Title: Moving On

Author: Raven Shadowrose

Rating: M

Pairing: ?/?

Summary: Dixie has been left broken hearted by Cyd's departure from the Holby team, what will happen when Cyd is replaced by Hannah Darbyshire and Dixie takes a liking to her? Will she find the happiness that she has been searching for, or will she end up with even more of a broken heart?

Disclaimer: I do not know or own any of the characters from Casualty, any original characters and the story are my property and I do not give permission for anyone to use this story.

A/N: This story will contain some femslash, if you do not wish to read then, by all means, back away slowly the way you came, other than that, enjoy the story and reviews are appreciated.

Thank you to chan. nelson4444 and BeethovenRIP for your reviews and messages, seeing as you have been so nice to me I am going to give you the next chapter and not leave you on a cliffhanger until tomorrow.

Chapter Twelve.

Dixie closed the door behind her, how could she have been so stupid? She paced the room and stopped in front of her desk. 'Stupid Dixie, how could you even think that she would want you?' She looked at a picture on her desk and picked it up, she sat on the floor against the free wall of her office. 'Cyd, I've been very stupid.' Dixie sat looking at the picture of Cyd, she wondered where she was and what she was doing at this moment in time. Dixie was still thinking when she heard the knock on the door. 'Go away Jeff, I'm not in the mood.'

'It's not Jeff, can I come in?' Hannah, hoped flared inside Dixie, she hadn't left, she was still here. Maybe that's why she was here, to say that she was leaving. 'Can't you put your transfer request under the door?'

'Transfer request? I don't understand, Dixie, please can I come in?'

'Okay.' Hannah was not going to go away until she got to come in and she had sounded confused over the transfer request, maybe she wasn't going to leave after all.

Hannah pushed the handle down and opened the door, she found Dixie sat on the floor, she took a deep breath and sat next to her. Hannah noticed the picture that Dixie was holding. 'Who's that?'

'Cyd, she was my best friend, until one day when we went on a shout together.'

'What happened?'

'The people in the house had been bitten by a snake, Cyd came back with the equipment from the ambulance and while we talked the snake appeared above my head. Cyd pushed me out of the way and got bitten by it instead. We got her to hospital, but she was in a bad way, I was determined that she wouldn't die. I went to see her and I kissed her, I told her that I loved her and then went to find the snake. I found the snake with another paramedic called Greg, we got the anti-venom and Cyd survived. She told me that she couldn't handle my feelings and started working with Greg all the time. Things were awkward between us. I found out a few weeks later while I was in hospital that she was transferring somewhere else, I found out from someone else. She transferred because I was in love with her, she couldn't handle my feelings and she said she wanted space. She told me that she couldn't give me what I needed.' Hannah listened carefully to everything that Dixie said, she had been hurt by Cyd and it was showing. 'I lost my best friend that day and that hurt more than her not returning my feelings.' Hannah looked at Dixie and felt instantly sorry for her, she was definitely hurting. 'Oh Dixie, I'm sorry. Do you miss Cyd?'

'Every day, Jeff and Polly are good friends, but they can't replace her.'

'Couldn't you go and see her?'

'She transferred to Cheshire, it is a long way away.'

'What about calling her?'

'I tried, she never answered my calls or called me back, she hates me.'

'I'm sure she doesn't.' Dixie didn't say anything, but Hannah saw the tears in her eyes, she pulled Dixie into a hug and wished that she could help her to feel better.

Dixie hugged Hannah and tried to take comfort from her closeness and warmth, it might be the only time that she got to do anything like this with her. 'Now you're going to do the same because I've opened my mouth yet again, I should have learned my lesson the last time.'

'Dixie, I'm not leaving.'

'No, Hannah, you can't stay, you know how I feel and you don't feel the same. I can't see you every day, it'll hurt too much. If you leave now then it will hurt for a little while, but I'll heal. Please Hannah...' Dixie was cut off by Hannah kissing her, she pulled away in shock. 'Hannah, what was that?'

'I think you know what it was.'

'I know, but why?'

'I have a confession to make, I'm bisexual Dixie.'

'What? No you're not, you can't be, women like you have boyfriends.'

'I am, you're not the first woman that has kissed me.'

'That explains why you're so calm.'

'Only on the outside. Do you like me Dixie?'

'Yeah, I like you, you're beautiful.' Hannah smiled and it gave Dixie the courage to ask the question she had in her head. 'Can I kiss you Hannah?'

'Yes, you can. Maybe we should move first, it is not that comfortable down here.'

'Agreed.' Dixie stood up and sat on the sofa. 'Come here Hannah.' Dixie made room for Hannah to sit down and then just looked at her.

Hannah blushed under Dixie's intense scrutiny. 'Has anyone told you how beautiful you look when you blush?'

'No.'

'They should.' Hannah closed her eyes as Dixie gently caressed her face. 'Open your eyes.' Hannah did as Dixie asked her. 'Do you trust me?'

'Yes.' Hannah felt Dixie's thumb brush over her lips. 'Dixie.'

'Hush love.' Hannah felt Dixie's lips gently brush against her own and her eyelids fluttered shut, heat rushed through her and she felt her heart skip a few beats. Hannah felt Dixie's hand slip inside her jacket and settle on her waist. 'Dixie, kiss me.' Dixie nodded and Hannah held her breath as Dixie kissed her, Hannah's hand somehow found its way into Dixie's hair and she kissed her back.

Dixie licked gently at Hannah's lips and she was pleasantly surprised when they parted, she pulled Hannah closer to her and deepened the kiss. Dixie resisted the urge to run her hands over Hannah's body, she wanted more, but speed would only ruin things. Dixie slowly pulled back. 'Hannah, you are going to be the death of me.'

'How do you mean?'

'I mean, you're gorgeous and beautiful and you make my heart do strange things. Are you sure you want to be with me, I am ten years older than you?'

'Dixie, it doesn't matter, I like you.'

'I'm glad to hear it. Can I have a hug?'

'You don't need to ask.' Dixie put her arms around Hannah and held her close, she couldn't believe that she was holding Hannah in her arms. The day had started out terribly, but the end of it was definitely better.

Polly found Jeff outside of Dixie's office. 'Jeffrey Collier, what do you think you're doing?'

'I am listening, shush.'

'Get away from that door.'

'Come on Polly, you can't tell me that you don't want to know what is going on in there.'

'I do, but I'm giving Hannah and Dixie the privacy that they need.'

'But Polly...'

'No Jeff, get away from that door now.' Polly waited until Jeff moved away and she followed him to make sure that he didn't go back to try and spy on Hannah and Dixie again. She hoped that they were being honest with each other in there, she wanted them to be happy.

Hannah just let Dixie hold her, she was quite happy in her arms. She didn't want to disturb the moment. 'Hannah?'

'Yes, Dixie.

'What do we do now?'

'I'm not sure, I suppose we go out on dates and have coffee just like other people.'

'What will your parents think of you being with an older woman?'

'My mother will hate it.'

'I think I know now what got Jeff so annoyed when your mother visited. She doesn't like you being bisexual, does she?'

'No, she thinks it is disgusting.'

'Does it bother you?'

'Sometimes, but I am who I am, it isn't like I can change it.'

'What about your father?'

'He just wants me to be happy and taken care of.'

'I'll take care of you Hannah.' Hannah smiled.

'We'll look after each other.'

'Sounds good to me.' Hannah put her hand in the one that Dixie held out and then cuddled up to her, it had been a long time since she'd felt this content.

Dixie looked down at the younger woman that was currently cuddling up to her. 'Hannah, we're going to have to go out there sooner or later.'

'I know, there will be two people out there wanting to know what is happening.'

'Jeff and Polly, they've been trying to encourage me to tell you how I felt about you.'

'If I had known how you felt then I would have told you about myself earlier, I wouldn't have let you suffer for as long as you did.'

'It's okay Hannah, you weren't to know. We're together now and that is what matters.'

'You're right.'

'Come on beautiful, let's go and put them out of their misery.' Hannah smiled and Dixie gently kissed her on the lips.

Jeff sat with Polly in the garage area of the station, Dixie and Hannah had been in Dixie's office for an awfully long time. 'Do you think everything is all right Pol?'

'I hope so.'

'Me too.'

'Do you think that we should have told them everything?'

'We promised not to, neither Hannah or Dixie wanted us to tell the other the things that we knew.'

'I know, we could have prevented all of this though.'

'I'm sure everything is fine Polly.'

'Are you?'

'I want to be.' Jeff looked up when Dixie's door opened and she came out. 'Princess?'

'Is everything all right?' Polly sounded worried. 'Dixie, where's Hannah?'

'I'm here,' Hannah said as she came out of the office. Jeff looked at both Hannah and Dixie, nothing looked out of the ordinary, just what had gone on in that office?

Polly noticed that Dixie looked very happy, something good had clearly happened. 'Dixie, what is going on?'

'Pol, Jeff, maybe you should sit down.' Polly looked at Jeff, now she was worried, Dixie only told them to sit down when she had bad news. 'Princess, is something wrong?' Dixie held her hand out and Hannah put hers in it.

'Are you two together?' Polly was hoping that Dixie would say yes, they were holding hands and that was a good sign.

'We are.' Polly threw her arms around Dixie and then Hannah.

'I'm so happy for you two, oh my goodness, you're so perfect for each other. Have you decided where you're going on your first date?'

'Calm down Polly, we've only just figured out that we like each other.'

'Are you mad at us for not telling you what we knew?'

'No, I asked you not to, and I'm guessing that Hannah said the same thing. Everything has worked out all right in the end and that's all that matters.' Polly breathed a sigh of relief, Dixie wasn't mad at her or Jeff and both Hannah and Dixie looked quite happy.

Jeff saw the sparkle in Dixie's eyes, he knew that it meant she was happy. He was happy for her, she'd had such a bad time lately and it was about time that she found some happiness. Polly had taken Hannah with her under the guise of getting coffees from the rec room, which meant that he had some time to question Dixie. 'Come here princess.' Jeff moved over and Dixie sat next to him. 'You look happy.'

'I am.'

'Good, you deserve it princess.' Dixie smiled. 'I mean it, you should be happy, I think that Hannah can give you what you're looking for.'

'So do I, I know it is early days, but, for now, I am happy that she likes me too.' Jeff smiled, when Dixie was happy she was always more relaxed, he hoped that Hannah would be with Dixie for a long time to come.

Dixie closed her eyes, she needed a few minutes to digest everything that had happened throughout the day. Hannah nearly getting shot in the head, kissing her in the ambulance, thinking that she had blown it and then Hannah confessing that she was bisexual and shared the same feelings, she never thought that today would have turned out as it had. Hannah had agreed to a date, she would meet her for coffee this weekend and then see where they ended up. Dixie smiled, she felt happier than she had done in months, suddenly she had a reason to be happy and it felt wonderful.