I was woken up by the sound of the bedroom door being knocked on
"It's Mello" the voice came from the other side of the door
Both of us knew it was Mello before he even knocked
"Come in" Lawliet replied
At some point during the night he had separated himself off of me and was lying as far away from me as possible with his back turned and even after permitting entrance to Mello he still didn't move from the spot
Mello pushed open the door but didn't come in.
"Near and I are leaving now" He said
I was somewhat shocked, I hadn't realized that we had been asleep all day, apparently in Lawliet's case pretending to be asleep
"It's dusk already?" I questioned
"Yeah, I wouldn't be saying we were leaving otherwise now would I?" He replied in a condescending tone
He stepped into the room and closed the door
"Listen, could you please take care of Matt, he is completely hopeless and forgets things like eating, he drives me up the wall but I do love him so will you please keep him safe" Mello asked
"Yes of course" I replied looking at the blonde who I had drank from the previous night
"Thank you, oh and thanks for last night. Fucking hot, anyway I guess I will see you both in a couple of days, or nights, whatever" He said and left the room
I listened as Matt and Mello said their goodbyes in the main hall. Despite what they did for a living they were actually rather sweet to each other and even though they argued and annoyed one another there was still a lot of love between them. Mello and Near left the mansion and Matt went back up to his room.
"L?" I questioned as I rolled back over to see what was wrong with my lover.
When I received no response I reached out, placed my hand on his waist and forced him to roll over and look at me
"What do you want?" He asked in an agitated manner
"What is wrong with you, if I have done something to upset you could tell me so I know what I have to apologize for" I replied
He just gave me a cold hard stare and suddenly got up and started to get dressed, and rather quickly too, he left the room and allowed the door to slam behind him. I already had my suspicions to what he was angry about but until he told me I was not going to let him just walk away from me. I got up and pulled on the closest clothes, unaware if they were mine or his and followed him. I rushed down the stairs and notice the study door was shut, I pulled down on the handle and entered and let the door close behind me. He was sitting in his chair, in the crouched position with his thumb to his bottom lip
"Are you really not going to talk to me?" I questioned as I closed the door
"I do not wish to discuss anything with you until I feel the need to" He replied angrily
The vampire who wrote the journal was wrong the only thing worse than loneliness was a pissed off vampire.
"L, what has bought this on, I don't understand why are you aiming anger towards me for, did I do something wrong?" I asked him
It was met with silence
"After everything I have done for you, you are just going to treat me as you do everyone else? If I have done something to upset you the least you could do is tell me instead of acting like a child and treating me like I am just another disposable person" I said to him becoming angry myself and I left the room and started to storm away
"Last night, what we did that was nothing more than a mistake, you took advantage of my guard being lowered and what we did was despicable" L's voice followed after me along with another slam of the study door
"What? You are the one who told me what you had wanted, I was only providing you with what you desired and you are going to treat me as if I forced you to do something you did not want to do. If you think last night was such a mistake then tell me which part was the mistake the part where we had drunk from people who offered us their blood or the fact that I made love to you?" I asked him
His eyes seemed to become very black, almost like oil. His voice was deep but not the low husky purr that I had been used to over the six years. He was truly angry, and by the sound of what he was saying he was more angry with himself then he was with me and I just happened to be at the receiving end of it.
"ALL OF IT! Every single thing that happened last night was a mistake I had dropped all inhibitions and that was not me. You knew that was not me last night, I had got caught up in the moment and you did nothing to stop me, you knew damn well that I would have never done anything like that, NEVER, I trusted you more than anyone else and you let me down" He half yelled at me
I love Lawliet, I love him more than anything, but in that moment I was angry with him, he had been blaming me for something that he not only asked for but he had thanked me for afterwards
"You are blaming me for giving you what you wanted? If you have any problems with what occurred last night you only have yourself you can condemn, if you didn't like what happened last night you only have yourself to blame because regardless of what mood you were in you lied to me. You told me what you desired and I gave it to you, you even thanked me afterwards so if you are going to take your anger out on anyone take it out on yourself" I replied back to him
I wasn't entirely sure how it happened or even how I angered him by speaking the truth but I had found myself pressed against a door with his hand around my throat, his grip was tight but if he was trying to intimidate me he was doing a very good job. He was extremely angered
"I am two thousand years your senior you will not speak to me like I am a commoner. I made you Light Yagami, you have no right to speak to me in such a way. You have no idea what hurt truly is" He whispered to me, his voice a deep growl and eyes black and filled with hate fire
"I do not know what hurt truly is? You have kept me around for six years knowing how much I loved you. You taunted me and teased me, you were right in my grasp because I couldn't touch you because the all mighty L doesn't liked to be touched, BULLSHIT!" I reached out and rested my hand on his chest
"You hide behind these walls and make excuses, you sink yourself in your writing and pretend that you don't have feelings and emotions, you completely ignore your every desire and for what so people wouldn't think less of you? I have been the only person who has stuck by your side; no matter what you wanted or needed I gave it to you. For six years every single damn day and night you ripped my heart out of my chest, you knew that I loved you and still I gave you everything you wanted without requesting anything in return. I do not know what hurt truly is? How about right now when the man who is supposed to love me for eternity has his had wrapped around my throat? So much for you wanting peace and justice, what's next are you going to drive a stake through my heart, you may as fucking well" I growled back at him not taking my eyes from off of him.
"WHOA! Mum and dad stop fighting"
Matt raced down the stairs and placed himself in between us and pushed. It would have been near on pointless since he was only human but somehow he managed to separate us. Our stares didn't break, he glowered at me with a cold hard stare and I was still trying to get my head around the fact that he had his hand around my throat. Finally he broke, it was about time. But it hurt like hell, not the pain around my neck, the one in my heart. I had never thought it would be Lawliet and I fighting, I never thought he would become so angry that he would act in violence. He was not the man that I had loved and knew better than anyone
"What the hell is wrong with you two? are you really fucking serious right now? L you could have killed him. Light don't bring up the past, that's just ridiculous. I don't know what the hell is wrong with you two, I really don't. Last night was amazing, there are no other words for it, it was completely indescribable and EVERY ONE involved enjoyed it so don't even go there. Sure it was a little weird but it ended up being one of the most erotic and energizing things to happen. L last night you were incredible, you allowed yourself to completely forget your troubles and you gave yourself what you wanted for the first time in what, like a million years? There is no shame in that, you lived all this time with a stick up your ass that it was about time you pulled it out and Light I do not know what you did to him to make him pull said stick out but I am glad you did and Mello is glad you did because that gave us two of the most intense orgasms EVER. What the hell were you thinking L, you had your hand wrapped around the throat of someone you love, How could you do that? I would never, ever hurt Mello like that, whether it hurt Light or not isn't the point. You created him, he is every part of you as you are of him and you treated him like that after all he has done for you? And Light you cannot stand there and bring up the past like that, what happened in the past should stay in the past, it's no concern to now and the future. Jesus fucking Christ how could you turn on each other like that when in the end you are all each other is going to have. Mello and I aren't going to be here forever one day we are going to be nothing but a pile of bones in a box but you two will be. I seriously cannot believe that you two did this to each other do you even love one another?"
"Of course I do, I love him more than my own existence, he has been the only one I have ever loved" I replied turning my gaze to Matt.
He looked over at L who also switched his gaze
"Yes I do love him, I wouldn't have turned him if I didn't" Lawliet replied
"Right, I am going to go back upstairs, you two are going to calm the fuck down and sort this shit out without violence and without bringing up the last hundred years. As your food supply I refuse to feed either of you until you get all this out of the way and say sorry to each other. We have other things to worry about then whatever this negative thing is. We have people heading to France we have to worry about and we have to be ready for war" Matt replied and left and when beck up to his room and slammed the door
"FUCKING VAMPIRES!" We both heard him yell once inside his room.
Our gazes turned back to each other.
"I cannot believe I had you around your throat, after everything we have been through and I go ahead and nearly kill you. You, out of anyone I could have done that to" Lawliet said faintly
I watched him as he slightly stumbled. I rushed to him and wrapped my arms around his chest to steady him.
"Don't worry about it, I should not have provoked you. I'm alright, somewhat shaken up but I'm alright" I replied quietly into his hair as he rested his head onto my shoulder.
"Last night was not a mistake I was just angry at myself for allowing my mind to be free and I should not have spoken to you the way that I had, I didn't lie to you Light, I was just so enraged at myself because I have spent this time ignoring what I truly wanted and when I had it I felt as if you would not see me the way that you always have" He replied
I held him tightly to my body and placed a kiss into his hair, my lips slightly grazing his forehead. He wrapped his arms around my back and gripped onto me securely. I hadn't hated him for what he had done to me, if anything I was glad that he had finally let out his anger that he had been bottling up for thousands of years. Although I felt as if it broke my heart it would not stay that way for long. I held Lawliet in my arms and felt my eyes fill with tears. I had felt like I had almost lost him and I hated myself for the way I had spoken to him, we were supposed to be spending eternity together and yet I had almost ruined it before it even started, I felt no anger towards him, only myself.
"You are a fool sometimes, I would never see you any differently then I always have. You are still the intelligent, strong, loving, protective man I have always seen you as being. I do not think any less of you for what we did last night, if anything I hold you in higher regard. You finally let yourself be you last night, you allowed yourself to be free of worry and it was indescribable. I didn't mean to hurt you and I didn't mean to push you and for that I am sorry but you deserve to have what you desire L, always" I said to him as the tears trickled from my eyes, rolled down my cheeks and dripped onto his shirt. It was only when my tears had fallen that I had realized I was crying blood.
He pulled away from me slightly and placed his hands on my cheeks; he smiled gently and licked the tears that streamed from my eyes.
"Can you forgive me for what I did to you and the way I treated you? I did have a more then delightful time last night, and I should have not lashed out at you when the only one I was annoyed with was myself" He asked me
"Of course I can, I do love you Lawliet, can for forgive me for the way I spoke to you?" I asked him
"You do not need forgiving, you did nothing wrong, you retaliated in a way any man would have I am the one who had my hand around your throat. I would never imagined being the one that hurt you, I swore I would protect you and yet I am the one who cut you the deepest. I do not deserve to have you nor your forgiveness" He replied
"Well then that's quite the dilemma because you have both and you have to accept that I am not going anywhere so you can just take that you have me and my forgiveness and just live with that or I will be forced to make you accept it, although I am not entirely sure how but I would find a way" I said with a smile
He hugged me again tighter. L holding onto me like his life depended on it made all the hurt go away and I had almost forgotten what we were fighting about in the first place
"Nothing you ever say or do will make me love you any less Lawliet" I replied to him
I placed my lips to his and kissed him slowly, when I pulled away I placed another kiss on his forehead.
"Matt?" I called out to the red head that had somehow been the only reason we were not still yelling at each other
He came down the stairs and gave us both a look of disgust.
"Yes?" He asked
"Go and get yourself some food, you need to eat and after you have returned and filled your stomach you are going to train me" I said to him
"I'm going to train you?" He asked
I nodded
"I am not as well trained as yourself in weaponry and if we need to prepare for a war, despite being a vampire I may as well train with the best" I replied
He lost the look of disgust
"That's better. Training to kill people and vampires slinging around weapons, that's what being a family is all about. I will see you later" He responded and left the mansion only to come back seconds later
"I am going to need money, I can't exchange sex for food after all" He replied
Lawliet pointed to the library
"The drawer on the left, you have to lift up the bottom" He called out to the red head
Matt smiled as he left the mansion once again
"It's odd I never really considered us five to be a family" Lawliet said
"Especially when all of us have been without one for such a long time" I replied
Lawliet looked at me rather strangely
"Would you class us all as being like a family?" He asked me
"If we are my love and that's the way it is seen by all those involved then we are possibly the most dysfunctional and odd family to have ever existed, this is more peculiar then marrying and having children with your brothers and sisters. So much more peculiar" I replied