I Own Nothing Twilight. S.M. Does. Enjoy!

Chapter Twenty

Goodbye brown eyes
Goodbye for now
Goodbye sunshine
Take care of yourself
I have to go
I have to go
I have to go
And leave you alone
But always know
Always know
Always know that I love you so
I love you so, oh
I love you so, oh
La lullaby
Distract me with your rhymes
La lullaby
La lullaby
Help me sleep tonight
La lullaby
(La lullaby, la lullaby)

Good bye: Avril Lavigne

Anberliegh…

Suffocation. The air was so thick, like I was breathing in fog. I couldn't think, I could feel, I couldn't hear. Anything. It had been months since Luke and my father arrived, months of Paul trying to make me feel better, months of… drowning.

I was standing next to my bike, supposed to be on my way to Paul's. I couldn't move. I looked to the darkened sky to see dark grey clouds moving slowly.

They wouldn't be coming out tonight. They haven't come out in months.

I needed to try and stay, but to stay I needed a small break from everything. I knew what I needed, some fun.

I got on my bike and took the opposite direction I should have. Sorry Paul, but tonight I need an escape. I thought as I drove to Port Angelas.

There may not be much there, but there is a great bar.

Edward…

I was at the piano when Paul came to the door. He knocked, which was unusual. He had spent so much time here that he never knocked. I was the only one home at the time, so I got up to answere the door.

"Paul come in." I said but he shook his head.

"I was just wondering if Annie was here." He was upset I could see that. It was near midnight.

"No."

"She was supposed to be at my house two hours ago." He said and I frowned.

She couldn't of done it again. I prayed for Paul's sake that she didn't just leave. Then I remember her saying something about going out of town. I thought she would take Paul with her. they had been near unseperatble lately.

"I think I might know where she is." I told him.

He evidently had something planned, since he was dressed nice. Black button up shirt and designer jeans. For Annie to blow off tonight she must be having some issues.

Paul didn't mind my speed. Even if we did crash we would both live. We pulled up outside a small bar and Annie's bike was outside. Paul went for the handel but I stopped him.

"Uh… I think you might want to wait in the car." I told him.

Annie was, enjoying herself. She was currently doing body shots of a man who was so into it he couldn't even remember his own name. She had on jean shorts and low cut silky shirt.

Paul didn't listen to me, he got out of the car and crossed the parking lot. I got out to follow in case he decided to kill the guy that was about to do the same to her.

We stood in the door way as we watched Annie lay down on the bar. The guy lifted herr shirt and licked from her navel to the button on her jeans then sprinkle salt on it. at the same time one of the bartenders put a lime in her mouth.

I wanted to shrink back at the rage coming off Paul at that moment. I didn't even need to read his mind to know he was ready to kill. The guy licked the salt off letting his tongue dip into her pants a little and I grabbed pauls arm, because he was ready to charge.

"Go, outside I will grab her." I told him. To my surprise he left.

I was glad because Annie's partner just took the lime from her mouth using more tongue than necessary.

I wilked over to her and she was laughing at something the bartender said.

"Annie, I think it is time for you to go." I told her and she stiffened.

"Try and make me." She challenged.

"Ann baby, is this kid giving you a hard time." The bartender asked.

"No, he is just my brother. And about to go home." She said dismissing me.

"You need to get home." I told her and she sighed.

"Look pal, she doesn't want to go." Her body shot partner said.

"Paul is here." I said and turned to leave.

"Shit. Well boys I believe that this is the end for me. It's been real." She curtsied and followed me out of the bar.

Paul was sitting on the curb, his head in his hands he didn't even look up when we came out. I went to my car so they could talk.

She stood there in front of him, waiting.

He stood and looked at her. They stayed in that position for a minute before Paul grabbed her into a hug. I looked away and treid not to listen, knowing it was pointless because I would hear everything, and more.

"I thought your father might have got you." He told her. She pushed him off her, enough for him to stumble back.

"You get here, and I am practically fucking a strange man and you hug me?" she asked. Was she looking for a fight?

"You needed to get away for a while, I understand. I wish you would have told me." he lowered his voice. "I would have loved to help you with those body shots." He whispered.

Great, we were back to this. Their constant sexual innuendos. They were going ot make me sick. They really just needed to have at each other already.

I was waiting for Annie to say something equally emabarrasing back, but she never did.

"Fuck, would you stop that." She yelled.

"Stop what?" He asked looking like a puppy that was just kicked.

"Stop understanding." She told him looking away.

Stop understanding? Paul thought. He was confused. "What do you mean?" he asked her.

"Stop being like that. Acting like I can do no wrong. putting me on this ridiculously high pedestool and worshipping the ground I walk on. Stop acting like your world would end today if I died!" she screamed.

"Don't you think I could if I would!" he yelled back at her. I want nothing more than a normal relationship. If this imprint shit wasn't here we could just be… us.

Her frantic pacing stopped, as well as her breathing. I heard her heart skip a beat as she stared at him. She couldn't hear the last part or didn't.

"I could." She whispered and he looked up. "I could make you forget. Tomorrow you could wake up and not know me. You will never imprint, and if you ever saw me again I would just be another girl in the world, nothing more."

No! Paul thought unable to speak. I would rather spend the rest of my life alone knowing you existed, rather than spend an eternity never knowing you.

His voice was caught in his throat and he just stared at her in disbelief.

"Please let me." she whispered and that was when I got out of the car.

I could hear Pauls heart shatter. She doesn't want this with me. was ringing in his head.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I yelled at her. She wouldn't look at me. "Annie!" I yelled. Nothing. "Enber!" I shouted and she glared at me.

"What, are you saying that if you had the chance to make Bella forget you, you wouldn't." she spat. I cringed but held my ground.

"That was different, I believed I was putting her life in danger." I told her.

"What if me staying here was putting everyone in danger. Luke and Robert showing up then Aro and Marcus. Don't you understand this is just the beginning. They will never be happy until I am dead and everyone I care about is too. What if I cant save you all. What if I let you all die like I let my mother die."

"We can help you."

"You can't help the fact that I cant hear anything Edward. Nothing. Look at that sky, what do you see. I haven't seen a single star in months, and I feel like I am losing my mind." She started to let tears roll down her cheeks.

"That was this is about. Your ridiculousness with hearing what life is saying. What if life has stopped telling you because you are where you are supposed to be? Ever think of that?" she looked at me and shook her head.

"Can you make it home, or do you want to change vehicles?" I asked.

"No, take your car." She whispered looking at paul who was back to sitting on the curb.

Anberliegh…

I watched Edward leave. Once he was out of sight I turned back to Paul. He was staring blankly at the ground. I did so much damage in my fit of rage. I walked over until I was about five feet from him.

I hadn't realized everything I said until now. And until I went to speak I didn't realize how much I was crying.

"Paul?" I choked out, but he didn't look up. "I didn't mean…" I started but a sob escaped from me before I could finish.

It only took mere seconds before he had me in his arms again. Once he had me in his arms I heard what he emant to say earlier. I almost wished he would choose to forget me, but quickly realized how much it would have hurt if he did.

I want nothing more than a normal relationship. If this imprint shit wasn't here we could just be us.

I would rather spend the rest of my life alone knowing you existed, rather than spend an eternity never knowing you.

She doesn't want this with me.

His unspoken words rang through every part of my mind and body.

"Youre wrong I want everything with you. I just feel like I keep letting you down."

He held me closer to him and I wrapped my arms around him.

"Say that again, the first part." He whispered.

"Paul, I want everything with you. I want a life with you." I said.

His lips found the top of my head and I sighed.

"What was that name Edward called you, was it another nickname, or his nickname for you? What was it?" He asked and I cringed.

What if he said it and it sounded wrong. there was only one way to tell.

"Enber. It was my mothers nickname for me." I told him and closed my eyes. waiting for him to say it and for it to sound wrong.

"Enber." He breathed.

I opened my eyes and saw a few stars peak out from behind the clouds. When he said it it filled me with warmth. I held him closer and started to cry.

"I am sorry, I wont use it." he said franticly and started to wipe away my tears.

"It sounds perfect when you say it." I whisperd.

He held me a few more minutes and eventually I looked at him. "Do you want to drive?" I asked holding out a key.

He eagerly grabbed it and started to my bike.

"What caused all this?" he asked seriously.

"The date."

"December 1?" He asked.

"My birthday." I mumbled.

"I missed your birthday. How old are you?" He asked and I looked at him.

"That is the one thing I will never say out loud."

"Well I know that you are older than Carlisle and he is 372." He started.

"And that doesn't freak you out?" I asked him

"Hey, I frequently turn into a wolf. I can handle being with someone a little older than me, if you can handle the fact that anything we do will technically be bestiality in some form." He said and I made a face.

"Is that why you have been putting it off?" He asked.

"My age?"

"No the fact that I turn into a dog." He asked and I smiled at him.

"No the truth is I prefer you in dog form, I just don't know how to tell you." he froze with an unreadable expression on his face.

I started to laugh. "No, I am kidding. Actually my age has a lot to do with it." I finished quietly.

"I wouldn't even care if you were 600 years old." He said and I flinched. "Was I close?"

"Closer than 372." I mumbled. "that is so gross, I wouldn't want to do me."

"You know, I think it of as you have that much experience. It is going to be earth shattering." He said and I groaned.

"You are a pervert." I told him.

He laughed, getting on my bike. I got in behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist. As we went down the road I slid one hand down and tucked it into the waist of his rather sexy looking jeans. I heard him swear, btu he did so much as swerve an inch. I figured it was taking quite a bit of concentration to do so, so I stopped messing with him. But I didn't remove my hand either.

He took me to the cullens like I asked.

"Take my bike home, but be careful with him." I told him and he smiled.

"Good night. I love you." he said.

"Good night paul." I whispered and kissed me.

I watched him go smiling a little.

Now I had another matter on my mind. Was I not hearing anyting because I was meant to be here? There was only one way to tell. I had to go to my safe place.

I walked in the house. "Rose." I called and she flew down the stairs. "Pack your things. I said you could come with me next time I left.

I turned to the living room every one was hunting except Rose, Emmett and Edward, and Edward was at Bella's.

Rose was right next to me with a back pack. "Emmett wont tell me good bye. He is upset with me."

"Well I didn't even tell Paul. We will be back before January is over." I said again. More to Emmett than to Rose.

"Say that to my penis." I heard him say from upstairs.

Rose nudged me and smiled. "Oh, I didn't even think of that. I guess I knew that if I needed anything I got Annie to help me out." Emmett groaned from upstairs. "I guess you could always give Paul a call."

We heard a growl from upstairs and the sound of something breaking.

"Where are we going?' Rose asked once we got in a car and were on our way.

"My safe palce. The one place I get all my answers… My mothers grave." I told her and she smiled.

"Thank you Annie."

"I promised Rose. I never break a promise." Except one.