Bad news guys! My computer has broken! So I have to use my kindle so there may be a lot of spaces and mistakes, it's not the best thing to write on but I'll power through with it. Here's the next chapter I hope people like it, I love hearing what you think and reading all the nice reviews, so keep them coming they really do make my day :)

Tilly made her way home as quickly as she could knowing that she wouldn't be able to control her emotions for much longer. As soon as she made it back to her house she ran upstairs to her room and collapsed on her bed. She didn't hold back anymore she just let her emotions explode. She felt the tears falling from her eyes and down her cheeks but she didn't bother to wipe them away as she knew that there would be way more than there already was soon.

Tilly had pictured seeing Jen again for the first time on so many occasions but it never happened in her imagination like it did today. To start off Jen wasn't in pain and she remembered everything that happened between them and in a way she was jealous of Jen for the fact that she didn't remember what happened at least she didn't have those horrible memories haunting her or keep her up at night. Nights were the worst for Tilly as there wasn't anything to distract her, there was just her thoughts and the darkness.

Tilly couldn't help but think about Jen had said to her about them giving their relationship another go but Tilly knew that wasn't possible for her and Jen anymore. They had their time together and they had plenty of chances but they always ended the same way and Tilly wouldn't put herself through that again; she couldn't. As far as Tilly was concerned there was nothing else left to think about, she had made up her mind.

Tillys thoughts were interrupted by a knock at her door and her mom walking inside her room. "You okay sweetheart? I thought I would check on you, I heard crying sounds"

Tilly gave her mom a faint smile "I'm alright thanks mom"

"I know that your not, you can tell you have been crying"

"Nah I'm cool mom I just had something in my eye, that's all, sound as a pound I am"

"Your a terrible liar, is this about Jen again?"

Tilly just shook her head she knew if she spoke she would start crying again and the last thing she wanted was to worry her mom especially after the last few months.

Tillys mom sighed "I thought you were getting over that and you know moved on"

"I was, I did sort of"

"Was? Then what's changed? What's happened?"

"The hospital phoned me saying I was listed as Jen's in case if emergency contact"

Tillys mom gasped "Oh my God, is she okay? Did you go and see her?"

"Yeah and no"

Tillys mom was confused "what does that mean?"

"She is alive and awake, she has a few cuts and a broken arm as far as I can tell..."

"That's good then" Tillys mom added

"Yeah but she has short term memory loss and the last thing she remembers is the night Esther tried to kill herself. She remembers us being together, being happy and in love. The worst part is that she thinks it happened a few days ago ago and that we are together" Tilly burst out crying again so her mom takes her in her arms and hugs her tightly while telling her it was Ok and to calm down.

"Did you tell her the truth?"

"Yeah and it broke her heart all over again, she begged me to tell her it wasn't true and when I insisted that it was she asked if we could try again but I told her that it was too late but she won't give up, I know she won't, what am I going to do?"

"I don't know love but you will think of something, are you going to see her again?" Tillys mom asked

"No, do you think I should?"

"Yeah I do darling, she is confused and upset, she needs you to help her understand"

Tilly sighed "I don't know mom it was hard enough speaking to her today let alone going again"

"It's up to you Tilly but you know you will regret not helping her and at least you can walk away knowing you did the right thing"

"Yeah your right, I'll go see her tomorrow, thanks mom"

"Your welcome love, I'll leave you to it, goodnight sweetie" Tillys mom left the room leaving Tilly to her thoughts yet again.

She had made up her mind, she would see Jen one more time to clear the air and set things straight but after that she wouldn't go back and she wouldn't change her mind. The next thing she would do was pack her bags and leave for London early to spend the summer there before she started uni., so she could get her bearings and get used to the place. The next thing Tilly would do is head off to start her new life away from her problems, away from hollyoaks and away from Jen.