Chapter 3

Sadly, I still don't own Twilight or Remember Me

Thanks to anicacullen for the proof reading.

After the phone went silent, I fell into some sort of haze. I knew I would have plenty of time until Alice's arrival. And time was the last thing I needed. I didn't want to think, I felt like a human who swam through the ocean. I was mentally tired. Who knew that changing a dying guy was such a tiresome job?

To keep myself somewhat occupied, I went back to scrutinize him. He whimpered and moaned quietly, so I sat next to him. After a little inner battle, I reached for his hand and held it in my own.

"I'm sorry. I know how much pain you're in. But it will go away eventually, and you'll be stronger than ever. I promise." I whispered, and he made no sign of understanding me.

Suddenly, I felt ridiculous for talking to somebody who was without doubt too preoccupied burning alive to listen to my babbling.

In this moment he shifted his weight, and I noticed a piece of paper that was dangerously close to slip out of his pocket.

My curious nature made itself known as a wave of irresistible urge to see the sheet. So I took and examined it.

My breath caught in my throat from the sight. The paper was actually a picture, showing my creation with a blonde girl. But what I noticed first were his eyes, the most beautiful shade of blue-green like the ocean. They mesmerized me and I felt a slight pain at the thought that this color was lost forever. But their owner - even with crimson colored eyes- will live and that was what really mattered.

My second observation was the girl. They stood there like those people who are in love, with their arms around each other, and laughing happily at the camera. Now I felt even more pain. I didn't understand why, he wasn't my belonging. I also realized that I didn't know anything about him. Not even his name, let alone his family or marital status. But I couldn't help myself, I wanted to be in the girl's place so bad.

"You've fallen in love with him. That's how love feels." The annoying inner voice I got to know so well in the last half an hour or so told me.

But no, it was not possible for me to fall in love. It simply didn't feel right to see him with a female. I wasn't jealous, it just wasn't right.

And despite everything, I would have paid anything to have him on a picture with me like he was with her. Something in this guy drew me to him like a magnet, or rather a thousand magnets, like nothing else before. I wanted to pull him close to me in an embrace to tell him that everything would be fine from now on, that his pain would go away. I wanted to erase that pain with a kiss… or two. Was he my singer? I heard Carlisle talk about singers, but I wasn't sure.

Out of thin air, a pixie's voice interrupted my slightly inappropriate thoughts.

"Bella? Who the heck is this? And what happened to him? And why am I seeing…"

"What are you seeing?" I asked, startled. Did she see us together?

"Nothing, except for flashes. So who's that? And how did you get him?"

"I don't know who he is," I admitted. "I just found him nearby the tower. Do you remember the scent?" I asked her.

"Sure. Did you find the source?"

"Um, yes. I found the source. It was him, dying, and I saved him." I explained casually.

Alice's eyes almost jumped out of their sockets.

"You BIT. HIM? And he is alive… Impressive," She said, smiling. "I'm proud of you. But I'm wondering what you are going to do with him. I wish you good luck to restrain a newborn."

Newborn. It haven't even occurred to me before, but now even I was impressed by my own stupidity. How on Earth would I cope with a newborn when I almost still was one?!

I realized that Alice still waited for my answer, so I made up an idea. "I think we should bring him somewhere safe then we can discuss the further plans."

"Good idea. And when he wakes up, we will explain everything to him and he can decide whether he wants to stay with us or live his own life."

Own life. I felt a sudden little pain, similar to the one I felt when I found out about Blondie. On the other hand, I had a feeling that he would stay. He looked like the perfect vegetarian vampire to me.

"Okay, bring him, let's go home." Alice told me. "But you're explaining this all to the family." She added.

We went back to the car, I sincerely hoped no one would see us.

The car ride to home was silent. I was grateful for the crazy driving habits of my family, since we didn't have to travel by plane. In this situation, that would be a tad conspicuous.

Alice and I were both silent, I was nervous and had a lot to think about and Alice, knowing her, must have been scanning the future. I felt like a child who broke her granny's finest china and waited for the punishment. I wasn't sure if my family would be able to see the story in my point of view. I was sure they wouldn't let down a dying man, either. Especially if the man would be more than attractive to them.

Our story reminded me of Rosalie and Emmett's, and I feared their reactions the most. I wasn't in the family yet, but I heard the story multiple times and I knew that nobody threw a fit when Rosalie brought home the dying Emmett. Her intentions were similar to mine, she didn't want him to die. And they fell in love and got married and live happily ever after since their first wedding. Yes, first, because they got married multiple times. Rose likes attention. I hate it. It's just another little thing of the thousand others that made us sharp opposites. And turns out opposites don't always attract each other.

I looked at the landscape blurring past the window. We were halfway there. The closer we got to home, the more nervous I became. My biggest worry was Jasper, who could find out in the blink of an eye why exactly I became a lifesaver. And I didn't want him to find out. I would have to hide everything from him, which would be hard, but I'd do it for the sake of my own sanity.

The thought almost made me laugh. Keeping secrets in our family? Almost impossible. And I knew them too well to easily predict what would happen once we get home. Carlisle would be proud of me and would want to know every little detail of the transformation. Esme's reaction was a piece of cake, love comes so easy to her, I knew she'd immediately accept and even love the newest family member. With my siblings, there'd be more trouble. First of all, there will be a problem with Jasper, with his gift. Then there came Emmett, who can be really dumb sometimes, but if he found out about my secret… I couldn't live it down. He would tease me out of the world with his suggestive jokes. Alice would be the hardest to lie to, it crossed my mind that maybe, just maybe she already knew. She was suspiciously quiet, not her usual bubbly self. Maybe her visions kept her occupied. And lastly, there was Rosalie, whose reaction I feared the most. She'd be beyond furious, she hates changes, and this boy –according to her- means threat being the newborn. And I couldn't expect her to be open-minded, she could barely even tolerate me.

But I didn't care. She doesn't have to talk to me ever again if she chooses so. I'd fight for my man. I was shocked by myself yet again. Would I go against my family for this completely stranger? And I knew the answer to my own question. Yes. Yes, I would. I would risk everything, I would go against the world if I had to for him.