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Chapter Two - February 2013: Edward
This is my only hope
That the love that will not let me go
Will find its way back into your life
So I will not close my eyes
Until I see you by my side
Loving me tonight
If I hold out my hand
Would you change where you're standing now
Just come back to me
Come Back to Me by: Trading Yesterday
I sat in the sand on a miserable day watching the water of the ocean. The sky was a dark grey and the water was even darker. Why was I even here? I hated beaches, the sand was messy and the water too salty.
Then I remembered why I was here, Annie loved the beach.
The water moved up the beach and back down, I matched my breathing to it. In and out. Each time the water came to me, it went away. But it always came back. She'll always come back, Edward. I heard my father's voice in my head. He said that the day after she left. The day after Annie left. In and out. The water always came back to me, would she? Each time the water came back I knew it would leave, like Carlisle knew she would leave, like she knew she would leave. In and out. Sighing, I ran my fingers through my hair.
Annie has her own life. She comes and goes as she pleases, but she is always there when she is needed. She is loyal to us, her family. She always has been. She has a way of showing up whenever help is needed.
I needed her now. Right now, Right here.
My family was separated across the world right now. We did this every few years. We would spend a few months alone, then met somewhere and try to live like a normal human family. Each place we went I kept looking for her, and kept thinking that she would show up one day. I wasn't the only one. Rose and Esme did too. They loved her as much as I did. Alice, Jasper, and Emmet; however, didn't even know her. She left before they joined us, and we never talked about her. It was as though we forgot her when they were around. She was probably to blame for that. Then there was Carlisle. I never truly knew how he felt about her leaving because I never knew their whole story. He always put on a brave face, for Esme and rose, but I would bet my soulless existence that he was dying inside. More so than the rest of us.
In and out. I was reminded of the day Annie left.
May 1946…
I watched her from the shadow of a large oak tree that was in the park. She was at the outdoor grocery store picking up fruit. Annie was wearing a strapless white sundress that stopped at her knees and small white sandals. Her long black hair, which now had streaks of dark brown and deep red from the sunlight, fell in loose ringlets to the middle of her back. She laughed at something the man at the registered had said and I could hear the beautiful melody from here. Her ice blue eyes that could be deadly cold now gave off warmth from her breathtaking smile. And her skin, oh god her skin, was slightly glowing in the sunlight. Almost sparkling, but the human eye would never catch it. I could practically feel her skin under my hands, against my lips. The man complimented her and she blushed slightly. She gave her thanks, paid for her things and left the outdoor grocery store. Annie made her way to the flower stand down the street and started to talk to the women running it. She walked so gracefully and I was mesmerized by her movement. How her hair slightly bounced with each step, I wanted to run my fingers through it; pulling it slightly, the way she liked it. I started to breath faster as I thought about running my hands down her body, I wanted her right now. Anger ran through me as a man bought a flower and handed it to her. She giggled politely as he kissed her hand. One look into her eyes and he was hers. I was relieved as she said goodbye to the man and the woman and walked into the bookstore to return a book. I could read the man's mind that he was upset because Annie declined his offer for a dinner. I smiled to myself knowing why she would not be able to join him tonight, she would be with me.
Annie returned her book and walked out of the book store. Everything was almost too much to bear, her skin, her voice, her eyes. She walked over to say hello to a couple of her friends and I found myself thinking about getting lost in her eyes. Her sky-ice blue eyes. I was frozen as her eyes turned directly toward me. The beautiful sky-ice blue sending a shiver down my spine from the desire in them.
"Excuse me sir, but staring is rude," She said in a voice that was low and seductive, it made me want to pin her to the tree and kiss her until we disappeared. At first I found myself incapable of moving so the only thing I could do was stare at her with as much desire as was in my being.
She laughed at me, then grabbed the front of my shirt and started to pull me toward the house; being careful of the sunlight, and staying in the shadows. We were the only two home, Carlisle, Esme, and Rosalie were on a holiday for the weekend and would be back tomorrow. I welcomed this because it gave us free reign. None of the others knew we were this intimate, and until Annie wanted to tell them we would remain in secret. I wanted to tell the world that I was with her, I loved her. I grabbed her hand and removed it from my shirt, lacing my fingers through hers. She sighed and I looked at her, hoping that she would give something away. Her thoughts were always the same, what she wanted me to hear or see. Right now the only thing I could get from her was the look of the sidewalk we were traveling down, then the front yard, then the door.
I planned to kiss her intensely the second the door shut, but with amazing speed she was away from me and in the kitchen before I could register another thought. I watched her for a few minutes, putting away her food, grabbing an apple and sitting at the dining room table to eat it. I walked over to her and sat across from her.
"You know, some people think it is impolite to stare," She said finishing her apple and throwing it away.
"And others think it is a compliment," I told her getting up to stand in front of her.
"And sometimes it means you want to drink their blood," Annie smiled and ran her finger down my neck.
I brushed some of her hair out of her face and behind her ear. She looked up at me with a smile. I wanted her so bad. Her smile faded and her eyes darkened slightly with desire. We have not been able to be together for years, someone always stayed behind, or wanted one of us to go with them. I cupped her face and leaned in.
"I love you," I whispered to her, my lips less than an inch away.
She turned her head before I could kiss her and then she sighed.
"Edward, you don't love me," She said sadly, her eyes turning a cold blue.
She always told me that. I hated when she did this. My feelings for her were real, why did she have to ruin the moment. I let go of her and left the room, leaving her standing in the kitchen. Ever since the first time we shared anything she told me that this wasn't love. I sat on my bed scooting back until my back was against my head board, she didn't know she couldn't feel what I felt. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back, letting out a long breath. I loved her, with everything I had I loved her.
I didn't hear Annie come into my room, and I jumped when I felt her climb on my bed. She knew that I needed a minute to cool down, but I knew that I wanted her near no matter how upset I was. I kept my eyes closed trying to ignore her but my eyes shot open when she straddled me. Her warmth hitting all the right places and instantly my anger was gone. I looked into her eyes and saw the care and trust that I knew she had for me. Now not only was my anger gone, but I was completely at her will.
"I have no doubt of your love for me, Edward. I love you too, but I am just saying that we are not meant to be forever. You keep saying that you love me like you believe we will be together for the rest of our existence. I won't be that one for you. Your forever is out there; she will show up one day and take you by surprise," She scooted closer until her body was flush with mine and laid her head on my shoulder. "I will always love you. When this girl comes along that love will change to that of a brother and sister. I knew I should not have even starting anything this intimate with you, but you were just too tempting with your looks and the things you said to me. Just don't be mad, Edward. Because I do love you back. I Forever Love you Edward."
She stayed there for a few minutes, holding me. At first I couldn't move. She never told me that I would love another. I couldn't imagine it. Then I felt her start to pull away.
"I just need you to trust me, Edward," She started to get up, but I wrapped my arms around her waist and held her close to me. She snuggled back to my body laying her head on my shoulder again. If all I could get for now from her was this then I would take it. Maybe time and love would change her mind.
"I trust you; it is just hard to believe you when I feel this."
"I know, I know," She crooned wrapping her arms tighter around my neck.
I didn't care that she thought I didn't love her, I would show her. I started to run my lips across her neck every so often placing small kisses. I felt her hands slide into my hair and she pulled my mouth from her neck. I smiled at the smirk on her face, and groaned as her lips met mine. I have waited so long for this, too long. Any conversation that we had before this was gone. My mind was now melted and my body was hers. My hands started to move up and down her back, and she was mine. I reached for the top of her dress, and started to unzip it. She pulled away for a moment to lift it over her head and I groaned again, she was straddling me in only her underwear. Just the sight of her made wearing my pants uncomfortable, the zipper was starting to hurt. The last bits of sunlight were shining through the window, giving her skin a beautiful glow. I ran my hands up her chest, closing my eyes as my hands hit her breasts. Her whole body was so soft and warm, yet so hard and unyielding. She really had the best of both worlds being half vampire.
I felt her hands on my waist and then she started to unbutton my shirt, unbuttoning the top button with her teeth and removing my shirt. The warmth from her mouth made my eyes close as she kissed underneath my ear and licked down my neck. Annie pressed her lips at the base of my neck and I felt her smile. I gasped as she bit my neck, if I wasn't completely turned on before I was now. It was made obvious by the fact that I was about to burst out of my pants. She pressed her breasts against my chest as she moved her hips against mine, and lowering her mouth onto mine again. Her lips were like warm silk sliding across mine. The touch of her hands roaming across my chest and back felt like rays of sunshine in the summer. I growled as she bit my lower lip.
Right now she was at her most vulnerable. The times we were this intimate were the times that she allowed me into her mind the most. I could still only see and hear the things that she wanted me to, but now I could feel more from her. I could feel the way I felt to her. It was incredibly sensual.
Her kiss deepened and her hands moved to my hair again. The feeling of her tongue on my bottom lip made me lose myself a little more as I opened my mouth to let her in. she slid her tongue into my mouth then ran her tongue along my teeth. A moment of panic always set in when she did this, fear of her hurting herself on my sharp teeth, but her skin was tougher than vampire skin. Not easily cut by our teeth. As her tongue fought for dominance over mine I felt her hands move to my waist putting pressure on my hip bones, causing me to thrust my hips forward. My hands moved from her back to her ribs beneath her breasts and I squeezed slightly. She moaned at the feel of a painful pleasure and my kissing became frantic. Annie removed herself from me only far enough to remove my jeans. She smiled up at me when she noticed that I was not wearing underwear, and started to slide my jeans down my legs with a little bit of my help. I let my head fall back as she ran her hands up my entire body and started to kiss me again…
That night I planned to have my way with her, to worship her and show her how beautiful she. I planned to make her know how much I loved her. Instead I laid there with her in my arms, knowing my plan failed. The second her skin touched mine, no, the second I looked into her eyes, I was hers. I don't know if it was the teenage state of mind that I was stuck in because of when I was changed, or the love I felt for her that made me want her so bad. She woke up from her short nap, having to only sleep a few hours a night, and was now drawing designs on my chest with her finger.
I ran my hands through her hair. "I forever love you, Enber."
She smiled and looked up at me. "I haven't heard that name used in a long time."
"Why do you always look so sad when I use it?" I asked her. "I can stop if you want."
"No... I like it when you do," She was quiet for a second. "The only other person that used it was my mother."
I was shocked. She only ever briefly talked of her mother and her past. We knew nothing of this girl that had been there most of our lives. She only told me that she knew her mother, and she died when Annie was young. Other than that we only knew that she found Carlisle when he was changed.
"You don't talk about her much, what was she like?" I asked touching her cheek.
She started to get up from the bed. I didn't protest, I just watched her. She stood up and stretched as I admired the muscles in her back trailing down. She was perfect. She was even more beautiful than Rosalie, and Rose seemed to be okay with it. They were extremely close. She pulled on a pair of underwear and my shirt from last night. She buttoned only a few buttons, and then walked over to the window.
"The stars remind me of her," She said staring longingly at the sky. "She told me right before she died; if something happens today, to…me, you always know where to find me, right? ... She meant the stars… Her memory lives forever in the stars... She always told me, I forever love you, Enber." Then she whispered. "It was the last thing she ever said to me."
I got up and pulled on some pajama pants and went over to her. I stood next to her offering my support by being close to her.
"Her name was Rebecca. She was amazing. The best mother anyone could have… I look just like her, except my eyes. She had warm brown eyes... Every day she was alive she told me how much she loved me."
"Was she a vampire?" I asked. I wanted to get as much information as possible; it wasn't often that she opened up like this.
"Yes. She wasn't when I was born, but turned right after my birth."
"No one can ever replace a mother." I told her with honesty, and then smiled. "Well except Esme."
She smiled up at me. "Esme does a darn good job."
I wrapped her in my arms and she wrapped her arms around my waist.
"I miss her so much... Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if she lived… I would give anything to hear her say she forever loves me, or to hear her say her nickname."
"Does anyone else call you Enber?" I asked slightly jealous of any other being with the privilege.
"No, my mother always did. I barley even remember her calling me by my full name," She chuckled slightly. "The first time someone called me that after she passed, I was so… angry. So upset that someone would use her nickname, but when you called me it. It feels right when you use it. I feel safe."
"Then I will keep using," I told her as the moon had raised enough to shower her in its light. "You are so beautiful Enber," I told her as I hugged her.
"You are too, Edward," She said and I looked away. The only reason I was anything was because I was a vampire. "And it is not because you are a vampire. I remember you when you were human, and you were beautiful."
And there it was again. I dropped my arms to get a good look at her. She hinted that she had 'powers', but laughed each time I asked her what they were and told me she was just observant.
"Sometimes I swear you can read minds," I told her and she laughed.
"I just know you Edward," She said patting my face.
Then the rest of what she said sunk in. "You knew me before I changed?"
She shrugged. "I am going to take a bath," She told me and walked to the dresser to get something out of a drawer.
I went over to the bed and lay down.
The number one thing I missed from my human life was sleep. Not just sleep but dreaming. I loved to watch Enber sleep. Her relaxed face reminded me of angels. The things I would dream about… I am sure a few of them would mimic the night we just had. I started to wonder if Enber dreamt. She sleeps, but only for a few hours every few days. Does the vampire side of her let her mind wander enough to dream?
A few hours later, my arms were behind my head and I was staring at the celling when I heard the bathroom door open and I looked up. Enber was brushing her already dry hair and standing in another one of my shirts. I propped myself on my elbows and noticed that the sky was beginning to lighten. Enber smiled at me and then jumped in the bed. She straddled my waist and pulled the sheets over our heads.
"What are you do…?" I went to say but she placed a finger over my lips.
"Shhh… Can you hear that?" She asked in a whisper.
I frowned, thinking we were in danger. "No, Enber what is it?" I asked starting to panic.
She looked me straight in the eye. "It is life."
I smiled at her. She was always telling me to listen, that I was letting life pass me by. I didn't hear my future telling me where to go.
The first rays of sunshine shone through a window. I felt like we were in the clouds. "What is life saying?" I chuckled.
"It is calling me Edward. It is so loud I can barely think," She said leaning in. "Can you hear what it is telling you?"
I closed my eyes and tried to listen. I heard nothing but silence around me. The only thing I could get from Enber was comfort. I wish I could hear life, but again I heard nothing.
I felt her press her lips to mine, and she whispered "Don't forget to listen Edward."
She moved to my side and snuggled up next to me. "I won't forget, I won't."
Enber's eyes closed as she yawned. "I forever love you Edward."
"I forever love you, Enber," I told her and kissed her cheek. As she fell asleep I decided that it would be a good time to hunt. I climbed out of bed and went into the woods. The other three would be home today, and I am sure they have hunted already.
By the time my hunt was over I was ecstatic to be going home, to be spending a few more hours alone with Enber. I was closing in on the house when I heard the devastating thoughts of my family.
I ran through the front door to see Carlisle sitting on the couch with Esme in his arms. She looked sad as they both looked up at me. The more I tried to pick up on what they were thinking about the more it slipped away. Like the morning after a dream. Rosalie was staring out the window on the other side of the room. She was holding a piece of paper, and her thoughts were the same.
"What's Wrong, What happened?" I asked looking at each of them.
"Edward," Carlisle said getting up and walking over to me, "Annie left."
I got a better look at the note. I had to go. I'll be back, but I don't know when. Love Anberliegh.
I felt like I was punched in the gut. Then I remembered what she said to me. Don't forget to listen Edward. I should have known. I had known her since I was changed. The only time we had spent apart was the few years that I went away and became a monster. Other than that I thought we would be together forever, if not us, at least our family would stay together forever.
Another question popped into my head, "Carlisle, are you thinking about Annie?" I asked him.
"Yes?" He stated like a question.
"I can't hear your thoughts when you think about her; I can't hear any of your thoughts when you think about her."
All three of them looked at me.
"Well, I always knew she had abilities. Though she never told me what they were," Carlisle told us.
"What do you think her powers are?" Asked Rosalie.
"One is that she can shield herself in our minds. I figured this out rather early, when I was with the Volturri. Aro never knew about her. I also believe she can manipulate minds. Already we don't miss her as much as we did. And within a few hours we will find ourselves thinking of her less and less. Plus I believe she has others."
Speak for yourself, I thought. I can't forget her. I will never stop missing her.
"How could she just leave?" Rosalie asked. Hurt and anger seeped into her words.
"Annie has her own life. She comes and goes as she pleases, but she is always there when she is needed. She is loyal to us, her family. She always has been," Carlisle looked out the window. "She has a way of showing up whenever help is needed."
"She has left before?" Esme asked.
"Yes. For a few days, months, or years at a time. Always leaving the same note, or something similar to it."
"What was the longest?" Rose asked. Already our moods were lighter. We were all talking like we were reminiscing about an old friend.
"Almost seventy years," Carlisle said and the room went silent.
"How old is she?" Esme asked.
Carlisle chuckled. "Once when I was about 146, back in 1790, I was studying under this professor and she was tagging along. She was explaining something to me and I told her to slow down, that I was an old man. She mumbled something about being twice my age, but I can't be sure if that was what she said, so all I know is that she is at least seven or eight years older than me. I know that because her kind stops aging at seven years."
"Edward, are you ok? You have quiet." Esme asked turning toward me.
"It is just there were no signs that she wanted to go," I said, hurt.
Someone came up and gave me a hug. I was shocked to see it was Rosalie.
"She will be back before you know it Edward," She told me with a smile. Whether she said that for her own benefit or for mine was lost to me, but I believed her. Rose was not the same existence hating person she had been when she changed. Annie helped her with that. And now Rose had a dream and a future.
February 2013…
My phone ringing brought me back to reality.
"Hello, Alice," I answered without looking at caller ID.
"Edward, we are all moving to Forks, so you better get down here. Stop being all deep and moody with your sea gazing and wall-paint drying watching," Alice said fast for even a vampire.
I sighed. "I suppose it is about time to see all of you."
I heard her cheer on the other end of the phone. "Yes, I see it. I will see you in a few days. We missed you," She said softer.
"I missed you too, Alice," I chuckled.
I left the beach behind, wishing I could leave the memory of Enber behind. Though I never would, even if I had the choice. Even though I wanted her here right now, I did not need her. As I headed away from the water and wondered why my family wanted to move to Forks. What was so special in Forks?