Title: Moving On

Author: Raven Shadowrose

Rating: M

Pairing:?/?

Summary: Dixie has been left broken hearted by Cyd's departure from the Holby team, what happens when Cyd is replaced by Hannah Darbyshire and Dixie takes a liking to her. Will she end up with even more of a broken heart or will she find the happiness that she has been searching for?

Disclaimer: I do not know or own any of the characters from Casualty, all original characters and the story are my property and I do not give permission for anyone else to use this story.

Author's Note: This story will contain will contain some femslash, if you do not wish to read it then by all means back away slowly the way you came, other than that enjoy the story and reviews are appreciated :)

Thank you to chan. nelson444, olivia. c. king1 and beethovenRIP for your comments, I love reading what you think of my writing :)

Chapter Thirty-Two.

Dixie stood in front of all of her staff, she hated having to ask people to work Christmas day, it was special and people should be with their families. She understood that people had to work and there would always be people that needed help but it didn't change that she wished that someone else would make the decision for her. She was going to give people a chance to volunteer for it, then maybe she wouldn't have to choose for them. She was proud of them all, they worked hard and looked after each other when they were out on duty. Dixie sighed, she was going to have to do this, someone needed to work on Christmas day.

They were all sat in the rec room, she put the blank rota sheet on the table, all she had to do was fill it in. 'Okay everyone, as you know Christmas is coming closer, I'm going to have to ask some of you to work Christmas day. I was hoping that some of you would volunteer, I'll need one person from each team.' Dixie let her words sink in, she looked at them all, the silence in the room wasn't very encouraging. Dixie saw Hannah go to move but Polly stopped her. 'I'll work.'

'Are you sure Polly?'

'Yes, I'll take the day shift.'

'Me too.' Dixie had known that Jeff would volunteer somehow, he always struggled when it came to Christmas and being away from the kids. 'Don't ask me if I'm sure Dixie, you know that I am.'

'Okay, thank you Jeff.' Slowly she managed to fill in the rota with the people that had volunteered to work. 'Thank you everyone, I am grateful for all of the work that you do here.' She sent everyone off to their teams and sat down at the table with Hannah. 'I hated doing that, everyone should be with their families on Christmas day.'

'They volunteered for it Dixie, you gave them the choice, that is more than a lot of people get.'

'I suppose so.' Dixie looked at Polly, Jeff and Cyd, they had all volunteered to work, she knew why Jeff and Cyd had volunteered for the shift as their families were far away but why had Polly agreed to work? Polly was always very secretive about her family, she never talked about them at all.

Hannah looked at the people she had come to call her friends, Polly had stopped her volunteering for the shift on Christmas day, something made her want to ask why Polly had done that, she was going to get Polly an amazing present to say thank you. Hannah took Polly a coffee and sat with her on the back step of the ambulance. 'Hey Polly, why did you volunteer to work on Christmas day?'

'It is your first Christmas with Dixie, you two should spend it together.'

'Polly, you must have family though, they must want to see you.' Hannah sensed that Polly was thinking, she only ever went this quiet when she was thinking about the past. 'Promise that you will not repeat any of this to Dixie and Jeff.'

'I promise.'

'I don't have a family, my parents gave me to a care home when I was a baby, I was there until I was eighteen.'

'Polly, I'm sorry.'

'It's okay, I've had a long time to deal with it.'

'You're coming to ours for dinner after your shift on Christmas day.'

'That is meant to be yours and Dixie's day, I can't intrude like that.'

'Nonsense, you can't spend Christmas day alone, it is a day for family and friends and I am not letting you be by yourself.'

'Thank you.'

'You're welcome Polly.' Hannah hugged Polly, there was no way Polly would be alone after her shift, she was not going to let that happen.

Dixie parked the ambulance in the station, they'd just come back from their latest shout. It was nothing major, just a broken leg. She went into her office and sat behind the desk, she filed the rota away and sighed, Christmas made her think of her mum, she missed her a lot. She heard a tap on the door and Jeff's voice calling to her. 'Hi mate, what can I do for you?'

'You know why I volunteered, don't you?'

'Yes, you miss the kids. Have you tried talking to them? They're older now, they can make their own decisions about if they want to see you or not.'

'I know, they're not really kids now, they're older. I already have their gifts ready to send to them.'

'What are you going to do on Christmas day after your shift?'

'I don't know, take Little Abs out and sit in front of the television I guess.'

'No, why don't you come to us?'

'I couldn't do that, you and Hannah will be spending it together, won't you?'

'There's always room for one more Jeff.'

'I couldn't impose.'

'Jeff, come on, please, I want you there, you're my best friend.'

'Okay, I'll be there.'

'Yay, thank you.' Dixie launched herself at Jeff and hugged him tightly, she was so happy that he'd agreed to come to Christmas dinner after his shift ended. Just because she'd moved out of the house didn't mean that she didn't want him around.

Hannah was still sat with Polly when Jeff and Dixie came over to them. 'Hi Dixie, I have something to ask you.'

'What is it beautiful?'

'Can Polly come to Christmas dinner?'

'I was about to ask you if Jeff could come, okay, we'll have dinner together. I'll ask Cyd too, we can all be together.'

'Okay, we'll cook.'

'You're in for a treat, Hannah's cooking is amazing.' Hannah smiled at Dixie's enthusiasm, she sounded quite happy that Jeff and Polly were coming to dinner, Hannah was happy too, it would be nice to be surrounded by people. She wondered what her dad would be doing, she made a mental note to call him and ask him. He would probably have the usual dinner with her mother and all of the family, her mother liked to show off their riches by ordering in a properly catered meal, Hannah had always hated it. She'd rather be with Dixie and her friends than sit through another one of those meals. Listening to her mother ordering the staff about annoyed her, she wasn't polite to them and never said please or thank you. She knew that her dad would understand, he would be happy for her that she was spending the day with Dixie and her friends.

Dixie was very pleased that Jeff and Polly were coming to the meal, she'd asked Cyd and she'd agreed to come too, it would be nice to be surrounded by her friends and the woman she was in love with. Everything made her feel quite romantic and squishy, she'd already started planning everyone's presents and she'd even bought a couple. She had already bought Hannah's presents, she really hoped that she would like them, what she had bought Hannah was so definitely her. Dixie was aware that she might get in a lot of trouble for spending so much money on Hannah, she wanted to treat the woman that had made her so happy. 'What are you thinking about?' Dixie jumped when she heard Hannah's voice.

'Oh, nothing, just rotas and work.'

'Okay.' Dixie knew that Hannah wasn't convinced, she'd heard it in her voice, it was a good job she'd wrapped them up when Hannah was in the bath one night. She'd looked for what Hannah had bought her but hadn't been able to find it, she knew that Hannah had her present already but no matter what Dixie did Hannah would never tell her what the gift was.

Hannah admired Dixie's attempts to find out what her present was, she'd hidden them well so that Dixie would never find where she'd put them. Her hope was that Dixie would never find them as she didn't want the surprise to be spoiled. It was Jeff that had given her the idea for part of Dixie's gift. Hannah hoped that Dixie would like it, it had taken her quite some time to track it down but the effort was worth it. She really hoped that Dixie wouldn't cry too much when she saw that part of her present. It had cost a lot but it was worth it, she just wanted Dixie to get back a little bit of what she had lost. Hannah was happy that they would have most of the day to themselves, she wanted to give Dixie her presents in private. Hannah was quite excited, it was the first Christmas that she'd had where she was in a relationship with a woman that she was in love with.

Jeff had only been too pleased to help Hannah with part of Dixie's gift, he'd known exactly what it was that Dixie would want to get. He thought that Hannah would be able to find what Dixie would want and she had. Jeff was quite happy that he was invited to spend Christmas with Hannah and Dixie, it proved to him that there would always be room for him in Dixie's life. He'd got her what she always wanted from him; they knew each other so well, he had no doubt that she had got him his usual favourite too. He'd bought Hannah and Polly a present each too, they were special to him and he wanted to get them each a little something. He'd asked Dixie what he should get Hannah and he wasn't surprised to learn that she loved chocolate too, he'd seen Hannah with the occasional bar of chocolate sticking out of her uniform pocket just like Dixie did.

Polly was so happy with being invited to Dixie and Hannah's for dinner, she trusted Hannah with her secret, it was quite nice to have someone that knew about it. They were the best of friends she was so looking forward to seeing everyone at the dinner, she was going to give Hannah and Dixie their presents when she saw them on the day. She had made everyone a little something, she preferred to make things for her closest friends rather than buy something generic from a shop. She had put a lot of effort in and she really couldn't wait to give everyone their presents. Polly saw Cyd coming over to her. 'Hi Polly.'

'Hi Cyd, I'm glad you're coming to dinner.'

'Thanks, it was nice to be invited.'

'I can't wait, it is going to be really good.'

'I think so too.' Polly smiled at Cyd. 'Do you have all of your presents ready Polly?'

'I do, I have a little something for everyone that will be at the dinner.'

'That's a good idea, that way every person there will have something to open.'

'Yeah, we're all doing the same, getting each person a little something, you're the last person I have to tell. I am so excited, it is going to be brilliant.'

'I am glad you told me, I am looking forward to the day now.'

'I love this time of year, especially as it looks like it is going to snow.'

'Yes, I heard that too, do you think that it will?'

'I don't know, maybe, I hope so, we can have a snowball fight again.'

'Snowball fight?'

'Let me tell you all about it.' Polly linked arms with Cyd and told her all about the snowball fight they'd had outside the garage.

Cyd laughed at Polly's recounting of the snowball fight that had gone on just before she started back here, she'd missed so much in her time away. She was trying to make up for what she had done in the past, that is why she had agreed to work Christmas day for Dixie. Cyd knew that Dixie would want to spend it with Hannah and this was her way of giving her that time to spend with the woman she loved. She still felt guilty for abandoning Dixie the way that she had, it was lessening but she still felt it on occasion. Cyd hoped to rectify her actions a little bit more by getting Dixie and Hannah something for their house as a gift, she was pleased that Dixie was living with someone that she loved very much. Hannah was a lovely woman, Cyd knew that Hannah loved Dixie, she watched them together and it made her smile. Hannah made Dixie happy, she'd also helped make all this happen, Cyd was grateful to Hannah for everything that she had done.

Hannah sat in the rec room while she was on her break, she picked up her phone and rang her dad. Hannah listened to the ringing and then her dad's voice. 'Hello, how is everything Hannah?'

'Everything is fine dad.'

'Good, do you want your usual present?'

'I'll email you the list.'

'How's Dixie?'

'She's well, she's just moved in with me actually. Polly was having a bad time with her flat so she's moved in with Jeff and Dixie moved in here.'

'Oh, I am glad to hear that it is going well. I take it you will be spending Christmas day with Dixie?'

'Yes, some of our friends are coming around for dinner too.'

'It pleases me to hear you sounding so happy.'

'I am happy, you don't mind that I'm not coming back for the day?'

'Not at all, I'll come to see you and drop off your gift before the day.'

'Thanks dad, you'll be wanting your usual too?'

'Yes, I trust your taste in wine.'

'You should, you taught me how to choose it.' Hannah smiled down the phone.

'I have to go but I will see you soon, I love you Hannah.'

'Love you too dad.' Hannah ended the call, her dad sounded happy, she wondered if he was still thinking about divorcing her mother or not. Hannah put it out of her mind and thought of happier things, it was nearly Christmas and she didn't want to think of sad things at this time of the year.