I don't know how long I'll be off of FF but I'm leaving you guys with a long chapter. Sry its taken me so long and there will be another chapter after this. Thanks to Ayushi95 for creating a huge part in this chapter. And Codekiki21 for helping me get my but in gear. U hope to update all my stories before I'm off. So much love to you all :)))

"Michael please!" Nikita pleaded, her heart racing. They were close enough to the point where if Michael took a few more steps both their lives would end.

Her words were in vein as they had no effect on him. He took another step towards Haley, as if Nikita wasn't even there.

"There's a way to get the tracker out of you!" she finally told him.

What she said was something she never wanted to tell him. It wasn't that she didn't want them to meet. She wanted nothing more than for him to be happy. But the tracker in him was connected to his heart. If one thing, no matter how small, went wrong, he would be gone from her life forever.

Nikita knew he wouldn't care. She knew in his mind that without Haley his life was nothing.

"I never told you because," Nikita took a deep breath contemplating if she did the right thing by telling him; "If anything at all goes wrong… you'll be dead."

Michael didn't say anything he just looked at Nikita, at his life he was living, and back at Haley, at the life he thought he lost forever. The battle he was fighting inside himself was almost unbearable. He clenched his fist in inner torment.

If he was going to take the surgery, if he died, Haley would never know he was alive. He would never feel the hug of his daughter. But if he didn't take the surgery their reunion would be short. He would be the reason she died.

Michael looked at the women he thought he would spend the rests of his life with. He loved Nikita more than anything in the world, but this, this was his daughter. This was his flesh and blood. How could he choose between the two most important women in his life?

Nikita's heart was beating a mile a minute. She couldn't imagine her life without him, living without the warm touch of his lips on hers, waking up each morning not being able to see his welcoming hazel eyes. The thought shattered her soul. "Michael… Please…" tears were endlessly falling down from her red cheek.

Michael looked at her. He never saw Nikita like that before. Her heart was truly breaking. The tears she shed were the ones of a dying heart. He looked at the floor beneath him, closing his eyes as he thought. No one was going choose for him. Either way he stepped next, there was a chance he would die.

He opened his red eyes as they glimmered with tears. Michael's foot lifted, about to decide his fate. Nikita's eyes widened, feeing the world move in slow motion. "Please, please," she whispered in the cold air.

Michael's foot hit the concrete. He had chosen between his love and his daughter. Nikita stood there still in shock. Michael continued toward her. He had decided to go back to Nikita, to take a chance on Haley ever knowing.

Nikita never ran faster. She ran to him, wrapping her arms around him. She had never hugged anyone so tight before. His arms never wrapped around her, but that didn't matter. She never wanted to let go. Michael could feel his jacket become wet as Nikita's tears settled on his shoulder. He couldn't help but feel that he made the wrong choice. That he had let down his daughter, even if she didn't know it.

"Thank you," Nikita whispered in his ear between each sob as she hugged him tighter, "Thank you…"

They made their way to the airport and onto the plane back to ops. The trip was short but it felt like eternity. Every second was filled with silence. Not one of them spoke to the other. They had sat on opposite sides of the plane. Michael was busy writing on a paper. Nikita didn't want to ask and push him to talk. She was just glad to see him in one piece.

She left and headed to the back of the plane. The minute she was alone she made the call. "Nikita what's up? Did you find Michael?"

Nikita took a deep breath, "Birkoff I need you to get the operating table ready."

"Is Michael okay?" His voice sounded worried.

"Yeah," Nikita looked at him as he kept writing, "But if we don't operate soon I don't know how long he'll be okay.

"What's going on?" even as a genius he was still confused.

"Just get all the medial personal we have ready," she realized how much the doctors had been working, first Alex now Michael. She just hoped they wouldn't need any more medical attention for a while.

Right before she was about to hang up she heard Birkoff. "Hey Niki when you get back," his voice turned to cheerful, "Someone's got a surprise for you."

She hated surprises, especially after all the secrets that were revealed. But before she could ask the plane shook as they were making there descent. She hung up and made her way back to her seat.

Alex's Apartment

"Michael." She called him out but he ignored her and rushed to the room that was now an operating room after Alex.

Nikita looked at Michael disappear inside the room. She wanted so much to be right beside him, but she knew that wasn't exactly what he wanted. She turned around and stared blankly at her surroundings. She felt lonelier than ever. Alex was dead, Michael was... stable for now. She just wanted to fall into someone's arms and cry her heart out. She had lost her daughter and now was on the verge of losing her fiancé.

She turned around when she heard two doors behind her open up. From the first one, Birkoff showed up and from the second one, Alex. "Alex." Nikita breathed and her tears slipped out of her eyes. "Nikita." Alex whispered as she supported herself with the wall. She was better than before but hadn't yet fully recovered her energy.

"Remember the surprise I was talking about? Princess's back." Birkoff said trying to make Nikita smile. He knew that Nikita wasn't exactly going through a good time, but he hoped seeing Alex again would definitely relieve some of the load of guilt she's been carrying around.

Nikita stared at Alex as Alex did the same, silently telling each other how much they love and care about each other. "Alex." Nikita said again and ran towards Alex. She got her in her arms and Alex happily let herself fall into Nikita's arms. They held onto each other till the time they couldn't feel safe again.

"If anything goes wrong, Michael wanted me to give this to Hayley. But I think it'll be safest with you and I think you should keep it." Birkoff said as he handed the paper to Nikita.

"I'll go and check out to see if the doctors need anything." Birkoff excused himself and left.

Nikita and Alex walked over to the couch and sat down. They sighed as Nikita broke the silence. "So how did all of this happen? The last time I was here, you were..." Nikita trailed of not wanting to say that word.

"I'm back because of you. Elizabeth's voice got me back. While I was considered to be dead, I was in my afterlife. I saw my papa." Alex said and paused trying to hold back her tears.

"He told me how sorry he was for everything. He-he didn't talk about what had happened during those two months that I was with Amanda but he just said that he loved me. He told me that he wanted me to stay up there with him but that there were people who needed me back here. And then I heard Elizabeth's voice, calling me out and my papa disappeared telling his last words, love you Alexandra. Go back to your family. He then disappeared leaving Elizabeth's voice to reach my ears. I could hear her calling me out and crying but I couldn't find her. I was just surrounded by darkness. I closed my eyes, praying that the next time I opened them, I would see Elizabeth in front of me. I didn't know if it was for real or just a mind game. Or she was a part of... My afterlife." Alex said and paused as tears rolled down her eyes.

Nikita put a hand around her shoulder comforting her and giving her the confidence to go ahead.

"And then, when I opened my eyes again, it was it. She was there, in front of me. Her blue eyes were shining with tears as she hugged me and cried into my arms. Firstly, I couldn't understand how she was there. But then I remembered about you making a promise that you'll bring her back. Thank you so much Nikita. Thank you so much for giving me my life and Liz back." Alex said and finished her explanation. She hugged Nikita tight and felt Nikita's arms wrap around her even tighter. Nikita softly rubbed her hands on Alex's back and head, holding on to her tightly. She was glad to have Alex back in her arms safely. Alex did take a huge load of guilt away from her shoulders.

"Mommy?" Elizabeth's voice filled up the living rom. They pulled apart and looked back at the young girl in the doorway.

Nikita looked back at Alex and smiled. She had never seen Alex so happy. Her eyes showed more love than they ever had shown, the love that one can only feel for their children. There was no doubt that Alex would ever be away from Elizabeth again.

"Come here baby." Alex said and smiled as Liz sleepily rubbed her eyes. She had just woken up and came out of the room finding her mommy. She glanced back in the room once, looking at Sean's sleeping form and closed the door.

She walked up to the couch and settled herself between Nikita and Alex. She twisted towards Alex and hugged her tightly by her waist. Alex hugged Liz back and gently moved her hand over Liz's head. She felt Liz drifting off to sleep again.

Nikita smiled and said, "I-I can't believe you're a mom."

Alex chuckled and looked down at her daughter. "I was thinking about giving her up to a foster family. But I can't let her go away from me. She's going to stay with me forever."

"How's everything with Michael?" Alex asked as she looked up at Nikita. Nikita's smile faded as she heard Alex's question. "…Not so good. But maybe after he meets Hayley again, he'll get back to me too." Nikita said wishing for Michael to be by her side. She looked at the room where Michael was getting operated. She could hear the commotion that was going inside, the clank of metals and the yells. She wished so hard for Michael to be alright. At this point of time, she just wanted him to be okay. If he'll decide to stay with her or not, was a second worry, which she'll sort it out later on.

"Hey, it'll be fine. He'll be out of surgery soon. And you guys have gone through a lot. Division, secrets, lies, Cassandra, this is just another obstacle that you'll pass easily. He's not going away anywhere." Alex said and placed her hand on Nikita's. Birkoff and Sean had already explained to Alex what was going on. They hadn't told her about any of the secrets, but they just explained her briefly why Nikita had to leave.

"I don't know what I would've done in my life without you guys. Division did do one good thing in my life. It gave me a family that I could've never even imagined. I love all of you guys dearly." Nikita said and hugged Alex keeping in mind to not disturb Liz.

They pulled apart. Alex grabbed her side in agony. Her body still ached from the surgery.

"Are you okay?" Nikita supported her, placing a hand on her shoulder.

Alex breathed in sharply as the pain continued. Her fists trembled as she waited for the pain to pass. Sweat started to drip down her face until it disappeared. "Yeah," she took a deep breath in relief, "I just need to take my medicine."

Alex placed Elizabeth's on the couch, with a smile. She got up and stumbled into the other room, leaving Nikita with Liz.

Nikita looked over at the operating room. She couldn't do it. She couldn't bring herself to go into the room knowing it's her fault he's even on the table. The man she loved with all her heart might die because of her past. The doctors were already tired from Alex's operation; one of them could easily make a mistake from fatigue. She couldn't get her mind off of every possible thing that might go wrong.

"Hurry grab another blood bag!" a doctor ran out of the room, grabbing a bag and then returning.

Hearing his tone just made her heart heavier. The last thing she saw of him before the doctor shut the door was Michael lying down on the bed.

God please, I beg you, don't take Michael from me. Drip after drip, puddles appeared on the floor. Nikita was more broken than she had ever been before. Even after Daniel died the pain wasn't such a burden as it was now. The pain flowed down from her eyes to the floor.

If she had known the last time she woke up next to him, she would have never gotten out of bed. If she had known the last time she kissed him was the last time, their lips would have never parted. There was so much she wished she could have done over, just to see him smile again.

She felt herself hyperventilating. There was nothing she could do but wait. It was the most painful thing to her at that point. Each second gave her time to think of the worst.

Suddenly she felt something on her leg. She looked down to see Liz's small head sleeping on her.

Nikita didn't know what to do. She looked at the young child who was sleeping peacefully on her lap. She felt sudden warmth in her heart. The sight was truly peaceful. Nikita softly placed her hand on Liz's head.

It made her feel that one day, just maybe, she might be able to have a family of her own. The sudden thought reminded her of the letter.

Nikita shook her head. She knew it wasn't right to read, but she needed to know what was going on with Michael and that it might be her way. She rubbed her thumb over the folded creased paper, contemplating her every thought.

"Are you going to read it?" Alex asked raising her eyebrows.

Nikita quickly looked up shocked. She didn't expect Alex to be back so quick. "I… I don't know."

Alex sat back down on the couch, but leaving Liz on Nikita.

"It doesn't feel right to read it, but... I also want to find out what's going on with him" Nikita said and looked back at the room, "I don't know if I'll get a chance to have a look back inside his head again. I don't know if he'll come back once he'll meet Hayley."

"Hey, he's going to come back to you. He can't stay without you." Alex said smiling trying to cheer up Nikita.

"He couldn't stay without me. Past tense. Now I just don't know about it." Nikita corrected her.

"Don't beat yourself up over this Nikita. You couldn't have done anything else. It had to be done. To keep Michael and Hayley safe." Alex said.

Nikita faked a smile, trying hard not to show the fact she didn't believe it.

"Open it if you want to." Alex said and gave Nikita a direction to go ahead.

Nikita looked up at her and then opened the letter.

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