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When they found them the next day, after Van Pelt couldn't use the elevator as the first person to try to use it, they were leaning against each other, Lisbon's head on Jane's shoulder and her facial expression relaxed. It was strange that she didn't wake up when they moved the whole thing again, because for Jane it felt like a little earthquake. But Lisbon just kept sleeping so he didn't wake her up. She needed some good sleep once in a while...So when they opened the doors there was Jane smiling at their rescuers and Lisbon slowly blinking when Grace yelled worried: "Is everything okay with you guys?"
"Are u awake, sleepy head?"
Jane smiled at her like she was some princess, that had awoken out of a hundred year sleep. The one thing which was missing was that he should have given her a wake-up kiss...Maybe he could do that some time later...but not yet...(hehe) She looked at him sleepily and jerked away when she noticed where she was. Jane let out a chuckle and asked her:
"Lisbon, why so anxious? I think you had a good enough sleep to be happy?!"
After they'd both excused themselves to the toilet, they met again in Lisbon's office, where Jane was sitting on the couch happily.
"Jane, why are you smiling like that? It makes me uncomfortable, cause I know that smile! It means you're up to something! Tell me!"
"Lisbon if I tell you now it'll ruin the surprise! You don't want that, right?"
"Oh yes that's exactly what I want! Come on!" But he didn't do what she wanted so she went to the couch and poked him on his arm.
"Jaaaaane! Tell meeee!"
She poked him again and again and after the third time he grabbed her hand to stop her from doing so.
It was the fifth time he had held her hand. One time when he was faking his psychic vision, the second one when he was blind, the third time when they were sitting in the desert and then the fifth when they had caught Red John. And of course now. It was as if time stopped when what felt like electric impulses wandered through their bodies which made them stop moving instantly and got them staring at each other for some beautiful moments. Until the door opened and Cho walked in on them...
"Boss...we have a new lead..." She let go of his hand and looked at him, a little bit pissed, but she thought he wouldn't recognize it. He did though...
"Sorry Cho you have to manage this one on your own... I, We got some leave from the CBI because of this elevator thing and I was about to go home and enjoy some ice cream in front of the TV..."
"Oh okay...You Jane? What is with you?"
"Ugh I think I'll go home too and change and then we'll see...But I have to grab some stuff and then I'll go..."
"Ah okay so guys have fun, I guess..." Cho closed the door behind him as he left and Lisbon looked at Jane. Would he be going to his shabby motel room and spend his time there? Alone?
"Ugh Lisbon...I lied. What I said to Cho wasn't true. I wanted to ask if I could come to your place? I mean its extremely boring in my motel room..And the hot water is broken and I really want to shower..." Of course the last part was a lie.
She looked at him. What was surrounding him now, was the aura of someone insecure and shy, but she didn't know how much of that was real, he was a con man after all...
"Sure you can come! You know where my apartment is..."
"Okay thank you my dear, I'll come soon, just have to grab some stuff..."
He walked out and straight over to Van Pelt's desk.
"Van Pelt, I need your help! Would you come take a coffee or something like that?"
She stood up and they left for the little cafe on the roof of the building. He really needed her advice, because he didn't know what to do...
It was a strange feeling, that got hold of his heart and it was confusing him as much as it scared him.
He knew that he loved her; he had realized it in the elevator some hours ago and it had hit him like a fist-punch in the nose. Of course he had thought about it before, but he had always had to push it aside, because all it would mean for her was that she would get in danger. All because of him and his stupid feelings.
If he would've admitted his feelings before they had caught Red John, which he had done in a way, she would probably not be alive right now. It had been a dangerous game he had been playing. But in the end they both had won. They had killed him, given him the punishment he had deserved. Even if it had been kind of an accident, they knew that what they had done was okay. They had done the only possible thing, the only right thing.
It had been a long and exhausting time of their lives, the hunt for this man, but in the end it had been worth it. The relief they both had felt when he was finally gone, was better than anything else. It felt like being alive for the first time in years. Like being human and living a human life.
So when they arrived at the roof, sitting down with a coffee and a tea, Van Pelt looked at him and asked him what was going on. He had never asked a personal favour from her before, which didn't have to do anything with her computer skills...
"Grace I need your help. I think...I think...I...might be in love with Lisbon...!"
It was hard to talk about his feelings with someone else... hard to admit what was going on inside, being vulnerable.
And oh he was now.
And how he felt... it was something completely new for him, because he was the type of man who kept his emotions hidden.
He had been running around with a fake smile for approximately 10 years and no one had noticed, Lisbon maybe, but nobody else.
Van pelt looked at him with a smile on her lips, her eyes resting on her cup of coffee. She chuckled. "Oh dear, Jane! It took you so long, really?" She sounded as if she had known for ages, way earlier than himself and it made no sense to him since he had found out only a few hours ago!
"Van Pelt, what's going on?"
"Jane, I could see it for years now! It had been there for a while now! But it seems like the two of you really are as stubborn as you seem to be! It was obvious! The way you treat her, and most of all, the way you kept looking at her! It was obvious, at least for me!I mean you two are perfect for each other and I really would like to see you two happy! And I can tell you, that Lisbon is not happy when you're not around. I mean when you were gone to Las Vegas... She was only a shadow of herself! She was grumpy and sad all the time, and every time you were mentioned I could see how she tried so hard to hold back the tears. I guess this was when she realized how much she needed you, how much she loved having you around! Ask her, I bet she'll tell you if you really mean the question!"
She looked at him and really wondered how damaged he must be if he had trouble realizing things like that!
He looked at the table now, playing with this little stick you use to swirl your drink.
He felt guilty, again and again. Now you could say he was in a depression again.
These things concerning Lisbon made him feel like crap all the time, because he knew that he was the one who had done the wrong thing, that it had been his fault and no one else's.
He knew that she trusted him with her life and that he was the one and only person who had this privilege and he had misused it so many times. It partly hadn't been serious things, but they were there and they also counted as a misuse of her trust. He had seen how something inside her cracked more every time he had done such things and he had never even thought about fixing it.
Oh now he wished he had!
He wanted it to be alright so badly it literally hurt him!
"Jane..." Van Pelt wanted to talk to him, but if he kept getting lost in his thoughts it wouldn't quite work...
"Ahm, yes...so what...what do you think I should do now?" He looked up and saw how the corners of her mouth jerked upwards.
"Jane, I don't know what you want to do, but maybe just talk with her about it and maybe you should apologize for some stuff...but that's just a suggestion. You could drive over and maybe take some alcohol with you if you want to...Really, it's all your choice! Just don't force her to do anything, okay? You know her and she needs to want to do stuff on her own, keep that in mind!"
He started to smile, because he had already planned to come over and he also knew that what Van Pelt had said was 100% true.