Chapter XIII
Reality or Just a Dream

I couldn't see the doctor after what he said to me, I looked out into the rain. I stepped out into the darkness the cold rain pelting my face. The footsteps of my bear feet, I heard a second pair of foot stairs. I blinked, slowly turning around. "I need you hear you say something please."

He pulled me close kissing me the rain pelting our faces. I pulled away, "what are you doing!"

"I missed you," He looked confused.

"So you go up and kiss a woman that's married to another guy, doctor it's been 5 years." I started to walk off.

He grabbed my arm, "I know it's been five years but I miss you, I can't forget you and I can't stop thinking about what we could have."

"That's nice and all but my husband's Nicklaus, doctor ever since you left he has been there for me. Where have you been traveling with your companions? You haven't sat in the darkness with any emotions trying to find a way to turn them back on!" I ripped my arm from his grip. I fell to my knees the salty tears falling from my eyes.

"Tell me how I can help!" he put his hand on my back.

"Get away from me, I hate you!" I stood up hitting his chest wanting him to leave me alone. "I hate you Doctor! You left me with a hole in my chest and one that could never be filled."

"I know you don't hate me, I know I left you with a huge gaping wound in your hearts, but I had to Tardis. I left because I love you." He was crying.

I grabbed his head I put my forehead to his chest, "I don't want to do this but I have too." I looked up into his eyes, "I am sorry but you have to forget me, everything we had, and everything we have done, everyone we saved." I felt the tears rolling fast down my face.

"Please don't do this Tardis Stop this right Now!" He tried to pull away my grip was tight.

"I need this doctor, you need this!" I let his head go walking away leave everything we had in the past. "I am sorry," I whispered to myself.

Everything I had was just gone. "Your back fast I thought you would be gone for days."

"I took ca-care of it," I was crying.

"Hey, hey what's wrong?" He ran over to me.

"Everything why do I have to be a monster!" I put my head to his chest crying.

He wrapped his arms around me, "Because you're not human you never will be and you never want to be human it hurts so badly and you die in the end."

"I want to be human Klaus I hate this pain in my chest, I took everything away from him he will never know who I am, who I was to him, and what we did."

"I can't give that to you but I can help you?" He kissed the top of my head.

"How can you help me?" My voice was almost gone.

"Turn it off; it is ok just turn it off."

I felt the tears stop rolling down my face, "Klaus what did I do?"

"You shut off your humanity and emotions." He softly rubbed his finger against my face, "so soft the skin of an angel."

"No one has ever said that to me other than the Doctor." I wanted to cry but I couldn't because I didn't care.

"Well you are my angel Katerina." He smiled when he called me angel.

I blinked my eyes blank; my mind was blank I felt everything just slip away. I breathed lightly, looking at Klaus, "well are you hungry I am hungry."

"We can't eat here the people are filled with vervain." He growled.

"Well I guess I will have to take you to Gallifrey." I smiled, but it wasn't a real smile. The smile was only a hunger smile.

Klaus looked at the darkening sky, "Do you miss it?"

"Miss what?" I looked at the sky, too.

"Gallifrey, time travel, everything do you miss all of the things that that happened between you in the doctor?" He grabbed my hand.

I pulled my hand out of his, "I don't feel anything about the past Nicklaus and I don't love." The truth was I still had my emotions I just shut the part that hurt out. I missed the doctor I missed my family.

"You never call me Nicklaus unless you're lying." He turned to look into my eyes.

"Just because I call you Nicklaus doesn't mean I am lying Klaus. You need to understand I don't care for you. I can't care for you!" I growled pushing him against the wall. I walked out into the pouring rain, walking in the middle of the empty street falling to my knees. "Come back to me! Please come back! Doctor!"

I felt nothing no heart beat of the T.A.R.D.I.S. I only felt the fixed points in time, the thing that would happen, and the things that could be changed. "I need your help I am lost and I am still just a young girl lost and confused. A girl who never knew her parents."

I looked at the people standing on the side of the road looking at me confused, "Do you know what happens in this town, why the people die off?! Tell me do you understand what a person has to go through just to get some food around here. You fill the water and the humans with vervain and you don't even care about the people that starve."

I saw a part of the full moon; I knew that the people would run if they saw a girl turn into a wolf. I refused the transformation, trying to keep my friends and family safe. I didn't understand why the laws of exposure of vampirism were so harsh. They never knew how strong how old I really was. I touched the ground, jumping into the night sky, sending myself to Gallifrey I was going to change the future.

I stepped on to the new fresh kingdom of Gallifrey. I looked into the eyes of my people, "You may be confused, but you need to understand there is a girl out there that will never meet her parents because her one true love gets mad at her for not knowing why she was with another man. You may think that a love so strong could never be broken. If you try to think of one thing a time lord wants most what is it?"

The doctor in the group of people the original him, "One life And One Story!"

"We can never have that sir because we are the lonely gods. The gods of time, I am Tardis the princess of time. I have come to you my people, no matter how much your hearts are hurting, look in to the one you call your soul mate and beg them to bring your soul back down to the grounds. No matter how much you want to be alone you need them. Remember the words Time lords have no choice but we have double the Love and double the heart break."

I felt the times changing, the future I just had of me compelling the doctor would be no more. I looked over my people; they understood what had to be done.

"Princess Tardis may I ask you a few questions?" The voice of my father.

"Dad, is that really you?" I turned around throwing my arms around him.

"Well I guess you could say that, but are you really my daughter?" He hugged me back.

I moved my hair showing my scar and the red marking on my back, "It's me in the flesh. I never knew you father."

"I know, but it was necessary to keep me from you, your mother said that I could never see you again, because you are property of the King and Queen."

"It's not fair, I don't belong to the royal family I am my own person not just some slave that means nothing to the king and queen!" The sky turned dark.

"Hey clam down you'll scare your people." He looked in my eyes, gold as the sun, "What have they done to you my daughter?"

"They said it was necessary, to have my soul removed and placed in a type 40 T.A.R.D.I.S. I didn't think that they would put a monster in me." I growled in hunger, "I am hungry."

"What do I feed you?" he looked at my fangs.

"Human or time lord blood, I am so hungry." Tilting my head towards his neck, "I have to learn control. That's what the doctor was trying to teach me, control to my hunger."

"I don't understand, what do you mean, Doctor who?" He spoke fast, in gallifreyan.

"Father I am sorry but I need to eat, and you're the closest thing to my teeth right now, you're going to have to stop me." I held his neck out. Biting to his soft flesh, I could feel the blood running down my lips, and over my tongue.

"Tardis Stop Katerina please stop."

The warm blood was ripped from under my teeth, "What do you think you're doing, you don't interrupt me when I am feeding!" I growled, the veins under my eyes showing.

"I was stopping you from killing our father!" Jason was angry.

"Do you want to be killed next Jason!" I grabbed his neck.

"You can try but will you actually kill me no sister you will never kill your own flesh and blood." He was serious trying to speak but had very little air to speak with.

"Fine!" I threw him to the ground, walking away.

"Katerina please wake up, I need you right now." The voice called out from the darkness.

"Her mind is very active, and who might you be sir?" a sweet young voice.

"Names the Doctor and I am her husband." His voice sounded very lonely.

"Well she is not allowed visitors, I am sorry sir but I have to ask to leave." The voice sounded too sweet.

I tried to scream out trying to tell them I could hear them; tell them I am alive.

"Doctor, I can hear you please tell me what's going on."

"Katerina are you alright?" Klaus looked concerned.

"I am fine just leave me alone Klaus I don't need your help!" I looked back at his eyes; I hit his chest trying to get him to back off.

He grabbed my neck holding me against the wall, "If you don't need my help, why were you screaming."

I grabbed his hand bending it backwards, hearing the bones snap. Klaus fell to his knees, "You will never be stronger than me Nicklaus!"

I released his hand; his growl was almost a scream. I never knew the pain of wounds. I didn't believe in the dreams of human nature, but could a time lord an immortal being have such legends of the human dreams. I never experienced the human dreams, but I have heard of them they say they can be the most beautiful things in the world.

I could never dream because of the time vortex, they said "she'll be fine, she has the marking."

Did they ever think that it would drive me until the point of insanity? I am not fine I am not human the person Klaus that I have made up in my mind to protect myself from the truth. "Is this real Klaus are you real or are you just my future?"