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Chapter 20:

Matty was angry at Jenna for what she said and how she had reacted to him finally admitting his feelings to her. He felt hurt and rejected which was completely reasonable. Jenna had no intention of hurting him, she was angry and confused at the time. Matty tried to force himself to accept that as an explanation but couldn't't help but still feel angry at her. Matty would look at Jenna and feel a hole range of emotions, but the main one was concern. He saw a zombie sitting at the school desk where the lively Jenna used to be. He wasn't sure if he should blame himself, or listen to Tamara who had told him that Jenna sometimes gets into these little holes in her life and has to dig herself out of them and then goes back to normal. He knew it was best to just leave her alone while she figured herself out and he figures his feelings out. Jenna would see Matty and walk straight past him like strangers in the street. She wasn't angry at him anymore, she was neutral, he was just another person. She figured if she ignored him then there would be no stares that would make her melt and there would be no sexual tension when they stood near each other. She wanted so badly to forget it completely but she couldn't, ignoring it was the only option.

Jenna had begun to hang around Tamara and Ming more frequently, she was acting like her normal self on the outside but on the inside she felt empty. Everyone else had seen her just being her old self minus the few days where she would shut out everything. Jenna was good at that, shutting things out. She got hurt by Matty and shut herself out from the world and she shut Matty out when he told her how he felt. Jenna lived off what goes up must come down, just like Jenna is happy Jenna will be hurt. So, she chose to skip the in between and get the hurt over and done with every time something good came around. Jenna and Matty hadn't spoke still and the case wasn't closed it was just put at the back of the 'to sort out' pile. Living in a life of empty thoughts longing for something exciting was desperate. Jenna craved something, but she didn't know what.

Jenna decided to go for a walk one afternoon, she didn't know where she was going, she just walked. She walked past a row of shops, then a row of houses before ending up at an oval. The grass was dry with few green patches spread across the massive oval. She saw a bench in the distance and made her way over. With her headphones in she sat there for a short amount of time before she was interrupted by a vaguely familiar voice."Jenna, remember me?" It was Collin, except he didn't have his lip ring and his hair was more tamed."Collin? You look different! What are you doing here?!""Yeah, I just had school it's not far from here, I'm at this oval like every day. Yeah my hair and stuff, ya' know got to play the part.""Tell me about it…" Collin took a seat next to Jenna."How have things been?" "Well since I last saw you, a lot has changed!""Such as?""I'll spare you the details but basically the drift is I am messed up!""Welcome to the club" Collin winked."How about you?""I've been trying to stay out of trouble, it gets annoying moving schools constantly so I don't feel like getting kicked out of this one just yet. How's Matty McKibben?" "I wouldn't know to be honest with you!""Oh, I thought you guys were close?""What made you think that?" Jenna remembered Tamara telling her that Matty had punched Collin after Collin said something about her."Well he punched me in the face after he saw us?""No, we're not friends, weird…" Jenna didn't want to talk about Matty anymore.

They continued to talk for a while longer until Jenna decided she better be heading home. When she told Collin she had walked he decided he had a better idea. They walked across the oval to where Collins motor bike was parked."No way am I getting on that!" "Cmon', you don't want to walk all the way do you? Plus it gives you a chance to hold on tight." Collin said flirtatiously. Jenna felt a thrill, seeing Collin being so rough to her and showing outright interest in her was exciting. She put on her helmet and sat on the back as Collin sped off. She clung to him and Collin was ready to show off. As they skidded to a stop at the front of Jenna's house she got off the back of the motorbike laughing, the adrenaline filled her and got even more amped up when Collin grabbed her at the back of the neck and kissed her. Her chest was still thumping from lose of breath on the motor bike, Collin tugged on her hair pulling her head back. He released and Jenna stood their smiling. "We should do this again sometime." Collin said as he put the spare helmet away."Sure, when and where?" Jenna was eager but tried to play it casual."Meet me at the oval tomorrow?" Jenna had already made plans with Tamara."I'll be there." But she was willing to cancel them. Collin roughly kissed her one last time before riding off on his bike without another look. Jenna had found her something, it was rough, exciting, care free and Matty hated it. It was Collin.