Title: Moving On

Author: Raven Shadowrose

Rating: M

Pairing:?/?

Summary: Dixie has been left broken hearted by Cyd's departure from the Holby team, what happens when Cyd is replaced by Hannah Darbyshire and Dixie takes a liking to her. Will she end up with even more of a broken heart or will she find the happiness that she has been searching for?

Disclaimer: I do not know or own any of the characters from Casualty, all original characters and the story are my property and I do not give permission for anyone else to use this story.

Author's Note: This story will contain will contain some femslash, if you do not wish to read it then by all means back away slowly the way you came, other than that enjoy the story and reviews are appreciated :)

Thank you to chan. nelson444, olivia. c. king1 and beethovenRIP for your comments. Shall we find out how Lawrence is doing?

Chapter Forty-Six.

Hannah was still thinking about her dad being in hospital, she was avoiding the kitchen as the smell of the bleach was making her feel sick, she knew exactly what had happened in there and she didn't want to think about it, the idea of it just turned her stomach. Hannah was so glad that Dixie was with her and supporting her; she needed Dixie just to be there and hold her hand while she dealt with going to the hospital. Right now Dixie was packing some things that her dad might need while he was in hospital, she would have done it herself but she didn't feel able to, the travelling and worrying about her dad had really taken it out of her. Hannah looked at her phone when it started ringing and she answered it without really taking in who it was that was calling her. 'Hello.'

'Hello Hannah.'

'Hi David.' Hannah had an idea of what he was calling about.

'I heard what happened to your father. I was on duty and he was brought in by two of my team. I'm so sorry, are you all right?'

'I'm all right, I think, I'm not so sure yet, everything is still sinking in.'

'Of course. How is he?'

'He's come out of the operation and is recovering in the HDU right now, I'm going in to the hospital to see him soon.'

'Will you drop in to see us after you've seen him?'

'Of course I will, I just wish it was in better circumstances.'

'So do I.'

'See you soon Hannah.'

'See you soon David.' Hannah put her phone down, it was nice to know that the people at her old station still cared about her, she wanted Dixie to come with her and meet some of the people that she'd worked with before she moved to Holby.

Dixie packed the last of the things that she thought Lawrence would need while he was staying in hospital, she had included the picture of Hannah and herself that had been taken the last time that they were here. She really hoped that he was going to be okay, Hannah wouldn't cope with losing her dad, she hoped that her statement that he was strong and wouldn't die would be true. Dixie picked up the bag and took it downstairs, she put it on the chair and sat next to Hannah on the sofa. 'Are you ready to go beautiful?'

'I think so. Dixie, David called me and he wants me to drop in to see him after we visit my dad.'

'David? Oh, your last boss.'

'Do you want to come with me and see where I used to work?'

'Why not, I'd like that, does he know about your sexuality?

'Yes, don't worry, you won't say anything that he doesn't already know.'

'Oh good, come on beautiful, let's go and see your dad.'

'Okay.' Dixie heard Hannah sigh as she stood up.

'It will be all right Hannah.' Dixie took Hannah's hand in her own and squeezed it. 'Everything will be fine Hannah.'

'I hope you're right Dixie.' Dixie just put her arm around Hannah and hugged her, Dixie knew that words wouldn't help in this situation, Hannah needed hugs and comfort. Dixie also knew that for Hannah to feel better she would have to see her father.

Hannah let Dixie drive to the hospital and she was glad when they got there and she could get into the hospital, she went to the front desk and asked the man sat there for directions to the HDU. Hannah followed the directions he gave her and pressed the buzzer near the door, she was worried, what would her dad look like when she saw him? Would he be in any pain? 'Dixie, stay with me, I can't do this alone.'

'Don't worry beautiful, I won't leave you, you won't be alone.'

'Thanks Dixie.'

'I love you Hannah and I will be with you.'

'I love you too Dixie.' Hannah felt better because Dixie was holding her hand and was there by her side as a nurse opened the door.

'Can I help you?'

'I'm Hannah Darbyshire, my dad, Lawrence Darbyshire is in here.'

'Oh yes, we spoke on the phone, I'm Sister Clairmont.'

'Hello, how is my dad?'

'As I said on the phone we are keeping a close eye on your dad while he comes around from the anaesthetic and we're keeping him on pain relief for the time being. If you come with me then I'll show you to his room.'

'Thank you.' Hannah followed Sister Clairmont to the room her dad was staying in and she looked in through the window.

'Don't worry about the machines and wires, they're just monitoring your father and they let us know information about his condition.'

'Okay, we have personal items that belong to my father, can we leave them here?'

'Yes, there is a cupboard in his room, you can put them in there.'

'Thanks.'

'I'll leave you now, if you need anything then let me know.' Sister Clairmont left and Hannah took a few deep breaths and she put her hand on handle of the door, she wasn't sure if she could go in. 'Hannah, come on beautiful, I'm with you every step of the way.' Hannah nodded and went into the room, she heard Dixie close the door behind her and she just stood there looking at her father.

Dixie put her hand on Hannah's shoulder and squeezed it, Hannah was still stood there and she had visibly paled. Lawrence's arm, chest and stomach were covered in bandages to protect the stitches that he'd had put in to close his wounds. 'Are you all right beautiful?'

'I don't know, he doesn't look like himself.'

'Come and sit down.' Dixie guided Hannah to the chairs in the room and sat her down. 'He's going to be okay Hannah. He's in good hands and being looked after properly.'

'I know. My dad has never really been ill, seeing him like this is really hard.' Dixie saw the tears in Hannah's eyes and she put her arms around Hannah and held her close.

'Everything is going to be all right Hannah, I promise you.' Dixie stroked Hannah's hair and kissed her head, she knew that Hannah was struggling with seeing her father being ill and in hospital. 'It is good that you are here Hannah, I know that your dad will be glad to see you when he wakes up. You're my brave, beautiful partner and I love you so much.' Dixie felt Hannah hug her, she just held Hannah in her arms and comforted her as much as she could.

Hannah took a great deal of comfort from being held by Dixie, she was strong and dependable and being in her arms made Hannah feel safe. 'My sweet Dixie, I love you.' Hannah didn't know why but crying had made her feel a bit better. Seeing her dad injured had made her feel scared and worried for him but the machines around his bed reassured her that he was safe. She watched them from time to time to make sure that none of the readings were changing for the worst. Hannah moved closer to the bed and she took her dad's hand in her own, she wanted him to know that she was there for him and hadn't abandoned him. 'Hannah, I'm going to get a drink, do you want anything?'

'Just some water.'

'Okay, I'll be back soon beautiful.' Hannah felt Dixie kiss her head and then she left the room, Hannah turned back to her dad and watched him as he was sleeping. She started to think how lucky her dad was to be alive, it could have so easily gone differently and she might have been planning his funeral. Hannah quickly turned her head when she felt her hand being squeezed. 'Hannah, is that you, are you all right?'

'It's all right, I'm here.'

'I thought your mother would have gone after you too.' Her dad sounded groggy but she was glad that he was beginning to come around. 'How did you get here?'

'The police came to work and told me what happened.'

'Where is she, I want you safe Hannah.'

'It's okay, she's been arrested.' Hannah heard her dad sigh in relief. 'Don't worry about that now, all that matters is you get better.'

'My thoughts were of you when it was happening, my beautiful daughter, I came back for you.' Hannah felt quite emotional at her father's words.

'Everything will be all right, you're being well looked after here.'

'What about you, where's Dixie?'

'She's gone to get something to drink.'

'I'm tired.'

'That will be anaesthetic, are you in pain?'

'No.'

'Good, that means your painkillers are working.' Hannah kept hold of her dad's hand as he went back to sleep, he needed the rest and she was pleased that she had got to talk to him even if it was only for a short time.

Dixie came back in and handed Hannah the bottle of water she'd bought for her, she noticed the tears that had ran down her cheeks straight away. 'Hannah, what's wrong?'

'He's just been awake and talked to me.'

'That's good, isn't it?'

'He said he was thinking of me, that he came back for me.'

'Of course he did, you mean everything to him Hannah, you're his world.'

'I know, I hate seeing him like this Dixie.'

'I know that you do.' Dixie gently wiped away the tears from Hannah's face and kissed her, she really felt for Hannah and wanted to take away as much of her pain as possible. 'He is doing well, just like I said, he is strong and will come through this.' Dixie gently pushed back the hair from Hannah's face and hugged her, she was going to be there for her no matter what.

Hannah spent the rest of the time just sat with Dixie, it didn't look as if her dad was going to wake up again any time soon. It was better for him if he slept, it would help him to recover quicker if he was resting. When the time came to leave she said goodbye to him and asked the nurses to make sure that he knew she was coming in tomorrow, she felt a bit better knowing that her father had started on the path to recovery. Hannah kept hold of Dixie's hand, she was her anchor and Hannah needed her more than ever right now. Hannah had one last thing to do, she followed the path that she had taken many times when she'd worked here as a paramedic and found herself stood in front of the little station at the back of the hospital. 'Dixie, this is where I used to work.'

'It's a lot smaller than Holby.'

'I know, come on, you can meet the man I used to work for.'

'That will be interesting, is he anything like me?'

'No, totally the opposite, he's quiet.'

'Hey, I can be quiet too.' Hannah smiled at Dixie's put out expression, it was easier to smile now that she wasn't so worried about her dad.

Hannah saw David stood in front of one of the ambulances and she called out his name, he turned around and came over to her pulling her into a hug. He let go a few seconds later and stood back. 'How is your dad?'

'He's going to be fine, he's still asleep at the minute but he's improving.'

'Good, I'm glad to hear it. How are you?'

'Better for having seen him. How are the kids and Erin? '

'They're good, we're going on holiday soon.' Hannah saw David look behind her at Dixie. 'Who's this?'

'David, meet Dixie, she does your job at Holby.' David shook hands with Dixie.

'Dixie, that has to be a nickname, right?'

'It is,' Dixie said. 'My name is actually Kathleen Dixon.'

'You're who I talked to on the phone about Hannah's transfer.'

'I am, it is nice to meet you.'

'Nice to meet you too.'

'Dixie is also my partner,' Hannah said and smiled as David quickly got what she meant.

'I hope you're looking after our Hannah, Dixie, she's a special woman.'

'She is, I love her very much.'

'Good, I'm glad to hear it. How long are you staying?'

'I'm not sure yet, at least until Sunday.'

'You have to come around to my house for dinner one evening, I know the kids would love to see you again Hannah.'

'We will.'

'Good, I can get to know Dixie.'

'Thanks David, let us know when we can visit.'

'How about tomorrow evening?'

'Sounds perfect to me, Dixie?'

'It's okay with me too.'

'Good, I'll let Erin know, if you come to ours about eight.'

We will, see you tomorrow evening.' Hannah hugged David again and he went back to work, Hannah slipped her hand into Dixie's and they left the ambulance station together.

Dixie felt a bit happier, Hannah's dad was looking to be on the mend and David seemed to approve of her. She'd done quite a bit of thinking in the hospital, mainly about how short life could be sometimes and how you should seize the moment before it slipped through your fingers and was lost forever. Her mind kept going back to the ring that was nestled safely in her bag back at the house, the ring that she wanted to ask Hannah to marry her with. Something inside her wanted to ask Hannah while they were here, she didn't want to wait any longer than she already had. Dixie loved Hannah with all of her heart and seeing what had happened to Lawrence made her want to ask Hannah even more now. Dixie vowed to find the perfect moment to ask Hannah to be with her for life, she was nervous and excited at the same time. She squeezed Hannah's hand as they walked back to the car, one day her beautiful partner would be her wife.