Chapter 2

Sorry I didn't have author notes last time, I'm still getting used to uploading. Anyway, I just wanted to say that the reason some of the grammar/tenses in chapter on were a bit off was because I started writing in third person, and when I changed to first person I forgot to fix some things. Sorry!

I freeze. Tell them what happened?

"Naruto please, I need you."

How am I supposed to do that?

"Let's just forget any of this ever happened."

They are my teammates. No, they are my family. They deserve to know.

I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

"Okay. I'll tell you."

Kakashi sensei and Sai look at me expectantly.

"It started after Sasuke died. When we returned to the village with his body. We were broken, haunted by the images of his death. All we could think about was how if we had found the battle with the rogue ninja earlier, we might have been able to save him."

I tense at the memory.

"Goodbye…. Naruto…. I'm sorry…."

"SASUKE!" I scream as his eyes close. His blood is on my hands. All over me. The kunai that was lodged in his stomach is on the ground by my feet

I have to keep going.

"It was the night we returned. After we brought his body to the Anbu to be examined, we parted. I should have stayed with her, but I went home."

Even now I can feel how hopeless I was that night.

"A few hours later, Sakura came to my house. She was tears, and all of a sudden she kissed me."

I brace myself to say the next words.

"I…. not to give too many details, we slept together."

I see Kakashi and Sai's eyes widen at this. It's clearly not what they were expecting.

"The next day she tells me to forget it ever happened. Then she avoided me like the plague outside of missions until she left."

We are all silent for a while after that.

"So" Kakashi starts "she never told you why she left?"

"No. She didn't even say goodbye. She just had Sai deliver a letter to me. It didn't tell me anything. Not why she left or where she was going. I mean, yeah it was awkward, but she came onto me! And then she tells me to forget about it! Like nothing happened!" I say, getting angrier by the minute. I've never told anyone this before.

"She must have regretted her decision." Says Sai quietly, looking deep in thought.

"The she shouldn't have done it in the first place." I spit "She knew I was in love with her, and she used me. I don't know if I was a tool to forget her grief or what, but she chewed me up and spit me out and left me in the dust."

"Naruto, she probably needed comfort. She needed somewhere to channel her anger." Says Sai.

"Then she could have gone and screwed Lee or something. I bet he'd be more than willing. He's liked her for years."

"She chose you because you were her friend. You shared her grief." Replies Sai.

"Yeah, well, friend or not she still abandoned me. Now you guys know. I'm going to bed."

I stand up and head to my sleeping bag. Strangely, I quickly fall into a deep, dreamless sleep.

The next day we head out early and get to the village in the Land of Mountains around noon. We are not needed to guard the item for another few hours, so we have some time to relax. We go our separate ways, and I decide to go see if there is a ramen shop nearby.

I'm walking through a small market in the center of the village when suddenly I hear yelling.

"Het kid, you can't take that without paying! Get back here!"

"Make me, losers!"

Someone slams into me from behind, and I turn around.

"Hey are you okay?" I say looking down. The one who slammed into me is tiny, a little kid.

"Uh, yeah, thanks."

The person looks up. It's a little girl with bright blonde hair, green eyes, and whisker like marks on her cheeks. Funny, except for the eyes, she looks a lot like me.

Out of nowhere I hear more yelling.

"Koyumi, you'd better get back here before I tell your mom what you've been up to! I don't think Ms. Haruno would be too happy to hear about this!"

No. I can't have heard that right. No way. Just a coincidence. Ms. HARUNO!?

Sorry, short chapter, but I thought this was the best way to end it. It's probably pretty easy to guess to Koyumi is, but oh well. Hope you enjoyed, please R&R

-Lynx