Hello my wonderful readers! Here's my latest update and it's quite a long one too! This is my Christmas present to all of my darling readers! And the Prequel to this story will be out on either New Year's Eve or New Year's Day, as another little present to to guys. So in this chapter you guys are gunna find out stuff that you won't see coming! :D

Chapter Thirty One:

"How do you feel? About your father I mean, now that you have discovered the truth?" Doctor Miles asked - the therpiest - as he sat in his chair with a look that said I could trust him, even though this was our first session. It's been two days since my breakdown and I had agreed - for everyone else's sake - to see a therpiest. And here I am now, standing by the window and my fingers playing with my hair like I was an 8 year old.

I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know what to feel towards him anymore," I said honestly as I stared out the window. "I mean, could you forgive someone who has lied to you your whole life?" Now I was looking at him.

"It doesn't matter what I think, it's about what you think. Do you think you could ever forgive you father about not telling you the truth about your birth mother and your twin brother?"

"Honestly," I sat back down on the couch in front of him, "I don't know. I mean...I don't even remember my mother and my brother. But I feel as if now I know...I understand now why I have this big hole in my heart." I ran my hand through my hair. "And I didn't even know them."

"How do you mean?" Doc Miles asked.

I struggled for words, "Like...I didn't know what her favourite colour was. Were me and my brother close when we were younger?"

"These sound like things that your father would know." Doc Miles stated, "Or you aunt."

I let out a laugh, "I know, thats why I hate them a bit."

"Why?"

"Because they knew them and I was too young to remember."

"So your jealous?"

I bit my lip, "On some level, yeah I am. But on another level, no, I feel more angry than jealous."

"Because they never told you?"

"Partly."

"Partly?"

I put my chin on my fist and said, "Yeah...but I don't really know what the other part is."

"Well, that's why we're here." Doc Miles said with a friendly smile, "To see what the other part of that anger is about." He looked at the clock, "But I'm afraid that this session has come to it's end."

"Couldn't wait to get rid of me uh?" I joked.

Doc Miles chuckled and shook his head, "No, but go to Dee and she'll put up next week's appointment."

I nodded and stood up, "Thanks Doc, see you next week."

"Rose," The Doc called as I was about to open the door. I look to him and he said, "If you really want answers to your questions, you should talk to your aunt. You may hate her at the moment, but she could help you."

I nodded, "Thanks."

Then I left.

When I walked into the waiting room I saw Dimitri sitting in one of the chairs, reading one of his Cowboy books.

I smiled as I went over to him, "You know," His eyes snapped up to me, "You didn't have to wait for me."

"What was I suppose to do?" He asked as he stood up in front of me, "Wait in the car?" We got a therpiest somewhere out of court but also with someone who was a dhampir. Yeah, I know what your thinking. Dhampir as a Therpiest? But he's a retired guardian and wanted to help other dhampirs with there problems. It was very honorable of him.

"Yes, I know what's its like sitting in the waiting room, it's not nice."

He wrapped his free arm around my waist, "Your worth it."

We kissed until someone in another waiting sit coughed, making us break apart.

"Come on," Dimitri said grabbing my hand, "Let's go."

I quickly made another appointment with Dee and next thing I knew I was in the car with Dimitri.

"Are you okay?"

I gave him a sweet smile and grabbed hold of his hand, tightly. "I'm fine. I'm not going to have another breakdown." Dimitri flinched and I frowned. "I'm sorry I had put you through that, I never meant to hurt you."

"You didn't." I gave him a pointed look. "It hurt to see you like that, but I know you didn't mean to and now, all I can think about is that your getting your feelings out, even if its not with me."

"Hey," I said gently. "I will let you know how I feel, but right now...I'm not sure if you can handle it. Even if you say you can, but I'm not so sure."

Dimitri nodded and kissed me on the forehead, "I know you'll tell me in your own time." And then he smiled, "Anyways, what do you want to do today?"

"Acutally," I started looking straight outside. "I need to talk to Janine."

I had to knock on the door four times before Janine finally opened it.

"Rose," she breathed and open the door wide open for me. "Come in."

I did and walked right into the living room. It was like any of the other guest houses, but more plain.

"Would you like something to eat or to drink?" Janine asked slowly.

I shook my head as I quickly sat on the couch, my whole body tense.

"How are you?" She asked once again as she sat on the couch too, but a distance from me.

Good.

I pushed my lips together, "I'm better, thank you. But I need to ask you some questions."

She raised an eyebrow, "What kind of questions?"

"About my mother," I stated, "And my brother."

Janine sighed, "I don't think I can really help you there. Even though before her death, your mother and I grew close, I didn't really know her. And I was hardly around for your brothers and your first years."

"Right," I breathed out, "So this is a dead end."

"Well, there is always someone else you could talk to."

I glared at her, "I am not talking to Abe."

"Did I say Abe." Janine snapped at me and stood up, walking over to the empty bookshelf. "Do you remember that best friend I told you about?" She said getting a notepad out, "The one who always went with Quinn to our mother's cafe?"

I nodded, "Yeah...why?"

"Both her and Quinn are like you and Lissa. They grew up together, more like sisters than me and Quinn ever were. So if you want anwers to your questions." She handed me a notepad turned onto a certin page, "I would see her."

"What's her name?" I asked as I hestiatly grabbed the notepad with an address on it.

"Kayla."

My eyes snapped up to Janine.

She gave me a small smile, "Yeah, that's where you get your middle name from. She's your godmother."

I looked down at the address and then I was confused. "Wait, this is outside of Court...In the human world."

Janine nodded, "Yeah, they live in the human world. They can't stand this world, so I would go there at night." As night to us was day for humans.

"Thanks." I said as I stood up, "This really means a lot."

Janine smiled, "You're welcome."

I left early that night, Dimitri wanted to come but I needed to do this alone. I didn't want him to witness another breakdown - if I have one. And personally, I wanted to learn about this stuff on my own terms.

I used the car that Dimitri borrowed and left Court, going to the address that held all the answers.

I didn't know what I would come to, but I was shocked to see that Kayla was living in a human street, with all different coloured houses and the sun making it look like the most peaceful place on Earth.

I parked the car near the actual house - so I didn't want to frighten Kayla - and made my way other there. It was only three minute walk unit I was standing outside the house. Now I was having second thoughts.

What if she totally forgot about my mother, brother and I? What if she never talked about? What if she refused to tell me anything?

I swallowed down all my worries and made my way onto the porch of the house, before knocking on the light blue door.

I almost gave up as no one answered for a minute, unit the door swung open...

It opened to a woman, who had raven black hair, beautiful grey eyes, Moroi pale skin, but tall. She had a wide smile on her face, showing her fangs. However when her eyes landed on me, her smile faded and her eyes narrowed.

"Rosemarie?" She breathed out, like she was too in shock.

I opened my mouth, but no words came out.

"Quinn's daughter?" She asked, "My goddaughter?"

I pressed my lips together as I could feel tears burning in my eyes. "Yeah, that's me."

Kayla stood there for a moment, staring. Then suddenly, she pulled me into her arms for a hug.

And for that moment, I felt safe and cried into her shoulder.

"So, you live at Court now?" Kayla asked as she was making tea. After we pulled apart, she dragged me into her house, into her kitchen, told me to sit down as she made the best tea ever. I couldn't help but laugh.

"Yeah, with my charge. Lissa Dragomir" I said as I watched her making tea.

"Vasillia Dragomir?" Kayla asked suprised, "Rhea's daughter?"

I nodded, "Yeah, you knew Rhea Dragomir."

Kayla laughed as she came to sit at the kitchen table with me. "Did I know her? Her and I were roommates back at Morgans Academy."

My eyes widened. "My Mom was friends with Lissa's mom?"

She grinned, "Well...not at first. We both hated her guts, but in the end we became friends. It was your aunt who was best friends with her."

I was taken back, "Aunt Janine had friends?"

Kayla tipped her head back and laughed out loud, "Yeah, even though she was known as the ice queen, she and Rhea were close."

"Wow," I breathed. "I never knew that."

"How did they tell you?" Kayla changed the subject. "How did they tell you about your mother?"

I frowned, "They didn't. Lissa found out and told me. But if she never told me, then I would of never have known, because they were never going to tell me."

Kayla sighed, "They promised us that they will tell you when you turned eighteen."

"Well, they both lied to the both of us."

Getting up, Kayla went back to making of the tea. "You know," she started, "Your mother was my best friend, like my sister. And your grandmother was like my mother. Better than my parents."

"What do you mean?"

Bringing the teas back over, she replied "My family was disappointed that I didn't have the fire element, instead I have the air element. I was the outsider to them."

"Who are your family?"

She smiled then, "Back then I was known as Kayla Ozera."

I almost spat my tea out. "Ozera?" I mumbled, "As in Christian Ozera?"

She laughed, "Yes, he's my fifth cousin, twice removed."

I leaned back in my seat. "Wow..."

"But we're not here to talk about me." Kayla stated, "What do you want to know?"

I sighed, "Everything. What was she like? Is she anything like me? Do I look like her?"

"Yes, you do." Kayla muttered, looking straight at me. "And you have come to the right place, I knew your mother like the back of my foot." I giggled. "So, eveything!...Well, your mother was half British."

"She was British?" I almost shouted, "You mean her father was from England."

"And a good man too." Kayla agreed. "I have no idea why your grandmother let him go."

"So that makes me-"

"Quarter British? Yes." She nodded, "And half Turkish, and quarter American, because your mother was half American."

When I didn't speak, she went on.

"She was born on June the 14th, and for her seventh birthday she spent the day rolling in mud."

I laughed, "Rolling in mud?"

Kayla shrugged, "Your mother was a free spirit and for her seventh birthday she wanted to roll in mud. Even though it got mud up her nose."

I couldn't stop laughing.

Then Kayla kept telling me stories about her and Mom, and with that, I felt more closer to her, even though I couldn't remember her. I could see why Mom was best friends with Kayla, she was so down to earth character and she had a charm about her.

That's when Kayla got the photo ablum out.

"Oh my god," I said looking at the pictures in there teens. "You were an goth!"

Kayla shook her head as she laughed, "I was not a goth, I just liked dressing up in dark things."

"You had blue highlights!"

"Hey! Your mother found it very cool." Kayla stated and I went through more of the pictures.

Then I stopped at one and stared at it.

In the picture was Kayla and my Mom, young and that, but there was a male. A male I have only met twice.

"Derek Longarm?" I whispered.

"You know," Kayla said. "When my husband said he had met you first, I was so jealous."

"Your husband?"

She put up her left hand, that held a marriage ring. "Back then I was Kayla Ozera, and now I'm formally known as Mrs Kayla Longarm."

"Oh my god," I breathed.

"I know its hard to believe, but your mother is sort of behind it."

"How?" I asked.

She smiled, "She was old friends with Derek, but they lost contact for a while. When we were sixteen, I was partnered with Derek for a project and I grew to really like him. So I told him and he said didn't feel the same way. But Quinn soon got the truth out of him and well..." She waved her hands. "Here we are."

"Do you have kids?" I asked

That's when she frowned, "No we don't. I was told by the doctors that I was...unable to have children." She pushed her lips together. "It was hard, it broke us apart for a while. But we surived and adopted Georgia and Henric."

I slightly smiled at her, "I'm sorry and happy for you. I know what its like not being able to have children with the man you love." I thought to Dimitri, but we never talk about it. It just never came up.

"Yes, Derek told me you were in a relationship with a dhampir." Kayla stated, "Your mother would be proud."

I smiled at her, "Thank you."

That's when Kayla stood up, "Come on, I want to show you something."

Kayla had been driving for nearly half an hour when we finally stopped. At first I didn't see anything unsual about the location, but then I saw the church. And then the grave yard.

"What are we doing here?" I asked in slight confusion.

Kayla gave me a sad smile, "You're going to see your mother and brother."

My eyes widened as I watched her get out of the car. I soon followed her.

She walked on, some how knowing I would follow her willingly. Which I did, my whole body feeling tense. Did I really want to see their graves? Yes and no, the yes part because I wanted to know that they were truly in peace. But the no part is that I didn't want to face that half of my family was actually dead.

But it was too late to decide now as I saw Kayla stop in front of a grave, her grey eyes filled with saddness.

I slowly went up to her - but not slow enough - as my eyes soon met with the two graves I've never wanted to see.

Quinn Veronica Hathaway-Mazur

Beloved daughter, sister, wife and mother

We shall miss you.

And on the other grave

Ryan Stephan Mazur

Missed son and brother

I bit my lip, holding back the tears.

"I've might of only known you for a few hours," Kayla started as I felt her eyes on me as I stared at the graves. "But I know that you're a good person, a passionate, kind, beautiful young girl." She lightly put her hand on my shoulder, "I know - both of them - would be proud." When I didn't reply, she said, "I'll wait in the car." She gave me a squeeze on the shoulder before walking away.

I couldn't stop staring at the graves, my heart pounding in my chest and my eyes burning like the sun.

I put my hand on my chest to help me breath right, but it didn't work as I fell - on my knees - on the ground, in front of the graves and burst out into heavy tears.

"I should be getting back soon." I stated as we entered back into Kayla's house, "Dimitri and the others might be worried and I'm -"

"Tired?" She guessed and I nodded. "I couldn't blame you, it has been along day for you, but I have something to give to you before you go." She went back to the photo ablum and got out a picture. "This was taken sometime at a holiday that your father took us to." She handed me the picture which had her, my mother, my aunt, father and Derek in. "That was one of the times when we were very happy."

I smiled at her, "Thank you, for everything, may I keep in contact by e-mail though?"

"I certinally hope so," She said happily, "come on, I'll walk you to your car."

I nodded and we both went out of the house. Just as we did, a truck pulled up onto Kayla's drive way. Derek's truck.

As he got out of the truck, he paused when he saw me and smiled went across his face.

"Rose," He said as he walked over to us, "It's good to see you again."

I smiled at him back, "You too, your wife is very lovely."

He grinned then as he stood beside Kayla, "Don't I know it," then he kissed her forehead and she signed happily.

"Before I go," I struggled, "What was her favourite colour?"

Kayla laughed, showing off her white fangs. "Green. Her favourite colour was green."

I smiled more brightly than I ever did today, "Thank you for everything." I called out from my car, "I hope to see you soon!"

"You better!" Kayla called out, wrapping her arms around Derek and he did the same.

As I got into the front seat of my car, I couldn't help but laugh.

Her favourite colour was green.

That's it for today my fans, hopefully I'll update soon but no promises. I hope you liked it and will review it :D I also wish everyone a Merry Christmas! :D Next up will be Rose's birthday and then Chris's and Lissa's wedding! :P x