I knew it… This is exactly why I will never write when next chapter is coming up, only if something major is keeping me from writing/access to the internet.

I just had to keep writing as I started on Vegeta's memories in the last chapter. I hope you're all gonna like this chapter.

Toowhiteprincess, I hope you like how I incorporated your idea, I'm glad you wrote it, because I personally think it was the last touch to Vegeta's first memory in this chapter.

Bulma tried to figure out where the memory took place. Vegeta was in a massive room where giant windows showed a red sky without any clouds and only few birds flying across it. 'It's Planet Vegeta, but where exactly is this? Inside the palace?'

She knew there was another person in the room, but Vegeta clearly chose not to react towards the present. He knew it was his father, and Bulma could feel his anger towards the man. 'How long has it been since the king killed the queen?' thought Bulma and hoped to get a response from Naklys, but the kalionian remained silent.

"How long do you plan on ignoring me brat?" The king moved towards Vegeta, but he remained unmoving. The king snorted. "In half an hour you, Nappa and Raditz are taking off towards Planet X-256 to pick up a prisoner for Lord Freeza. I hope serving Lord Freeza will make you into a man, but I'm afraid your mother's pampering managed to spoil you completely."

She could feel anger and betrayal swell inside Vegeta as he slowly turned towards his father. "Don't ever mention that woman. And don't you ever forget; you were the one to let her live long enough to make me weak." He turned around and walked toward the door.

Bulma felt how anger had grown inside him towards his late mother, and how he blamed her for making him vulnerable and thereby cause him such a great amount of pain. His anger and disgust towards his father was ever-growing, and the feeling of getting betrayed by his father, who chose to hand over his sin to his greatest enemy in a weak attempt to save his own miserable life, only added fuel to the fire.

"Boy," the king suddenly yelled and made Vegeta stop just before he reached the door. "I only let her live long enough for the doctors to find a cure for her heartdisease. No other saiyan has ever lived that long after getting the infection, but I'm sure she would never have caught it if she hadn't let you weaken her." Vegeta was once again about to leave when the king's voice stopped him: "She knew I would kill her that day. That's why she took you to the mountain hut. Have you never wondered about how we found you?" As he was about to tell his dad to go fuck himself the king continued: "It was your so-called friend Letuk. You told him right before you left where you were going. An hour after you and your mother took off he contacted my advisor and told where you had gone to."

Vegeta's shoulder stiffened. The feeling of betrayal was now the only thing Bulma could feel in him. She was surprised. She would never have thought he had had such a connection with his mother as he had had, but to think he had had a person, he considered so much as a friend as to feel betrayed was something she would have never imagined. 'How long has it been since the king killed the queen?' Bulma thought once again. This time the kalionian woman answered: "He was ten years old. This is the newest memory I have been able to find where the prince had a thought about a genuine friend." Bulma felt her heart tighten. At a year of ten he had lost his one and only friend and never tried to make a new. 'Or dared.'

"Now move on kid, you only have about 20 minutes before you have to leave to be errand-boy for Lord Freeza." The king's voice was at best mocking. It almost sounded like he wanted his son to keep being an errand-boy for the rest of his life.

A tiny feeling of fear appeared in his heart: he had heard tales about Lord Freeza and none of them had been pleasant. She could tell how quickly he ignored the feeling and instead was filled by a great feeling of resolve. He was going to become stronger when serving Freeza and then he would kill his father and make the throne his own.

There was a few seconds of total blackness and Bulma started to panic. What if something had gone wrong and she would forever be trapped in the limbo between memories and consciousness? "Do not fear," Naklys said with a hint of annoyance in her voice. "I am trying to get access to another memory, but the prince is trying hard to keep it hidden." Bulma was confused. She had felt like the memories about Vegeta's mother had been more painful than the one she had just seen, and therefore she had no idea what she was about to witness. "Prince Vegeta has chosen to forget the memories of his mother and therefore I could get to them unhindered, but these memories are haunting him, and that's why he does not want it to be accessed by anyone." Bulma was about to tell Naklys to stop when colors and sounds suddenly bombarded her.

"Ah, my dear monkeyprince. I hear your mission at Planet Cassion was accomplished perfectly." She could not recognize the voice, but by the feelings swirling around in Vegeta and his kneeling position, which she knew he would never get into at his own, she could figure out who it was: Freeza. "But that was expected, isn't that right Zarbon?"

"Yes my lord, the population at Cassion did not have powerlevels worth of measuring and their technology was almost non-existent. To think it took three saiyans five days to purge the planet… I had guessed a day had been enough, but oh well." Vegeta raised his head and Bulma instantly recognized the blue-skinned alien from when she collected the dragonballs at Namek. She felt his anger rise and the glances from the two saiyans at his side showed her they could feel it as well. Bulma recognized the ugly, bald one as Nappa and the one with long hair as Goku's brother, Raditz.

"Well, well… If the monkeys aren't as efficient as we believed them to be, then I don't think that meteoriteshower was such a catastrophe after all." Freeza's voice was mocking and Bulma could feel Vegeta's anger and confusion as he clearly didn't want to realize what she knew had happened. Planet Vegeta was destroyed alongside all saiyans except four.

"You mean?" The bald saiyan was clearly shocked, and Bulma was sure he had figured out what Freeza was talking about.

"Your planet was hit by a meteoriteshower," Zarbon said just as mockingly as Freeza had talked before. "There is nothing more than dust left of it."

Bulma could feel how shocked he was as he tried to deny what he had just been told. Vegetaøs promise to himself to kill his father was suddenly no longer possible to keep. His people, the throne of Planet Vegeta, everything he had used as a beacon through the darkness of serving Freeza was suddenly brutally taken from him in a matter of seconds. A feeling of loneliness grabbed his heart. To be one out of three left of his race was a thought he almost couldn't handle. (A/N: Vegeta isn't aware of the existence of Goku yet, it's not an error when I wrote four before and three now.)

As all these thoughts and feelings went through him, Bulma began to understand why Vegeta was haunted by this memory and why he by all means tried to hide it from himself and everybody else. His pride had been great all the time she had known him, but she was sure it had taken him quite some time to repair it after the shock from the destruction of his planet.

"Those monkeys couldn't do anything more than killing, but I must admit they were good at it." Freeza turned towards the three saiyans and walked towards Vegeta. "Then it's my luck I have my very own monkeyprince, won't you agree Zarbon."

"Indeed my lord." As Zarbon spoke Bulma felt a cold object laying itself at Vegeta's neck. She was confused for a moment before Vegeta grabbed the thing and roared; all thoughts about his people and planet were gone.

"Keep your tail of me, lizard, I'm not your possession!" A second went by before a burning sensation shot through him and made him fall to the floor. Bulma could feel how the pain traveled through every nerve in his body as Freeza once again pulled Vegeta's tail. As the third wave of pain washed over him alongside Freeza's mocking laughter the memory was suddenly stopped and Bulma was once again in complete darkness.

"I do not dare to try and get more of the memory to show you. I am afraid I am going to hurt his mind if I try. I am sorry, Ms. Bulma, but I am going to show the prince a memory more of yours." She heard a faint hint of sympathy in the kalionian's voice and as the dizziness started to come back she screamed in her thoughts: 'What are you going to show him? Please tell me, I have seen everything alongside him, what do I have to relive now?'

"I am going to show him the death of your child." Bulma could feel how she once again was about to hyperventilate. Having to live through saying goodbye to Vegeta at Earth one more time had been very hard on her, but she knew he had seen it and convinced herself it would help him realize why she had done and said as she had.

'Please, don't! Why does he have to see it?'

"Because he wishes to see it."

The kalionian king looked at the blue-haired woman with concern in his eyes. She had started to mumble and her free hand had begun to cramp. He knew he couldn't do anything than hope and pray for Naklys to calm her down. Naklys was one of the best to let people share memories and she had chosen to let them watch Bulma's memories together but not letting them communicate.

He had known when Naklys had chosen to show the prince's memories. His eyes had started to move rapidly beneath their lids and one time his free hand had opened and closed, showing he was keeping memories from Naklys. The king couldn't be mad at her for showing the woman some of the prince's memories too; the kalionians didn't like to take memories from a person without giving them something in return. But to see the woman struggling so much now really surprised him.

If the woman didn't calm down enough to remain in the trance, her own, the prince's and Naklys' mental health would be jeopardized.

The king shook his head. "Who could have known her memories would be this traumatizing?"

Even though I said I will never tell when a chapter is being uploaded, I think I can guarantee that chapter 19 won't be uploaded tomorrow. I really want to make Bulma's memory of the forced abortion to something more than ten sentences, so it's probably going to take a while. I'm also planning to let Vegeta give his response to his long forgotten memories being brought back and how he feels about remembering the last time he spoke with his father and when he was told Planet Vegeta was blown up.