Tilly woke up the next morning feeling terrible as she had a horrible dream involving Jen but she couldn't think about that at the moment, she had to get ready to see Jen, she knew that today would be hard.

An hour later Tilly was ready to leave and as she made her way downstairs she headed into the kitchen and saw her mom sitting at the table staring into her cup.

"You okay mom?" Tilly asked

Tilly's mom looked up and gave her a faint smile "Yeah I'll be okay"

"You going into work today?"

Tilly's mom just shook her head and continued to look into her cup which concerned Tilly who couldn't help but feel sorry, she knew today would be hard for her "Do you want me to stay with you?"

Tilly's Tilly's mom stood up and walk across the kitchen to put her cup in the sink and then turned Tilly with a weak smile "No of course not, you have to see Jen today, I will be okay"

Tilly could see that her mom was just putting a smile on her face to stop Tilly from worrying "I miss him too mom, I know this hard for you and the pain is still fresh but he wouldn't want you to be upsetting yourself"

Tilly' s mom had tears falling from her eyes from Tilly's words, she didn't want to cry in front of her but she couldn't help it. Tilly walked across and hugged her mom telling her that it was okay. After a few minutes Tilly's mom calmed herself down and smiled at Tilly and asked her how she coping.

"To be honest mom, I'm not, I'm just trying to stay strong for you, I cry most nights, I miss him that much but you need me so I'll be strong for you"

"When did you get so grown up?" Tillys mom asked

"I always have been I guess but even more so since dad died"

"Tilly you don't have to be strong for me, you know that right? We need each other right now, I don't want you bottling up your feelings okay?"

Tilly nodded and wiped her eyes and took a deep breath "I know but it gives me something to focus on, it's been so hard without him." Tilly looked around the room and sighed "This house doesn't help, it's just memories that are too painful to think about at the moment. Mom I want to move to London soon, would you be okay with that?" Tilly asked

Tilly's mom sighed "I know what you mean, I walk up every morning to an empty bed and it reminds me that he is gone. I was going to wait until you left for uni to tell you this but I'm going to sell the house and move to London as well"

Tilly smiled "That's great mom but why London?"

"Well it's closer to you and David said that I could live with him until the house has been sold and until I find somewhere to live and get myself sorted out"

"Okay, I think that is a great idea mom, it will be good to stay with uncle David for a while and you will closer to me which means you will have family around you and it won't cost a lot to come a visit you"

Tilly's mom smiled and asked "When we're you thinking of leaving?"

"In the next few days, I have been looking at some flats that are fairly cheap and I'm going to check them out and see if I like any of them"

"I take it you are going to use the money your dad left you?" Tilly's mom asked

Tilly nodded and smiled "That's the plan, only if your okay with that?"

Tilly's question was returned with a smile "OF course it is darling, that's what your dad intended you to do with the money, he started saving when you were born and then he put the money that his mom and dad left him into your account, which would build up over time. He wanted to give you all of the money when you left for university so that you would be able to support yourself. He needed to know you would be safe, that you would never struggle when it came to money but obviously he couldn't give it to you himself so he set up an account that you could access."

"I know he did and I'm grateful that he sorted all of that out for me before he died but sometimes I just wished that he wasn't so proud. I wished he told us, he knew he was dying but he never said anything, I can't picture him struggling on his own..."

Tilly was interrupted by her mom "He didn't want you getting upset, he put on a brave face because he didn't want you to watch him die and he didn't want you to neglect your education to look after him,he was a very proud man and only wAnted the best for you. He thought that not telling you was the best thing to do"

"I know he did, it just isn't fair, I wish I had more time with him" Sarah hugged her daughter stroking her hair telling her that it was okay, she was glad that Tilly was finally letting herself go and stopped hiding her feelings away as it wasn't a good thing to do. A few minutes pasted before Tilly pulled away from her mom and wiped her eyes until they were dry and cleared her throat "Okay well I'm going to see Jen now, your right I need to help her before I leave or I will regret it"

"Okay I'll give you a lift, I need to head that way anyway"

"Thanks Mom"

Tilly made her way to the car with her mom knowing that speaking to Jen would be hard but she couldn't leave without clearing the air, she just couldn't. She would speak to Jen and then come home and pack her stuff ready to leave as soon as possible without looking back.