Two week before the dance. I just hope Amanda is still too shy to ask Kurt out. Well, I shouldn't be talking because I still don't have the guts to ask him either.

"So, asked anyone to the dance yet?" asked Tabitha.

"No." I answered. "How about you?"

"Nah."

"I really want to go with Kurt but…"

"But what?" she asked, interested.

"Amanda Sefton wants to ask him, too."

"So what are you waiting for?! You and Kurt get along so well! There's no way he can say no."

"I know."

I told myself that I was going to ask him sometime today. I have all day. I have after classes, during lunch, the walk home, even at the Mansion I can ask him. The soon, the better, though.

Math class, again. Boring as ever. I looked over at Kurt. He was already staring at me, which creeped me out. I waved and he waved back. He looked back and smiled at Amanda. Guess he figured it out that she likes him. No way am I going to just watch her steal Kurt from me.

The bell rang. I waited for a moment to let the crowd clear.

C'mon MiKayla, I thought. I was beating myself up over this. If it were possible, I'd kick myself until I told Kurt how I felt about him.

First I went to my locker for some 'pep-talking'.

You can do this, you can do this, you can do this, I repeated to myself. I turned and saw Kurt walking over to me.

"Kurt!" I jumped. Don't panic!

"Miki, you have a date yet?" he asked me.

"No, not yet. But I was going to ask…" He cut me off.

"Amanda just asked me. I was just wondering if you had a date yet. So what were you going to say?"

It felt like I got kicked in the gut repeatedly. Now I feel like I was going to puke and my heart was racing. A feeling of anger, disappointment and sadness came over me.

"Never mind. It's not important anymore." I said, looking down. Trying so hard not to cry. I bit my lower lip.

"Hey, are you okay?" He put his index finger and thumb on my chin and pulled my head up. "You're crying. What's the matter?" he asked, really concerned.

I hated looking into people's eyes. It always intimidated me and looking into Kurt's didn't make me feel any better.

"I told you it was nothing. I have to go." I ran off.

The rest of the day, I tried avoiding Kurt and every time he talked to me, I'd cut the conversation short.

"He's going with Amanda?" asked Kitty in disbelief. I nodded.

"I told you that you should have asked him sooner. Then you wouldn't be depressed." Said Kitty, crossing her arms.

"Saying 'I told you so' isn't helping." I sulked. "There's no point in going now. I guess I'll stay home like all the other losers without dates."

"You're not a loser, MiKayla. Rogue doesn't have a date and she's still going." Convinced Kitty.

"Fine then." I said, unhappily.

"Yay! You won't regret it, I promise." She said.

"Easy for you to say, you're going with Lance." I mumbled.

*Two weeks later*

The dance was tonight. I haven't had a full conversation with Kurt in that period of time. Tonight especially wasn't the night to be talking to him either. Every time I looked at him, I saw Amanda. That just made me upset and angry.

There was a knock at the door.

"Come in." I was putting the remainder of my make-up on.

"MiKayla…?" asked Kurt. I looked over to him slowly.

"Oh hi." I said.

"I was worried about you." He said, coming closer to me.

"Why?" I asked, really not interested in talking to him.

"Well, you've seemed down lately. I wanted to know what's wrong." He put his hand on my waist. I don't hate him. I just… ugh! I don't know anymore! "You look beautiful."

"Thanks. You don't look too bad yourself."

"Please tell me. What's up?"

I sighed. No point in running now. I have his full attention. "Kurt, I really like you. A lot. When you told me that Amanda asked you, I felt heartbroken. I was going to ask you to the dance, but it was too late then."

"Oh… I… understand now. Hey, listen. I'll cheer you up by dancing with you for one song, how does that sound?"

"Sounds good." He didn't say he liked me back. That didn't make me feel too much better. It's not like I was expecting for him to say it. Maybe he doesn't see me more than a friend and he just doesn't want to hurt me more than I already am.

At the dance, there were pretty decorations, streamers, colorful lights and a disco ball (could you be anymore '70s, I mean, how lame is that!)

Everyone was dancing and dressed nicely. Well, some were. The Brotherhood walked in. Haha! Tabitha has some nice taste in clothing.

"What's up, girly!" he grabbed me by the hands and pulled me onto the dance floor.

"Tabby! I-I don't feel like dancing right now." I complained.

"Oh c'mon! Don't let Amanda let you down!" she said, tugging more.

"I never said she was bothering me…"

"Then let's go!"

Tabitha, Todd, Freddy and I danced together for a while. I know. I was a little shocked myself. Me? Dancing with the Brotherhood? This was a once in a lifetime chance.

They started to play a slow song. Tabitha said she has to go check herself. You know how girls are.

I looked around for Kurt. He promised he would dance with me. I saw him dancing with Amanda. They looked like they were talking. Then Kurt had an 'OMG, what the eff is going on?' look on his face. He saw me. I looked down. Oh crap… Next thing I knew is that he was standing right in front of me.

"We have to talk!" he grabbed me and started slow dancing with me. "Listen, Amanda knows about my mutation. I tried to explain to her that it was all a misunderstanding, but she wouldn't listen! What should I do?!" he freaked.

"Kurt! Calm down! I doubt she'll tell anyone, so calm down!" I calmed him down.

It went silent for a while. The song was very relaxing. Just to change it up, I moved my hands up to Kurt's neck and got close to him. He then put his hands down to my waist.

"Having fun?" He asked me.

"Sure… let's go with that." I said, sarcastically.

"You aren't having fun?" he asked, worried.

"I am having fun!" I said.

"Okay, whatever you say." He said, laughing.

"Are you having fun?" I asked.

"Definitely! Amanda is such a sweet girl." He said, smiling.

"Oh…" I said, uninterested.

"Yeah, you'd really like her."

"I doubt that…" I mumbled, but I think Kurt heard me.

"If there's anything bothering you, you can tell me." He said.

"Nothing is bothering me." I lied.

"Okay, then. I think I'll go back to Amanda, okay?" he said. Before he turned away, I grabbed his hand.

"Wait, Kurt!" I said.

"What?" I pulled him in and gave him a kiss. I could feel everyone staring at us. How embarrassing. Why did I just do that?

I pulled away. I looked over and saw Amanda staring at us. I turned and ran away. I want to go home…

I just dug my head into my pillow and cried. I hated Amanda. I don't hate Kurt. I don't even know why I kissed him. Am I jealous of Amanda? No. I would never stoop that low.

I had come home early without anyone knowing. So I heard everyone coming in, laughing and talking. Then I heard Scott and Kurt walking by my door.

"I heard MiKayla kissed you. I told you she liked you." He teased.

"I know, but Amanda likes me, too. I can't decide which one to go with. Miki and I have a lot in common, but Amanda is so sweet and respectful. She knows that I'm a mutant." Explained Kurt. "We even went out for ice cream after the dance."

I knew it. He likes her more than me. I guess I have to accept that.

"But, since she figured out that Amanda liked me, MiKayla's been acting weird. She avoids me, she stops talking to me."

I can't listen to this anymore. I put on my iPod and turned the volume really high.

I just want this night to end.