Uhm I'm uploading this the same time as the 2nd chapter so this is weird to write lol and kay just let me know what u think about it in the REVIEWS:))Thanks;))
They left the cafe and Van Pelt went back to her desk and Jane got his stuff and drove home, changing into a new shirt as he wasn't in the mood for a jacket or a vest. When he stopped at a grocery store he bought some chips and a bottle of wine. The next stop was Lisbon's apartment. It wasn't that far away from his motel room, but still not that close that he would consider walking there. When he knocked he could hear her coming to the door and then saw how she looked through the hole in the door, to look who had knocked. It was pretty obvious that it would be him, but she always checked before she opened the door.
"Hey Jane, come in!" He entered and closed the door behind him. She wore some jogging trousers and a striped t-shirt, her hair messy around her face.
"Look what I've got us, to celebrate our escape!" he showed her the wine and the chips and saw how she smiled.
"But first Lisbon, we need to talk." They walked to the couch in front of the TV and sat down.
"Agreed. You start" she answered. He was right. They really needed to talk! She crossed her legs and looked at him, not really sure what to expect.
He took a deep breath and looked at his shoes.
"Lisbon there are things I need to tell you! Things I should have realized and I shouldn't have done. I should have changed!"
He looked up, right into her eyes now.
"I have made mistakes, lots of mistakes lately and I know I can't ask you to forgive me right away, because that would be out of the question and silly of me, but I don't know what else I could do! I did foolish things and I misused your trust far too often, I don't deserve someone as good as you by my side and you know that! But I still ask you, can you forgive me, Teresa?"
He looked at her and really didn't know what she'd say but full of hope that he would get at least a 'I need time' or 'I don't know what to tell you'.
She looked at him, with those bright green eyes, not sure how to tell him what she wanted to. It was difficult for her to talk about her feelings and it almost always made her feel vulnerable and anxious! She didn't like it, but it had to be done.
"Jane, don't you see what you're doing now? You're asking me if I forgive you! But if I say yes, what would you do then, would you forget it again and nothing would happen? We'd just have this awkward conversation ghosting around us all the time, wondering what we should've done differently? Would we just be partners again, not caring what we could've been? I am not that great in talking about stuff like that, you know that, and if we can do this, tell me and I will tell you my point of view, otherwise I won't even start!"
He thought about what she'd just said and knew that if he wanted anything, this was his chance, maybe his only chance! He would say that it could work out, that he was ready and that she could start, but what if he wasn't? He wasn't even sure if he could manage to talk to her after seeing what damage he must have left. How much she was afraid of admitting her feelings and that this could be all his fault!
It had made her completely insecure, all the crap he had pulled! She had started doubting her own feelings sometimes and it didn't feel good to know that the one person, her best friend was using her, even if he didn't mean to hurt her.
It had had consequences, consequences they both didn't like and which were in their way now.
Jane once again thought if he was ready for a new relationship now and he thought that he hadn't been in one since his wife had died. Lorelei didn't count, because he had just used her and she had done the same, but no there was only one serious relationship in his life with one special person.
They had just been partners and colleagues for years but he still counted it as the strongest bond he had ever shared with one person. Even stronger than it had been with his wife. He knew that Lisbon was always there for him, no matter what he had done, would support him (with almost everything) and would trust him even if he didn't deserve her trust.
When these thoughts had entered his mind, he knew that the only person, he would ever wanted to be together with was standing right in front of him! The decision was made.
"I am ready."
Lisbon looked at him, not really sure of what to say, but knew approximately what she would say.
" Jane, I...I think you know how I feel. I love you and I know this sounds totally silly but I forgive you and I want to be with you for the rest of my life. I wouldn't be happy if I wasn't around you." She looked up from her hands and studied his face to see how he reacted to her commitment. He looked at her completely shocked, positively shocked of course and she could see how a smile widened on his face, telling her that that had been the best answer she could've given him.
He took her hands.
"Oh Lisbon you have no idea how much I love to hear that! I...I love you much more than you could ever imagine and it would be amazing to be with you."
He hustled over his own words now, way too excited and relieved to be afraid or worried about what the future might bring.
And when they finally kissed it felt as if they would fly, more than ten years of sexual tension being not fully released but weakened, their hands intertwined and their lips locked. Like Van Pelt had said he didn't force her to do anything but after a few seconds she pulled at his shirt and managed to remove it. He knew what she wanted and he wanted it too...
LOL the next part would be the M content which I cant write cause I rated it T (haha I just don't want to write it;))
They lay there fully content and stared at each others perfectness when Jane said:
"I think we'll have to play a little game, please." He grinned at her and she asked him what he meant.
"So before I drove over here I...I asked Van Pelt what to do and she told me to ask you out and stuff like that. I bet she doesn't think that we would've gotten together that quickly and frankly I wouldn't believe it if I heard it too."
He gave her a quick kiss and continued.
"So wouldn't it be funny if we would go on dates and pretended to not be a couple at work? What do you think? I think it would be extremely amusing!"
She saw how much he liked his idea and couldn't deny him that and also she didn't really want to make it public by now so she said that she would be his accomplice.
The next day they spent in bed mostly, because they still had time off and then went out for dinner in the evening. They talked about whether he would move in or if they should buy something. In they end they got to the conclusion that he would move in with her until they found something bigger, since it had to be something with at least two couches, a huge bath tub and a shooting range in the basement, that they had agreed on. It sounded quick and too fast if you looked at it like that, but for them it wasn't!
They had known each other over a decade by now and were sure of what they wanted. They were pretty married, everyone saw it, but only in their heads. They didn't even think that this couldn't work out in some ways, it was just no possibility for them. So that night they went by Jane's place and picked up some necessary stuff like a toothbrush, some of his suits and some underwear.
They got him a drawer at Lisbon's and afterward celebrated the new living situation in bed...
The next morning they got up early. It was Thursday, because they had to get back to work. Their vacations were over.
They drove to the CBI separately, because they still had to fool Van Pelt, which wouldn't work if they turned up in the same car. Thank god it wasn't a long drive, because they already wanted to be together those very 15 minutes.
Lisbon thought about what had happened the last few hours and had to smile. It was the best plot twist she could've ever imagined! She loved it! She loved him and she was finally able to admit it and she meant it, for real. You know how some little things can change your life? This was something like that. She had said she forgave him and look at them now, happy, content, smiling, things that had seemed impossible only weeks ago. Life had shown his bright side to them. And they were not in the mood to let go of it.
Jane got out of the car and waited for Lisbon to come.
"Lisbon! Here you are! How have your vacations been?"
She playfully boxed him in the arm and said: "You know, nothing exciting..."