Chapter XI
Finding Home again
I heard a horrible noise but I loved that noise. "Tardis," He ran over to me I was sick on the couch.
"Doc….." I was out, and I remembered him.
"Please no, Tardis. Listen to me, I know you can hear me, please just wake up. I love you, and you don't die today, I know this." My skin was turning grey, I was beginning to mummify. "Tardis don't do this," He cut his wrist with a knife that was close by. "Drink I know I hate the ripper, if you drain me dry at least I'll die knowing that you were safe."
I moved my head refusing the blood; I drank a small amount just to wake me up. My eyes flashed open black, the sign of the ripper. "Doctor!" I shot up hugging him.
"I thought I lost you." Only for a moment I had my memory back.
"Do I know you why are you bleeding?" He looked at me confused.
"I am the Doctor, Come on Tardis, what are you talking about."
"Doctor, Doctor Who?" I pushed him away from me.
"Is she joking, Klaus." He shook his head. "Get her in the TARDIS."
"Ok Will do." He picked me up carrying me in to the small blue box, "Now what?"
"Close your eyes." He was flipping switches.
"Ok, why." He kissed the top of my head.
"I am going to open the heart of the TARDIS. So it can heal her." He shut his eyes. Part of the TARDIS console opened up revealing a glowing gold. I felt a connection to it. I fell to the ground and the console shut, the Doctor ran up to me. "Tardis?"
"Doctor." I smiled; I leaned up to kiss him. "I love you."
He leaned the rest of the way. "I love you too." He kissed me softly.
"So what happened, Exactly?" I looked at them both, confused it was like waking up from a really weird dream.
"I will tell you later my love, but first you need to eat something, you look really weak." I nodded shifting in to my wolf.
"I will be back later my love." I trotted away off into the woods of mystic falls, the strangest place on earth I think.
It was a lovely but weird dream I had. I had forgotten the past, and the Doctor. Something inside of me was telling me that it was not a dream. It was reality, but I refused that thought because I didn't think that was possible knowing that he is my life. What would I be like without the Doctor? I don't know and I don't want to know, if he was gone out of my memory. I would be the weakest time lord ever. I still wonder what it would be like, to have that part of me gone. A life never lived, a story never told, a lie never placed, and a love story gone so beautiful and so poetic no one would ever think twice about forgetting it. I was always wondering things like this, but never getting answers.
I was alone in the woods anything could happen. The fog rolled in under my feet, the cold wet darkness of it. I was curious of what something so dark could yet be so cold and warm at the same time. If alone in the woods, no one to talk too. I would think it would try to move on, to live out its fogginess somewhere else. Fog doesn't live I know that, It was something alone forgotten an absence of something. I was the fog, but I was living and just one last thing I could do was forget my past and move on. It was thing I could never do. Walking helped me think, about something that a time lord wishes to have One Life and One Story.
I didn't hunt but I had to tell someone about a story of a girl so young, they never aged and a girl who was alone and afraid she would never see her family again. This was the story of a young girl named Katerina, and all of her people and her own husband knew her as Tardis. Something changed inside of me that was so cold, I was Forever Young and alone. I shifted back coming to a house that I knew.
"Tardis is that you, here come inside you must be freezing." The man he was a time lord, a time lord that would know the story of me.
"Hello Jason," I walked he handed me his coat, "Thank you for taking me in."
"No problem." He put his arm around me walking me through the door.
"Why are you so nice to me Jason?" He looked confused.
"You are a friend, family almost." He and I smiled.
"Can I tell you a story; it would let you get to know me better." He nodded.
I sat down on the couch next to him, "What is this story about, my lady?"
"It's about a girl so young, but yet so old. Who has changed over many years?" He wanted me to continue. "She is a young girl who waits hundreds of years not knowing her true parents. Or if she had any siblings,"
"What is this girl's name?" I smiled.
"Her people know her as Tardis, yet her real name, never being told to someone other than her "family" her name is Katerina, Jason that girl is me, and my name is Katerina." He looked up at me smiling. "She was an orphan in a storm, alone and cold, the fog covered the night she was born, and she was alone crying out for her mother's warmth. She was placed on the steps of the castle of Gallifrey. She wailed for her mother as guard found her crying. He took her in to his chest, running in doors to find the King and Queen."
"Wait do you mean you are not an original time elder?" I gulped not sure how to answer him.
"If you would let me continue then I will tell you." He opened and shut his mouth. "Ok, so there was the King, and his wife holding the child, around her neck you could see the red lines from her unusual marking on her back. The mark of an elder, but the child was not from the line of the elders. She grew up over time; the power of her mind was so powerful it could stand the new vortex. She was barely a hundred years; they ripped her of her soul. She was told she could not love or forgive." I sighed, "Sorry Jason I can't continue, it reminds me to much of the pain I went though."
"I couldn't either, I know my parents they said they took a young girl home when they came in the room the next morning she was gone, she had red marking on her neck like you described, someone kidnapped my older sister." I look blankly in to his eyes.
"Did they say the markings looked like this?" I pulled my hair to the side, showing the oddly placed marking.
"Yes! Tardis you are my sister, I felt something just couldn't get a clear connection, probably because you have no soul." We laughed confused and happy to find each other.
"So you know my parents, are they here on earth?" he nodded, "Take me to them."
"First things first you need some clothes," he laughed.
"Right I'll run back to Klaus' house, come with me." I stood up shifting in to my wolf.
"Can you hold my weight?" The wolf nodded, he gradually climbed on trying not to hurt me. "I love you sis." He held the fur on my neck.
"I love you too Jason." I let off a bizarre growl.
"So this is your home?" I shook my head. "Right, so let's get you your clothes, the Doctor, and let's go meet our parents."
"Ok," I shifted in to my human form he fell off, "Sorry." I got dress fairly quickly. My blonde hair long enough to have my bangs lay diagonally my face.
"That's a new hair style, I don't like it I love your eyes can I can't see them." I saw Jason standing behind him.
"I think she looks like her mother." The doctor turned around confused.
"WHO IS HE Tardis!?" he was angry and I knew it.
"He is no one Doctor. Please listen to me." I cried out to him.
"No, I can't if you are just going to lie to me again Tardis I am sick of the Lies Tar."
"Please you are the only one I want, listen to me. I love you doctor!"
"I am done with you, listen to me Tardis Karr, that is your last name correct Karr. I loved you once every lie that you tell me pushes that away."
I started to sing, "Telling me to go, But hands beg me to stay, Your lips say that you love, Your eyes say that you hate, There's truth in your lies, Doubt in your faith, What you build you lay to waste, There's truth in your lies, Doubt in your faith, All I've got what you didn't take, So I, I won't be the one, Be the one to leave this In pieces, And you, you will be alone, Alone with all your secrets, And regrets, don't lie, You promised me the sky, Then tossed me like a stone, You wrap me in your arms, And chill me to the bone, There's truth in your lies, Doubt in your faith, All I've got what you didn't take, So I, I won't be the one, Be the one to leave this In pieces, And you, you will be alone, Alone with all your secrets, And regrets, don't lie, So I, I won't be the one, Be the one to leave this, In pieces
And you, you will be alone, Alone with all your secrets, And regrets, don't lie."
"Doctor I am her brother, her real brother." He looked at me, I was a wolf. I padded off he felt sorry for what he said before. "You need to learn to trust her doctor. You are the only real thing she has felt."
"I didn't know Tar! Please I am sorry Tardis!" I looked back my eyes glossed over with tears.
"I didn't leave this in pieces. You were the one you who had me hurt again doctor I am done with you hurting me. You left me here to die and you come back expecting open arms and forgiveness. No, you have too many secrets and I am lying to you every day how are we spouse to go on doctor." I growled.
"I left you here because I needed time, and I didn't think that you would find out who you really are. You can go if you want, but I will go back to sitting on a cloud. Waiting for you to come to my cloud and beg for me back."
My eye narrowed the other went blind my brother caused that, I know that I blame the doctor for leavening me on Gallifrey alone. I blame him for the reason for why I am like this a monster, who does not care for one living thing not even my own family. "I am not your property Doctor and you treat me like I am."
Dear whoever might find this,
I was moving on trying to find my real place among the earth as a wolf I am not sure yet. I plan on traveling far and wide for my family, and for my home. I will love as once before if I can shut all the memories of the doctor out of my mind then I will find love. If not well I am forgotten and I will shut my emotions off, my humanity. What Klaus wants the perfect ripper not just any old ripper one who can't stop who blacks out but still feeds. I will try hard as my feet begin to bleed I will continue walking until I fall to the ground alone and dead.
I sit here in the fog and the moon light. There was a new werewolf out there not knowing what is happening to them, the pain and agony of the wolf ripping its way out. The vampires broad their windows scared of the werewolves why wouldn't they be, maybe they don't and they are killed. Most people write their thoughts down, their hopes and dreams, wish upon a star wait to be forgiven to be given love. I know it comes true but it always ends.
If you try your hardest it might come true, but there are no happy endings. I have tried to get my happy ending, look at me now I am in the woods waiting for my world to come crashing down. I am a Time Lord I am not from earth and I am a monster I kill people to live. If you are reading this then well I left the Doctor and he is off in a cloud waiting for me to come beg him to take me back.
Tardis Katerina Karr