Hi guys :)

Thank you for your reviews you guys are really supportive. So the secret has been spilled and you´ll find out a lot about Reid´s past that I made up :) Finally got to see new CM episodes I love them :) anyway … Hope you like it and reviews would be highly appreciated :)

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Warnings: Mentioning of abusive relationship

"Reid, who are you talking about … who is he?" Morgan asked. Reid looked at them, his eyes showing nothing but hurt and sadness.

"He … he was her last boyfriend … he´s the one responsible for all of this … Responsible for what has happened to her …"

"You guys have to know, Anna … she was partly the only thing to keep me sane.. I never had anyone besides her after I committed my mother to Bennington, I was pretty much on my own, my father had left us long before and I didn´t have any friends …" Reid started to explain.

"She was somehow always there and after I was accepted to the BAU, the first thing was of course to tell her about it and when I went back to Las Vegas to meet her, she was so happy to see me but I knew something had changed about her, though but I couldn´t point it back then … After a while she told me that she had met someone and that she thought he was special and really could be the one for her … You know, I always loved her, but until then, I didn´t know how strong my feelings for her really were. In my mind, I had lost my chance because I was too blind to see it and I thought, I should keep my feelings to myself because I wanted her to be happy and I thought as long as he could give that to her, I should let them be …"

"But obviously that didn´t end as you thought it would", Morgan pointed out.

"No, not anyhow near that. Well, I started working for the BAU, trying to cover my mind with work and I was actually so preoccupied at the beginning, that I was able to pull my mind away from her at least for a while…"

"So you stopped talking to her?" Emily asked.

"At the beginning, but I wasn´t able to continue that way. It took me a while to accept it but at that point I thought, even if she wouldn´t love me the way I did, at least I would have her as a friend. So after I had built up the courage to meet her again, a couple of months had already passed and I went to Vegas to see her. At first, she was angry at me for not calling her, but we were never exactly good at staying mad at each other, so she forgave me and we built up our friendship again"

"And what about the feelings you had for her?" JJ asked.

"I pushed them away as much as I could and was simply happy to have my best friend back. Well, we started to regularly visit each other again. She often talked about her relationship and how well everything was and I tried to ignore the jealousy that came up in me. And then, when the thing with Tobias Hankel had happened, she let me talk to her about all of it and was simply there for me. She helped me … with everything" his voice got quiet during the last sentence and every team member knew what he was referring towards.

"Well, somehow, I never got to meet her boyfriend, though I didn´t exactly wanted to, she never let me. She always used excuses why he wasn´t at home when I was in Vegas. And of course, after a while I got suspicious and asked her about it and it wasn´t rare that she snapped at me which she had never been doing."

"We have once been fighting over it, because I told her, that I wanted the truth to understand her actions and she simply yelled at me, telling me it wouldn´t be any of my business, which led to two months without talking to each other until I apologized and she told me that she had reasons but that she wanted me to stay away from it."

"Did you?" Hotch asked.

"Of course not. I knew she was hiding something, if you know someone for you entire life, it´s hard not to see those things and she was always bad at keeping something to herself."

"So what happened?" Rossi wanted to know, just as much as everyone else did.

"Ahm … ok … well the two of us has been together for two years and 5 months now. And about three years ago, that was one year after that big argument, we had a couple of weeks off, which I didn´t know, else I would have told her, that I wanted to come for a visit. But either way, I decided to simply make it a surprise and since her birthday had been four days earlier I thought 'why not'. So when I arrived at her house, I heard shouting from the inside. First I thought that they might have been having an argument and I even considered leaving, but then, I heard something as if … well as if glass or something like that had been broken. So I got worried and decided to show them, I was there. Well … the door opened and he was looking at me as if I was someone from another planet, I mean he had never met me, so of course he had no idea who the man in front of him was.

"What happened then?" Garcia interrupted.

"He asked, who I was and what I wanted. I told him, that I was Anna´s friend and wanted to know if she was at home. He was already trying to shut the door, telling me she wasn´t there, but I wouldn´t let him. So I shoved him out of the way and went in and … I still remember that picture clearly…" Reid didn´t continue, obviously struggling, with the continuation of his story.

"Kid, you can tell us" Morgan told him.

"Anna … Anna was lying on the floor, there were large pieces of glass around and on her body, her arms, her face … there was so much blood and … and …" Again, the young profiler lost his words, waiting before he told further.

"You guys know what had happened, right ... I mean … I can´t … well I rushed towards her to see if she was still conscious and when I looked back up to scream at him, he was gone. But in that moment I couldn´t care less, I simply picked her up and got her to the next hospital available. I still remember that, when she woke up again, she first told me how sorry she was, but that she was scared of what he would do to her or to her sister and the reason she never wanted me to meet him was, that she was afraid he would harm me. As it seemed, he had been hitting her for two years … I never noticed … never."

"Spence, you can´t say it´s your fault it´s…" JJ started, but Reid interrupted her.

"Yes it is, we deal with that kind of things every day and I didn´t see it, that wassn´t not right, so yes it is my entire fault. I should have been the one to protect her, I´m in the FBI and didn´t notice that my best friend was in an abusive relationship … Anyway, when she woke up, I told her, no I promised her, I wouldn´t let him hurt her again. Never. Anna doesn´t have any family besides her sister, Laura and she moved to Virginia even before I did. So I told Anna to come with me, she moved into my apartment, found a job in the local kindergarten and even told her sister about it, they are really close again. I tried to help her as much as I could, it took a long time for her and she´s still not completely over everything that has happened to her and I know she probably never will, but she made so much progress and I couldn´t help but think that I played an important role during that way."

"And about the two of you?" Garcia asked.

"Well, seven months after all of that, she asked me out of the blue, why we didn´t have any contact ten years ago, you know when she met him. I have never been so scared in my entire life but I thought I couldn´t hold it together anymore, so I told her that I wasn´t able to stand it. She asked what I meant and I … I don´t know why it happened in that exact moment, it simply did, I told her that it was because I couldn´t stand the idea of her being with someone else and before she could even reply I told her that I knew I probably shouldn´t feel like that, but either way I told her that I loved her."

"What I didn´t expect was the way she replied to it." A small smile made its way over Reid´s face and everyone noticed that.

"She simply kissed me and told me she thought I would never admit it. And that she loved me too." But as soon as he looked to his right to see Anna, the smile disappeared and he absently began stroking her hand.

"But Reid, why did you never go to the police" Hotch asked.

"Because he shouldn´t have been able to hurt her again" Reid answered.

"And why is that?" Morgan asked.

"Because we thought he was dead…"