It had been several hours since Katie had left the hospital and Tilly was still waiting at Jens bedside. She had been there for the whole day and it was now the early hours of the morning and Tilly had fallen asleep with her arms folded on the bed and her head placed in them.
Jen had been asleep for over 23 hours and she was finally starting to wake up as her eyes slowly began to open. After a few minutes Jens eyes opened properly and she felt dazed and confused as she looked around the room and tried to figure out where she was until she remembered that she was in hospital. Jen gently lifted herself up and little so she wasn't lying flat on her back and when she sat up she saw someone lying on the side of her bed. Jen looked at the person and noticed straight away that it was Tilly. Jen had a big smile on her face seeing that Tilly was sitting beside her bed. Jen stroked Tillys head hoping that she would wake up so she could see her face, so she could see her smile and look into her eyes.
Tilly woke up by the feeling of Jen touching her head and then lifted her head of the bed and looked up at Jen with a smile spreading across her face.
"Your awake"
Jen nodded and smiled back at Tilly placing her hand over Tillys and holding it tightly which made Tilly look down at their hands and sigh. She knew it would be hard enough to leave Jen after all of this had happened and now feeling Jens hand on hers made it even harder. Tilly could feel her will power to bottle up her feelings for Jen begin to slip away and she couldn't do that to Jen, she couldn't let herself believe that something was going to happen between them again; she couldn't let herself believe that. Even though she wanted more than anything to be with Jen again she knew that in the end it wouldn't work out and that they there relationship had more than enough chances for it to work. She also knew that those chances had ran out.
"How are you feeling?" Tilly asked Jen
Jen cleared her throat before answering Tilly as it was a little croaky "Confused and dazed"
"You had a serious operation"
Jen frowned "What operation?"
"Well I don't know everything about it and obviously the doctors will tell you more than I can but ill tell you what he told me. The doctors discovered that there was some internal bleeding in your brain and they performed an operation to relieve the pressure on the brain and help deal with the internal bleeding"
"Did it work?" Jen asked
"They don't know for sure until they know you have woken up but they said as far as they can tell the operation was a success."
Jen sighed "I guess that is good news then"
Tilly smiled "You're awake so that is good news"
Jen returned the smile "You're here as well so its great news"
Tilly looked to the floor and felt terrible knowing that this is probably the last time she would see Jen because once she knew she was okay then Tilly would be leaving and not coming back. She had decided to carry on ahead before her mom she could get settle in to the new area.
Tilly sighed and looked up at Jen "I just needed to make sure that you were going to be okay" Tilly didn't have the heart to tell Jen that she was leaving, she knew she should but she just couldn't say the words. Tilly stood up and backed away from the bed which caused Jen to frown. Tilly walked back over to the bed and looked at Jen's taking a hard long look at her making sure she took mental pictures because she knew that this was the last time she would see Jen. She had just decided in the last few seconds that she couldn't face Jen again knowing hard it would be if she stayed longer.
"Ive got to go now"
Jen frowned again "Please don't"
"I have to go"
"Come back tomorrow to see me please?" Jen asked
Tilly sighed "I can't I have to help my mom with something but I promise this isn't the last time you will hear from me" Tilly leaned down and kissed the top of Jens head before she turned and walked out the room and into the reception of the hospital.
Tilly walked up to the reception desk and asked for a pen and paper before heading to the waiting room to go and write Jen a letter. At least this way she kept her promise but she didn't have to see her face to face with the risk of her will power slipping even more than it already had. Once she had finished she gave to the letter to the woman on the desk requesting that it was given to Jen in the morning.