Why do I feel Kind of accomplished? Because I finally got off my ass and typed this? Yup.

Song: Nocturne by Secret Garden

May induce tears. That, or I'm a wimp. Enjoy~

I'm back where I started.

When did this happen?

More importantly, why had this happened?

I don't understand why.

It's just a pretty little face and another headache. Why? I shook myself off, walking carefully up the steps back to the room, where I found that there wasn't a use for anything. My roommate, Maddie, straightened white, gleaming curtains, praising herself under her breath. When I entered the room, she raised her eyebrows and smiled softly. After, she turned back, to her own being, and kept her own business in mind. The corner of my mouth inched upwards in a smile. It was nice and warm in here, lights letting off a yellow-ish glow. I breathed inwards and shuffled my way up the steps and onto my bed. The sheets were even warmer. Why does this feel so welcoming to me? I feel like I'm at home. And nothing can really tell me why, because I've never actually had a home of my own. I snuggled in the white pillow I had brought with me to this school, feeling a wave of contentment. I sighed.

Madaline sighed along. "It feels so nice here. I don't know why. I'm sure you think the same thing." She whispered at the cold, frosted glass of the balcony door. I mumbled a 'yes' into the pillow, starting to sit up.

"Hey, how was your childhood like?" I asked, slowly as to not break any strings that might be just holding her together. My head pulsed again, simmering at the warmth of the room. Maddie's breath fogged up the glass as she exhaled deeply.

"Ah. Well, are you sure you want to hear about it?" She said, turning to me. I nodded once, down at her monotone reflection. She nodded, sitting on the bed that was across from mine.

"I didn't quite have it well…"

The young, blonde girl shivered at her reflection. Rain drizzled ungracefully on her broken umbrella. The shops of each street were all closed. Closed for Christmas. She turned, sniffling to her brother, who wiped blood from his nose. He fought to catch his breath. She matched it with her own, visible because of the cold that tainted the air. The rain continued to fall, a bit heavier than before. Her older brother hissed, pounding his fist against the stone sidewalk. City folk rushed around and about, out of the rain. The girl's beautiful long locks of gold were plastered to her face and her back. She wiggled her toes a bit, then hesitantly looked up at the shop window, watching the tears stream down her face in her reflection.

She winced backwards, scared at what she saw. "Come on, sis. Let's get out of here, or we'll die." Her brother said, tugging her dirty sleeve. She nodded, not saying a word.

She simply chose that speaking was out of her view of the world. After all, the world had given up on her so many times. Speaking was no longer an option to her. She nodded to her brother, her frosty breaths becoming inaudible to herself.

The two children walked along the path, watching the rain drip onto their little feet. They crowded under the broken umbrella, unable to do more than just that. What home was there to welcome them? The little blonde girl was sad. Watching everyone simply pass by, not allowing a second glance to the duo. They turned corners, and corners alone drove her to tears. They started to flow down her face, gently. She loved the rain. She loved how it hid all of the sadness that was starting to crumble into her tiny heart. Her brother stumbled, and she helped him up, sadly waiting for another person to walk by and just keep walking.

They hid in alleys, wanting to get out of view from the harsh, cold world. Why couldn't anyone just help the two. She heard voices of a mother that was no longer there to take care of the children. She cried to herself, sliding her head onto her brother's lap.

"Now Let the day just slip away

so the dark night may watch over you.

Velvet blue, silent true,

It embraces your heart and your soul,

Nocturne."

She heard it whisper against the metal clangs of the rain on the water pipes. The lights that lit the dark streets started to haze away from her view. Her brother stroked her long hair, shaking in himself too. The voices of their dead mother echoed in this rain, reminding the siblings of all that they lost. The only thing they loved. The young girl cried harder, remembering of the lullaby that she sang every night before her demise. Before they took everything away. Now her brother sang along, sniffling in his own tears, trying to get a glimpse of the angel that tried her best to watch them.

"Never Cry,

Never Sigh.

You don't have to wonder why."

It sang to her, sweetening her bitter, cold heart.

"Always be,

Always see.

Come and dream the night with me.

Nocturne."

It ended, swirling her tears into a night filled with sadness and darkness for years.

The next morning she woke up, against a warm wall and snow, drifting along her hair, making it damp. She shivered and looked around carefully. She sniffled, and wiggled her numb toes again. In her poverty shoes, she walked around the streets, looking up and down impatiently and sadly. Her eyes filled with tears again, which could no longer be masked because of the snow that fell down ungracefully. For once, people asked her if she was fine. Her eyes widened and she shook her head 'no'. Afterwards, she had found herself running back to where she had fallen asleep. But that could never happen.

She fell asleep on her brother's lap.

And her brother was no where to be found.

Stains of blood led where he had his bloody nose. But the snow hastily covered up the only source she had. The girl frowned and bundled herself in a ball, leaning against the warm wall where she had woken up. The scent of her mother, pine needles and warm maple, drifted around her. She felt warm. So welcomed and warm. Something she hadn't felt in a while. Her heart gleamed, and she closed her eyes, lying down on the snowy floor. Her hair was damp and scrunched up against her head. She warmed herself into this feeling of being loved. She heard shushing noised against her ear. "Shh…" It warned her. "Shh…" She slowed her breathing.

Ever slower it became.

Ever so slower.

Her eyes snapped open. She caught a glimpse of the loving face of her mother. She gasped and leaned back against the warm wall again. Her mother was trying to take her away. She was trying to take the girl away with her. The young girl's eyes filled with tears. She stuttered backwards, standing up and wanting to get away from her mother. 'I can't go with you, Mama.' She had to think to herself sadly. 'You're dead, Mama. I can't go with you. I can't leave my brother, Mama. I can't do it.' She thought again and again, starting to sob. Tears burrowed themselves into the snow, leaving dents.

She lifted her head to the sky and cried louder.

Her heart filled with loneliness.

She was lonely.

There wasn't anyone with her.

Who would lover her now?

Now, everything, every single thing that she had to live for, was taken away from her.

Her mother.

Her brother.

Everything.

She sobbed louder, finding her voice against the hustling of the city people. The sound of her mother's voice faded away, being replaced by the sweet sounding, dark notes of her brother. The voice of her brother haunted her, singing ever so sweetly to her, beckoning her somewhere where she did not want to go.

It sang louder, sweeter than before. Just as he had sang that last night that they were together.

"Have no fear,

When the night draws near.

And fills you with dreams and desire.

Like a child asleep.

So warm,

So deep.

You will find me, there waiting for you.

Nocturne"

She sobbed, finding her voice. She wanted to say something, but she hadn't spoken in so long, it's as if she had forgotten. The tears stained her face, and she shuddered into the warm wall again.

"We will fly

In the sky

We don't have to wonder why.

Always be,

Always see,

Come and dream the night with me.

Nocturne."

She shivered, knowing that she was going to become like her mother was. Dead. She cried. She cried of the feeling that she kept with her. Loneliness. Sadness. Departure. She didn't want to go unless she knew that she was leaving with her brother beside her. She felt selfish and horrible, but didn't want to let go of the feeling. She cried for her mother and her brother. The only things she had left. She cried because she was alone and didn't know what to do.

"Though Darkness lay,

It will give way,

When the dark night delivers the day."

She sang the only word that would be able to be spoken after years of silence.

"Nocturne."

I watched as the suddenly sullen girl rang out the last note of her mother's lullaby. I looked at her in shock. "Are you okay?" I asked, watching her lower her head, as if the reflection of the glass scared her. She shivered.

"I'm fine." She said shakily. "Thank you." She shook again. I walked down the steps and wrapped a blanket around her. Her face paled. She was twirling a part of her hair in her fingers. She wiped one of her eyes darkly. The color started to darken, creating a violet of sadness and hues of regret. "I was taken away from that street when I woke up the next day. I found myself in Canada somehow. Someone took me there and left me at a school, I guess. We were living in the U.S, close to the Canadian border. And that's how I came to be. I lived and studied at that school, and I tried to get money to find my brother. And I did find him. After ten years, I went back to New York. Back to the spot where we slept. And I found him." She smiled, wiping more tears from her eyes. "And I could just hear the sound of our mother's lullaby. Bringing us two back together after so many years."

I carefully put a hand on her back, feeling a wave of regret and happiness at the same time. It radiated from this girl, bringing me to the feeling like I was there. "I'm just so glad. So glad I found him, you know?"

I nodded to her. A feeling filled the air and rushed against me. Small whisperings leaned against my ear. A feeling of dread masked over my headache. I felt overwhelmed. The Canadian leaned in closer to me. The whispering started to make itself out to me. It whispered over and over again.

"Nocturne."

It hissed. Maddie turned her head.

"Mother….Go away…"

OOOH.

Yeah, I'm a loser. So tell me. What do YOU Think just happened? :D