Chapter 15: iSay Meaningless Words

Sam. Freddie needed to find her. He wasn't supposed to be here but he had to comfort Sam while a man named Spencer might be dying. He knew Sam cared about this man. And Freddie cared about Sam.

Freddie walked up to the reception desk. Love Ain't Reality was playing on the TV. It was the episode where Freddie kissed Natasha…how embarrassing. He hoped no one recognized him…especially the teen girl in the waiting room. She was watching the show like her life depended on it.

"Can I help you?" Lily the receptionist asked suddenly. "Who are you here to see, sir?" She didn't know who he was.

"Where is Spencer Shay's room? Um…I need to see someone…it's important. Really important. It's extremely-"

Lily rolled her eyes. "I get it, it's important! Sir, only family and friends are allowed. Sorry." She started typing on her computer again.

"Please. I'm not a stranger! Spencer has a little sister, and I know her best friend! Sam Puckett."

"You need to see Sam?" Lily asked, and stared at the TV screen for a second. "Oh…you…she….you're Freddie Benson! I sleep on you every night!" She blushed. "I mean…I have a pillow with your face on it."

"That's really…creepy. But I really need to see Sam! I have to fix things between us. Just tell me what room she's in!"

Lily sighed. "I can't, but…I can tell you what floor she's on." She typed in his name and smiled. "Section B, third floor. And if it doesn't work out with her…I'll be here."

Freddie ran toward the elevator and pressed the up button. It felt like forever since he'd seen Sam. He couldn't get to the third floor fast enough. But he was also nervous. He'd planned a speech on the plane, but he couldn't remember!

Freddie groaned when an old lady got on at the second floor. She was slowing him down! Didn't she know he was in a hurry?

"Would you like some gum?" The old lady offered him a piece. "It's mint."

"Uh…sure." Freddie pulled off the wrapper and started chewing. "Thanks."

"I also have fruit gum. Would you like some fruit gum?"

"No, mint is fine." The doors opened on the third floor and Freddie got out.

The old lady stopped smiling. "Hey! How did you get my mint gum? You stole it! You stole my-" The doors suddenly closed.

Sam would be in Spencer's room…so where was Spencer? He'd have to search every room on this floor for Mumble. But Freddie didn't mind.

Freddie was too distracted with his thoughts to notice the blond girl walk out of a room behind him. He didn't see her stop and stare at the back of his head, wondering if it was really him.

"Freddie?"

X

It was Freddie Benson. Of course it was! But why was he here? He should be in L.A. right now! Maybe the show got canceled! But the ratings weren't low…

Maybe I was hallucinating. Was I that tired? Then Freddie smiled at me and I knew he was real. He was really here! I opened my mouth, then shut it. I'd been about to say Freddie, I missed you so much! Then I remembered I was mad at him.

"Hey, Mumble." Freddie whispered as he walked over to me. I know this is unexpected…but I had to see you." He grabbed her hand. "Sam, I missed you. I really missed you. Missy told me what happened and…I wanted to make sure you're alright."

I pulled my hand away. "Of course I'm not! Spencer had a heart attack and now he's in a coma. You might be surprised, but this isn't all about you." Did he think the whole world was his business?

"Hey, it's ok." He whispered. "It will be ok." I wished he would get mad. He was being so nice and caring! I felt like a terrible person.

"Freddie…it's not. This is your fault. If you had told me three weeks ago about Spencer's heart attack-"

He frowned at me and shook his head. "You think I knew about this? Sam, I would never keep something like this from you."

"But Carly and Melanie did. And it's all because of your stupid show!"

"My show? Sam, it's not my show!"

"Whatever. It's about you finding a wife. I never should have gone on it."

"I can't believe this." Freddie muttered. "You're blaming me for this? I didn't make Spencer have a heart attack and I didn't force you to come on the show! But I'm not sorry I did."

I rolled my eyes. "Of course you're not sorry. It made great TV! So where's the camera crew?"

"Sam." Freddie sighed and looked around the room. "There are no cameras. No one but Missy knows I'm here. If anyone found out…Missy could lose her job. But I'm here for you, Sam."

"No you're not." I tried to go back to Spencer's room but Freddie blocked me. "Move." But he still stood in front of me. "Freddie, I'm serious."

"Sam, please just listen to me…"

"Just go back to your mansion and find some other girl. I don't want you."

He stared into my eyes. "You don't mean that."

"You can't find love on a reality TV show." I said, staring down at the floor. "So I don't want anything to do with you or your show."

"Sam, I love you. And for the last time, it's not my show."

"And for the last time…goodbye." How could he love me when he had so many better girls?

I shoved Freddie out of the way and went back to the room. I was alone, so I turned around and watched through the glass window as Freddie waited for the elevator. When he was gone, I let one tear roll down my face.

I'm not sure why I acted that way. I guess I blamed Freddie for what Carly and Mel did. If they knew I hated him, they would have told me about Spencer immediately. But I didn't hate him. He was funny. He was caring and sweet. We were like magnets being pulled together.

I loved him.

It broke my heart that I just pushed him away.

But I had no other choice. It was a dumb show made for entertainment. The producers didn't care if Freddie found a wife. They just wanted high ratings and money in their wallets.

Love was too hard. I wanted to run after him like I did that night in L.A. and kiss him. But what could I say now? I'm an excellent liar. He believed every word I said…and I didn't mean any of them. Why couldn't I just hate him?

Because love is never easy.

X

He didn't believe her.

Freddie knew Sam didn't really blame him. She knew it wasn't his show. She had real feelings for him. She didn't really want him to go…right?

"And for the last time, goodbye."

Did she really mean that? She never wanted to see him again? People said things they didn't mean when they were angry. Meaningless words.

Freddie knew he didn't believe her.

A/N: Thank you so much for all the reviews (: I know there has been no Seddie for 2 chapters…so here it is!

Sam has reasons for acting this way, and you'll see why later on. And if you think you know how this story will end…you have no idea (:

WHAAAAT? You gave me candy for Halloween? I dressed up like Katniss Everdeen (Hunger Games!) for nothing! I want a review XD