He had walked out the room and returned shortly after with a book. He sat down back in his throne chair and sat with his knees to his chest. He placed the book on the table and stared into my eyes

"As you know I have met my fair share of other vampires, most have been nothing more than acquaintances with a common story. However I suppose it must have been a hundred and fifty years after I had turned I had met a vampire who was coming into his seven hundredth year he had asked if I was happy as a vampire, at the time I wasn't exactly sure how to respond to him, it sounds peculiar but I didn't I know what happiness was. He had offered me this book it was a journal that he had kept even as a human and continued it into his vampire days. He had said it might offer me some guidance. I had hesitantly accepted it and I never saw that vampire again. He wrote that the only thing worse than loneliness is being a creature of darkness because even loneliness is much more tolerable. He had met a human, a female and he had fallen in love with her and his tuned changed and he had wrote I have decided that the only thing that is worse than loneliness is knowing that one day those you love will die and then you are left depressed and lonely. He couldn't handle the thought of watching the women he loved grow old and die" He said

He pushed the book to me and I looked at it briefly and then back to him

"There is a page with a folded corner, towards the end of the book" he continued

I opened up the book to the page that he had mentioned. I started to trace over the words with my eyes and as I read Lawliet had recited word for word what had been written.

"She had said she loved me. She had said she wanted to live eternity with me, even though I had warned what she was missing out on she still agreed and so I had turned her. She was never going to have offspring or marriage, she was never going to feast upon food again and though I heeded those warnings she still wanted eternal life. It was a mistake I had made, I should have given her time maybe if I had she would have understood the consequences, she had longed for things I could not give her so as she walked out into the dawn and I watched as her body turned to ashes I had felt the stab in my heart, I had killed her twice" He said out loudly

It was painful to read. I could feel how badly the write had been riddled with guilt. However it had not changed my mind but I understood from Lawliet's point why he wanted to give me time to think his proposal over.

"I hope now that you understand and will forgive me for making this painful for you. But I do not want what happened to her to happen to you. Life is not easy for a vampire Light and it is purely because of my stubbornness that I am still here today. I will only turn you if I know for certain that this life with me is what you desire. I want you to take something into consideration, if I had said that I wanted you to become my successor however it meant you would have to spend eternity with me only offering you an eternity of friendship and nothing more would you still be wanting to agree to my proposition, if I had a change of heart and said I would not be your lover and I would not be taking you as my own, would you still say yes?" He asked me

I didn't even need a second to think about it. I didn't need to sit and ponder over such a ridiculous questioned. I had loved L for six years and even though I wanted him so badly I had never acted upon my desires, only onto myself. I still respected him, honored him and my loyalty was only to him. If he had offered to turn me only, my answer would have been the same

"Yes" I let the word escape my mouth

He looked at me almost surprised.

"You would?" He questioned my answer

"I came to you because I wanted to learn from you and I wanted to have the honor of being an associate to someone who truly fascinated me. I did not approach you with the hopes of sex or love or any other long term commitment. Yes I had come to fall in love with you and yes you are the only one I want to give myself to and you are the only one who enters my heart and mind but you must not know me at all if you think I would change my decision if you stripped me of having you and giving myself to you. I was and always have been your friend and regardless of anything else I am blessed to have that and that is how I have and always will see whether I am vampire or human and I have something that women clearly did not, I have the sense not to throw something like eternal life, how could someone throw a gift away given to them by someone they love? She was nothing more than a snot nosed brat who could not claim responsibility for her own decisions and actions" I said aggressively

I had never once raised my voice to L or challenged him in anyway but I was extremely frustrated by the fact that he had questioned my answer. L was more to me that just the man I masturbated to the thought of. He was more to me than just the man I desired so badly he was my educator, my family, my friend. He was my savior and protector and I was those thing for him to. The bond we had went far beyond lust and burning desire. I love him not because of his appearance, although truly beautiful, I had loved him because of who he was not what he may or may not have offered me. I had decided not long after we had met that I was never going to have him sexually anyway, I had convinced myself that there was nothing more than friendship for us and yet I still wanted to remain with him forever.

He hadn't appeared to be angry by the fact I raised my voice to him which I already deeply regretted. In fact he seemed happy by what I had said.

"I would never be so cruel to strip you from what you truly desire nor live for eternity depriving myself of my own, my question was hypothetical. Listening to your true thoughts and your opinion about what was written in that journal I have only one question left to ask you" He said

"You know you can ask me anything Lawliet" I said calmly

"Will you give me a few more days to fully mentally prepare myself for this? you have to understand I have never done this before, neither turned someone nor been with anyone as a romantic partner. I know now that you are ready and it is what you truly want, I just need a little more time" He said to me, his voice had an almost begging tone to it

"I would wait until my dying day for you. It is you that I love and you are the only one I would wait for" I replied

I got up and left the room quickly. I could still feel my heart beating quickly; I had hated myself for yelling at him. I needed to apologize, once I was truly calm I was going to ask for forgiveness. I hadn't even registered that he had just changed the terms to our agreement. He had changed it to a few days, the thought of having him turn me before the month was out was exciting and knowing that I would have him as my own as my lover and eternal partner made me smile. The more I replayed what he said in my head the calmer I had become. I grabbed the bread I had bought earlier and began to eat it and I made my way back to the room and stood in the door way, he was already looking up at me

I swallowed the mouthful that I had.

"I apologize for raising my voice Lawliet; it wasn't my intention to react in such a manner. I am sorry for challenging you" I said almost sheepishly

"You have no reason to be sorry, I couldn't be happier that you were so passionate about your true answer it was what I needed to know that you are truly ready for what is going to become of you and I know that more than anything you are ready to be with me as my lover and that you will remain faithful to me as I will you" He replied calmly

I felt relieved. I would have hated if because of my outburst he was going to retract his offer. But it was rather a dense thought; I knew Lawliet better than anyone did and he was a man of his word and only broke his verbal agreements if he was done wrong by first and I would have never done anything to harm him in any way. I could have never bought myself to cause the man I was deeply in love with any wrong doing. He gestured for me to sit back into the chair that I had claimed as my own

"I was a few years older than you are now when I was turned. I was twenty eight and I lived in a time where the Romans had come to Britain to invade us. My father was an elite soldier and was held in quite high regard by Emperor Claudius and it was only because of this that I was to be of service to the Emperor but not in battle, I suppose you could say our relationship was much like the one you and I had when you first came to me. Once the Romans had invaded and conquered I was approached by a Roman soldier who had said that I was destined for much greater things. I had no knowledge of vampires back then, no one had. I had no choice in the matter of becoming one, that same Roman solider had taken my life without a second thought. When I came around after he had turned me I had been left to fend for myself. I had to learn the ways of the vampire on my own. It had taken me quite a few decades to truly understand who I was and what I had become. I had found out that my father had not been killed in battle and I sought him out. I hadn't told him what had happened to me but he had told me about this mansion that was given to him by the Emperor as a reward for his friendship and loyalty and he had given it to me"

I hadn't expect Lawliet to tell me about what had happened to him or even what his life was like before he had turned at least not until after I had become his successor. It was strange hearing him talk about his human life; because I had only known him as a vampire and even though I knew he was once human it almost seemed like a story ripped from the pages of novel. I felt the upmost sympathy for him; I could only imagine how difficult life was for him. I sat and listened as he continued to tell me about his human life and the early years of his vampire one too. I had learnt that he had never been with anyone sexually or emotionally, back in time it wasn't uncommon for family members to marry or even reproduce but because of L's odd appearance he hadn't exactly been a prime candidate and in fact the only reason he remained alive was because of his father's connections. He had told me that when he first turned he was nothing short of a wild animal he craved the blood of the living whether it was animal or human and he admitted to not even caring how many lives he had taken. But as time passed he had somehow started to get back in touch with his former self and within thirty years of being turned he lived strictly off of farmed animals and it was only because he was starving that he had killed the peasant on the night that we had met something that haunted him nightly.

Hours had passed and as he sat and told me his story without a single word escaping my mouth I couldn't help but as if I had fallen more in love with him, he was truly a marvel and an incredible being. The suffering he had to face and the feeling of utter loneliness and somehow getting past the urge to end his life as a vampire were all factors that just added to how much I truly admired him. For two thousand and the added twenty eight years of his human life he had never once felt the love of any being, not a single hug nor kiss not even a handshake and although he had always felt he didn't like to be touched he had told me that he had convinced himself of such a notion simply because he had never been touched. As what he was saying was coming to an end I had felt like I had known him for much longer than six years, I had the knowledge that I had always wanted and I would always keep it secret. He said that he knew that I would never betray him and that I was the only one who truly knew who Lawliet was.

We could both feel that dusk was soon approaching and it was time for us to leave the confines of the mansion and visit his associates. I had hoped above all things that tonight he would get some answers that he needed and I had prayed that the Royals, the people he truly despised not only for the way they treated vampires but for the way they treated their own kind, humans. They were seeking to destroy all things they hadn't approved of and they wanted to rule over everyone. Lawliet had known for quite some time another war was approaching and he had told me that this time he was not going allow the deaths of those who looked up to him.

"You are an extraordinary being Lawliet, I realize that it may be an odd thing to say but I agree with the man that turned you, you were destined for great things and I truly believe in my heart that you will get the peace and justice that you desire simply because I know you will never give up and that in itself is admirable and true to who you are, and I want to be the one to stand by your side and if I can help in achieving your goals for both vampires and humans" I replied once he had come to his conclusion

"I would not want anyone else but you standing by my side, you are the only one I truly trust and I want to be with" He replied

There was just one that was bothering me, although it was not important but because it had me confused I had to ask my vampire about it

"Lawliet, there is just one thing I don't quite understand"

"I am going to assume you are confused as to how I and Nate are related" He replied

"Yes, but how did you know that was what was confusing me?" I asked slightly surprised

"Bloodlines are complicated especially because of the time I was human it was perfectly normal to have offspring with those you are closely related too, it would confuse anyone and truthfully, it confused me too. My brother and sister went on to marry and produce offspring, a son and a daughter and they also married and produced three children two sons and a daughter, Nate was one of those sons so in actuality he is not only my nephew but he is also my brother"

It took me a moment to comprehend it

"Suddenly my love for a two thousand year old vampire doesn't seem all that bizarre" I replied

He smiled at me and even let out a muffled laugh behind his closed thin lips.

The moment dusk had fallen we had left the mansion and taken two horses to ride to where L's acquaintances had been housed. I had to admit I was slightly confused as to why two men would be housed together, obviously a strange thought since I had lived with L but in a day in age where you could be thrown into prison if you were even suspected of buggery it seemed quite a risky thing for the two men to be doing.

We arrived at the small house that was on the outskirts of the middle class village where I had been earlier. It was the only village that had inns, why four was necessary I wasn't sure of. We had dismounted and tied the reigns to a nearby tree. It had been the only time I ever saw L sitting properly or wearing shoes. He suddenly seemed like a very different person even though they were only two small factors. We walked to the door and L knocked loudly.

"Fuck off, we don't want any and by we I mean my female lover and I" A voice had called out from inside the house

"It's L and I have bought my future successor with me"

I heard quick movements and the door suddenly swung open. We were greeted by a man with golden blonde hair, light blue eyes, an extensive scar down his left cheek that seemed to travel down towards his left shoulder and was dressed entirely in black while he sharpened the blade on a large dagger.

"Well come on in, I don't need people getting nosey and blabbering" He said

We walked in and he closed the door behind

"Wake up you lazy bastard a certain blood drinker is here" he said loudly to I presumed the other gentleman we were there to speak with

"We just got back from Germany last night, overseas jobs are a real nightmare especially when you end covered in blood and your left trying convince authorities that you were out hunting deer, but I suppose a jobs a job right" He continued to say

"Light this is Mihael Keehl, a murderer of murderers. Mihael this is my future successor Light Yagami" L introduced us he reached out his hand and I connected mine with his, we shook hands and he released his grip

"Strange, you don't look Japanese to me, anyway what can I do for you L I assume you want something since you very rarely grace us with your presence"

"I have a business proposition for you, one where you and Mail will be heavily compensated. I do not require your skills as contracted killers at least not yet anyway but I believe that you two are my only option for what I need done. I will share with you what information I do have and if you agree to what I am asking of you, you will be paid half now and half once the job is completed"

"Alright you have intrigued me; I'll wake up the sleeping princess"

Mihael disappeared out of the room and returned moments later dragging a tall man with vibrant vermillion red hair rubbing his dark blue eyes

"What? Why the fuck did you wake me up for?" He grumbled

He looked at L and suddenly stopped rubbing his eyes

"Holy shit, long time no see vampire how are you and hello stranger with L I have never seen before" he quickly said snapping out of his sleepy daze

After an hour or so of discussion and a proper introduction from the red head L had told the two hitmen everything that we knew. He had gone in to great detail about the vampire deaths and his suspicions about the Royals. I had learnt that Mihael and Mail, who preferred Mello and Matt, had travelled Europe and Britain murdering those who had unjustly murdered others and occasional took on jobs they were hired by those with a taste for revenge and they were not strangers of the Romanian hunter who had killed the vampire from earlier that morning. They were both quite deadly, as much as I hated to admit they were much more extensively trained in weaponry then I was and they had told us of their last trip to Germany where they had been asked to take out some officials who they got word of raping and killing peasant women so they had gone to deliver a justly execution.

L discussed what kind of compensation they would receive however it wasn't quite enough the men had asked that they reside in the mansion purely for protection. They had, on several accounts, been visited by the Royals and in fact they had said that the Royals had burnt down their last known residence which was where Mihael had received the burn wounds on his face. I had understood why they held their grudge. Normally L would have said no to such a request but I knew of his desperation so he agreed to them residing with us providing that at no time were they to bring anyone else to the mansion and they would work for him providing their services whenever L needed them and at all times they were to ensure they were not followed when coming back to the mansion. We had all reached an agreement that we were all happy with. L had put forth the plan that we had come up with however it was quickly shot down by the blonde

"That's not necessary L, I know where that Romanian resides we could go there and shake him up some and try and get you the answers that you want. It would bring me great pleasure to do so"

"And you will not cause his death unless it is a choice between your lives and his?" L questioned

"Alright I can live with that, Matt?" Mello turned to the red head

"I'm alright with it if you are" the red head replied to the blonde

Their relationship was rather peculiar to me. In actuality it did quite remind me of the relationship between L and I. As I sat listening to them it appeared to me that Matt had a dedication to Mello just as I did for L, however even though I was sure that Mello was completely loyal to Matt he did not show it quite as much. Matt was almost like myself, willing to do whatever it took to make the other happy, to serve him at any time of day and night and probably like me he had hoped his efforts would not go unrewarded. But there was something different about our relationship compared to there one, despite the obviousness that they were both human but I couldn't help but think not only did they care about each other deeply but I had begun to think they were in love with each other. Although they had not made it obvious I had seen the way they looked at each other and how they spoke highly of one another and despite the blonde's stubbornness I had thought that Matt was truly the only one he did love.

If all my assumptions were correct they were taking a huge risk being together which was probably why they wanted the protection of L and to reside in the mansion, the only place they were truly free to be together.

"We will go there first thing in the morning. He would be getting drunk tonight as he did every night and getting a drunk to make sense is like trying to make a man admit he wears a dress. As soon as dawn rises we will go to him get what information we can and come back to the mansion. If the Royals do have anything to do with it then we can make or next plan of attack. If the Royals are behind this then there will be deaths on their part, I won't have any mercy for them" Mello said

L had agreed to the plan and we were to make our way back to the mansion for the humans to sleep and for L to get back to his writing and also contemplate some sort of strategy if it were to turn out that the Royals were involved. I was well aware of how much L loathed the Royals and I think a part of him wanted them to be involved just so he could break down their army and hopefully rid England of those who controlled it like their own personal playground. They were the ones who made life hell for the humans and they were greatly hated but because of who the Royals were no one could stop them and complaints would go unnoticed and in my heart I had believed that L was the only one who was going to be able to crumble their armies and destroy the legion.