius decided to go and tell Remus first. He knew it was the best thing to do seeing as it had affected him more and so he made his way up to the hospital wing, his feet dragging more and more with every step. Remus was the only person inside there that morning which was a little better. His friend seemed to be awake, staring at the opposite wall and looking in a terrible mess. It seemed that his presence was noticed and Remus turned to stare at him. He didn't happily greet him though which made Sirius suspect that he knew something about last night.
''Hi Moony, how you feeling?'' he asked. He knew he had to tread carefully otherwise things were going to be worse than they might have been originally.
''Fine.'' Was all he got in return. That confirmed his suspicions that Remus knew something about what had happened. ''James was here before you came in. He told me what happened...please tell me it's not true.''
Sirius felt the colour drain from his face. He knew no one had trusted him to tell Remus. He didn't look at his friend, just down at his feet. He didn't want to meet the disappointed eyes that he knew were there. Sirius didn't say anything either; he was too guilty to.
''What in the right mind made you say that Sirius? Don't you even care about me?''
Sirius' shocked expression met Remus' almost pained one. ''Of course I do Moony-''
''Well obviously you don't Sirius otherwise you wouldn't have done it. Do you ever think? Really? I mean I trusted you with my secret and now you've done this...well I'm sorry Sirius but I don't think I can trust you any longer.''
That hit him like a bomb shell. How could Moony not trust him? Well the answer to that was obvious but...they were the Marauders. Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot and Prongs. They were always meant to stand by each other through bad and good but Sirius realised...what if he did deserve that? What if he deserved to be shunted out of the group?
''Moony please...''
''I don't think you're exactly in the best position to call me that at the moment Sirius. Can you just go? I just want some time alone.'' Sirius could hear the sadness in his voice knowing it was him who had put it there. It was the best thing he could do; just do what Moon-Remus wanted him to; that way he wouldn't cause any more trouble. He turned to go but not before he remembered something.
''Oh urmm, Dumbledore said that it's up to you on what happens from now on...just thought I'd tell you.'' And with that he left the hospital wing. Even though it was a week day, Sirius really didn't feel up for going to lessons. What was the point really? Remus was obviously going to say he should be expelled.
That thought had been daunting him all morning. What if he was expelled? He'd have to go back home, to where his parents were. He would have to put up with their disappointment and their lectures and their ways of 'sorting him out.' He shuddered at his. He didn't want to go home, never again; it would just cause him too much pain and this sort of pain he wouldn't be able to deal with.
Sirius' home life wasn't perfect. It was far from perfect and he hated how much control his parents had on him. He hated how they made him feel on a regular basis and how they had brain-washed his little brother into thinking that pureblood supremacy was the best. It was his mother who was the worst. He was always the one who felt it was her duty to deal with him. She was always the one who gave him all the crap. Of course Sirius had never told anyone what happened at home, only James, Remus and Peter. It was a subject that scared him because he didn't know what would happen to him or the people he loved if he told someone. His parents were crazy and knew some pretty dark magic, like most of his family did and so he wouldn't put it past them to do something that would turn his world upside down.
He had been determined right from the start not to tell Lizzie any of this. He didn't want to worry her at all and knew that if he did tell her...well he would never be able to live if something happened to her; he knew his girlfriend would do something about the situation. Lizzie was one of the most important people in the world for him and so keeping her safe was priority. Telling her about home or indeed telling his parents about her would lead to a lot of trouble and so even though part of him ached to tell her at least something, he kept quiet.
Sirius still had a bit of time before lessons started and so he reluctantly made his way back to the common room. He knew it was probably the worst place for him to go seeing as James would have probably told Lizzie and she was probably waiting for him. However he hadn't even gotten back to the common room before he heard his name being yelled.
''SIRIUS ORION BLACK!'' Of course it was Lizzie. Who else would it have been? He stopped and slowly turned around to see his girlfriend storming up to him and looking furious. As she drew level with him he felt the movement of her hand hitting the side of his face. The smack sounded loudly and as though by instinct, Sirius put a hand to his cheek, nursing it.
''Now Lele listen to me...'' He shut up straight away however by the look she gave him. It seemed James had told her everything and an apart of Sirius was scared about what she was going to say.
''No, you listen to me. How could you fucking do that Sirius? He trusted you and you hurt him in the worst way possible. How could you be so stupid? What the fuck was going through your mind when you told him that? I...I can't believe you'd do that Sirius. I thought you cared, I thought you understood how Remus felt about his condition, how insecure he felt. Bleeding hell Sirius I just...'' She seemed to be lost for words and Sirius had a large indication that she was trying not to cry.
''Baby please...'' He pleaded.
''No Sirius, don't you dare. You're not getting any sympathy from me. YOU WERE MEANT TO LOOK AFTER HIM, CARE FOR HIM BUT YOU JUST GO AND DO THAT! I THOUGH YOU ALL WERE LIKE BROTHERS? WELL NEWS FLASH MISTER, HE IS MY BROTHER AND YOU'VE HURT HIM MORE THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW. You hurt me more than you'll ever know. Just stay away from me, from him, from all of us okay? I can't do this Sirius...it just hurts so much...'' He could see the tears in her eyes now and knew how disappointed in him she was. He tried to say something but the words were caught in his mouth. He just watched as she turned away from him and down the corridor. He could hear her stifled sobs and felt his heart break.
It was finally then that he realised how much damage he had done, how much he had hurt the two people he cared the most about. It was then after that, that he realised this was the first time he had made Lizzie cry this year...and it was the worst feeling in the world.
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However terrible and slow the following week was there was one good thing about it. He wasn't expelled. He had honestly thought that it would have been the first thing Remus had said, but after the indication that Remus didn't hate him, Sirius had been landed with a month's detention, a letter being written home and a whole load of points being knocked off Gryffindor. Apart from that little glimmer of hope however, none of his friends were talking to him. It felt strange to be in the same room with them and not have a conversation going. It also made him feel extremely lonely, something he only really felt at home.
If his friends were ignoring him was bad enough, Lizzie hadn't spoken a word to him since she had shouted at him. Without her by his side he left lost, not knowing what to do. He had heard about how after she had shouted at him she had gone and done the same to Snape. This gave him a little hope knowing he wasn't the only one she was angry at but it would have been nicer if she wasn't angry with him at all.
The letter he had got from home had been one of his worst yet. He didn't usually get many howlers anymore and so the contents of this one had seemed far worse than they probably would have been if the number of howlers were up like they used to be. The content had shaken him up a lot that day and Sirius was so glad that he hadn't been expelled.
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It seemed that Sirius wasn't the only one finding it hard that week. Lizzie had had a rather rough time to what having a rather big argument with Snape and not talking to Sirius. It was true that she had been nearly as furious at the Slytherin then at her boyfriend. He had put Remus in danger and she wouldn't have anyone put her brother in danger. It just came to show how much she did care for Remus. Some people thought it was just a normal sibling type of caring but it really wasn't. She didn't know whether it was because they were twins or whether it was because of Remus' illness, but Lizzie cared for him a lot more than anyone else. She wouldn't be anything without her brother and it would be one of her biggest fears if they stopped talking to each other.
That was why she had completely stopped talking to Sirius, because she wasn't sure if Remus would have wanted her talking to him or not. Seeing as what he had done she took the answer as no but it still pained her to see Sirius on his own nearly all of the time. No one deserved to be lonely, absolutely no one. She had tried to talk to James about maybe speaking to him again but the boy had refused, something that had joined her list of things pissing her off that week. Lily had wondered why she had shouted at Snape, something Lizzie had told her was obvious; it seemed everyone had mixed views that week.
By Saturday, a week after 'the incident', Lizzie had had enough. She was going to talk to Sirius whether the others liked it or not. It had pained her so much to see him about the common room or at the Gryffindor table at meals just sitting there, isolated and not talking to anyone. The anger she had had because of him had long since died away and there was a part of her that was aching to go talk to him. The thing was she didn't know where he was. He had gone out of the common room not so long ago.
Deciding to go and find him, she vacated her comfy arm chair and walked out of the common room, nobody giving a second glance to where she was going. She knew her brother and Lily were out on duty tonight and so she hoped to bump into them and ask if they had seen Sirius. Lizzie was worrying slightly, hoping he was okay and not letting this whole situation get to him too much but she knew it was. She could always see it in his expression.
Thankfully she did meet Remus and Lily on her way; both were confused as to why she was out of the common room this late at night.
''Do either of you know where Sirius is?'' She asked, trying to sound causal but wanting to find him as quick as she could.
''He was heading in the Astronomy Tower direction last time I saw him.'' Remus said frowning a little. ''Why?''
Lizzie sighed and looked at her brother. ''Because no one deserves to be alone, no matter what they've done wrong.'' And she walked off leaving the two Gryffindor's standing the in the middle of the corridor having no idea what she was on about.
It seemed to be her lucky night as she reached the top of the Astronomy Tower and saw Sirius leaning against the railing, his back to her looking out into the dark night. She could see little puffs of smoke and saw he was holding a cigarette. Frowning at this new discovery, she made herself known by clearing her voice. She saw Sirius turn around quickly, trying to hide the cigarette.
''Mind if I join you?'' She asked. After a moment or two she saw him nod in agreement and so she walked over to his side and leaned slightly with her hands on the railing. There was a silence between the two but thankfully not an uncomfortable one.
''Didn't know you smoked.'' Lizzie said after a while.
''Don't very often. Only when I'm extremely stressed. '' They both just carried on looking out at the starry night.
''It's bad for you.'' Lizzie said almost instantly. She knew what the effects of smoking could do to people; her granddad smoked nearly all the time.
''Why do you care?'' Lizzie tensed slightly at the sharpness of his voice but didn't let it affect her.
''Just because I was angry at you doesn't mean I don't care Sirius. Of course I care about you. A lot more than that would take me to stop caring.'' She took his hand and held it in hers, squeezing it tightly. ''I love you and I'm sorry if me not talking to you hurt you. I never meant it to.'' She didn't look at him because she didn't want to see what his reaction was.
Out of the corner of her eye she saw him stub out the cigarette and flick it out into the night. She felt him put a hand on her waist and gently turn her to face him. He didn't look angry or upset, he just looked happy that she was there with him.
''I love you too Lizzie and I'm so sorry about what I did, please believe me...''
''I do believe you.'' She stood on tip toes slightly to kiss him, closing her eyes to take in yet another amazing moment. It didn't matter to her if he smelt of smoke (even if she hated the smell). All that mattered was that she was here kissing her boyfriend. They broke apart, identical smiles appearing on their faces.
''You have to promise me you'll never do anything like that ever again.''
''Of course I promise. I hurt both you and Remus. I never want to do that again.'' She could tell he was genuinely sorry and felt a pang of regret for not talking to him all week. ''I'll do anything to make it up to you love.'' Lizzie didn't have to think hard about this request.
''One, stop smoking. Please. Two...tell...tell me about home...if you don't mind.'' Lizzie had been in the Great Hall when she had heard that howler go off. It had been one of the worst things she had heard and the content had been something she had never imagined a mother say to her son. She saw Sirius' face drain of colour a bit and knew she had probably said the wrong thing. ''You don't have to Siri, I shouldn't have said any-'' but he cut her off.
''No Lizzie, you're right. I should tell you. I've kept you in the dark for far too long.'' He had to brave, Sirius knew. He had to tell her something even though he had sworn he wouldn't. It wasn't fair on her that he kept all of his emotions locked up. She was his girlfriend after all, always here to help and be there for him. He sat down on the floor, motioning Lizzie to sit down with him. She sat down next to him and he instantly wrapped his arms around her and pulled her closer to him. He felt her head rest on his shoulder and for once he felt safe.
''Home isn't the best place. It never really has been. It's not much of a home either. Mother and Father...well they've always been obsessed with being pureblood and would rather have all the muggles, muggle-borns and half bloods killed.'' He hadn't meant to say the last bit as he had and felt Lizzie tense slightly. Kissing her on the side of her head, he continued. ''The Black's have always been associated with the dark side and everyone apart from me has been in Slytherin. When I was put into Gryffindor everything became a disaster. I got howlers nearly all the time and well...they made my life a living hell for then on. Not that they exactly liked me before anyway. Regulus was always their favourite'' He said bitterly. He tightened his grip around Lizzie, just making sure that he wasn't alone in speaking about it all.
''The closest person I have in my family is my cousin Andromeda, but I don't get to see her very often. She managed to get out; at least someone in the family did. I just...I don't feel like I belong Lele, I never have. I hate them all. I hate the house. It's so dark and grim and it brings back too many bad memories.''
''What memories honey?'' Lizzie knew she was maybe over stepping a little but she wanted to know. ''I'm here sweetheart, you can tell me anything.''
Sirius breathed in slowly. He knew he had to tell her. Maybe it would be better getting it out to one more person. The other Marauders knew but maybe not the whole truth. ''They're not the best parents in the world. If I slipped up just once I'd get punished. It all depended on what mood mother was in to whether it was bad or not. She hates that I made friends with James and Remus and Peter. She hates that I'm in Gryffindor. If she found out about you, she'd hate you too and...and I can't have that.''
Lizzie pushed gently away from her position to look up into Sirius' eyes. She could tell he was finding it hard to tell her much and she wasn't going to push him any further. ''Sirius listen to me. When you go home for the summer you do whatever you can to keep yourself out of harm's way okay? Even if that means coming over to mine or staying with James all summer. I don't want you to get hurt just because I'm your girlfriend. You mean so much to me.''
''I love you.'' Was all he could say. Maybe that was enough talking for tonight. He was thankful she hadn't asked what punishment. The remains of past Cruciatus Curses flashed in front of his mind.
''I love you too Siri and I promise that I will do everything I can to keep you safe. '' She hugged him knowing how much just that small bit of talking had affected him. ''Come on honey, let's get back. We don't want Filch to catch us.'' She took Sirius' hand and helped him up, not letting go of it at all. She led the way back to the common room thankful that they met no one. Climbing through the portrait hole she found the common room empty. Not wanting to say goodnight to Sirius just yet, she lead them over to the sofa where they sat down, Sirius immediately snuggling into her. Lizzie knew tonight the roles were going to be reversed; she was the one looking after him and she silently promised to do a better job in the future.
''I'm here. I'll always be here. I promise you. And don't worry about Remus and James. They'll come around once they know I'm talking to you. '' There was silence from Sirius and Lizzie pulled him closer to her, starring into the slowly dying fire. She knew he was falling asleep but she didn't mind. ''I Love you Sirius. More then you'll ever know.'' She whispered kissing the top of his head as his breathing slowed to a sleepy pace.
After several more minutes of silence she knew he was finally asleep. ''Good night Sirius.'' She said quietly, knowing that for tonight she wasn't going to get much sleep. Sirius needed her even though he never really said it out load or in any obvious way. Tonight she would be thinking of ways of saving her boyfriend from where he had been forced to call home.
''I'll save you baby. Even if it kills me.''
So cute don't'cha think? It's nnearly my summer hols (woo) so updating will be quicker I hope xxx