Title: Moving On

Author: Raven Shadowrose

Rating: M

Pairing: ?/?

Summary: Dixie has been left broken hearted by Cyd's departure from the Holby team, what will happen when Cyd is replaced by Hannah Darbyshire and Dixie takes a liking to her? Will she find the happiness that she has been searching for, or will she end up with even more of a broken heart?

Disclaimer: I do not know or own any of the characters from Casualty, any original characters and the story are my property and I do not give permission for anyone to use this story.

A/N: This story will contain some femslash, if you do not wish to read then, by all means, back away slowly the way you came, other than that, enjoy the story and reviews are appreciated.

Thank you to chan. nelson4444 and BeethovenRIP for your comments, enjoy the chapter :)

Chapter Twenty-Nine.

Hannah had just about convinced Cyd to come and help Polly move into Dixie's old room, she was going to go home, but Hannah had worked on her until she had given in and agreed to come along. She'd heard what Cyd had done when she'd gone on the shout with Jeff, it proved to her that Cyd was a good person and deserved a second chance. Cyd was somewhat quiet, she had been for some time, Hannah was trying to get to know her a bit better. She had taken Cyd downstairs on the pretence that everyone could use something to drink. 'How did your first day go?'

'It wasn't too bad, I still think that Jeff hates me though.'

'He will come around in the end Cyd, you did a very brave thing today, pulling him away from that falling ceiling.'

'Do you really think so?'

'Yes, it takes a lot of courage to risk yourself like that.'

'I don't think that he can forget what I did to Dixie.'

'Dixie has, that is good enough for me.'

'Shouldn't you hate me too?'

'Is there a reason that I should?'

'I hurt Dixie, you're in love with her, isn't that reason enough?'

'No, hate is a useless emotion in my opinion.'

'I can see why Dixie loves you, you're genuinely nice and kind.'

'I'll take that as a compliment.'

'I mean it. I am happy for Dixie, she is so much happier than I remember her being. I think that is down to you.'

'It is nice of you to say that, I hope that it is true. Tell me about yourself Cyd, I don't know anything about you.' Hannah poured the drinks into glasses and put the box of doughnuts she had bought on the counter. 'I don't know what to say, I'm ordinary really, just me.'

'That's a good description, you should always be yourself. Do you have a boyfriend?'

'No, I did have, it didn't work out.'

'I'm sorry to hear that.'

'He wasn't pleased I was coming back to Holby, he wouldn't leave Cheshire. I suppose I didn't mean that much to him.'

'Do you want my advice?'

'It can't hurt, go ahead.'

'Forget him, you deserve so much better than someone like that.'

'Maybe you're right.'

'Come on, we should get these drinks upstairs.' Hannah picked up the doughnuts and helped Cyd carry the drinks up to Dixie and the others.

Dixie gratefully took her glass of coke from Hannah. 'Thanks beautiful.' She was sat next to Jeff on what would be Polly's bed, nearly everything was moved in now. They were taking a little break for something to drink. Hannah and Cyd handed around the rest of the drinks, it was then that that Dixie noticed the box in Hannah's arms. 'What have you got there beautiful?'

'Doughnuts, I bought them earlier, Polly gets a special one because it is her birthday today.'

'You already got me a present and made me a cake, you're spoiling me Hannah.'

'You deserve it, besides that was last week, your birthday is today.' Dixie smiled as Polly took the doughnut Hannah held out to her. 'Triple chocolate with melted chocolate in the middle. Enjoy.' Hannah handed the box around with the rest of the doughnuts in and soon they were all eating a doughnut each. Dixie tasted sugar and jam as she bit into the surface of the doughnut, they were lovely. 'Where did you get these doughnuts from?'

'Krispy Kreme, there's a shop near the hospital.'

'I've heard of the shop, but I've never had a doughnut from there.' Dixie chuckled at the surprised look on Hannah's face.

'You've never had a Krispy Kreme doughnut, what is the world coming to? This could be the start of a very dangerous obsession for you then Dixie.'

'I think you might be right, they are amazing. What is inside them?'

'Raspberry jam and sugar glaze on the top.' Dixie didn't know what made the doughnut taste so good, but she loved it. She was trying not to think about that she would be leaving this house to live with Hannah soon, she really wanted to go with Hannah, but she would miss Jeff too, she was torn between two of the people that she loved most in the world.

Polly looked around her new room, everyone had gone downstairs for a little while, she was going to join them soon. Dixie had left her bed here as she wouldn't be needing it now that she was going to live with Hannah, they'd changed the covers earlier, but it still felt like Dixie's room somehow. It was nice to be in a warm house again. Her guitar was in the corner of the room, it reminded her of the people that she loved. She heard a knock on the door and then Dixie popped her head around the door. 'Polly, are you all right?'

'I think so, what about you?'

'Me? I'm okay.'

'Come on Dixie, tell me the truth.'

'It's moving out, leaving Jeff behind, I want to go with Hannah, but leaving is going to be hard.'

'All changes are hard Dixie, you're not going far, we will be able to visit you and you can come to see us too.'

'I know, saying goodbye to Jeff will be the hardest part.'

'Then don't say goodbye, say see you later.'

'Do you think he really understands and wants me to move in with Hannah?'

'Yes, Jeff cares for you Dixie, he wants you to be happy. Don't worry, I will take good care of him.'

'I know, I feel like I'm abandoning him.'

'You're not. Come here Dixie.' Polly hugged Dixie, the poor woman was feeling guilty about leaving Jeff behind.

'It's not just that, there's everything with Cyd too, I brought her back here and now he has to share me with both Hannah and Cyd.'

'Dixie, you have enough love in your heart for everyone that you care for.'

'You are a sweet girl Polly.'

'I mean it.'

'Come on then, shall we go down to everyone?'

'Yes, Hannah might think I've kidnapped you.' Polly and Dixie laughed and went downstairs to the lounge where the others were waiting.

Jeff was trying to be civil to Cyd, he hadn't quite forgiven her for hurting Dixie just yet, but he was going to do this for Dixie's sake. Today was going to be hard enough for her, sooner or later she was going to have to leave with Hannah and they were going to have to say goodbye. It was getting late, they were on the early shift in the morning and it meant that everyone would have to be in bed soon. He watched Dixie as she said goodbye to Cyd, he wasn't sure if Cyd being here was a good idea, but he would make an effort. He was dreading what was coming next, it was going to be hard. Polly and Hannah went into the kitchen, obviously they were giving them some privacy. He looked at Dixie, she was already emotional. 'Dixie, come here princess.' When Dixie was close enough he pulled her into a hug, he wrapped his arms around her and held her close. 'Don't be sad, you're moving in with the woman you love, this is a time to be happy.'

'I can't help it, so much is changing, how am I meant to be happy that I'm leaving you behind?'

'You're not, I'm still going to be here. Just because you're moving out doesn't mean we can't see each other. I'm going to come and see you and you can come and see me whenever you want.'

'What about Little Abs?'

'Dixie, he can come and stay with you and Hannah whenever you want, we can share him.'

'I suppose so. Jeff, am I being a bad friend?'

'What do you mean?'

'I'm focusing on what I want, does that make me selfish?'

'No, you're not selfish Dixie.' Jeff put his hands on Dixie's shoulders and looked at her, she was crying. 'Don't cry Dix, please don't cry.' Jeff pulled Dixie back into his arms and gently rocked her, he'd always known that this would be hard for her. Tears slipped down Jeff's face as he stroked Dixie's hair, he was going to miss her too.

Dixie just buried herself into Jeff's arms, she knew it was going to be hard leaving him here, he was her best friend and she loved him. She felt Jeff's hand caressing her hair, her tears slowed and she settled her head against his chest. 'It isn't goodbye Jeff, we'll see each other every day at work and you can come round every evening to see me if you want to. This is see you later.'

'I know, I'll be at yours so often that you'll get fed up of me, you'll be kicking me out.' Dixie smiled.

'I really hope that you come and see me a lot, I'll be coming to see you too.'

'I love you Dixie, you deserve this.'

'I love you too Jeff, you're the best friend that I've ever had.'

'Now go, be with the woman you love.' Dixie closed her eyes as Jeff kissed her head, she felt the tears threatening to spill down her face again. 'I'm going to drive you and Hannah home.'

'You don't have to.'

'I want to, I have to make sure my best friend gets home safe.' Dixie smiled at Jeff, he was still her best friend and he always would be.

Hannah looked at Jeff and Dixie as they came into the kitchen, they had clearly been crying while they talked to each other. She felt bad about splitting them up, they'd lived together for so long and now they were having to live apart. Should she have insisted that Dixie stay here with Jeff? 'Come on Hannah,' Dixie said as she approached. 'Jeff is going to give us a lift home.' Hannah heard Dixie's voice falter on the last word, she was finding it hard. Hannah hugged Polly. 'Don't worry Hannah, I'll look after Jeff,' she heard Polly whisper in her ear.

'I know you will,' she whispered back. Hannah stood back and let Dixie hug Polly, no doubt she was telling Dixie the same thing, that she would look after Jeff. Hannah knelt down and stroked Little Abs, Dixie joined her and Hannah put her hand on Dixie's shoulder, she knew that Dixie would miss Jeff and the dog terribly.

Jeff noted the silence in the car as he drove Hannah and Dixie to Hannah's house, he was trying to keep his emotions in check, trying to remind himself that it wasn't goodbye. He parked the car outside Hannah's house, he got out and stood with Dixie while Hannah opened the door. He hugged Hannah. 'Look after Dixie for me.'

'I will, don't forget that you can come and visit whenever you want.'

'I know, I will take you up on that.'

'I'll leave you to it.' Jeff let Hannah go and she went inside, he was grateful that she had given them the privacy to say goodbye.

'Jeff, this is so hard.'

'I know princess, please don't feel guilty or selfish.'

'I can't help it, I'm worried about how you will manage without me.'

'I'll be with Polly, I'm not alone.' Jeff noticed that Dixie was swallowing back tears, he wished he could make it easier on her. 'Go on Dixie, go to Hannah, I will see you later princess.'

'See you later Jeff.' Jeff waved at Dixie and got into the car, he had to do this quickly, it would be easier for Dixie if he left now.

Jeff drove himself home, he put the alarm on the car and went into the house, Polly was waiting for him. 'How did it go?'

'As well as can be expected.' He suddenly found himself wrapped in a hug.

'It will be okay Jeff.'

'I know, I just miss her.'

'You're allowed to miss Dixie, she's been in your life for so long.'

'This is the right thing to do.'

'You'll still see her at work and she said you can go round whenever you like.'

'Yes, she did.' Jeff hugged Polly, it was going to be hard for a couple of days, but he was pleased that Dixie was living with someone she loved.

Dixie stood outside and watched Jeff drive away, the tears that had been threatening to run down her face now escaped her eyes. She had tried to keep them back while Jeff had been with her, if he saw her cry then he would never leave. 'Dixie.' She heard Hannah calling her and turned around. 'Come inside, it is cold.' Dixie went over to Hannah, she tried to smile at her, but she feared that she had failed. 'Oh Dixie, come here.' Dixie followed Hannah into the house and hugged her. 'It's okay to be sad. Cry if you need to.'

'I know I should be happy, but it is hard.'

'It's all right, all of this is a big change.'

'You know that I love you Hannah.'

'I know, I love you too.' Dixie kissed Hannah, she wanted her to know that she loved her. 'Come on Dixie, you need to go to bed, it has been an emotional day for you.'

'It has, you're right, I need some sleep.' Dixie felt Hannah squeeze her hand, she was glad that Hannah was here, she wouldn't have got through today without her being there.