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Chapter Twenty-Three- December 2, 2016: Bella

I was fine right before I met her
Never hurt and nothing could control me
You know I tried but I can't regret her
She's the first, ask anyone who knows me
Terrified that she'd find my heart and break it
Paralyzed by the thought of her with someone else
I wish I would've known
I shouldn't have fallen in love with her
It's been nothing but trouble till now
I shouldn't have fallen in love at all
But I couldn't stop myself
Who gives you the right
To tear up my life?
How dare she be so perfect
What did I do to deserve this?
(I'll never let her go)
How dare she be so perfect
(caught in the fire)

Perfect: My Darkest Days

I awoke to find my bed empty. I groaned and wished Edward would have stayed. My hopes lifted as I realized today I was spending the day with him, Annie, and Paul as a double date. The sun was shining outside, but the December air was still freezing. I got dressed and noticed the note from my father saying he was fishing. I quickly ate then was on my way to go see my fiancé. I smiled at the word. I never thought I would like the idea of marriage. With Edward though it is okay. I pulled up to the Cullen's house and walked in. Everyone except Annie and Rose were in the living room. Emmett looked a little lost.

"What's going on?" I asked and everyone looked at me.

"Hey Bella." Alice said and looked away. Edward came up to me. He led me out of the house.

"Edward what is going on?" I asked.

"Annie left." He said and frowned. "Rose went with her they will be back soon it is just Alice had a vision. Paul was going to propose tonight, and as of right now, he doesn't even know she is gone." He finished.

A little anger went towards Annie, how could she do this to Paul? I frowned as I heard Annie's bike pull up outside and we walked back into the house. Paul walked in and I noticed that most of the Cullen's left. Leaving Emmett, Edward and I in the living room with Paul.

Paul had the biggest grin on his face, a grin that let the world know that he was about to yell how much he love Annie from the roof tops.

"You ready for the lunch, where's Annie?" he asked.

"Paul, her and Rose… they left last night." Emmett said and the smile instantly vanished from Paul's face.

"Oh." He replied then turned and left.

"I think you should call Jake." Edward whispered to me and I nodded.

I was dialing my phone as I heard Paul speed off on Annie's bike.

Paul…

How do you continue on with your life after someone leaves? After the love of your life leaves? How do you go about your day to day actions when everywhere you look are memories? The tire swing on your way into La Push that I pushed Annie on and she laughed louder than I ever heard her laugh before, then she kissed me so hard that you wouldn't believe a girl that size could have that much power. My back yard where we would lay out and watch the stars for hours. The trail that led through the woods and to the secret waterfall that we swam in and made out at for hours. My bedroom, where she slept almost every night. I couldn't even go in my room right now. I couldn't look at my empty bed. I stood in my back yard and picked up the ring I was going to give her. Small, but elegant and beautiful. I chucked it into the forest and turned around only to see the rest of the pack staring at me.

I shook my head and walked off feeling stupid. Stupid because I ever thought that she could love me, that she would say yes if I proposed. That I threw that ring when I knew I would spend hours later looking for it.

I wanted to go out and find the first girl I saw and get my revenge. I wanted to see how many girls I could be with before she got back, if she ever got back. I had my phone out and I was ready to call Leah when I remembered that Leah was human. I would have to hold back and be careful. I wouldn't be able to just go with what I feel, and she wouldn't feel right. Her skin would be too warm, too yielding. Her eyes would be too dark. Damn that vampire.

I cursed as I punched a tree, breaking my hand. I went to punch it again but Sam stopped me and then proceeded to reset my fingers.

"Bella called." He whispered. "Do you want some time or do you want me to keep you busy?" he asked.

"Keep me busy." I told him and he did.

For a week I would do patrols and come home only to fall asleep on the couch exhausted. After the second week I was so tired that I forgot I was avoiding my room and fell asleep on my bed. That was when the dreams started.

Annie would appear before me, dressed in lacy lingerie and looking so sexy it hurt. She would whisper words of love and promises of forever and just before her lips would touch mine I would wake up and be drenched in loneliness.

By the end of December the dreams changed. She would be in my bed when I got home completely nude, or beckon me into the shower with her. One night in my dream she bit me. Her razor sharp teeth sinking into the flesh at my neck marking me and making me hers.

Now that was all I could think about. A week into January I would have nightmares of her not being here. Knowing she was near but not being able to find her. Sam threatened to take me off patrols if I didn't do something, but the truth was I couldn't. I missed her too much. When I didn't improve he told me to take time off.

So I spent the next few weeks searching for her ring. Desperately looking for it from sun up to sun down.

I finally gave up and walked back to my house. I set the flash light down and changed my pants. I pulled off my shirt and the second my body hit my bed I was out.

The dreams returned. I was searching and searching, but never finding. I wanted to give up so bad but knew I couldn't. I was too close to finding her.

"I love you… I love you… I love you." I heard Annie say as clear as day.

I could feel her cool lips on my face and I opened my eyes to see her straddling my waist.

"Hey." She whispered.

"An…Annie?" Was it really her, or was I dreaming. She said I love you, I must be dreaming.

"Yes?" She answered placing more cool kisses on my neck. Visions of her sinking her teeth in woke me up even more.

"Are you really here?" I asked. I placed her hands on her face. "You feel so real this time. But then you did last time too." I dropped my hands remembering last time.

"Paul I am really here. I love you and I am not going anywhere."

Not wanting this dream to end because I was afraid of what state I would wake up in I held her to my chest. Her hands found my hair as I shut my eyes. "I can't wake up without you here again. I just can't do it."

"You won't have to, I am here. You are awake and I am here." I wanted to believe her

"I can't do it… can't do it…" I felt like I was going to wake up any minute.

She pulled back and lifted my face. "Paul, Stop. I am here."

She tried to kiss me and I turned my head. When she kissed me I would wake up and die a little more. I felt my hands drop to her waist.

"No, I can't. I…" I can't go on like this.

"What, can I do to prove you are awake?" She begged.

I shook my head, knowing this was a dream and just trying to not ruin it.

"Forget this," I heard her whisper and she pulled my face to her and started to kiss me. I let go, if this is a dream then so be it.

And never wake me up.