Chapter 9
BPOV
Over the last several weeks Edward and I have become really close. I pretty much lived there since I had to testify against Jacob, but for now he is sitting in jail.
Another reason I've been staying with Edward is because I can't go back to my place. I would try and all I would do is shake and sob because of what happened.
Edward has been a great sport about having me staying at his house. The more I'm around him the more I'm falling for him.
I have felt so safe there.
Today he would be leaving for god knows how long for another tour. I had his photo album ready to give to him in hopes that he will like it.
The feelings were getting stronger for him, I just wanted to take it slow. I mean he was leaving and I was not sure for how long.
So why would I want to start anything right before he leaves. I don't think I do but I'm can't keep this feeling from creeping into my mind.
We never had another make out session like we did when Alice walked in on us. Just a few kisses here and there.
"Hi baby what's got you thinking so much over there that you didn't even hear me come in?"
"I'm just thinking that's all. Nothing to worry about."
"Bella, please tell me what's going on. Don't make me worry the whole flight?"
"Well I'm going to miss you a lot. We don't even know when your tour will be over. Also that once you are gone Jacob will start his shit. He knows that you guys will be gone."
"Baby you can always stay here. I mean you already have a key to the house and all the cars and you know the alarm code. I think it will make me feel better if you were here and I will miss you as well."
"I'll think about it. So are we doing anything before you leave today?"
"I was thinking that we would go and grab some lunch. Then I need to come back here to finish packing."
"I hate that you have to leave today."
"I do to sweetheart. I wish I didn't have to but I have a job to do. I promise I will call you everyday."
We went to a little pizza place. We ordered a large pepperoni pizza and sodas. We just talked about anything that came to mind. As the hours got closer to him leaving the sadder I felt.
After lunch we headed back to his house. We didn't do any talking. I think we both needed time to think.
Once we got there he said he was going to pack and I decided I was going to take pictures of the backyard.
The backyard was so beautiful. I was hoping that would get my mind off of him leaving.
About hour later I heard the door open and close. I knew it was Edward and I knew that our time was just about over.
"Sweetheart, why are you outside?" he asked as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
"I was just taking some pictures while you packed that's all."
I felt the tears fall down my face. Edward turned me around looked into my eyes. He placed his hands on my face.
"Please don't cry, I can't stand it when you do that."
He wiped the tears away from my face with his thumbs.
"I'm sorry, Edward I really can't help it. I just don't want you to go. I'm really going to miss you."
"I know baby I'm going to miss you too but we both know that I have to go. I told you that I would call you everyday and I will I promise."
"I know it's just not the same as you being here with me."
"I will come back, I always do. This is my home and now I have something to look forward to coming home to. I didn't before now."
He pulled me into a hug. Which in return I hugged him back all the while pulling him tighter to me.
I started to pull away but he stopped me as he crushed his lips to mine. I couldn't help but to moan into his mouth as I pulled his hair, I heard him moan as well.
He snaked his hands under my shirt and rubbed my back, it felt so good. I never wanted him to stop.
He pulled away from my lips and started to kiss down my neck and I then took the liberty to unbutton his shirt and scrap my fingers down his muscular chest.
"Bella," he murmured.
He continued to suck and nip at my neck. I felt him suck really hard on my neck close to my ear. I knew that he was leaving his mark on me. I wish I could do the same thing to him.
"Edward you marked me?"
"Yes, I did beautiful. I wanted to leave you a reminder of me."
I turned away from him but he was having none of that. He pulled my face back to him.
"Bella what's wrong?"
"Nothing I'm fine."
"Don't say there's nothings wrong, I can tell by the way you turned away from me."
"Fine I guess I'm just sad because you left me a reminder of you and I can't."
"Why can't you give me a reminder?"
"Because you have to perform. What would it look like if I left a bite size hickey on the side of your neck?"
"Honestly I couldn't give a shit, so by all means do whatever you want, I don't care."
He started to kiss down my neck again, as he reached my shirt he pulled it down a little to kiss along the top of my breasts.
I kissed along his neck until I got to the spot right below his ear. I nipped at first but as he reached the top of my breast again I bit down and sucked hard on that spot.
"Oh god Bella, you have to watch what you are doing. I won't be able to control myself with you."
I just continued on what I was doing, he moaned while continuing to kiss me.
Suddenly he pulled away and placed his forehead on mine.
"Baby, we really need to get going."
I didn't say a word. He grabbed my hand and started walking back to the house. We locked up and went to the car and headed to the airport.
We arrived at the airport and we got his bags out of the trunk. I looked over at him and I couldn't help but smile.
The mark I left on him was clearly visible, there was no way of hiding it. I don't think either of us thought about what the others would say.
In all honesty I really could care less. If Edward, didn't care, so why should I.
We walked inside holding hands. It felt great to feel close to someone, to bad he was leaving me here.
We found his gate and noticed that the others weren't there yet.
He checked in his luggage and we sat down.
"Edward, I will stay at your house. I feel safe there," I said looking at him.
"Bella, I'm glad. That makes me happy to know that you will be there," he said as he pulled me closer to him.
I leaned my head on his shoulder as the rest of them showed up.
"Hey Edward, Bella we are finally here. Rose had to change like twice," Emmett said looking at us.
"Hey Emmett, that's fine. We were a little early," Edward said.
"Holy fucking shit, what happened to both of your necks?" Emmett bellowed.
I hid my face against Edward's chest. There was no way that I could look at them.
"Emmett we held a freaking vacuum cleaner to our neck what does it look like?"
Everybody laughed around us.
"Damn Bella I didn't know that you had that in you."
"Bella I thought that you were a shy girl. I didn't think that you would do something like that," Jasper said.
Finally not being able to take it anymore I looked up and confronted all of them.
"You would be surprised what I'm capable of doing. It's the shy girls that you have to watch out for. Edward just brings out the best in me that's all."
Everybody stood there with there mouths hanging open except Edward. He pulled me into his side and whispered in my ear. "Bella, you surprise me everyday. I'm pretty sure that shut them up."
They called the guys plane. This was going to be really hard.
"Come here, baby."
I walked up to him and he pulled me into a hug.
"Baby, I will call you when I land. Go back to my house and make yourself at home. I will miss you so much."
"I'll miss you too Edward. Call me whenever you can please."
"I will."
"Um...Edward I...made this for you. Could you please look at once you are in the air?"
"Ok I will, baby. Take care of yourself."
"I will and you take care of yourself as well."
"I have to go."
He pulled me tight to him and crushed his lips to mine. Both of us not caring if everyone else saw us.
They all knew that there was something between him and I, so the hell with it. I tried to put in that kiss how I felt about him and I think he did as well.
He pulled away all too soon for my liking.
"I have to go baby."
He placed one last kiss on my forehead, then turned and walked away.
EPOV
After saying goodbye to Bella which was really hard to do I sat in my seat. The pilot came over and said that we would take off in about five minutes. I went ahead and put the seat belt on.
"So Edward I saw you kissing Bella before we boarded? What was that all about?" asked Jasper.
"Jasper, Bella and I have become very close since we have met as you know but my feelings for her have grown very strong. I feel very protective of her. I can't really explain it."
"I can understand that. So why haven't you two hooked up yet? I mean she is practically living at your house, driving your babies and she knows the alarm code. I mean that's pretty much as if you were together anyway. So why not make it official?"
"First off we are gone to much plus she is still having a hard time with everything that has happened with Jacob. The reason for her staying at my house while we are gone. She feels so protected there. Rose and Alice both promised me that they would check on her daily."
"Just think about it man. You two are good for each other. You both seem really happy when you are together. Don't let you being gone all the time stop you from being happy."
"Thanks Jasper I will think about it."
He got up and walked over and sit by Emmett. I pulled out the book that Bella handed me before I left. I opened it and there was a letter on the first page. I pulled it out and closed the book to read the letter first.
Dear Edward,
When I developed the pics from the photoshoot, I decided that I would make you a set so that you would not forget me while you are gone. I hope that you like them. I think yours turned out great. Mine weren't bad. But yours are beautiful.
I hope you will like them, and don't forget about me. I will miss you.
Thank you for being everything to me and caring for me when you didn't have to. I will be forever grateful to you.
Love, Bella.
I had to read the letter twice each time tears fell down my face. How in the hell was I going to go without seeing her while on this tour. I pretty much spent the whole time home with her, when I got back from the last tour.
I opened up the book and there on the first page was a picture of us with my arms wrapped around her and my cheek by her face. There was a little saying on the bottom of it. This one is almost my favorite. It felt so right to have your arms wrapped around me.
I flipped to the next page and it's one of just her. She was being all shy. The note under that one said, I may be shy but you know me better than I know myself. You see through me at times.
Looking at the next page there was one of her looking all sexy. I must say that I really like that picture of her. I read the saying. Knowing you Edward makes me feel sexy, even though I don't see it. But you have a way about you that makes me believe it.
I turned the page and there was a picture of me. I was standing there with my arms crossed with a tight jaw like I was a bad ass. My tattoo was showing because I had on a short sleeve shirt. I read the saying under it. Underneath all the tattoos and piercings is a man who has a heart of gold and is such a sweet man that I am enjoying spending time with.
At this point I was wiping the tears that were falling down my face. How is the hell could I have left her in the airport like that. She made me something that I could look at anytime I wanted to. I think I just fell in love with Bella Swan. Nobody has ever made me feel like this. She was definitely one of a kind.
I finally flipped to the next page. There was the picture of us standing there and I still had her wrapped in my arms and I bent down and kissed her. That was the first between the two of us and I captured that moment. Edward this is my favorite picture for obvious reasons. It was our first kiss we shared together. I will miss you everyday until I can be in your arms again. Please be safe my Edward and come home to me soon.
I closed the album and tucked it under my neck and hugged it to me. I sniffed it and it smelled like my baby. I would look at this everyday. I hope that we would be able to fill the rest of this book with more memories.
The pilot came on and told us to buckle back up that we would be landing very soon. I buckled up and placed the album back in my carry on. I will be definitely calling Bella as soon as I landed. That girl was my baby and nobody was going to take her away from me.
We pulled up to our hotel and checked in. I was glad that I for once I got a hotel room by myself. I wanted to be able to call Bella without having Emmett up my ass listening to everything I said.
I laid down on the bed after I changed into my sleep shorts. I usually sleep nude but because I was getting ready to call Bella I wanted something covering my cock. I didn't want to be tempted to take care of myself while hearing her voice.
I picked up my phone and hit speed dial #1. She picked up on the first ring.
"Hello," she said with what sounded like she was crying.
"Hi baby. Are you ok?"
"Yeah I'm fine. I think it's just my allergies. I'm going to be ok."
"Baby please do not lie to me. Haven't you learned by now that I can tell when you are not telling the truth."
"Fine I was looking at the pictures of us. I got sad because I miss you already."
"Oh sweetheart please don't cry. I promised you that I would call everyday and I will. By the way I really loved the album you gave me. I loved every picture you put in it. That really means alot to me that you would do that for me. The sayings you put at the bottom of each picture is the exact same way I feel about you. I miss you like crazy baby."
I could hear her crying into the phone. It broke my heart every time she cried. I hated that I couldn't pull her into my lap and just hold her until she was done.
"I know I just want you to be here with me and hold me like you do every night Edward. I have gotten so use to you being in the bed and holding me all night."
"Sweetheart why don't you get a pair off my boxers and a shirt of mine and wear them to bed. That will give you some comfort I'm sure. Use my pillow as well baby. I will be home as soon as I can. I promise. There is good news though. After this tour is done we will be home for awhile. Most likely a year or so. We have to start recording our new album."
"So once you get home from this one you won't be leaving for awhile and I will have my Edward here with me?"
"Yes, baby that's what I'm saying."
I had to laugh as I said it. Bella had used my Edward a few times since we had been talking and that made me feel really good. I could hear something rattling against the phone.
"Bella, what is that noise?"
"I'm just changing my shirt into one of yours," she said quietly.
She sounded too cute when she was being all shy. That's one of the things I loved about her.
"Ok sweetheart I need to get to bed we have practice real early in the morning. Sweet dreams baby. I will call you when I can tomorrow."
"Alright Edward. I will be waiting for your call. Sweet dreams as well. Talk to you tomorrow."
"Bye baby."
"Bye my Edward."
I hung up the phone and I knew that I would have sweet dreams that night and they would all star my baby in them. I got comfortable and dozed off to sleep.