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Chapter 19:
Jenna felt numb. She couldn't care about anyone anymore. She knew she was wrong for kissing Matty when he was seeing Rebecca; it was selfish of her and selfish of Matty to do that behind Rebecca's back. Matty admitted he had feelings for Jenna and instead of feeling happy it just made her more confused. She didn't want to like him; she didn't want to feel upset anymore. So she decided not to feel at all. Jenna avoided Tamara and Ming, not because she was angry with them but just because she wasn't the best company and they understood. Jenna would wake up and not want to move from her bed, so she took a few days off school the weekend after the camping trip because she physically couldn't bring herself to leave her room. Lacey was growing concerned; she could see that Jenna wasn't sick with flu but rather sick emotionally. She was a zombie and locked herself in her room more often that usual. Lacey tried her best to ask Jenna what was wrong but Jenna insisted she was just going through a teenage phase. At school Jenna would sit alone all the time and just go about her day like it was a chore, which was how she saw it. She would go to her classes and hid in her hoodie burying herself in her books. Jenna didn't know what she was feeling or why one fight with a guy she had kissed once was getting her down so badly. But it wasn't just Matty, Jenna felt like every aspect of her had been wrong for a long time and she was only now coming to terms with it.
It had been almost two weeks since the fight. Jenna had been warming up to spending time with Tamara and Ming again. She explained to them she just needed some space and was going through something, and they respected that. Matty would stay away from Jake when he was with Tamara to avoid seeing Jenna. He wasn't sure what was happening between them all he knew was that he had messed things up, completely. Matty and Rebecca dated for a few days after the camping weekend but Matty broke up with her and she knew very well it was because of Jenna and didn't take it well. One slap to the face later, Matty was single again. He had barely seen Jenna for the past two weeks except for the class they shared together and she would never look at him and leave the second the bell rung without looking back. One day during Geography he decided he should at least try and talk to her. He looked over and saw her starring down at her books and he couldn't understand what was different about her something was missing, she looked exactly like her old self except he couldn't see the spark he used to.
He followed her out the class to her locker.
"Jenna…hey" Matty's voice was timid. Jenna was caught off guard and wasn't sure what he was going to say.
"Hey." She replied bluntly.
"I-uh-, um," Matty didn't know what he was going to say either. "How have you been?"
"Fine. What do you want Matty?" Jenna said innocently from behind her locker.
"I just wanted to say hi, and see how you were going."
"Well I'm going just fine. Now what?" Jenna had her defense up. There was a short silence before Matty replied.
"uh- nothing, that's all! I'll –uh- see you 'round Hamilton." Matty felt defeated and awkward. Jenna didn't reply and hid behind her locker door. Matty walked off and looked back unsure of what had just happened. He missed the old Jenna, the Jenna he knew.
Jake ran up to Matty and jokingly nudged him.
"Hey there McKibben, haven't seen you around all day! What's cracking?"
"Nothing much man" Matty said in a dull tone. "I tried to talk to Jenna…"
"Oh, no way, how'd that go?"
"It was weird, she was different, like she didn't really seem like Jenna was there."
"Yeah, Matty Tamara's been telling me that Jenna has been acting weird. She doesn't want to go anywhere and she just sits at home, she's in kind of a funk."
Matty blamed himself and wasn't sure what to do about any of it.
"Maybe she's depressed!" Jake suddenly blurted out.
Matty tapped Jake on the back before walking off to find Tamara, he figured if anyone knew what to do it would be her best friend.