Oh my god. Okay… Finally! Hope you enjoy it!
Kurt felt like he was somehow in trouble, which didn't make sense because he didn't think he'd actually done anything wrong. Though there had been times that he didn't see his mistakes until Burt pointed them out. He always felt better about these situations when Blaine was there with him, so that they were in trouble together, but the sound of the shower starting reminded Kurt that he was all alone.
"So, a baby?" Burt wasn't judging or upset, he just sounded really concerned.
"I was as surprised as you are when he told me, if you heard screaming the night we got here, that's what it was."
"Well I assumed it wasn't you two having sex," Burt stated, "Blaine gets more high pitched when it's that."
"DAD!" Kurt screeched, his face turning bright red. "I did not need to hear you say that! Ever!" Burt chuckled lightly, smiling before he spoke again,
"It's not going to be easy you know. If he doesn't get his memories back soon, or ever… and it's not just your stress levels to be concerned with. It's the financial, this baby is going to be expensive and no matter how much you guys have saved. Carole and I will help you as much as we can but…."
"You will not," Kurt said quickly. "I can't take your money like that, I love you and appreciate that you would offer but I will figure something out. You earned that money and you two deserve to be able to retire in a few years with some spending money rather than give it to us." Burt smiled lovingly at his son,
"It still amazes me sometimes how much of your mother you have in you." Kurt smiled and sighed softly,
"Does missing my Blaine make me a bad person?" Burt reached forward and grabbed his son's hand,
"No, Kurt, it makes you human. Your partner of 10 years suddenly changes into someone you hardly recognize… that's hard."
"That's the thing though, I recognize SO much of 26 year old Blaine in this one. He has the same sweet spirit, same selflessness, same loving, and self-deprecating looks. Sometimes I could almost swear it was my Blaine. Until I look into his eyes, and that look isn't there." Burt looked at him mildly confused; he'd seen Blaine look at Kurt with so much love in his eyes that it almost hurt. "He loves me, I can see that," Kurt said as if he could hear Burt's thoughts, "but it's not the look that my Blaine gives me. I don't know how to explain it, I can just see it." Burt nodded; he had long ago quit trying to understand these two.
"This is going to sound awful, Kurt, but…" Burt paused of a second, "if you two get this baby, your life is going to get exponentially more difficult." Kurt nodded,
"I know, and part of me is just fine with that, a baby is meant to change you life. I just always thought it would change for the better." Burt reached out and put his hand over his son's, Kurt had been through so much more than any one person deserved, especially one as selfless and good as Kurt. "Is it too much to ask for a family? Is that something I am just not meant to have? Did I do something wrong?"
"No!" Burt quickly put those thoughts to rest. "You are amazing and deserve the best and everything that has happened to you hasn't been right or fair." Burt paused, "This isn't going to make you feel any better, but sometimes, life just sucks. I hate that it has to be yours, but you are strong and maybe it's because you've had to be but…"
"You're right Dad, that doesn't make me feel better."
Burt let out a dry chuckled and pulled Kurt into a hug. The 27 year old sagged against his father and let himself be defenseless, he felt bad that his tears were soaking into Burt's shirt, but he couldn't bring himself to stop. Burt shushed him gently as he rubbed his back,
"I've got you buddy, I've got you."
Blaine sunk to the floor of the shower as the hot water turned his flesh red. Why was this so unfair? Why couldn't he remember his own family? He was trying; he was doing everything he knew to do, but he still didn't know how to make Kurt happy. The baby was just going to make Kurt's life more complicated, and while he knew Kurt wanted it, he wasn't sure he could handle it. Blaine would do everything he could, of course, but it was very different than being an adult ready to be a father. Blaine wasn't ready, but he wouldn't tell Kurt that. He would suck it up and do what he had to do. He didn't regret calling the agency back, he just wasn't sure it had been the right decision. It had been done without a lot of thought; it was just something he knew he had to do. In retrospect he probably should have thought about the long-term consequences.
"Uuuuhhhhh," he groaned, running his hands through his hair and pulling viciously. Why did this have to happen? What had Blaine done wrong to deserve this? For Kurt to deserve this? What kind of life would the child have with one parent who couldn't remember ever wanting her in the first place? No, their daughter would never know that. She would only know how much Kurt loved her and how Blaine was happy she was there. She would never know he'd almost let her go. Almost let Kurt lose her. There was wetness running down his face and Blaine wasn't 100% sure if it was only water.
Kurt finally pulled away with from his father, sighing deeply to catch his breath. His life could never just be easy could it? After his mother's death, Blaine had been the first thing in Kurt's life that had been simple. He had struggled with his sexuality, with the panic of his father's possible rejection or even hatred. Even though it had been fine, it hadn't always been smooth sailing. Then the situation with Finn. His father's heart attack and later his cancer. High school had been hell. He was rejected from NYADA before he had later been accepted.
Then there was Blaine. From the moment he stopped him on the staircase at Dalton, Blaine had made sense. Their friendship had been comfortable and even through their fights, Kurt had always known Blaine was going to be a permanent part of his life. When they became boyfriends… Blaine just fit, like he'd literally been created for Kurt and vice versa. He'd become a part of their family with little effort, they'd become friends with each others friend with ease. Blaine had never turned his back on Kurt and Kurt wasn't about to do the same now. So however much of a struggle it would be raising a child with this Blaine, he would handle it like he'd handle all his struggles… as best as he could.
"You okay?" Burt asked once Kurt had wiped the tears from his eyes.
"Yeah, I'm always okay," Kurt said with a sad smile. Burt cupped his son's cheek affectionate,
"I am so proud of you." Kurt smiled,
"Thanks Dad."
Blaine sat on the floor of the shower until he realized the water was cooling. He climbed to his feet and grabbed the body wash, he couldn't help but smile when he popped the top, it smelled like Kurt. He washed his body as quickly as he could, as the water temperature steadily went down. He grabbed the new shampoo that Burt had bought Kurt, it wasn't Kurt's current shampoo but it still looked expensive. Blaine rolled his eyes and smirked as he snapped open the lid and the smell hit him hard.
Suddenly it wasn't the cold water that caused Blaine to gasp. Everything came back. Every memory, every thought, every dream, every sight, every sound, and every smell he'd experienced for the past 12 years was back. He didn't get them one at a time; it was like they had never left. Cooper, Puck, Rachel, Finn, Burt, Carole, Tina, Artie, Karofsky, Azmizo, Trent, Nick, Jeff, Sebastian, Mackie, Henry, and Kurt.
"Oh God. KURT!" He jumped out of the shower and without drying off or putting clothes on, ran out of the bathroom, the shower still running. He ran without paying attention where he was going and ran smack into Burt.
"Whoa, easy there kid—oh," Burt paused when he saw Blaine's naked body.
"Sorry Burt!" He cried as he continued on to Kurt's room, "Gotta see my husband!" Burt looked at Blaine confused until he saw Blaine grin at him.
"OH MY GOD! CAROLE!" Burt ran off and Blaine just turned back to Kurt's room.
"What is all the—" Kurt appeared in the doorway, "Oh dear god," he breathed. Before he could say anything else, Blaine grabbed the collar of his shirt and pushed him onto the bed, kissing him as hard and deeply as he could. Kurt seemed too in shock to be able to struggle, but finally managed to move his face enough to speak and grabbed Blaine's arms, which had pinned him down.
"Blaine Anderson, do you care to tell me what the fuck you think you are doing?" Kurt bit out.
"That is Blaine Anderson-Hummel to you, Candleman."
"I don't-" Kurt began but then froze, 'Candleman'. "Blaine?" Blaine grinned at him,
"The one and only, baby."
"OH MY GOD, BLAINE!" Kurt screamed flipping them over so that he was on top, kissing him back with more passion and desperation than they had kissed in a long time. "What did it?" Kurt asked Blaine pulled back slightly but then Kurt shook his head, "You know what, I don't care." And began kissing him again. Blaine chuckled into Kurt's mouth before he flipped them back over and start kissing up and down Kurt's neck.
"Whoa, that is something I've seen way too many times," a voice came from the doorway. Blaine looked back to see Finn watching them from the doorway.
"Well I am about to strip Kurt naked too, so unless this is a thing for you, I suggest you leave," Blaine replied. Finn looked at them confused,
"I figured you two wouldn't do that until—" Kurt and Blaine looked at him like he was an idiot and it clicked. "OH MY GOD!" Finn cried and ran and jumped on top of a still very naked and wet Blaine. "It's you! It's you! It's really you!"
"Finn get your fat ass off me, I can't breathe." Kurt moaned from the bottom of the heap.
"Guys…?" Rachel's voice said hesitantly.
"HE'S BACK RACHEL! HE GOT HIS MEMORY BACK!" Finn howled.
"AHHHHHH!" Rachel squealed as she too joined the pile on the bed.
"Oh my god, okay. I would really appreciate if you two would get off me and my unclothed husband." Rachel jumped back suddenly,
"Oh sorry Kurt," she said, smirking at them. Finn however hugged Blaine from on top of him,
"My brother in law is back! I just wanna hold him for a while." Finn claimed. Kurt poked his head out from under Blaine's shoulder,
"So would I Finn." Finn looked at him confused before Rachel grabbed the back of his shirt,
"They want to have sex, you idiot, now come on. We are going to visit my dads." Rachel said pulling him out of the room. "I'll bring Carole and Burt too, loves," she promised as she closed the door.
"Remind me to buy her something," Kurt said, grinning. Blaine chuckled,
"MOM! BURT! GUESS WHAT?!" Finn's excited voice came from the hallway. Burt laughed,
"We know, son, we'll see them later." Kurt buried his face in Blaine's shoulder as he laughed.
10 points to the person who can guess why Blaine calls Kurt Candleman (Hint* don't go for the obvious) SO much love to my readers **HEART**