Title: Moving On

Author: Raven Shadowrose

Rating: M

Pairing: ?/?

Summary: Dixie has been left broken hearted by Cyd's departure from the Holby team, what will happen when Cyd is replaced by Hannah Darbyshire and Dixie takes a liking to her? Will she find the happiness that she has been searching for, or will she end up with even more of a broken heart?

Disclaimer: I do not know or own any of the characters from Casualty, any original characters and the story are my property and I do not give permission for anyone to use this story.

A/N: This story will contain some femslash, if you do not wish to read then, by all means, back away slowly the way you came, other than that, enjoy the story and reviews are appreciated.

Thank you to chan. nelson4444 and BeethovenRIP for your reviews, are you ready for the big meeting?

Chapter Eighteen.

Cyd stood outside the coffee shop waiting for Hannah, she wasn't sure why she was here. Part of her wanted to see Dixie again, but, the other part of her was nervous and worried that Dixie would hate her and tell her to go away. It had been quite a long time since she'd seen Dixie, had Dixie changed or was she still the same? She was still thinking when she heard her name being called. 'Cyd?'

'Hannah?'

'That would be me, thank you for coming.' Cyd opened the door to the coffee shop and they went inside. 'Can I get you a coffee?'

'A latte please.'

'I'll be back in a minute.' Cyd looked at the woman that was buying them coffee, she didn't know what to make of her. Hannah had sounded quite posh on the phone, yet her appearance was completely different to how Cyd had imagined her. The spiked bracelets and heavy boots were not what she had expected at all. Cyd looked up when Hannah put the cups of coffee down on the table. 'Thanks.'

'No problem.' Cyd put some sugar into her coffee and stirred it, she wasn't sure what to say to Hannah now that she was here. 'Are you okay, you seem preoccupied?'

'I used to come here a lot with Dixie.'

'Memories?'

'Yes, lots of them.'

'She told me what happened and why you left.'

'She did? I was stupid to leave my best friend behind, I did have good intentions though. I knew that Dixie would never find anyone to love her while I was still around. She would always be focused on the feelings that she thought she had for me.'

'You couldn't give her what she was looking for?'

'No, I love her, but not in that way, I couldn't give her the love that she was searching for.'

'She still has a picture of the two of you on her desk.'

'She does? Answer me this, is Dixie still in love with me? I can't see her if she is, it will only open up doors that I think should remain closed.'

'I think part of her will always love you, but, when she talked to me about you the only thing she mentioned was that she missed her best friend.'

'Does she have someone in her life?'

'She does.' Cyd looked at the young woman in front of her, was it possible that Dixie had found love with someone?

'Is it you?'

'It is, we've been seeing each other for a month now. In fact, we have a date tomorrow.'

'Oh, I'm glad she's found someone to be with. Is she happy?'

'I think so, I hope so, we seem to be doing okay.' Cyd was surprised that the woman in front of her was into other women, she didn't seem to be the type. 'Do you want to see her Cyd?'

'I don't know, she might not want to see me.'

'I think that she will.'

'You do?'

'Yes, we can do this at my house, I think it would be better to go somewhere a bit more private.'

'All right.' Cyd was still uneasy, but she wanted to see Dixie, she wanted her best friend back.

Hannah let Cyd into her house. 'Make yourself comfortable, I won't be a moment.' Hannah felt sorry for Cyd, she had talked about everything on the way to the house. She truly believed that Cyd deserved another chance. Hannah picked up her phone and gestured at Cyd to stay quiet, she listened to the ringing and waited for Dixie to answer. 'Hi Dixie.'

'Hello beautiful, to what do I owe this pleasure?'

'Do you want to come round and see me?'

'Of course I do, I've missed you today.'

'I've missed you too.'

'I'll be round in about half an hour.'

'See you soon Dixie.'

See you soon beautiful.' Hannah put the phone down and turned to Cyd who looked more nervous than ever before.

'She's on her way.'

'You really care for Dixie, don't you? I could hear it in your voice when you were talking to her.'

'I do, she's special.'

'That she is. I'm glad she has found someone like you Hannah, someone to care for her.'

'I'm glad I found her too, she means a lot to me.' Hannah smiled, it was true that Dixie meant the world to her and that's why she had brought Cyd here. Dixie had lost too many people in her life and it was time she got one back.

Cyd looked nervously at the door, it was so close to the time when Dixie would be here. 'Cyd, go upstairs, just for now. I'll make sure that Dixie is sitting down and a bit more relaxed before you go down and talk to her.'

'That's a good idea. Thanks for doing all of this.'

'You're welcome.' Cyd went upstairs and into the room Hannah had told her to, she looked out of the window, her nerves were almost close to getting the better of her. Cyd was still staring out of the window when she saw Dixie walking up the garden path; she hadn't changed much, her hair was longer and straightened and she looked happy. Cyd listened to her talking to Hannah, Dixie was obviously in love with her. 'Hello beautiful.'

'Hi Dixie, I'm glad you came.'

'Me too.' Then silence, Cyd assumed that they were hugging each other.

'Come and sit down, I just have to go upstairs for two seconds, I'll be back soon.'

'Take your time beautiful.' Cyd heard Hannah's footsteps coming up the stairs and then through the door.

'Does she always call you beautiful?'

'Always, it has become a bit of a nickname. Are you ready?'

'I think so.'

'Don't worry, it will be fine.' Cyd gave Hannah a little smile and slowly walked down the stairs, she had to do this, she had to see Dixie.

Dixie wondered what Hannah was up to, she was definitely up to something. She had disappeared upstairs and Dixie swore that she had heard her talking to someone up there. Dixie was puzzled, she was missing something about this whole situation. 'Hello Dixie.' Dixie froze, there was an accent that she hadn't heard for a while, she turned to see Cyd stood behind her. 'Cyd, but, how?'

'Hannah, she called me a couple of days ago at work and asked me to meet with her, so, here I am.'

'You didn't answer my calls or call me back, why are you here?'

'That's a fair question, I'll explain. I was ashamed of my actions Dixie, I know that I hurt you by leaving the way that I did. I'm sorry.'

'What do you want me to say?'

'I don't know, whatever you need to.'

'I thought you were my best friend, I thought we could talk about anything. Do you know how much it hurt having to find out from someone else that you were leaving? It hurt a lot. Instead of talking to me about it, you ran away. I would have understood that you couldn't feel for me the way that I did for you. Did you think that I would have done something to you against your will?'

'I never thought that. I thought that you would be better off without me being around.'

'Better off how?'

'If I had stayed, you would never have found someone like Hannah. You would have continued thinking that I would come around. I left so you could have a chance at happiness, it hurt me to leave, but I had to do it so you could move on from me and find someone to love you.' Dixie hadn't expected Cyd to say that, she had always thought that Cyd had left because of the feelings that she'd revealed to her, she'd thought that Cyd had found the idea repulsive and that was why she left. Dixie tried to be angry, but, she couldn't do it. 'Why didn't you tell me?'

'I couldn't, you wouldn't have let me go. I'm thinking that I did the wrong thing leaving anyway, I hate it where I am now.'

'Cyd?'

'Yes.'

'I think I need my best friend back on my team.'

'You'd let me come back?'

'If you want to come back. I don't have a place for you on the team right now, but, Emma is moving back to New Zealand next month. If you want the position then it is yours.'

'I don't know what to say.'

'Don't say anything, put in your transfer request the minute you go back and have them call me.'

'I will do, thank you Dixie. Can I have a hug?'

'Of course you can.' Dixie hugged Cyd, she had her best friend back and she had only one woman to thank for that.

'Go and thank Hannah for me, she's a lovely woman Dixie.'

'Is that your way of telling me that you approve of her?'

'It is.'

'Wait here, I'll bring her down with me.' Dixie ran up the stairs to Hannah's room.

Hannah had put her music on to give Cyd and Dixie some privacy while they talked, she really wanted them to sort things out. Life was too short to live it without the people that mean the most. She absent-mindedly flipped through a magazine as she lay on her bed. Hannah turned the music down when she heard the knock on her door. 'Come in.' Dixie's head appeared around the door and Hannah smiled.

'Hello beautiful.'

'How did it go?'

We're getting there, Cyd is going to come back to Holby when a position opens up next month. I understand why she left now and I'm glad that I have my friend back.'

'Good, a smart man told me that friendships shouldn't die.'

'Who said that?'

'My dad.'

'He is a smart man. Thank you Hannah, for doing this for me.'

'I just want to see you happy.'

'I am.' Hannah made room for Dixie as she sat down beside her on the bed and she found herself enveloped in a hug. 'I am lucky to have you Hannah.'

'I am lucky to have you too, my sweet Dixie.' Hannah relaxed in Dixie's arms, being held felt nice, she felt safe when Dixie held her.

Dixie felt Hannah relax, she kissed Hannah's forehead and just held her close, she knew that she was in love with Hannah more than ever before. Nobody had ever done anything for her like what Hannah had done today. 'Come downstairs, Cyd wants to say thank you.'

'Okay, I will.' Dixie took Hannah's hand as they went down the stairs, she squeezed it and then kissed Hannah gently.

'You're an amazing woman Hannah.'

'So are you.' Dixie let go of Hannah's hand so she could hug Cyd, everything felt so right with the world, she couldn't wait to tell Jeff about everything that had happened today. 'I have to go home now, I have a shift tomorrow,' Cyd said apologetically. Dixie didn't want to let Cyd go, but she understood that she had to. 'Keep in touch, I can't wait until you are back here properly.'

'I know, it won't be long.' Dixie hugged Cyd again and then showed her to the door with Hannah, they both waved as Cyd drove away. Dixie didn't want to be without Hannah at all, she wanted to stay with her. 'Hannah, do you want to stay at mine tonight?'

'I'd love to.'

'It's my curry night with Jeff, but I'm sure he won't mind you coming along.'

'Are you sure? I'd hate for him to think that I'm intruding.'

'He won't think that, come on, I'd love for you to be there.'

'Okay, let me get my stuff and I'll be right with you.' Dixie kissed Hannah and let her go upstairs, she was loving being with someone as caring and considerate as Hannah. Dixie couldn't wait to tell Hannah that she loved her and ask her if she would be her partner on their date tomorrow.