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(_ _) I'm sorry if each chapter were too short. It was like a habit of mine. Anyway, I will publish a new fic with harumichi pair. So, please be patient with this story update. I will update as fast as I can.

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After the meeting ended, Rei went back to her room. The trial day is tomorrow, she would go preparing for the journey. Rei stopped and did not surprise to see a blonde commander stood in front of her room. Minako folded her arm and turned to Rei.

"What is it?" Rei was trying to be nice in the past few days but only get cold treatment from the commander. It's time to stop to play nice.

"Are you sure with this? I mean about the trial..." Minako search for fear on Rei's eyes but didn't find any.

"I am. Is there anything else?" Rei avoided the cerulean eyes during the talk.

"You can be dead..."

"Then let me be..." Rei cut sharply. It was really tiring, the whole thing.

"Don't say that..." The commander looks now change to concern. In Rei's perspective, Mina was seemed to hold something in her mind. Precisely, hiding something.

"I want this over. I want to go back to my dimension. I miss my friends." She gave up to Minako and looked into the blonde's eyes. Rei knew she would sink deeper into those beautiful eyes.

"Is there anyone particular...?" The commander realized she couldn't take back what she just said. She closed her mouth and nervously biting her own lips.

"... I don't know. But I miss this someone really bad." Rei's mind wandered to another blonde, the venusian senshi in her own dimension.

"Really...?" There is a silence between her sentence, then she continued. "Is that the reason you want to help us?"

Rei pushed back her memories about the sorrow in commander's eyes. She nodded. "Yes. That's the reason."

"If so..." The commander felt the atmosphere became more awkward between her and Rei. She wanted to leave but her feet unable to do so. She just stood dumbly in front of Rei. The raven haired girl does have another person in her own world. Those facts never crossed the blonde's before.

Rei wanted to enter her chamber, but unable to. Those looks again, those sorrow looks on the commander's eyes that she really hate but really miss somehow.

"She was like you. Really similiar like you, but the personality is very far different." Rei said after the long awkward silence between them.

"For you all, I maybe really resemble this girl called Fire, but... you guys too. You are like my friends in previous dimension. So, it's like the other way around." Rei explained, somehow she badly wanted to ease the blonde's expression.

"So, we are stuck in the same feelings?" The commander concluded.

"Yeah, the annoying feeling of longing. It was an uncontrolable feeling here..." Rei pointed her own heart. "It feels like it can burst anytime and once it explodes, You can not get back to where you were before." Rei sighed and faced the commander.

Minako could not agree more. She felt the same way too, even maybe worse. More uncontrollable. Even though the girl in front of her now is not the girl she loves, the feeling of nostalgia still remain. A very sad and painful memories of her can not be erased forever from her mind.

"Are you okay, commander?" Rei started to panic when she noticed a tear fell down from those cerulean eyes.

Am I hurting her?

"Ah..." The commander herself just realized that she is now crying, another tear fell down and now a wave of tears more coming out. The silent tears now became a sob and heavy cries.

"What... do I do? Why I'm crying now?" The commander was smiling between her sobs, and the cries became more uncontrollable.

"I hate this... I want to stop." the commander covered her face with her own arms, she ashamed that Rei caught her so defenseless and weak.

"Don't look!" The commander ordered Rei.

Rei, felt sad too reflexly approached the commander and turned around. Her body covered the crying commander from curious stares on the palace.

"I won't look." Rei whispered.

The commander gave up and used Rei's back as her pillar from broke down. Her knees weakened and now all of her body trusted Rei's to supported hers. The walls that she has built in years now destroyed. Destroyed by few sentences from a person she barely knew. The worst thing is, she could not even deny it even a bit.

Rei didn't move even an inch. She knew, if she moves, both of them will fall to the abyss of sorrows.

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The Trial Day

After the event, Rei almost never talk to the commander. Both of them chose to avoid each other's path to encounter.

"Rei." Haruka called Rei from behind. She finished preparing the horses for the journey.

The raven haired didn't respond, Haruka then slapped Rei's shoulder.

"Ouch! What?" Rei turned and met Haruka's grin.

"Spacing out again? Are you really sure that you are ready for this?" Haruka threw a bag to Rei. It fulled with water and food for the journey.

"How many people have been ask me those questions? I am ready..." Rei grumbled between her answer. The more she answered them, The more she felt that she not qualified yet to get the sword.

"That's good. You can not get back after this. This is gonna be a very long and tough journey for you." Haruka gave Rei her special smirked and ran back to Michiru. Both of them continued their business with queen's horses.

Rei turned her gaze when both of them started to kissing each other. She needed a really long time to get use to those sceneries. They really didn't feel shy at all, while Rei's face totally flushed from that.

"They both really...!" Rei found another person that get flushed with the scenery. It was Ami, the doctor that was packing her medicines for journey.

Rei smiled at her. The tension loosened, and Ami smiled at Rei too. They exchange glances for a moment.

"Are you ready, Rei?" Ami asked her full of concern.

Here we go again. Rei rolled her eyes and nodded for like 100 times today.

"I know that some people always asking you this. But you have to prepare yourself for whatever things will coming. This world was designed for the messiah to saved, if you understand my explanation." Ami started her babbling.

"Ami, I need help here...!" Makoto shouted from one of the carriage. From distance, Rei caught Makoto stare on her. Although Rei and Makoto already made up and promise not attack each other again, there are still lingering unexplained feelings.

"I must go," Ami tilted her head and went to help Mako.

Rei wandered and stumbled upon the Queen's coach. Serenity was in there, talking with Setsuna. She looked excited and jumped everywhere.

"Ah, Rei! You are here..." Serenity's head popped out from the window and Setsuna as usual busy to asked the queen to behave.

Rei just smiled, she glanced at Setsuna for a moment and gave her a quick nod. There is no unnecessary between her and the timekeeper. Rei already knew what she wanted to ask.

"Yes, and... before you ask. I am ready." Rei said to Serenity, prevented the queen to questioning her like the other.

"Of course you are, Rei. I have a faith in you." Serenity smiled. For Rei, those faith Serenity has on her was too heavy and she wanted to get rid of it.

Rei continued her walking and now she met the blonde commander. Minako always looked gorgeous in that gold uniform. She is a very beautiful commander and an amazing one. Rei thought. The event few days ago fixed her perspective about the blonde.

The commander caught Rei's gaze and approached her.

"umm... hei." Rei greeted her. Didn't know what to say, Rei now trapped on the commander's stare.

"You are not ready." Minako said suddenly out of blue. Rei snapped, and stared back at the blonde.

"I am ready!"

"Are you?" Mina's brow lifted and looked amused with Rei's determination.

"You are the only one who says I am not ready..." Rei sighed, the frustation now built up and seen on her expression.

"What your heart says?"

"I... I admit that I'm a little scared." Rei slumped when her knees gave away. She sat down on the bench under the trees.

"Then, don't do it." The commander responded just as simple.

"If you scared to the death, don't." Mina sat beside Rei. Rei became used to with the close contact she has been had with the commander.

"Not the death that I scared..."

"So, what is it?" The blonde seem surprised to Rei's answer.

Rei gazed at those cerulean eyes. No way she revealed the truth. She fear of the sorrow that would be fall to those eyes. If she failed, those beautiful eyes will once again cry. It's really a big risk to take. Rei aim to no fail in this trial.

"It's a secret." Rei smiled, closed her eyes for moment to turned away from those eyes.

"I am scared. But, I am ready. I promise to everyone I will not bring them failure. So, plese believe in me..." Rei stood up and took a deep breath. It was the first time that she wish the commander could hear her heart.

"..." Mina prefer silence. She stayed remain on the bench until Rei took her leave.

With a distance gaze, Mina looked into Rei's silhouette. Those figure, that she will never let go. Like Rei, Minako now has new determination. A different determination than anybody in the Valykrie.

No way I will let you die... twice. The commander stood up and ready for the journey.

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