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Dogward/Brokenward/Virginward/Beachward

Chapter 30

EPOV

I'm standing in the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror wondering what in the hell just happened.

Being so close to Bella all the time, sleeping with her, knowing she's naked in my shower, has not been easy for me, but I've been managing.

My facade of being in control has been crushed. I just got caught humping Bella from behind like some horny dog. I'm so ashamed at my behavior. Being asleep is no excuse.

I have to give her credit. She didn't seem appalled by my behavior; the opposite, actually. She seemed to like it.

And that my friends is why I'm standing here in sticky, wet pajama pants. That girl can talk dirty.

It was bad enough being caught mid-hump. I rolled away from her as quickly as I could when I noticed what I was doing. I lay on my back sporting the biggest tent in my pajama pants. It wasn't just a tent, it was a big top. I was seconds away from cuming when I woke up and was shocked into reality. Calming this baby down wasn't going to be easy. I was afraid to move for fear I'd blow. I don't let this happen often, so my ability to last is not great.

I lay there trying to calm myself down, all of me. "Wow, that was close. Sorry." I started to say when I noticed her turning to face me. Hell no. I jumped up to sit on the side of my bed with my back to her. She didn't need any more evidence of my perviness.

Then she talked in the most seductive voice I'd heard her use. Just the tone in her voice woke my dick up even more. How is that possible? And what she was saying. I had no chance; she had me at, "Edward." But she didn't stop there.

"Edward, don't be sorry. I didn't mind. In fact, it was kind of...hot. You're a healthy man sleeping with a healthy woman, it's perfectly natural. I just wish you could have finished before you woke up." She what? She wanted me to cum while humping her from behind, in my sleep, what?

"I didn't mean to..." I tried to apologize again, but she stopped me. Her words were making my situation worse, much worse. I palmed my dick, trying to force it down. It had a mind of its own. Apparently so did my hand because I started stroking myself through my pants, while listening to her voice, and the naughty things she was saying.

"When I felt how hard you were, thrusting against my ass, it made me so wet; and when you said my name that was really hot. It felt so good when you touched me. I was going to touch myself so we could both cum. How would you feel about that?"

She touched my back so seductively, her words triggering every fantasy I'd had of her, and I couldn't stop myself. Gone. I came right then and there. My body shuddering as pleasure shot through my body. It had been a long time since I'd last had a release. Damn, that felt good.

I relished in the feeling for about a minute before the disgust and guilt kicked in. I excused myself to the bathroom. As I left she giggled; giggled. I think she had that planned, naughty girl.

And that leaves me where I stand now; in the bathroom with quite a mess to clean up.

I shower, vowing to myself that I will treat her with more respect and not behave like some horny teenager. She deserves better than that. She already doesn't trust men. My little performance this morning just supports her negative views. I will show her how special she is and how she should be treated.

We continue our day like nothing happened. However, our physical relationship has changed. We touch now and then and even kiss. Not a deep passionate kiss, I know the potential is there, but I won't go there. She's very affectionate. I like it. I'm in control now..

A few days pass of Bella and I cohabiting in my apartment. We talk a lot or are quiet together. I share about myself each night in bed. It's getting easier to tell her. She just listens. She doesn't pressure me with questions. She seems to understand me.

Truthfully, I've only shared the easiest parts of my past. The next few days are going to be hard. I've skirted around the big issues as much as I could. I'm anxious, but not as much as I thought I would be. I trust Bella, with my life. Why not my life story? The scariest thing is what she will think of me when she knows it all.

Tonight we're watching a romantic comedy. Mila Kunis is the leading lady, and yes, I think she's pretty. She reminds me of Bella, slim, no fake parts, all natural. Every scene she's in I picture it being me and Bella. Ughh. Tomorrow night I'm picking an action movie.

I watch Bella carefully throughout the movie. When she likes something, she smiles. When she gets turned on she touches me. At one point I have to put my hand on top of hers to still her roaming hand on my thigh. I'm human after all..

When the movie ends I stretch and go to stand up from the couch. Before I can comprehend what's happening Bella is straddling my lap with her hands in my hair.

I put my hands on her thighs prepared to push her away. We can't do this.

I look her in the eye trying to anticipate her next move. I shouldn't have done that. Her eyes are hooded; she looks drunk with lust, but determined.

She lowers her lips to mine. Okay I can handle this, just a kiss. I can do this. It starts off innocent and chaste. Then she pokes out her soft pink tongue and licks my bottom lip. Oh, that feels nice. I open my mouth and my tongue meets hers, slowly, sweetly. I'm still in control; immediately hard, but in control.

While we're kissing she slides forward so our chests are touching. I can feel her hard nipples through my thin t-shirt. I'm still in control.

The kissing gets a little more passionate.

She slides a little closer and pins my hard cock between her core and my stomach. We both sigh at the contact. So good, but so wrong. Red alert!

"Bella, I don't think we should..."

"Edward, why are we denying our attraction to each other? I'm going crazy here. I want this, please." She begs.

"But you deserve..." I protest.

"We both deserve to feel good. Please let me have this. Just this. You and me right now."

I look away and shake my head. This is wrong. I shouldn't give into my urges, however powerful they are.

"You don't want this? You don't feel this between us?" She questions.

"Yes, I do. You are so sexy, so beautiful. But you deserve more." I try to let her know how desirable she is. I'm not rejecting her.

"Edward, I want this. I need you. I need us. Please don't deny me." She adds kissing and licking my neck.

"Just this? Clothes on?" I ask. I can't believe I'm even considering giving in to her, but she's so convincing, and smells so good.

"Just this." She smiles. I'm such a weak sap.

I grab her hips and pull her tightly against me, capturing her lips with mine. I'm in.

She makes the sexiest sound. "You are so sexy and irresistible. How can I deny you when you feel so good." I manage to say between kisses.

Things get heated very quickly. The only thing between us is two, maybe three very thin layers of fabric. I'm wearing sleep pants, commando, and she's in these tiny shorts she sleeps in. I can't tell if she has on panties, but I can feel her heat against my erection.

She starts moving against my painfully hard cock. I put my hands on her hips and try to still her, but she is strong and determined.

Her hands are massaging my neck and scalp. Her nails gently scraping as she goes. Just that feeling is more than I could hope for. Add that to her rhythmic writhing against my cock and it's too much. I have no intention of cumming while we dry hump.

"Bella." I squeak out between kisses.

"Hmmm?" She moans as she kisses my neck and gently bites my ear lobe.

"Baby, we need to stop." I'm on sensory overload here, about to unload if this doesn't stop.

"If we don't stop, I'm gonna... I don't..."

She raises her head and looks me in the eyes. "We're both going to cum, Edward. You feel too good to stop. I know you want it, too. I can feel how hard you are." She emphasizes her words as she slides to the head of my cock and swivels her hips, moaning at the sensation hitting her sweet spot.

She is so sexy. So beautiful, so confident, so sure. I want her. I want this. Why am I so weak?

She slides up and down my cock with purpose, swiveling against the head each time. I'm in awe watching her. My throbbing dick weeps, begging for release. I have to think of puppies, whatever to last until she can cum. It's not easy to do. The familiar tingling in my balls is threatening to take over at any moment.

"Oh, Edward. I'm so close. You feel so good, so hard. So big." She pants throwing her head back. I almost lose it when she says that. Puppies, kittens...

I move my hands to her breasts, running my thumbs over her hard nipples.

"Oh, yes. Yes." She encourages.

I take her nipples between my thumb and finger and gently pinch and roll them.

"Oh god." She screams. Moaning my name.

I can feel her wetness and her body shuttering as she cums. Her movements never stop. The vision of her in ecstasy, saying my name, triggers my own mind blowing orgasm. I pull her tightly to me as I ride it out.

We're both breathless. My head resting on the back of the couch. Her head on my shoulder. Each of us afraid to move.

After a few minutes our breathing evens out. She lifts her head, so I do as well. I'm greeted with a post orgasmic smile.

She takes my face in her hands. "No regrets. That was amazing. You are amazing."

All I can do is nod. I can tell she means it. Maybe I didn't ruin everything by giving in.

We kiss, gently, sweetly.

She gets up, and grabs my hand. "Let's go get cleaned up." She says dragging me behind her into the bedroom.

I change my clothes and join her in bed. I feel like I should feel guilty, but I don't. And I'm concerned about not feeling guilty. Now that's fucked up.

We settle into bed, her head on my chest. Tonight I have to tell her something very painful from my past. I should be terrified, but I'm unusually calm.

"My parents were killed by a drunk driver." I start.

She's quiet. Her hand is lazily stroking my hair.

"I was in the car too."

I think I hear her gasp, but that is all she does. After a few minutes she kisses me tenderly on the lips, and we fall into a peaceful sleep.

She is an incredible woman, person. I think I love her. I wish that was enough is my last thought before I drift off.

A/N

He was awake this time! Any thoughts about what Edward is thinking?

How about his revelation?

Okay... don't hate me... with the holidays coming, etc. I'm going to change my posting schedule to every three days. So you will get the next chapter on Friday instead of Thursday. My beta and I thank you for your understanding :)