Things have been going smoothly. I've been pretty happy lately. I don't want to admit it… but I think I've grown a little distant from Kurt. I don't want to. He's just always with Amanda. I don't want to be rude, or anything. I give them their space.

Kurt and I still, though. It just always happens to be about the current situation… like this:

"Hello Kurt."

"Hey Miki."

"How are you?"

"I'm doing fine and you?"

"Fine…"

This is where the awkward silence comes in.

Then I would say:

"Weather's been nice lately hasn't it?"

"Yeah, it has."

"Beautiful spring weather…"

"Mm-hmm…"

Then we go on our merry way.

See! What I tell ya? Distant. I miss talking to him…

One evening, when I was finishing up m homework, I heard a knock at the door. I opened it and saw it was my distant blue elf.

"Hey MiKayla." He was blushing.

"Hey Kurt. What's up?" I asked more concerned than what was really 'up'.

"Ummm… I have a favor to ask of you." He said in his adorable German accent.

"What is it?"

"I sort of need help… with Amanda."

"Oh?" I answered slightly disappointed. I got this sick feeling when Amanda's name came up. I get thoughts of sadness and heart broken.

"It's about… uhh… kissing." He put his head down slightly to hide that his blue face actually be came more of a red shade. My face even got warmer.

"Really?" You should have heard how disbelieved I was.

"Yeah… I never kissed a girl before… unless it was my foster mother." He looked up slightly with an embarrassed crooked smile. I couldn't help but smile at his request. Not that I was happy that he asked me for kissing tips… but for that he's coming to me for help and I'm determined that there won't be any awkward silences this time.

"Okay… come on in." I stepped aside so he can enter my room. Then I closed the door behind us… I had a gut feeling someone was gonna need me for something so I locked the door without Kurt noticing.

"Ummm… so… I was thinking on kissing Amanda for the first time and well… no matter what I do I get scared and forget about it." He seemed actually frustrated by this. It kinda had me jealous.

"Then I figured out that I didn't really know how to kiss a girl, so I know Kitty will turn me down and Rogue is completely out of the question and Jean has Scott, I decided to ask you…" he paused. "You know, since were such close friends and all."

I smiled. "Well, what are friends for, Kurt?" I laughed a little bit and gave him a tight hug. This hug reassured our friendship. I was happy again.

"So…" he pulled away. "How do I kiss a girl?"

I blushed. "Well, you fix your lips like this…" I puckered my lips slightly. Kurt did the same. "Then you wrap your arms around her gently." Kurt put his arms around me. "Then she'll most likely put her arms over your shoulders and you'll be close together." I got closer to his face… "Then you close your eyes and… just…"

I could feel his face getting closer to mine… and then I felt our lips touch gently. Kurt's three fingers gripped my shirt, practically lifting it up. I felt… excitement inside of me… a feeling that I loved but I knew it was wrong.

Kurt pulled my shirt forward landing on top of him on my bed. Our kiss had become deeper. I opened my mouth and slid my tongue in his mouth. Our tongues wrapped around each other.

I really was not expecting this to come from him. Isn't he with Amanda? I'm really confused.

He broke the kiss and looked at me.

"It seems you already know how to kiss a girl." I said. I didn't want to ask him about Amanda because... really, I didn't want this to be over. "And if I can recall, you kissed me before."

I could see on his face that I could see through his plan. He got off of me and sat at the edge.

"I'm sorry and you're right." he said.

He left the room without another word.