Title: Moving On

Author: Raven Shadowrose

Rating: M

Pairing:?/?

Summary: Dixie has been left broken hearted by Cyd's departure from the Holby team, what happens when Cyd is replaced by Hannah Darbyshire and Dixie takes a liking to her. Will she end up with even more of a broken heart or will she find the happiness that she has been searching for?

Disclaimer: I do not know or own any of the characters from Casualty, all original characters and the story are my property and I do not give permission for anyone else to use this story.

Author's Note: This story will contain will contain some femslash, if you do not wish to read it then by all means back away slowly the way you came, other than that enjoy the story and reviews are appreciated :)

Thank you to chan. nelson444, olivia. c. king1 and beethovenRIP for your comments. Enjoy the chapter everyone, might want to get the tissues out towards the end.

Please note that there is some sexual language and discussion in this chapter, if you do not wish to read it then please stop now.

Chapter Forty-One.

Dixie rested her head against Hannah's, the were cuddled up together in the large round bath that was in the en-suite bathroom attached to the bedroom they had shared. They were surrounded by bubbles and lots of hot water that seemed to stay hot no matter how long you spent in the bath. 'Hannah, how long will this water stay hot for?'

'As long as we need it to, the bath has its own heater, we could stay here all day if we wanted to.'

'Okay, that's good.' Dixie closed her eyes and wrapped her arms around Hannah, it was nice to know that they didn't have to move for a while. Dixie found her mind wandering, mainly towards Hannah and the relationship that she was sharing with her. Their relationship was almost three months old, the time had passed very quickly and Dixie smiled as her memories of Hannah came to the surface. She had plenty of special memories of the woman in her arms.

Dixie thought about how this relationship was one of the longer ones that she'd had, most people hadn't stuck around for longer than a month or two. The closeness that she had with Hannah was showing no signs of stopping, it pleased her to think that she had finally found the one woman that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with. Dixie bit her lip, she wanted to talk to Hannah about experimenting with their sex life, the last thing she wanted is for it to become boring and routine, she wanted to show Hannah what else was out there. 'Dixie.' Dixie jumped when she heard Hannah say her name. 'Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you.'

'It's all right, I was in a world of my own.'

'What were you thinking about?'

'You, Hannah, do you consider yourself a virgin?'

'That's a difficult question, being a virgin means different things to different people.'

'I see your point, what does it mean to you?'

'I don't consider myself a virgin when I'm with you because you know me and my body quite intimately. On the flip side though I've not had full sex with anyone so technically I suppose I am still a virgin.'

'Interesting, maybe you're right.'

'Why all the questions?'

'I just wondered how you saw yourself. By full sex do you mean penetration?' Dixie saw the blush flood Hannah's cheeks, she was still shy when it came to talking about sex.

'Yes, that's what I mean.' It was so quiet that Dixie barely heard Hannah speak, it was a start, she was talking about sex and maybe Dixie could find out something about what Hannah wanted.

Hannah knew that she was blushing, she cursed her shyness when it came to talking about sex with Dixie. Hannah took a few deep breaths and calmed herself down. 'Let me tell you a story Hannah.'

'About what?'

'About me. I was a lot younger, I was about twenty-four and I was in a somewhat serious relationship with a woman. She opened up a new world to me. I'd always had clearly defined ideas about what a lesbian was, what type of lesbian I was and what I did in the bedroom; it was always fingers and tongue and never anything else. Anyway this woman brought a toy into the bedroom one night, do you know what a strap on is?'

'Yes, I do.'

'She wanted to use it on me, I was unsure at first but I agreed, I watched her put it on and then she slipped inside of me, it was strange but when I got used to it I really enjoyed it.'

'You did?'

'You sound surprised. I know I'm a lesbian and not supposed to like that sort of thing in the eyes of everyone else but trust me when I say that being penetrated by a woman feels wonderful.'

'What did you like about it?'

'Many things, mainly though I got a very good view of her naked body.'

'Okay, I think I understand.' Hannah bit her lip and thought about what Dixie had just said. 'Is that what you want to do to me?'

'Only if you want me to, I know it is a big deal for you talking about all of this, but I would like to try something different.'

'What else did you like about it?'

'I liked how close we were, if you let me then I'll be able to look into your eyes as we make love. I'd like to share that moment with you Hannah, to be the first person that gets to be inside your body.'

'Okay, we can try it.'

'Are you sure? If you're not then I don't mind, we can wait until you're ready.'

'I want you to be the first person that gets to be inside me, I wouldn't to give that moment to anyone else. I want to know what it feels like.'

'All right beautiful, I will arrange it.'

'It won't hurt, will it?'

'No, we'll start small, leave it to me. The first toy I buy will be small enough that you won't feel any pain, I promise. You can have a look at it before we use it and see what you think.' Hannah cuddled up to Dixie, she was nervous but knew that Dixie could be trusted and wouldn't hurt her in any way. 'Thank you for trusting me Hannah, I love you so very much.'

'I love you too and I trust you.' Hannah felt Dixie stroking her hair and kissing her head, she felt the nerves giving way to curiosity and excitement. She wanted to know what it would feel like to have Dixie inside her and making love to her like that.

Dixie was happy, Hannah trusted her and it made her feel good, she couldn't wait to hold Hannah in her arms and make love to her as she looked into her eyes. She was going to have to start small, the last thing she wanted was to hurt Hannah in any way, she would also have to make sure that Hannah was properly relaxed and ready before she even attempted going anywhere near her. 'Do you think we should get out Dixie?'

'Do we have to? I really want to stay here.'

'I know you do, but we have to go home later on and you still have to pack.'

'Meanie, can I at least take the bath home with us?'

'I'm afraid not but if you're very good then we'll look at getting one for our house.'

'Okay, I can live with that. How good do I have to be?'

'I'll let you show me how good you can be when we get home.'

'Naughty Hannah.'

'You love me for it.'

'I do.' Dixie liked naughty Hannah, she wished that she could see more of her. She had a lot of hope that naughty Hannah would be coming out to play more often, she made a point of encouraging Hannah whenever she started being a little naughty and it was looking like it was working, Hannah was definitely becoming more involved in their lovemaking as the days went on.

Hannah went downstairs when she had dried herself and got dressed again, she wanted to talk to her dad before she went home. She was a bit puzzled as her dad had said he wanted to talk to her too. She went into the lounge and found her dad sat on the sofa. 'Hi dad, you wanted to talk.'

'I do, sit down.'

'That sounds serious, should I be worried?'

'No, of course not. It concerns the will I had made up some years ago. Your mother stood to get a lot from it should anything happen to me. In light of what has been going on I've changed it, you will get everything; the house is yours to do whatever you want with it. All of the money from my insurance policy will go to you as well.' Hannah struggled to take it all in, her dad had made her the sole beneficiary of his will.

'Dad, are you sure?'

'Yes, your mother does not deserve anything from me.'

'What do you want me to do?'

'This is the only other copy of my new will, my lawyer has one and this one I want you to keep. It will not be safe if your mother finds it.'

'All right, I'll keep it safe.'

'Thank you. Now, in this other envelope are the details for a savings account I have opened in your name, it contains the funds that I've been saving up over the years. I was keeping it to one side until the time was right to give it to you.'

'How much?'

'One million pounds.'

'Dad, I can't accept it, it's too much.'

'I knew you would say that. Please take it, there will come a day when you want to have kids with Dixie and fertility treatment can be expensive. This money will enable you to have a child. There will be enough there to cover a wedding one day. When the kids are born and grow up you can get them a decent education too.' Hannah hugged her dad, he was a kind and loving man, she wished her mother would realise that and stop treating him like dirt.

Dixie saw the look on Hannah's face when she came into the room. 'Hannah, is everything all right?'

'I'm not sure, my dad has changed his will to make me the sole beneficiary after his death.'

'Is this because of your mother?'

'Yes, very much so. There's something else too.' Dixie opened the envelope that Hannah handed to her.

'One million pounds, he can't be serious.'

'He is, he wants us to use it to get married and have kids one day.'

'That's enough to do that ten times over.'

'I know, we can also use it to get them a decent education.'

'Why is he doing this?'

'I think I know why, he doesn't want my mother to get her hands on the money through the divorce.'

'Yeah, that sounds sensible, he's a clever man.'

'I know he is.' Dixie hugged Hannah, the fact that Lawrence had given her this money meant that he approved of their relationship, she felt like she had gained a father in Lawrence, his approval meant the world to her.

Hannah put the envelopes containing the will and the savings account details safely into her bag, going back to Holby was going to be hard. She didn't want to leave her dad here all alone but she had to return home as she had a job to go back to. She thought about it all the way through the journey to the train station, she felt sorry for her dad and wished that everything could have turned out differently. She was angry at her mother, the divorce might teach her a lesson but Hannah wasn't holding her breath; she would turn blue and drop down dead before her mother learned any kind of lesson. Hannah sighed quietly as her dad took hers and Dixie's bags out of the car, he put them on the floor and then turned around. 'Come here Hannah.' Hannah let her dad hug her. 'Remember, I'm only a phone call away if you need me.'

'I know.'

'Don't worry so much, I have my job, a wonderful daughter and her very lovely girlfriend, not all is lost. Besides I have the chocolate and sweets that you bought me from Whitby, they'll go down very nicely in front of the TV tonight.'

'I know, hazelnut chocolate and aniseed balls.'

'That will never change, just as I will always be there for you won't change either.' Hannah felt the tears appearing in her eyes, she wished again that everything was different. Hannah blinked back the tears as her dad let go of her and then smiled at him, she hoped it looked more convincing than it felt.

Dixie watched the scene with Hannah and her dad, it almost made her want to cry, their connection was very strong and she felt so privileged that she was there to witness it. 'Come here Dixie, you didn't think you would get to leave without a hug did you?' Dixie let Lawrence hug her, he was so solid and dependable and he really liked her. 'Look after Hannah for me.'

'Always, I would die for her if I had to.'

'Thank you, you are a wonderful woman Dixie.'

'You're welcome and I'm glad you think so.' Lawrence let go of her and Dixie looked up at him, she saw the sadness in his eyes, the poor man, she wished that there was something she could do to help him. Thoughts of going after Hannah's mother and hitting her over the head with something heavy came to mind but she knew what Hannah would say to that.

Hannah took her bag from her dad when she got onto the train, it was hard leaving him behind but she had to be strong, much like Dixie had when she had moved out of the home she'd shared with Jeff. She put her bag in the luggage compartment and then sat in her seat, Dixie sat next to her and they immediately held hands. She waved at her dad as the train pulled out, Dixie did the same and it was only when they were out of sight of the station did Hannah let the tears spill from her eyes. She felt Dixie's warm arms wrap around her. 'It's okay beautiful, it's okay to cry.' Hannah heard the wavering in Dixie's voice that meant she was emotional too.

'I'm okay, I'm just going to miss him.'

'We can come back to visit again.'

'I know, thank you Dixie.'

'For what?'

'For being you, that's all I need.' Hannah felt Dixie lips press a kiss against her head and then she wiped away the tears from her eyes, she was right they could come back again whenever they wanted and her dad would welcome her with open arms just as he'd always done.