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I do own the creativity that has forced me to write a fanfiction, however. D:

It Is Not True
Pairing: MriokuXSesshomaru
Side Pair: InuyhashaXKouga
Chapter Thirteen: Human Feelings

Kouga should have seen that coming. He really should have. His lip was already healed by now, pain gone. He should have thought more about his actions before he just reached out and kissed the now human Inuyasha. Did the half-breed have him that wound up already? He could never really hold himself back from things he wanted; that much was true. Kouga hadn't even been thinking about Kagome tonight. This was wrong. He liked Kagome. He wanted Kagome to be his woman. This was all true fact, yes? But his feelings changed gradually over seeing the half-breed in a new light. Kagome was far from his feelings, but she kept poking her head into his thoughts. Thoughts were such flimsy things. They could make you change your actions in a second. You can never trust your own thoughts. Kouga could feel a headache coming on. Even the nature of thinking gave him a headache. Kouga placed a hand on his forehead trying to rid himself of it with just pure will.

Inuyasha wiped the small amount of Kouga's blood off his face. This was no good. He now knew too much about his "ally" wolf-demon. He had a fetish for humans! Inuyasha suddenly felt a great deal of pity for Kagome; did she have to put up this kind of treatment form Kouga? After the best 'threat' Inuyasha could think of, Kouga still didn't move. What was he thinking about? If this was really some kind of sick joke, Inuyasha wasn't having any fun at all. "This is your last chance to quit joking. . . And leave." Inuyasha may have said big words, but he didn't mean them. He didn't want to die. His pride would make him walk out there right this second, if it wasn't for his need to survive while in his human form. His instinct to survive was more powerful than his words, at the moment, and it might even overpower his pride.

For as long as Kouga has known Inuyasha there wasn't anything that would make him throw his life away so recklessly unless it was to protect someone. He had no one to protect. He wouldn't rush out in a den full of demons just to escape Kouga, when he wasn't going to do anything to him. His brain kept telling him he needed to leave Inuyasha alone. To go back and find Kagome. To tell her that she was his woman. His brain's power to retaliate got worst making his headache hurt more. Kouga smirked; screw his brain. His brain was a bitch. He removed his hand from his forehead. Now he would ignore his headache instead of cater to it. Who did his brain think it was, anyway? Kouga ran the show, not some stupid thoughts. "It's not a joke, Inuyasha, and I'm not leaving. If I did, you wouldn't hear what I have to tell you." How could Kouga forget about the information he had for Inuyasha? Now that he had gone and messed up, would Inuyasha believe him?

Inuyasha was upset. More upset than he would be if he was normal. He couldn't believe everything that's happened to him. His best friend mates with his half-brother. His best friend loveshis brother. His brother loves his best friend. His brother wants not only a relationship with his best friend, but with him as well, and finally, he hopes this will be the last thing, Kouga hits on him with his human fetish. In his human state, Inuyasha can't defend himself as he should. This was all going downhill fast. If he kept Kouga talking, then maybe he wouldn't try anything else again. Inuyasha was about to ask what it was that he had to know, but his stomach growled, a lot louder now that he was human. His hunger was stronger too, since he hadn't eaten all day.

Kouga, without so much as pause to process Inuyasha's silence, walked away from him and picked up the bowl of fruits and other edible goodies the girls had brought not too long ago. He handed the bowl to Inuyasha and sat down on the ground. "Sit and eat, I'll tell you while you eat." Kouga watched as Inuyasha did as he was told. Kouga saw Inuyasha's unsure attitude toward doing what he was told. He mentally scolded himself for acting like he did before. He should have waited to win him over or something. Now he'd have this road-block in his path. When Inuyasha stated to eat, Kouga started his story. "I left to go and speak with Miroku. He-" Kouga made an annoyed face as Inuyasha, with food in his mouth, couldn't hold in his question.

"Why did you go and do that? No one asked you to bother him! Did you tell him where I was?" Inuyasha wiped some of the food that fell out of his mouth away and glared at Kouga. It was none of his business to go and mess around with his friends!

Kouga had to bite his own tongue. Was Inuyasha usually this cute? "I did it because someone had to see if you were freaking out over nothing. Shut up and eat. I'm not done with the story. Miroku seemed really worried about you, now that I know about the full moon I can understand why. He seems genuine in his feelings for Lord Sesshomaru. I didn't ask for the whole story but it sounded like he thought about ending his own life." Kouga shrugged.

Inuyasha stopped stuffing his face. "He did? Why?"

Kouga continued. "He said that Sesshomaru gave him love and a reason to live after Sango turned him down. I guess that means Sango really messed him up." Kouga couldn't picture someone that you've loved for so long turning you down while you're blindsided. He took a glance at Inuyasha trying to picture it, but he realized that what he was feeling for Inuyasha right now… It wasn't love. At least not yet. He was just strongly attracted to him. Would these feelings turn to love? Kouga shrugged to himself. "Continue eating, Mutt."

Inuyasha sighed, Human or normal he'd still be called a mutt. Did Sango really get to Miroku like that? He couldn't picture the happy-go-lucky monk thinking about things like killing himself. Did Sesshomaru pull him through times like that? It just didn't seem like he'd be the type to help anyone. Maybe he really shouldn't have ran away… Maybe he should have a talk with his brother a real, honest talk. "What else did Miroku say?"

Kouga took a small piece of dried meat from Inuyasha's bowl. "Nothing much after that. He asked me about the new moon, and told me to tell you to get back before dark. Of course I was busy all day… sooo." Kouga started chewing on the jerky.

Now it was Inuyasha's turn for an annoyed face. "Busy wasting time so you could see what Miroku was talking about, I bet."

Kouga couldn't hide the small smile that showed up on his face if he wanted to. "Yeah, well, hope you enjoy your food." Kouga was about to lay back, finish eating the piece of meat he stole, and get some sleep himself, when he realized he almost forgot to tell him about Sesshomaru. "I also happened to speak with Lord Sesshomaru too."

Inuyasha almost chocked on the apple he happened to be eating at the time. "You what?"

"He asked after you. He seemed kind of worried. Then he threatened my life for pestering Miroku." Kouga shoved the rest of the jerky in his mouth and started to finish it off.

"…" Inuyasha was silent as he looked at the half eaten apple in front of him. Did Sesshomaru really and truthfully ask after him? Kouga would have no reason to lie, and as Inuyasha had pointed out before. . . Kouga had an outsider's view. He had to take what he said with a grain of salt and believe it. Though, the end bit sounded like something Sesshomaru would do. "What'd he. . . say?"

Kouga didn't want to upset Inuyasha . . . again. He swallowed his food then sighed. "Usual stuff. He asked me if you were with me. . . and if you were okay."

Inuyasha put his apple back in the half empty bowl. His appetite was gone now. He put his hands together and rested his lips on them, almost like he was praying with his fingers intertwined. He shut out the world for a second so he could think. 'Okay. If Sesshomaru is really, honestly, asking about me in that way. . . If Miroku really loves him. . . If Sesshomaru really saved his life. . . That means that everything has changed now. If everything has changed now. What. . am I. . .going to do? Miroku's friendship is too important to me to throw away. I'll try. I'll try to talk to Sesshomaru again. . . I need to see his change for myself. I need to see that he isn't tricking me.'Inuyasha opened his eyes and looked up to say something to Kouga, but he was gone. He couldn't have been thinking for that long could he? Just what he needed: to be alone in a room, separated from hundreds of wolf demons by a few furs as a door. This was totally safe.

Kouga

Kouga saw Inuyasha started to think. He knew that this information must be hard on him, so he left and went to check on his tribesmen for the night.

"I'm telling you, Shahi, I smell a human!" Niiha's voice reached Kouga's ears, even if it was just a whisper.

"Niiha, I don't smell it. Hikori doesn't smell it. No one smells it." Shahi's innocent voice held a bit of annoyance that it would normally not hold. She must have been hearing this for a long time.

Kouga casually walked toward their part of the den.

"That's because I have a better nose than you two! I've always had a better no—OH, Kouga." Niiha, who was first to notice Kouga, stood up first, she was followed by Shahi and Hikori.

"What's going on over here?" Kouga did his best to sound casual, since this was a private conversation between three of his tribesmen, but it dealt with Inuyasha so he had to be at least a little bit nosey.

"Nothing much, Shahi and Niiha are having an argument and threw me into the mix. That's the fun of being Shahi's brother." Hikori, a rather tough looking warrior, smiled and shrugged.

"I'm so sorry! Were we too loud?" Shahi had a way of looking physically wounded when she felt that she had done something wrong. Kouga wasn't sure if she did this on purpose just because it let her get out of many things, or if it was just her natural way of being. Either way, it worked for her.

Kouga shook his head. "What is the argument about?"

"I smell something no one smells." Niiha crossed her arms in a rather upset manner. She sniffed again and this time gave Kouga a quizzical look. Could she smell Inuyasha on him?

"Well," Kouga took an obviously loud sniff. "Smells normal to me. Maybe we should all get some sleep, and try not to wake everyone up with your bickering." Kouga smiled at them and walked away. He spoke with a few more of his tribesmen before finally returning back to his room, of sorts. Inuyasha sat with his back to a wall so he could see the whole room. Kouga went to his bed and laid down. "It's pretty late as it is, go ahead and get some sleep." He thought he heard Inuyasha 'huff' as he closed his eyes. . .maybe it was his imagination.

"I don't sleep on nights like this." Inuyasha didn't lie. He was tired, but he wouldn't sleep tonight, or any other night when he became human. He never felt safe enough.

"Why?" Kouga had his back faced toward Inuyasha, but he was sure that he heard him.

". . I just don't. Go to sleep already." Inuyasha was starting to sound extremely annoyed.

Kouga felt that he had bothered Inuyasha enough today, but he couldn't help himself this time. "If you thing some big bad wolf is going to eat you up while you sleep; that's not going to happen." Kouga smirked as he heard Inuyasha's "tut" as a response.

What he didn't see, however, was the blush that Inuyasha tried to hide, even from himself.

~It Is Not True~

Miroku couldn't get any sleep. He had heard Kagome go to her and Kaede's room shortly after Miroku had left. He tossed and turned for the longest time thinking about a number of things. Most was about Inuyasha's a safty, and then of Sesshomaru, how he didn't know what he did with his time and what he would have to gain in playing with his feelings, if Inuyasha and Kagome were correct. He couldn't think of anything Sesshomaru would have to gain, but maybe he didn't know Sesshomaru all that well. The most he remembered was lots of fights with Inuyasha. Miroku would try to help Inuyasha, but the half-breed would just say it was his battle and for Miroku to protect Kagome and Shippo, and Sango when she became part of the group. He remembered that Sesshomaru was powerful beyond words, as well as beautiful, but what else did he know besides that? Maybe Inuyasha and Kagome were right, they have said similar things.

Miroku sighed. Another night he wouldn't be able to sleep. He got up and dressed quickly. Perhaps he would just waste the night looking at the stars. Outside of Kaede's home, he sat and gazed up at the stars. Seeing no moon in the sky only made Miroku more nervous. Inuyasha never came back. Did that mean he was still with Kouga? Or did he get away too late only to turn human on the journey back? He didn't understand how nonchalant about it Kagome was, "Inuyasha will be fine, I'm sure." But how sure was she? She didn't even know why he ran off. There was a good reason and Miroku was that reason. He didn't want to cause his friend all this trouble. . . maybe he should end things with Sesshomaru.

~It Is Not True~

"Report to Jaken when you are finished. Dismissed." Sesshomaru, Demon Lord of the West Lands, watched as his newly hired men left to do their jobs. It irked him to see how much of his territory had gone to waste in his absence. He didn't care much about this place his father had left him (and even Inuyasha) upon his death, which was why he let it rot so much. However, the place now needed to be revived, as well as his land and the ghost-towns of villages scattered about. It would take many long days and nights, but the most important thing is he started. Sesshomaru was about to tackle the next items needed to be done when he felt it. Sesshomaru couldn't explain it, but he felt Miroku was having troubles. He knew Miroku's life wasn't in danger, but he feared more emotional harm toward the monk would cause him to question his life again. He couldn't have Miroku diminishing his existence again. "Taki, inform Jaken I'm leaving for the night, tell him to watch after Rin while I'm gone. You should finish up your tasks and watch her too."

Taki, an old lowly demon maid scrubbing the study's old dirty cobwebs from shelves of books, stopped what she was doing, bowed to Sesshomaru and left the room in search for Jaken. She had been one of the two maids who lived here to keep the house in order, yet as time passed and Sesshomaru hardly visited, they kept to keeping a few rooms in top condition. Rooms that no one entered remained untouched. Sesshomaru wrote a few things down before leaving his home.

Sesshomaru made it to Kaede's village in record time. Walking just out of the woods far away from Kaede's home, he spotted Miroku easily. He sat in the grass gazing up at the stars. Who knew what he was thinking about. . . Sesshomaru knew it had to be something along the lines of 'I hope Inuyasha is okay.' He would be lying if he said the thought didn't annoy him a bit. Miroku's thoughts should only be about him. He would have to watch his jealousy. All these feelings were new to him, but he was a professional at hiding one's feelings. He wouldn't let Miroku know he was jealous. When he was close enough to Miroku to basically reach out and touch him, Sesshomaru spoke, "Look at what I have become. Someone who can't stay a whole night away from their lover."

Miroku didn't know anyone was coming; much less that Sesshomaru was near. When he spoke, he jumped slightly and looked up at the Demon Lord staring down at him. How long had he been there? Miroku blushed at being called his 'lover' since he, himself, couldn't get used to the term. "Sesshomaru?" He couldn't help but feel relaxed that it was Sesshomaru. He did not notice how uneasy he felt when he was away. "What are you doing here? Don't you have business to attend to?" Miroku wasn't sure what the business was, but he gathered that he'd have to get used only having Sesshomaru around half of the time. Miroku stood up and brushed the grass off his robes.

This was not the reunion Sesshomaru had thought was going to happen. He had expected a hug at least. This was not acceptable. Sesshomaru grabbed hold of Miroku's arm and pulled him close. "Business can wait." He kissed the top of Miorku's head and, as casually as he could, tried to ask Miroku what was the matter. "What are you doing out here in the cold?"

The hug Sesshomaru happened to give Miroku did wonders for his heart since it started to hammer in his chest, but his mood was still the same. The hug felt forced, since inside his head he kept telling himself he knew nothing about Sesshomaru and all of this was so weird and that maybe Inuyasha and Kagome were right and Sesshomaru really was just using him. Not to mention he shouldn't be cuddling with Inuyasha's brother while Inuyasha was missing and possibly in trouble. Would this kind of love, this trickery love, be the only kind of love Miroku would ever get?

Sesshomaru smelled them before he saw the tears Miroku cried. He pulled away from Miroku to look at his face. "Are you. . .?" This wouldn't be the first time Miroku started to cry in Sesshomaru's presence.

Maybe it was these kinds of thoughts, or the fact that Sesshomaru was holding him. . but Miroku didn't notice he had silent tears down his face until Sesshomaru asked him if he was crying. Right then he decided to just be out with all his thoughts and feelings, even if it was selfish of himself to throw these thoughts at Sesshomaru who was just getting used to his own feelings. "I…" But the words wouldn't come out. His throat closed up on him. If he told Sesshomaru everything and it turned out to in fact, be a game, he would just leave. Miroku still wanted Sesshomaru's love, even if it was a trick.

Sesshomaru sighed and guided Miroku into a sitting position where he could rest his head on Sesshomaru's shoulder. He wasn't going to force Miroku to talk right away. He assumed all this was still over that slayer. If Sesshomaru could see her again . . . Anger boiled through his veins as he thought this. This was unfair to Miroku. She would go on being happy, but Miroku was still haunted by her refusal. It changed him as much as Miroku changed Sesshomaru. A little tiny part of him was glad that Miroku was his, but he couldn't stand watching Miroku be hurt over and over again by the same woman. He played with the idea that if he killed her the pain she caused Miroku would be gone forever. . .

"I. . ." Miroku's words broke his fantasy, so he paid more attention to him now. "I don't know you as well as I should." The words hurt Sesshomaru much more than he would care to notice or admit. He didn't say anything though. He took to his silence and let the monk speak hurtful words until he was done. Then he would show the monk just how much he really knew. ". . . Inuyasha and Kagome, maybe unknowingly, pointed this out to me. I. . I don't know what to think anymore. I didn't know you before I helped Rin and. . . Before that, you were some powerful demon that could rip me in half with the just a passing thought. You fought Inuyasha countless times while I watched with the others. . .maybe you are tricking me for some reason that I have yet to figure out and Inuyasha and Kagome are right and I'm wrong in things-"

Sesshomaru could take no more. His on grip Miroku's shoulder tightened. It was obviously too tight for the monk's liking, but he didn't cry out in pain. "Inuyasha. Kagome. Inuyasha. Kagome." Sesshomaru sighed. "Who cares what they think. I care for you and you alone. Let them deal with their doubts and suspicions. They should not bother you with things beneath you." He loosened his grip. "I would not trick someone in this manner." The words were getting harder to say, since they were so different from what he was used to saying. A simple threat could not win the monk's heart back. "You know me better than Inuyasha or Kagome. In fact, I would show you how well you know me tonight, monk, but the plans are not yet complete. And I do believe I made a promise to you about beds."

Miroku, whose face was now dry, felt a rush of heat to his face. What Sesshomaru had said did make sense, but he really did care what his friend thought. Sooner or later he'd have to tell Kagome and Sango just why Sesshomaru wanted to be allies with them. The fact that Inuyasha ran away from them before was not a good sign. But he felt like if he had Sesshomaru by his side things would all just work out. Things he didn't know about Sesshomaru would be shown to him over time. Right now he was just content with being with Sesshomaru. Miroku was still pondering on what to say next, when Sesshomaru spoke again.

"Right now, none of this matters. You should get some rest. Shall I walk you back inside?"

Miroku snuggled closer to Sesshomaru. "Let's stay out here just a bit longer."

The two sat in silence while they gazed up at the stars.

~It is not True~

/SS

Kouga was the first to wake up. He could tell the sun had come up because the human smell in his room was gone, like it had suddenly vanished. Maybe that was what woke him up. He groggily rolled over to see where Inuyasha had gone, but the sight before him instantly woke him up. Not only was Inuyasha back to being a half-demon, but he seemed to have fallen asleep. He laid sprawled along the floor. His hair had fanned out around him like a silvery web. Kouga, against his better instincts, crawled over to Inuyasha and touched the silvery locks. They were softer than Kouga had thought they would be. He glanced at the sleeping half-breed's face. He looked so different from when he was awake. His face was relaxed and the ever present glare was gone. He looked kind of cute and innocent without that glare. Kouga positioned himself on top of the sleeping Inuyasha, almost like he had before, this time he was fully aware of what he was doing. He moved the tangled bits of hair that had moved themselves on Inuyasha's face away so he could get a better look. This would have been all he did, had his eyes not traveled downward toward a partially opened robe. They always said curiosity killed the cat, but did it kill the wolf? He loosed the top and peeked at Inuyasha's partially exposed chest. Kouga did not see so much at the lake, but he did have a few scars. He ran his finger over what seemed like a very old scar on his right shoulder when he looked up to notice two golden eyes watching him.

"What. The. Fuck. Are. You. Doing?" Inuyasha could barely ask out of his clenched teeth. Inuyasha didn't understand! He wasn't even human anymore and Kouga was playing this game with him! Unless. . . Unless it wasn't a game. "Get off me!"

This time Kouga couldn't use the "Checking for injuries" excuse. He found he didn't want to use any excuse either. "What happens if I don't, Mutt?" He smirked right at Inuyasha.

Inuyasha was taken aback. What did he mean what if he doesn't? Just what was this wolf thinking? "I.. I'll kill you!" Inuyasha brought his hands up push Kouga off, but Kouga grabbed him. Inuyasha hated to admit it, but in the mornings right after he changed he was usually still weak for a moment. This was not a good time for this to happen. "Hey! I'm serious, Kouga!"

"And so I am." Kouga muttered as he pushed Inuyasha's hands down and went in for a kiss, half-expecting to be bitten again.

~It is not True~

/ESS

The sun had risen. Inuyasha still had yet to bound his way out of the woods and say something like, "Hey, bastard, get the fuck away from Miroku!" or something similar. Sesshomaru scanned the trees once more hoping he had skipped a part were Inuyasha was hiding or something, but no luck. If this was how worry felt, then he didn't want to feel it. As much as he didn't want to, he shook Miroku awake, since he had been using the Demon Lord's lap as a pillow. When Miroku woke up, he looked up at Sesshomaru in the cutest way that he almost forgot why he woke up the monk in the first place. "Inuyasha has yet to return. I'm going to the wolf den to find him. You should get inside and sleep some more." It was cute how sleepy Miroku was. All he did was nod and put his head back down. It was obvious that he had been getting little to no sleep in the past few days. Sesshomaru sighed and scooted out from under Miroku. He then picked him up and began to carry him toward the hut.

Lady Kaede walked out just as Sesshomaru got there. There was a few seconds of awkward silence before Kaede spoke. "In the back to the left, that's were Miroku sleeps." She then hobbled her way out of sight to do. . .whatever it is Kaede does.

Sesshomaru, choosing to ignore what just happened, walked inside to find Kagome eating some type of breakfast.

In mid bite, Kagome paused and stared at the sight before her. "Wha..what just happened! Is he okay?"

"He's fine, if you keep your wretched voice down." Sesshomaru almost growled at her. She asked something else, but he choice to ignore it. He took Miroku into the room and made sure he was comfortable before he left again. Ignoring Kagome on the way out.

Though Sesshomaru had never been to the wolf tribe's den. He knew where it was. How he would get inside was a different matter. He just wanted to speak with Kouga and see if Inuyasha was still there. At the entrance Sesshomaru saw what he thought were two female tribesmen. One had long yellow hair and the other short black hair.

"But, Niiha! Can I take a little nap? Ginta would let me." The yellow haired one said.

"That dimple faced weirdo would let anyone nap. He's too soft." The one with short black hair ruffled the blonde's hair. "This will be good for you, Shahi. Next time go to sleep when Kouga says—Who's there!" Niiha's smile faded when she turned to the direction Sesshomaru was walking from.

Shahi, still lacking on the strength department, took a few steps behind Niiha. "Should I get Ginta or Hiroki?"

Sesshomaru quickened his pace and met up with the girls. "I'm Sesshomaru, Lord of the Westernlands." He paused for a second. "I'm here to speak with Kouga."

"Well, he's kind of sleeping . . . still." Shahi said bashfully inching her way behind Niiha.

Niiha, trying to knock back the annoyance she felt at Shahi just giving information away, spoke next. "We'll take you to him; I'm sure he'll wake for you, Lord Sesshomaru." Even lowly members of the wolf tribe knew who Lord Sesshomaru was.

Sesshomaru followed the two inside the den and even mixed in with all the wolf demon smells, Sesshomaru could pick out Inuyasha. At least he was still alive. The worry he felt was gone now. He would just have to travel back with Inuyasha. . . That seemed like fun. When they go closer to what Sesshomaru guessed what Kouga's room, a cave inside a cave of sorts with furs covering the entrance Sesshomaru got worried, since he could smell a bit of fear from Inuyasha. What would Inuyasha have to fear from an ally? Without even a moment of hesitation Sesshomaru ripped the furs off and the scene before him.. He did not like at all. Inuyasha was pinned to the ground Kouga on top of him kissing him. It seemed that Inuyasha did not quite want him there, since he was squirming.

"Oh!" Shahi got to see a bit of it before Niiha reached over and covered her eyes. She looked away blushing a bit.

Fury and rage seemed to seethe from Sesshomaru as he marched in and ripped the two apart. He wasn't even going to waste using a sword on Kouga. He'd kill him with his bare hands. Kouga looked shocked, but Sesshomaru wasn't even going to begin to explain why he was here. He pinned Kouga to the nearest wall with his hand over his throat.

"Sesshomaru!" Kouga was not the only one shocked, since Inuyasha sat up and said his brother's name.

Sesshomaru took a second to look back at Inuyasha only to get more infuriated. The tops of his robes were loosened and his right shoulder and most of his chest was visible. He tightened his grip on Kouga's throat. Kouga tried to let out a noise, but nothing came out. He couldn't even talk. He couldn't even breathe. Was this the end for Kouga?

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