Chap 4

Authors Note – Just a quick warning, there is a mention of rape in this chapter. There is nothing explicit, just the mention of the act. If you don't like, just skip to the end of Hermione's dream. Also I have included a list of pack colours at the end of the chapter for future reference.

- Hermione POV -

Weeks passed by quickly and Sam and I had become close friends. Ron had tried to contact me many times but I kept ignoring the messages.

"Hermione, just pick a damn car," Sam said as I looked over yet another car.

Sam had decided that I needed a car because it was going to get colder and according to him I would "freeze my British ass off" if I continued walking everywhere. He had dragged me up to Port Angeles and was forcing me to look through car yards. We were at the third car yard and Sam was getting the shits.

"Sam, you're the one who insisted that I buy a car and now you are going to have to suffer through this process," I said before maturely sticking my tongue out at him. He stuck his out in reply and we both started laughing.

"You two are so adorable. How long have you been dating?" The saleswoman asked as she walked over to us.

"Oh, we aren't dating. We're best friends," I explained. Sam looked down and I looked at him questioningly.

"Well, can I help with anything?" The woman asked with a knowing smile.

"I'm just looking at the moment," I said with a smile. The woman nodded and walked away to serve another couple. Something caught my eye and I squealed lightly. I raced towards a car and ran my hands over it.

"This is the one," I said with a look at Sam. He smiled at me and walked over to the black Chevy Impala (A/N – I'm watching Supernatual atm lol )

"This is an awesome car," Sam said. He called the sales woman back over and she took me into her office to sign some paperwork. A half an hour later, I was following Sam back to my place and dropping off my car.

"I don't feel like going back out. Let's watch movies," I said. Sam nodded and we walked inside. Bella and Jake were on a date and Charlie was down at La Push fishing with Billy so the house was very quiet.

"Now, you pick a movie and I'll go make us some popcorn," I said. Sam nodded and walked over to the DVD cabinet and I walked into the kitchen. I grabbed the popcorn from the shelf and shoved it into the microwave.

"How's the popcorn?" Sam asked as he walked into the kitchen.

"Popping. How's the movie?" I replied.

"Rolling," Sam smiled and I found myself laughing. We were soon leaning against the counter in hysterics. The popcorn had finished popping so I pulled it out of the microwave and put it in a bowl. Sam threw an arm around my shoulder and we walked back into the living room. We sat on the lounge and I noticed Sam hadn't moved his arm from around my shoulder. I didn't want him to because it felt comfortable so I rested my head on his shoulder and fixed my eyes onto the TV.

As Wanted began to play, I found myself sliding down until my head was resting on his chest. I took in Sam's high body temperature again and was still quite confused. Throughout the weeks I have known him, I had noted some abnormalities about him.

He was incredibly strong – he lifted Paul up with one arm the other day and slung him over his shoulder after Paul had been picking on me.

His body temperature was increasingly high but he was never sick. He also never felt the cold.

He healed quickly – he got a cut on his hand the other day and it had disappeared by the next day.

I had been writing down these things in my diary and had planned to start investigating them soon. I smiled when Sam's hand started smoothing down my hair. I loved how comfortable we were with each other in such a short time. It had taken Ron and me years to reach this level of comfort and even then it felt odd. With Sam however, it felt natural.

Once Wanted was over, I got up and changed the film to 10 Things I Hate About You. Sam didn't comment which I found nice since whenever I wanted to watch this movie back home, the boys would whinge and complain until I changed it.

"Hello children," A voice said partway through the movie. I jumped because I hadn't heard anyone come in and Sam and I looked up. Jared and Paul were grinning at us from the doorway.

"Hello boys. Come join us," I offered. Paul launched himself onto the lounge beside me and Jared sat on the love seat beside us. They both stole some popcorn from the bowl that was resting between Sam and me.

"What are we watching?" Paul asked.

"10 Things I Hate About You," I said. Paul and Jared both nodded and turned back to the screen.

I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket and pulled it out, smiling when I saw Draco's number.

"Hey handsome," I said. I shoved a handful of popcorn into my mouth and looked up when Sam growled softly.

"Hey gorgeous. How are things in the US of A?" Draco asked.

"They're really great. I'm watching a movie with some friends. Say hi guys," I said. I held the phone away from my ear as the three boys said hi without even looking away from the TV.

"Only guys? Hermione Granger, you shady lady," I heard Ginny say.

"Hey Gin. Yes only guys. The girls, well I don't know where the girls are. What are you doing at D's?" I asked.

"Just having some dinner," Ginny said.

"Have some cake for me," I said.

"Will do babe," Ginny said.

We talked for a little longer before I hung up and turned back to the movie. I slid down so that my head was resting in Sam's lap and my legs were draped across Paul. I smiled slightly when I felt Sam's hand running gently through my curls and found myself getting drowsy. I closed my eyes and soon fell asleep.

- Dream -

I was chained up in the dungeon in Malfoy Manor. I turned when I heard the door creak open and flinched when the light hit my eyes.

"Hello mudblood," A menacing voice said. I looked up and noticed Bellatrix and Lucius walked into the room. I hissed and spat at his feet. Bella lifted her arm and slapped me across the face with a resounding *CRACK*.

"Naughty mudblood," Bellatrix said in her child-like voice.

I rolled my eyes and suppressed a scream as Bella cast the Cruciatus curse on me. She tortured me for about 20 minutes until she left Malfoy and me alone.

"You know, I always wondered what it'd be like to fuck a mudblood. I may just have to experiment," He said. I felt fear and dread fill me as I watched him slip his robe off.

Soon he was naked in front of me and he was working on my clothes. I pleaded and begged but refused to scream as he undressed me. When he entered me, I only let a few tears slip from my eyes. I refused to give him the gratitude of hearing me scream. I imagined that I was home with Harry, Ron, Blaise and Draco and we were just having a nice dinner.

Soon he was done and put his clothes back on. He waved his wand and my tattered clothes returned to my body. I looked up at him and watched as he smiled.

"Better than I thought," He said before walking out of my cell and slamming the door. Once I knew he was gone, I let my tears fall and let the gut-wrenching sobs out.

"Hermione?" I heard a voice cry.

"HERMIONE?" Another voice cried.

"Mione, please," A third voice said desperately before my eyes snapped open.

- End Dream -

I woke up with a start and found the three boys all looking at me with worried looks. I let out a sob before jumping up off Sam's lap and racing towards the bathroom where I promptly threw up.

- Sam POV -

I smiled as I heard Hermione's breath even out. I kept running my hands through her curls more for my benefit than hers.

"You are so whipped Sam," Paul said with a grin.

"Yep," I replied simply.

"When are you gunna tell her?" Jared asked. He had just switched the movie over to Die Hard: with a Vengeance before turning back to me.

"I don't know. I'm still hesitant because of her previous relationship. But I will do it soon," I said. We became engrossed in the movie until I heard Hermione moan. I thought our laughter had woken her up so I looked down ready to apologise but was shocked to find her still asleep.

"No, no please don't," She whispered in her sleep. A few tears leaked down from her closed eyelids and I felt my chest hurt.

"Hermione?" Paul said as he moved down to the ground. He grabbed her hand tightly in his and shook it gently.

"HERMIONE?" Jared cried as he did the same when her moans became louder and she began to toss and turn in my lap.

"Mione, please," I begged as I ran my hand through her hair hoping to calm her. Her eyes snapped open and she looked around frantically. She let out a sob that made my heart hurt before jumping up and racing towards the bathroom. I followed her closely and heard her retching and heaving.

I pushed the door open slowly and walked over to her. I grabbed her thick hair in my hands and held it off her face and neck as she threw up. I sat beside her and rubbed her back gently.

"Paul, go grab me a glass of water. Jared, go get a washcloth from the linen cupboard and wet it with cold water," I said to the boys who had followed me. They did as I said and I turned back to my crying and heaving imprint. Paul and Jared soon returned before handing me the things and leaving. I heard Jared dial Chief Swan's number and talk to him whilst Paul called Jake in order to talk to Bella.

I handed Hermione the water as she sat back. She drank it before getting up and walking over to the sink. She brushed her teeth before surprising me by walking back over to me and sitting in my lap. I pressed the cloth to her head and rested her head gently on my shoulder. I placed mine on hers and rocked her back and forth as she cried. I moved the cloth to the back of her neck after sweeping her thick curls over her shoulder. I felt Hermione's small hands clutch my shirt tightly before she pressed a hand to my heart. It seemed like she wanted to make sure I was real.

"It was just a nightmare Mione," I whispered softly into her ear. She shook her head before looking up at me. Her eyes were lifeless and full of tears and I felt my heart clench at the sight. I wanted to know what was making her so upset.

"No Sam," She whispered. "This was real."

I gripped her tighter and kissed her hair. She rested her head against my heart and I felt her tears dampen my shirt. I rocked her back and forth some more until I heard her breathing even out. I stood up as gently as possible so I wouldn't jilt her before walking into her bedroom. I pushed her covers back with my foot before slipping her into the bed. I kissed her forehead and was about to leave when her hand shot out and grabbed mine.

"Please stay," Mione whispered to me as her eyes opened. I turned around and looked at her broken face. I nodded and walked back over to the bed. I kicked my shoes off and slid in beside her. She pulled the covers up and rested her head on my chest. I hugged her closer and kissed her head softly. I whispered nonsensical things to her until I heard her breathing even out, her heartbeat slow and knew she was asleep.

"Sam?" Bella's soft voice said from the doorway. I looked up from Hermione's peaceful form and into the eyes of her worried cousin.

"Hey Bella," I whispered. She walked over to the bed and ran her hand over Mione's arm.

"What happened?" Bella asked.

"We were watching a movie and she fell asleep. She started tossing and turning and when she woke up she ran straight to the bathroom and threw up," I said.

"I'm getting really worried about her. She has been having nightmares for so long. She only talks to dad but sometimes she doesn't talk about it at all. I don't know what to do," Bella whispered desperately. I reached over and squeezed her hand. We both stared at the sleeping form of Hermione and sighed.

- Two Weeks Later – Hermione POV -

I walked around in a daze for the past two weeks. The dream about the rape haunted me. I had been having it every second night causing me to wake up screaming. I found myself eating less, sleeping less and not spending as much time with people.

My daily routine seemed to go – wake up screaming, get ready for work at the local bookstore, go to work, get home at 5 and shower, eat a tiny dinner with a concerned Bella and Uncle Charlie then go to bed to have my nightmares again.

I woke up at 3am one morning and found myself not wanting to go back to sleep. I slipped out of bed covered in sweat and walked into the bathroom. I splashed some water on my face and took in my broken appearance. My eyes were bloodshot, my skin was pale and my face looked sunken and hollow. I walked back to my bedroom and threw on some UGG boots. I slowly walked past both Bella's and Uncle Charlie's rooms and slipped outside. I rubbed my arms up and down to warm me up before walking out into the woods.

I walked into the clearing where I had last seen my wolf. I longed to look into his eyes simply because I felt safe. I heard something from behind me and spun around. I watched as a black horse sized wolf walked out of the bushes.

"Hey there," I whispered as I sat on a nearby log. He walked over to me and nuzzled my knee. I patted his large head and took in how soft his black fur was.

I smiled when he rested his head on my lap and stroked his head.

"I didn't see you the other night," I whispered softly. He whimpered in response and nuzzled my stomach. He licked the back of my hand softly and I laughed.

"It's ok. You probably wouldn't have liked the state I was in anyway," I said. My wolf barked softly at me.

"Haven't I told you that it isn't safe to be a lone wolf?" I said in a mock-angry tone. He let out a growl that sounded like a laugh before howling. I looked around when I heard more noise and noticed a silver wolf followed by a smaller, sandy coloured wolf.

"Nice to know you aren't alone," I said as the two other wolves walked over to me. The sandy one sat beside me and the silver one sat in front of me.

I patted the sandy one who rolled his large head in my hand with a content sigh. My black wolf growled warningly at the smaller wolf.

"Hey, calm down. It's ok," I said. My wolf calmed down significantly and rested his head back on my lap, glaring at the smaller wolf. The silver wolf snorted and let out a laugh like bark before shaking his head.

I sat in silence with the wolves for a little longer until the silver wolf lifted his head. He sniffed the air before jumping to his feet. He looked over at my black wolf before nudging the sandy wolf. The sandy wolf licked my cheek before following the silver wolf into the forest.

"I suppose I should be getting back now. I've got to start work in a few hours," I said. My wolf whimpered but stopped when I kissed him on the muzzle. I patted his head and stood up. As I started to walk, he nudged my hand with his head and I rested it on his head. He walked me to the edge of the forest just as the sun rose before licking my hand and barking softly and running off into the woods again.

I walked into the kitchen and slowly started making breakfast for Bella, Uncle Charlie and myself. I heard movement from upstairs and knew Bella or Charlie was awake.

Bella walked into the kitchen rubbing sleep from her eyes. She looked at me in surprise and said "Mya, I didn't expect you to be up. You don't start work until 10. Its only six. Go back to bed for a few hours. I'll wake you when its time. Come on."

Bella walked over to me and grabbed my arm. She led me up to my bedroom and helped me back into bed.

"Bells," I said but Bella held up a hand to me.

"Have a sleep. I know you didn't get a good one last night," Bella whispered. I put my head on the pillow and closed my eyes

- Bella POV -

I watched as my cousin slept and sighed.

"Morning baby," Dad said as he walked up behind me. "She'll be ok."

"I'm worried dad. She hasn't been sleeping and she keeps waking up screaming. I'm scared for her," I whispered. Dad wrapped me in a hug and kissed my head.

"It'll be ok baby. If it keeps on like this, I will have a talk to her about seeing a psychologist," Dad whispered before we walked down to the kitchen where Mione had made breakfast.

I went back up to her room at 8:45 and woke her up. She looked slightly better but still shattered. She showered and got dressed for work before kissing me and Dad on the cheek and walking to her car.

"Bells, what's the matter baby?" Jake asked as we walked along the beach.

"I'm just worried about Mione," I said as I moved closer into his side.

"What's happening? Still having nightmares?" Jake asked. We sat down on the sand, me in between his legs as he wrapped his arms around my waist.

"Yep. They seem to be getting worse. Dad says if they don't get better, he's going to talk to her about seeing a psychologist," I said. I felt tears pool in my eyes and Jake kissed my temple.

"She'll be ok baby. She's a tough one," Jake whispered into my ear. I rested my head on his shoulder and inhaled his scent. We watched as the waves crashed along the shore but all I could think about was Mione.

- Sam POV -

After I left Hermione, I went to find Seth.

Seth, what was the go? I demanded of him. I noticed it was just the two of us and realised Paul's patrol must have finished.

With what? Seth asked.

Hermione! I yelled in my mind.

Whoa Sam, ease up. I think of Hermione as a sister that's all. Seth said. I looked him in the eye and knew he was telling the truth. I sat down at the edge of the forest and looked out at La Push.

You ok Sam? What's wrong? Seth asked as he sat beside me.

I'm just worried about Hermione. She seems heaps upset and I always feel this sense of heartbreak. I felt her scars, I know she has been hurt because of the scars but I just want her to open up to me. I replied desperately.

Give it time Sam. She'll come around. Just give her time. Seth said wisely. I looked over at him and nodded.

Alright Seth. Let's go. Embry and Colin are taking over in ten minutes. I said. We ran through the forest until we reached Seth's house. I watched as he walked in before running towards my own place.

I phased back and walked straight to the shower. After my shower, I threw on a sleeveless grey shirt and a pair of shorts before walking downstairs to grab myself some breakfast.

"Hey man. How did patrol go?" Jared asked as walked into my kitchen.

"It went good. Saw Hermione again," I commented.

"Yea Paul mentioned that. He also said she shut you down pretty good," Jared said with smirk.

"Haha funny. What did you want? Did you just want to rip me off?" I asked as the toast popped up. I grabbed it and coated it in peanut butter before shoving a full piece in my mouth.

"Just wanted to know if you wanted to drive up to Forks with Kim, Quil and I? I need to head up to the bookstore," Jared said.

"Yea sure. I've got nothing better to do," I said. I finished my food and walked out to Jared's car. He drove and picked up Kim and Quil before heading up to Forks.

We pulled into the parking lot of a bookstore and all got out of the car. I felt something stir in my chest and felt calm. We walked into the bookstore and walked over to the counter.

"Hey there, how can I help – oh hey guys," A British voice said. I looked up and smiled at Hermione who was standing behind the counter.

"Hey Mione. I didn't know you worked here," Kim commented.

"Yep. I've worked here since about a week after I arrived," Mione commented and I smiled. I noticed she smiled at us but the smile didn't reach her eyes. I didn't think she had gotten much sleep considering we sat in the forest for around 3 hours this morning.

"Now, what can I help you with?" She asked.

"I ordered a book from here a few weeks ago. I got the call about it yesterday," Jared commented. Hermione turned to the computer and typed a few things in.

"Ok, I got it. I'll just go and grab it," Hermione said. She grabbed a set of keys from under the bench and walked out to the storeroom.

"I say this with love but she looks shocking," Kim said.

"How long were you three in the woods this morning?" Jared asked and all three of them turned to me.

"About three hours. She came out at around 3 and I knew I had to go to the clearing. She was sitting on a fallen log when I got there," I commented.

"Her nightmares must be getting worse," Jared said. He told me how scared he had felt when Hermione freaked that day. I was about to get protective when he assured me that his feelings for her were much like the feelings one would have for a little sister.

"Ok. Here is your book. Now that comes to a total of $16.95," Hermione commented as she rung up the book and typed on the computer a few times.

"Really? I was told it was $25," Jared said as he pulled out the money. Hermione smiled and took the money.

"Employee discounts my dear," She said as she handed him his change.

"You didn't have to do that," Jared said.

"It's alright. Why would you come up to Forks to pick up a book" Hermione asked.

"Well I ordered it in La Push but the bookstore didn't have it so I rang up here," Jared explained.

I watched as Hermione smiled at my brother before turning her smile to me. I felt my heart flutter and smiled back.

"You ok?" I asked her when she yawned.

"Yea. Just a bit tired. I was up heaps early this morning," Hermione said.

"What time do you get off?" Kim asked.

"I have my lunch break at 11 for an hour and a half then I finish at 4," Hermione explained.

"Did you drive up here?" I asked.

"Yea, I parked out the back. I think Uncle Charlie mentioned something about visiting tonight but I wasn't paying much attention," Hermione said with a blush.

"Ok then. Well, we'd better head off but we might see you tonight," Quil said. Hermione walked around from the counter and hugged us all. When she got to me, I held on a little tighter. She took a deep breath and I smiled.

"I'll see you later," I said. Hermione nodded and kissed my cheek. We waved as we walked out to the car before we jumped in and headed back to La Push.

- Hermione POV -

I walked into our house after work and threw my keys into the bowl by the door. I walked into the kitchen and found a note attached to the fridge.

Hey Mione;

We've headed down to La Push. Come down after you've finished work if you feel up to it. If not there is some leftover Chinese in the fridge from the other night that you can heat up for dinner.

Love Bella and Charlie xxx

I put the note back down and opened the fridge. I grabbed the Chinese containers and put the contents into a bowl. I heated it up in the microwave and grabbed a can of coke. Once my food was ready I walked into the living room and sat on the lounge.

I flicked on the TV and settled back for some crappy reality TV when I heard a voice say "Hello Mya."

Here is the list of wolf colours I am going off

Sam – Large Black Wolf

Jacob – Russet brown

Paul – silver

Quil – chocolate brown

Embry – dark grey with black spots on back

Leah – Small grey wolf

Seth – sandy coloured fur

Colin and Brady – Grey with black ears

Jared – mix of brown and black