Hi guys :)

Thank you so much for your great reviews and by the way also for the favourite alerts. I have to say, I haven´t seen a single Criminal Minds episode from the new season, though I know that there´s someone for Reid. But I wanted to see the episodes on TV without knowing all of it and where I live, we have to wait far too long. So, it´s time for the secret to come out :) Hope you like it and reviews would be highly appreciated :)

xoxo

Again, for the second time, they were interrupted by Reid´s phone. After a couple of seconds he barged back into the room grabbing his bag as fast as he could.

"Reid what the hell is going on?" Morgan asked him.

"I have to leave … now; I have to be back at home as fast as I can. I´m sorry…" and with that he turned around and ran towards the elevator to leave.

The whole BAU-Team was confused, shocked and startled. They hadn´t had the slightest idea what has happened to Reid, nor what was still going on and made him act that way. And suddenly he was standing in front of them, telling them he had to go back home before he was running out of the room.

Morgan was the first to regain from the shock, jumping out of his seat to follow his younger colleague. Even though Reid had run out of the room first, Morgan was faster and reached the elevator first.

He jumped between the elevator and Reid, preventing him from stepping in. He crossed his arms in front of his body as if to show him, how serious he was. During that, the rest of the team had already followed their colleagues to see what was going on.

"Morgan step out of my way I need to go back home!" Reid demanded trying to control his voice.

"Reid what is going on with you, we are in the middle of a case you can´t just step out from the team with no explanation…!"

"I know this is hard to understand but I have to go … now. So step away …!" This time he wasn´t able to keep control.

"Reid, what is going on with you?" Rossi threw in, not being able to hold back.

"I can´t explain it to you guys right now … I´m sorry, but I have to go …"

"You can´t just go away in the middle of a case without telling us anything …" Hotch told him.

"Spence, at least tell us what you are going through…" JJ tried to smooth the situation.

"Reid we all know something is wrong, maybe we could help you …" Emily agreed.

Suddenly, Reid turned around, facing his team. He saw five faces full of concern and worry and somehow he also felt as if there was hurt shown in their faces… and he knew it wasn´t right how he had treated them … how he had treated his family. They actually wanted to be there for him, wanted to help him. And all he had done was to shut them out and hurt them.

But how could he tell them about it, how could he tell what he had been hiding for so long. He had known from the beginning, that there might have been a chance that if he had told them, they would actually have been able to help him with it.

But he had gotten scared, scared about Anna, scared about the team. He thought hiding it would be the ideal idea to prevent them from getting into danger.

And as much as he knew it sounded weird, that six FBI-agents would have gotten hurt by one single man, he couldn´t risk it. They were the only people beside his mother and Anna he actually cared about and considered as family.

The team was family, the team was friends. And if he had the chance to do so, he would keep any danger and threat as far from them as possible.

So he simply hid a huge part of his past just as much as some of the present, for the best of everyone. For two years, he had been really, really happy. Sure, his childhood had been bad and so were his college years, because he never thought he would fit in, he always felt out of place. But Anna had always made it better. Whenever she had visited him, she made him smile. When he came to the BAU he finally found a place that was right for him, but he had missed Anna during that time more than ever and whenever she made the time to visit him, he was full of joy.

And when she came back to him, after all she had gone through, when they were finally able to be together, he was happy ... truly and utterly happy. But then, all of it had changed. His world turned upside down and his heart broke into a million pieces when he heard what had happened.

And now, there was his team in front of him, wanting him to tell everything. And suddenly, he couldn´t keep it together anymore, it was all too much. He had kept his emotions to himself far too long, he couldn´t do it anymore … he had to let it out.

"Don't you think I want to tell you?! You want to help me but I don´t want you in danger! Of course I want you to know, I want to tell you all of it but I simply can´t, even though it would be so much easier. I want your help, I need your help because it has all become too much. I don´t know what to do anymore …!"

"I want to protect Anna just as much as I want to protect you but I´m obviously not even in the state to keep her safe! This is all my fault, it´s my fault she got hurt, it´s my fault she is in that state and now I might not even be able to get her back. I might have lost her forever. And all I can do is to wait for her to wake up and maybe she never will. So what do I do? I go on a case with you in the hope that she will at least be safe for now and then he gets to her again. So if I´m not even able to safe her, how should I safe anyone else?" Reid had screamed while he began to speak but his voice had gotten quieter and quieter.

All of his colleagues were looking at him in shock. The same questions were floating through everyone´s mind, but JJ was the only one to ask him while everyone looked at him in concern.

"Spence, who are you talking about. Who is Anna and why is she in danger, why would we be in danger? And why is it your fault? What are you talking about the state she´s in and why is there a chance that she might not wake up? Please just tell us, we can and we will be there for you we are your family. Who is Anna?"

"Anna … Anna is the most beautiful, intelligent and amazing woman." Reid whispered.

"She is the one that keeps me sane and has always been there for me, even in the worst situations. She is my oldest friend, we´ve known each other for so long … She´s ... she´s my fiancée … and she´s in coma …"

Hi again … I´ve got to say Rebecca1 figured it out :)