A/N: The song is 'Let her go' by Passenger.
Roses are red,
Violet's aren't blue,
I don't own,
So you no sue.
After two months
SPov
I sat on my couch feeling empty, drinking wine, eating Nutella and watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Just like for the past 2 mounths. I haven't spoken to any of my friends at Kaleido Stage. I'm not even sure they're my friends try to talk to me, they call me, I don't answer. I go to school, come home, do homework and watch TV. I don't go out, I don't sociallize. My friends come here, they try to get me out, but I don't. Psychiatrists will call this depression. I call it not giving a fuck. It's 2:30 and... yep there it is. The dorbell. Every day at 2:30 pm Elena will come, tryto take me out for like 30 minutes and leave disappointed.
"Hi." I said as I opened the door
"Let's go out." She said as she rushed in my apartment. It was nice to have someone who cared.
"Wow. What happend to 'Hey,how are you?How've you been feeling?'" I said sarcastically
"You stayed so much in the house that it's old fashioned." Nice come back. "Hey, how are you. Let's go out." she opened her mouth to say something else but the phone rang. I let it ring.
"Hey, Sora. It's me, Ken. Just wantedto know how you are, and... um... Just know that you can come back when you want... I talked to the boss after your call two mounths ago. He can put you back in the show. The stage just isn't the same without you. Call me when you get this... um... Bye." Ohh crap...I don't event want to look at Elena's face...
"You told me they didn't answer!" Yep... she was pissed...
"I know what I said."
"So you lied to me?"
"It's not called lieing if I didn't told you..."
"So they answerd?"
"Yes..."
FLASHBACK
"I don't think I can."
"Sure you can. Here,you can use my phone." she said giving me her phone
I dialed the number and I froze when I heard someone answer. I was not ready for that.
"Hello. This is Kaleido Stage. How can I help you?" It's Ken... What do I say to him? "Hello. Is anybody there? Sora... Sora is that you? O My God! Where have you been? We tried calling you. How are you? Sora! Sora answerme!" And with that I ended the phone call
"Well?" Uhh, I forgot Elena was still here...
"Nobody answered..." Please leave me alone... please leave me alone... please...
"Ohh sweety, I'm so sorry." Aaannddd she huged me. I don't deserve this hug."We'll get through this."
END FLASHBACK
"You lied to me!"
"I know. I'm sorry." I sat on the couch with my head down in shame like a 4 year old kid who painted on the wall and now his mom is lecturing him. But when I painted the wall everything will go away in like 2 days, but this... oh this is here to stay... for a long long time. I'm never gonna hear the end of it...
"You should be! And now they're calling you to se if you're OK?"
"Yes."
"Well what the fuck are you doing?"
"The thing."
"What thing?"
"The thing!"
"What thing!"
"The ignoring thing."
"What ignoring thing?"
"The thing where I ignore everything and everyone while sitting on my couch eating Nutella whatch TV and play video games."
"That's so not a thing."
"Yes, yes it is."
"Sweety, you can't hide forever."
"Yes I can. Plus, it's been to long, I don't think they whant be back..."
LPov
Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
Why do I miss her? It's been 6 mounths, and I still miss her. Is that what this feeling is? Missing her? I thought it'll go away but it didn't. What is wrong with me? Maybe she was the one. The one that can fulfill my promise. The promise that I made to my sister.
Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies
I'm pouring another glass of whine. That's all I do lately. That's all I want to do. It's weird, every time I close my eyes I see HER. Did I do this? It's all this my fault? I found a girl that can help me and I drive her away. But this shouldn't mean so much to me. So why am I so... sad. Every time I fall asleep I see HER. O My God! Am I in love with her? But... that's... impossible. I know I love HER... But do I love her like a sister, like a friend, like a best friend... or like a girlfriend... or lover?
But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
Why did I realize this after she left? Why did I began to feel this way in the first place? But if I realized this when se wa here... what would have I done? Go to her and say 'Hey, I think I love you. So call me maybe?'. Why did she left? Was is because of me? Did I broke her? Just like I did with my sister? Just like I did to all the other girls?
Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
Oh oh oh no
And you let her go
Oh oh oh no
Well you let her go
But i didn't broke May. Why is she still here? For the fame? For the stage? For the applause? For the glam? She isn't good enough to be a true Kaleido Star. She is good, yes, but not good enough. No one was good enough. Untill Sora came along. She was good enough. She IS good enough. But she is not here. Not anymore. I can't train May. She isn't good enough. When I performe with her It isn't wright. It's not Sora...
'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
I want her back. I want her with me. I want to be wright again. It was nice when I performed with her. Everything felt wright again in the world. I want that again. I was finally happy. With HER.
'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
I let her go. That was the biggest mistake I've ever made. I wish she was still here. With me. Her happy beautiful face. Her big beautiful smile. Her red beautiful hair. Everything about her is beautiful. I do love her. In a girlfriend kind of way. I'm doomed.
A/N: That was champter 3. Hope you guys like it. Let me know in the comments.