~~Next Day 1 am~~
I came home to find Phil in the kitchen sipping tea. I had just gone out on a date with Riley, or was it Rebecca, or Rachel? I dont even remember, is that bad? Anyways, Phil looked as if he was about to drop dead., he had bags under his eyes and his nose was a bit red.
"Hey mate, what are you doing up so late?" He looked up startled, surprised I was home.
I normally came home from dates around 2 or 3, so this was early for me.
"Just wanted some tea." He grabbed his cup and left to his room, leaving me alone with my thoughts.
I couldn't help but wonder if he was telling the truth.
Honestly, Phil has been acting really weird for the past couple of months.
It started when I started going out on these dates.
He would always wait up, and then go to bed when I got home. Strange.
I fell asleep around 2 and woke up at noon.
Phil was gone when I got up, but he didnt leave a note. That was strange, he always left notes.
But oh well, I guess that meant the house was mine for a few hours. I decided to call up Sarah, a girl I went out with last week, (or was it a couple days ago?), and go out for lunch.
"Hey Sarah, I was wondering if you wanted to go on a lunch date with me… right now… Okay. I'll pick you up soon." I inwardly was happy she agreed, I never liked being home alone.
I got ready for my date with Sarah. She came over 20 minutes earlier and waited for me to get ready. We went to go eat at this little restaurant nearby Phil and I's flat; although I can't remember the name of it, it was quite delicious. Sarah and I came back to my flat and Phil was still gone.
'Something's wrong.' I thought. I quickly brushed the thought to the back of my mind as Sarah was leading me back to my bedroom. We started making out and it got very heated from there.
Thirty minutes later, Sarah got ready and went home.
By the time she was gone, it was already 2:30. Phil still wasn't home. I started getting more worried. I called PJ first, hoping Phil would be there and be on his way home.
" 'ello?" I heard.
"Peej, by any chance, is Phil over there?" I asked.
"No. He isn't. Chris and Carrie are here, but not Phil. Sorry mate. I thought you guys were supposed to hang out at the park really early today?" Dammit! He was right. Phil wanted to go to the park to see the sunrise and I promised I would go with him. Fuck me.
"Oh, right. Thanks, mate. I have to go. Bye." I ended the call before PJ said anything. Phil had to be at the park. Maybe if I found him, I could apologize for being a huge dick.

~~ the park~~
I looked everywhere.
Not one sign of Phil.
I was freaking out. Phil would've called by now telling me where he was or who he was with.
I had been searching for a few hours now and it was getting late. My phone's clock read 8:30. It was five hours since I'd gone looking for him.
Oddly, it only felt like… an eternity! He had to be here.
Finally around 10, I went back to the flat. Someone was sitting in front of the door. I rushed up to them to see if it was Phil, obviously. To my dismay, it was just my neighbor, Mindy.
"Mindy, get up. Are you alright?"
"Yes I'm quite fine. I was waiting for you to get home. I needed to talk to you. It's about Phil." My heart instantly sped. My stomach erupted with butterflies. I motioned with my hand for her to continue.
"Well… Phil left. He said he couldn't take it anymore and so he left. I don't know what it was that he couldn't take, or where he was going, but he said he needed a break. I'm sorry to be the one to tell you this, Daniel."
"H-he left?" I asked, stumbling over my words in disbelief. She nodded and departed from the flat with a solemn goodbye. I couldn't believe it. He left me. I couldn't move; I fell to the floor with tears running down my face, wondering why it hurt so much.
I mean he is my best mate, but it was something more than that. It felt as if half of my heart was gone and even though I was looking for it, there was no point.
My tears couldn't be stopped. They kept flowing as if it was raining. My heart cried out for Phil to come and soothe this horrible feeling. I felt empty. I felt as if my whole world crumpled right in front of me and I couldn't save it. I need him back.
'What was I feeling? Why did I need him so badly? Why did he leave? Where is he?' All these questions ran through my head. I couldn't help but wonder why he had left.
I couldn't sleep. My thoughts filled with everything I loved about Phil. Every little detail. Who knows if I would ever find him? He wouldn't answer my texts or return my calls. I need him, but have no idea where to find him. I need this boy back in my life.
Phil… please come back. I need you. I can't believe you are gone. I miss you. I wandered into his room and saw his stuff was still there. There was a note next to… Lion. He left Lion?
The note read…
"Daniel, by the time you read this I'll be gone. I couldn't handle somethings, so I left. Please don't try to find me. I just need some time alone. I didn't want to leave, but I felt like I had to; it's just to clear my head and find out if what I feel is the real thing or just a crush. I don't know when or if I'll come back, but for now I'm gone. Please don't come look for me. I need this space.
Goodbye. Love Phil."
He left me… he fucking left me! He left me when I… when I… when I just realized my feelings for him.