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Spencer's POV

When I woke up Ashley wasn't there. I rolled over to an empty bed. I wanted to scream. I had felt like my heart had been broken into a billion pieces. I had felt more alone than I have ever been. I felt so alive and complete last night that the loneliness broke me. I lay naked in bed for hours to distraught to get up. I was stupid. Last night shouldn't of happen, it was wrong. Ashley is one of my students and its illegal. If I was caught by it then it would end my career in teaching for well… ever. If the school pressed charges, I'd be fired and probably face jail time. I should of stopped it but I didn't want to.. it felt so right. I just don't understand why she would of just left. I looked at my clock it was almost midnight. I couldn't stop thinking about Ashley. I laid in bed all day Sunday dreading Monday morning. I didn't want to see her. I was too scared to deal with the consequences of seeing her. I might break down. I may jump up and kiss her. I may yell I may hit. I may.. I may never be the same. Why would she just leave me? She wanted me just as bad as I wanted her. I don't know how long it took me to fall asleep but I did.

I dreamt of Ashley all night. The way she held me the way she touched me. I was burning with a desire to be close to her again but feeling guilty after for wanting her so bad. It was so wrong but why did I want it so bad. Ashley haunted me from the moment I gave her my number to the other nights activities. I could never be able to deal looking at her. I was awaken by a beeping alarm clock. I rolled out of bed with a banging head ache. I turned on the shower to a scolding level in order to feel the burning on my skin.
I cleared the mirror to look at my face. It looked like I hadn't slept in days. There were dark bags underneath my eyes my checks were swollen. I sulked over to my closet and grabbed a black pair of slacks and a blue button up. I felt too lazy to put my contacts back in so I grabbed my black pair of glasses off my dresser. I walked outside and waited for my cab to show up. It's been a week since my car has been in the shop and I was going to pick it up after school today.

I arrived at school after paying 30 dollars.. I was getting annoyed of the way my car was cutting into my paycheck so I decided that morning I was going to buy a new car if it came down to it. I walked into my class and turned all the lights on. I placed my things underneath my desk and organized some late papers placed underneath my door. I began to grade papers slowly losing interest in the subjects. I decided that I wasn't in the mood to teach so I decided to switch my schedule around. I wanted my students to watch a documentary I did in college about the secrest in writing. I knew half of them would sleep so it wouldn't bug me. Lunch slowly rolled around. I refused to eat when I heard a knock on my door. I walked over to let Rachael Wagner in.

"Hey Rach." I said pressing a smile on my face. She seemed just as excited to see me.

"Hello Spencer." She said eyeing me up and down her expression changing.

"You look horrible. I know it's not my place to ask but are you alright? A couple students said you weren't acting like your normal self and I wanted to make sure you weren't going to do anything stupid." Rachael reached her hand out and smoothed over mine. I felt a small attraction to this woman but she was no Ashley.

"Just ex problems." I murmured.

"Ex?" Rachael said invading my personal space.

Please keep this professional. I can't have anyone else make me feel uncomfortable in my work place.

"I uhh. Yeah. We got back together. I think." I said trying to step out of her way,

"You think? Are you sure?" Rachael said blocking my path.

I was about to kindly reject her when I saw a familiar brunette walk in my door looking flustered. She closed her mouth seeing my position in front of Principle Wagner. Rachael took a step back causing a small smile to leave my lips. I wanted to vomit at her touch.

" We can talk about this later. Miss Carlin." She smiled winking at me. Oh good. I can't wait.

I sat back down at my desk and ignored Ashley's gaze as Rachael left. Ashley walked over to my desk and I felt my heart drop into my stomach. The effect this girl had on me mad me mad.

"Can we talk?" She asked. Her voice was soft and I refused to look up.

"Spencer." Ashley demanded of me making me look right into her honey brown eyes. Her face was cold and with a hint of jealousy. Now I'm confused. Her face softened seeing my expression. She was searching my eyes for something I feel like she found.

"What Ashley?" I spat out at her. It sounded harsher than intended. Ashley winced hearing me say her name. She looked like she was about to withdraw herself from the conversation. She touched my hand and I felt electricity. I looked deeper into her eyes looking for an explanation as to why she left me. I know I was drunk and probably more open to sleeping with her than she expected but I still wanted to talk to her about it. I wasn't going to let her invade me without a fight. I grabbed my hand back and went to set up the dvd player in the middle of the room to be stalked by Ashley. She was behind me and I could feel her breath on my neck. I shivered into her touch as her hands roamed my stomach.

"Stop touching me." I breathed out feeling my heart beat increase.

"Is that how you really feel?" Ashley breathed in my ear.

I felt myself melt underneath her. I turned around to look at her to be held captive by her eyes.

"Ashley why do you do this to me." I said feeling her gaze deepen. I felt my chest rising up and down on hers. My heart increasd and felt like it was about to explode. Ashley leaned closer to me until our faces were a breath away. Ashley crashed her mouth on me knocking all the wind out of my lungs as she pressed my back on the wall. My hands felt her body and pulled her closer to me. I wanted to be with her completely. I needed her completely. I began to moan into her. I felt myself become wet. Ashley's hands found my breasts and massaged them through my shirt making me moan louder. Why did this incredible brunette have this much power over me by her voice. I felt her tongue go into my mouth for a second then pull away to the sound of the bell. Ashley went back to her seat not saying a word. I glared at her as the class began to fill. I was too stunned to move. Did she just attack me and leave me begging for more?

Are you fucking serious? I walked around to my desk and I was quiet. I was angry again. All the students were looking at me with a questioning look.

"This is going to be a free write class." I said coldy to everyone. My toned surprised me. I sounded pissed. Ashley's facial expression changed after seeing how mad I was. I stood up and walked out of the class.

I ran my hand through my hair. A couple minutes later I took a deep breath and told myself I was going to walk back into class. If Ashley wants to play hot and cold. I can play just as hard. I smirked determined before I walked back into the class. IF Ashley wants to play games we will play games. I turned around to be met by a familiar brown color.