Title: Moving On

Author: Raven Shadowrose

Rating: M

Pairing: ?/?

Summary: Dixie has been left broken hearted by Cyd's departure from the Holby team, what will happen when Cyd is replaced by Hannah Darbyshire and Dixie takes a liking to her? Will she find the happiness that she has been searching for, or will she end up with even more of a broken heart?

Disclaimer: I do not know or own any of the characters from Casualty, any original characters and the story are my property and I do not give permission for anyone to use this story.

A/N: This story will contain some femslash, if you do not wish to read then, by all means, back away slowly the way you came, other than that, enjoy the story and reviews are appreciated.

Thank you to chan. nelson4444, BeethovenRIP and WrittingWhat'sOnMyMind for all your reviews and PMs, welcome to Nnsmartin2011 and thank you for your comment. I hope you all enjoy this chapter, more fluff :)

Chapter Fifteen.

Hannah let Dixie in and closed the door behind her, she really had high hopes for this evening, the food was cooked to perfection and all that was left to do was to eat it. Hannah saw Dixie staring at her. 'Take your coat off and make yourself comfortable.' Hannah took Dixie's coat from her and hung it up by the door. 'Casual is a good look for you Dixie, that shirt suits you.'

'That's what Jeff said.'

'He's a smart man.'

'I would say something about what you are wearing, but I think you caught me staring at you earlier.'

'I did.'

'Do you mind?'

'No, it means that I look all right.'

'All right? You look amazing Hannah, all right does not even cover it.'

'Thank you.' Hannah leaned in and kissed Dixie, she had missed her today.

'Something smells nice in here.'

'That might be the bread.'

'Fresh bread, as in home made?'

'Yes, my dad taught me when I was younger.'

'I can't believe I'm dating a woman that can make bread and save lives.'

'I can do more than that,' Hannah said and smiled.

'You cooked all of this?'

'With a little help from my dad.'

'Wow, it smells lovely.'

'Come on then, the first course is ready.'

'First course?'

'The one thing I liked from being made to go to that finishing school was learning about food and how to put a meal together. I'm certain that they didn't think I'd be using my skills to make dinner for a date with a woman.'

'Finishing school?'

'Yes, it is a place where they teach you to be a lady, how to wear dresses and walk with perfect posture and so on. Little did they know that most of their future ladies were the most unladylike women going.'

'I'll take your word for it, I've never been anywhere like that.'

'You don't want to, it is very boring.'

'How many courses is this meal?'

'Three, take a seat.' Hannah pointed to the table that had been set for two people.

Dixie was a little bit worried, the table looked quite posh, she hadn't eaten in a proper restaurant before and she had no idea what cutlery to use or anything. She watched Hannah put a plate down in front of her and the smell of chilli and lemon hit her instantly. 'What are those?'

'Scallops with chilli and lemon butter, just give them a go. I know you're not used to so called posh food, but you might be surprised. Start from the outside with the cutlery.' Dixie carefully placed some of the scallops in her mouth.

'Wow, that tastes amazing.' She was definitely surprised, when she went out she stuck to her usual favourites; mainly Chinese and Italian most of the time. She ate slowly, she wanted to savour the taste of it. 'Do you like it?'

'It is different, but really nice, I can still taste the chilli.'

'Good, I'm glad.'

'What's next?'

'Duck with parmesan potatoes, vegetables and fresh bread.'

'You are going to be very bad for my waistline Hannah.'

'You'll just have to run a few laps around the station to burn it off.' Dixie laughed and relaxed, she was beginning to enjoy herself.

Hannah sensed Dixie's mood shift, it had been a gamble making Dixie some quite posh food, but it was paying off. Hannah poured some wine into glasses and handed one to Dixie. 'It goes with the meat, just try it and see what you think.' Hannah watched Dixie carefully sip at the wine. 'It tastes like blueberries and blackcurrants.'

'Have you ever had wine before?'

'Not like this, it usually tastes bad.'

'That's because it hasn't had the time taken over that it should have, I don't usually have expensive tastes, but, when it comes to wine I do go for quality.'

'I can see why.' Hannah was pleased that Dixie was liking the food and wine, it was a massive learning curve for her, but there didn't seem to be any complaints. Hannah ate her own food and sipped her wine, she noticed Dixie watching her. 'You're being very careful with the wine Hannah.'

'I don't handle alcohol well, it gets me drunk very easily and I don't like the lack of control that being drunk brings.'

'I understand.' Dixie pushed back her plate and stretched. 'That was gorgeous, I think I might have to eat like this more often.'

'So you admit that posh food isn't that bad?'

'It isn't.'

'Good.' Hannah went to the fridge and took out the dessert. 'I think you'll like this one.'

'What is that?'

'Triple chocolate cheesecake.'

'You made that?'

'I did, it is a speciality of mine.'

'I think I'm getting to like dating a woman who can cook.' Hannah laughed and carefully put Dixie and herself some of the cheesecake onto plates.

Dixie thought herself very lucky, Hannah was clearly wonder woman in the kitchen, was there anything that she couldn't do? Everything had tasted wonderful, especially the chocolate cheesecake. 'Hannah, can I take some of the cheesecake home with me for Jeff? He will be seriously unhappy if I don't bring him some.'

'Of course you can, there is too much left for me to eat by myself.'

'Thank you.'

'No problem, I'll just do the washing up and then we can relax.'

'Let me help.'

'No, you're the guest here, I'll do it.'

'I want to help.'

'Okay, you can dry.' Dixie smiled, she stood close to Hannah as they washed up, every so often she felt Hannah's arm brush against hers as she put another plate down. It was strange how she liked doing this with Hannah, maybe if everything worked out then she would be doing this with Hannah in their own place.

Hannah put the last dish in the cupboard and she turned to Dixie. 'What do you want to do now?'

'This.' Hannah found herself pulled into a hug, she sensed that Dixie needed to be close to her and Hannah was happy to grant Dixie the hug that she needed. 'Will you show me your musical instruments?'

'Of course I will.'

'I don't know how you remember to play all of them.'

'I was young when I started playing them, it makes remembering easier. I have a good memory and I've had a lot of practice.' Hannah pushed open the door to her music room and turned on the light. 'Which one do you want to see first?'

'You choose.' Hannah sat at her piano and lifted the lid and pressed lightly on a few of the keys. 'What do you like about music so much?'

'It stops me from thinking, all that matters is the notes and the composition.'

'It must be nice.'

'It is.'

'Play something for me.'

'What like?'

'Anything.'

'Okay, I know just what to play, this is one of my favourite pieces.' Hannah placed her hands on the keys and began to play.

Dixie listened to Hannah playing the piano, she wasn't even looking at the keys most of the time. Dixie didn't listen to classical music much, but the piece was making her feel calm and relaxed. She almost found herself getting lost in the music and watching Hannah as she played. Hannah's concentration was complete and it looked as if nothing would disturb her. Dixie went and stood by Hannah's side, she just felt compelled to be there with her. Dixie blinked when the music stopped and Hannah rested her hands on her knees. 'What was that?'

'Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven.'

'I've not listened to classical music before.'

'It was one of the first things that I learned to play.'

'It's beautiful. You're so talented Hannah.'

'Thank you.'

'You could be earning a fortune playing music.'

'I know, but, being a paramedic makes me happy. I will always have music in my life as a hobby.'

'I'm glad that you made the decision to be a paramedic, if you hadn't then I wouldn't have met you.'

'I am glad I made the decision too.' Dixie smiled at Hannah, part of her was pleased that she was dating someone so talented, but another part was worried that she wasn't good enough for her.

Hannah showed Dixie the rest of her instruments and then took her back downstairs, Dixie was quiet, something was obviously bothering her. Hannah sat on the sofa and Dixie sat with her. 'I told my dad about us, he wants to meet you.' Hannah saw the look on Dixie's face, she looked nervous. 'You can meet him when you are ready, meeting the family is scary and I won't make you do it now.'

'Oh good, I'm just not ready for that yet.'

'I understand.'

'You don't mind?'

'No, I'll only arrange it when you're ready.'

'Thank you. I want to make a good impression and I can't do that when I'm a nervous wreck.' Hannah hugged Dixie.

'He'll love you, he wants to meet the woman who is making me happy.'

'Are you sure? You're so talented and great at everything, and I feel like I'm not in comparison.'

'Dixie, where is that coming from?'

'I'm glad that your dad accepts your sexuality, mine didn't.' Hannah squeezed Dixie's hand gently.

'Tell me.'

'I was twenty, I had just started working for the ambulance trust and I met a woman named Alice, my dad came to visit me and found me kissing her. I hadn't told him that I was a lesbian, I knew that he wouldn't understand. He was furious, he said I was disgusting and that he was disappointed in me. He wouldn't stop going on at me, told me that I would be doomed to a life of meaningless sex and I'd never have children or anyone that would love me and that I would die alone too. He told me he never wanted to see me again. That was the last thing that he said to me. I tried calling him, but he changed his number. I went round to his house, but he wouldn't let me in. I haven't heard from him since.'

'What happened to Alice?'

'I never saw her again. He was right, everyone I have ever cared for or loved has left me, I've never had a relationship that has lasted longer than a couple of months.'

'He is not right, everything that he said was mean and nasty. You're not alone, you have Jeff and Polly, and now you have me. I won't let you be alone, I'm not going anywhere.' Hannah hugged Dixie, her father was horrible, Hannah understood Dixie's pain because of the way her own mother felt about her sexuality.

Dixie just let Hannah hold her, it had warmed her heart to hear Hannah say that she wouldn't leave her. 'Hannah?'

'Yes?'

'Thank you.'

'You deserve it, you are a very special person Dixie and I am happy to be with you.'

'Do you mean that?'

'I do, forget what your dad said, he doesn't deserve you. Karma has a way of making people pay for their words and actions and he will reap the reward one day.' Dixie wrapped her arms around Hannah, she felt a lot lighter now that she had told Hannah what was bothering her. She had carried the memories of her dad and all of the mean things that he had said to her when she was younger for a long time.

Hannah felt Dixie relax and calm down as she held her, she hoped that Dixie was feeling better now that she had told her everything. No wonder Dixie felt like she wasn't worthy of having someone to love her, her father had made her feel worthless. Hannah vowed to reverse Dixie's bad feelings about herself, she wasn't going to leave her no matter what Dixie's father had said. 'Hannah? I should call Jeff, we have work in the morning. All of my stuff is at home and he needs to come and get me.' Hannah didn't want to let Dixie go home, everything she had told her was so horrible and she sensed that Dixie needed someone to hold her and comfort her. 'Why don't you call him and get him to drop your stuff off here? I'd like you to stay with me, we can go in together in the morning.'

'You'd let me stay with you? In your bed?'

'Just to sleep, if you want to. You've been very brave in telling me everything and I think you need someone to be with you tonight.'

'Okay, I'd love to.' Hannah smiled, she hoped that she could help Dixie to feel better.

Dixie waited by the door for Jeff, he was dropping her stuff off so she could stay the night at Hannah's. She hadn't meant to tell Hannah everything about her dad and her worries for the future, but, somehow it had all come spilling out. Dixie jumped up and opened the door the minute that Jeff knocked on it. 'I have your stuff princess.'

'Don't give me that look Jeff, it is just innocent.'

'I know. How long have I been on at you to find someone new?'

'I told her about my father.'

'You did, how did she take it?'

'She told me it was rubbish and that I have her now.'

'Good, go on princess, go back in, I'll see you tomorrow. I'm glad you're happy.'

'I am. I have something for you, this is Hannah's cheesecake and it is gorgeous.'

'Thank you princess, tell Hannah thanks for me too.' Dixie hugged Jeff and took her bag from him, she was happy, telling Hannah everything had made her feel so much better. Dixie smiled again, her future looked so much brighter now. She waved at Jeff as he drove away and went back inside.

Hannah changed into her pyjamas, removed her make up and brushed her hair out. She had let Dixie use her bathroom first, mainly so she could check that her bedroom was tidy. Hannah was pleased that Dixie had agreed to stay the night, it had been a long time since she'd had anyone in her bed. Hannah felt that Dixie needed someone, she was likely to be feeling vulnerable and Hannah was not about to let her go home feeling like nobody cared about her. She pulled back the covers on the bed and waited for Dixie to come out of the bathroom.

Dixie went into Hannah's room and found her waiting there. 'I'll just use the bathroom, I won't be long.'

'Okay, thank you for letting me stay.'

'You're welcome.' Dixie climbed into Hannah's bed, it smelled of citrus fruits, she wondered what Hannah washed her sheets with. She was still pondering the question when Hannah came back in and got in the other side of the bed. 'Hello beautiful.' Dixie turned on her side and kissed Hannah gently. 'Come here beautiful.' Dixie lay on her back and Hannah cuddled up to her. 'Jeff said thank you for his cheesecake.'

'I'll ask him what he thought of it tomorrow.'

'Goodnight Hannah, thank you for this.'

'You're welcome. Goodnight Dixie.' Dixie closed her arms around Hannah and sighed quietly, she was feeling happier than ever now. She had the woman she was in love with in her arms and for once she felt positive that she would be there forever.