(MAYA)

Maya was ready to have sex with Miles. She really was. She was 15 and she was young but she loved this boy. He was so nice to everyone and-well, it turned her on. She didn't even know that she was the type of girl to get turned on by a guy, but it turned out she was. And now she had an evening alone with Miles. A whole evening. She thought of candles, she thought of music, but she decided that was cliche.

Miles and Maya literally stared at each other eagerly as Maya's parents set down ground rules. Katie was to be there supervising, though Miles and Maya had been told by Katie that she was leaving with Jake as soon as the parents were out. Once all the rules were thoroughly explained, Mr. and Mrs. Matlin left and drove off. Where they were going was a mystery. Probably some soccer thing. That's the type of thing they cared about. Not Maya's music, but soccer. Since Katie had to get out of Stanford within her first semester because of money issues/probably missing Jake Martin issues, she'd been going to TU and playing soccer, but it wasn't the type of game the Matlins went to. It wasn't a 'real' team, as they said.

About 2 minutes later Jake's red truck pulled up to the front of the house. "I'm out. Don't do anything I wouldn't do." Katie could've said a thousand things that were more helpful, since Katie was probably off to have sex with Jake. "Mhmm." Maya tried to hide a laugh. Once Katie was long gone, Maya and Miles looked at each other. "Soo…" They said simultaneously, then both nervously laughed.

"I love you." Miles whispered, getting closer. "I really do." He pushed Maya's hair out of her face and kissed her softly. First on the lips, then each chubby little cheek, then on her forehead, then on her eyelids, everywhere but her lips. She kept laughing and trying to pull him in for a kiss on the lips, but he kept his lips everywhere but on hers. He started kissing her neck and she moaned softly. "Miles, we should…"

But apparently Miles could read her mind. "My room or yours, darling?" He said, scooping her up in his arms.

"Mine?" They both had twin sized beds, which she figured neither were good for sexy time, but the only non-twin sized bed in the house was her parents, and that was just downright awkward. So they went to Maya's bed…

It was an interesting experience to say the least. There was no screaming of names or anything like Maya expected. It was sweet and awkward and quiet and nothing like they expected. It was personal. Not something that seemed like a crappy hookup. The whole time Miles kept telling Maya how beautiful she looked and how much he loved her. That definitely helped boost the mood. They barely even did much, but it just seemed like they were even closer. Miles did orgasm, and Maya whimpered with pleasure a lot, but they weren't breaking any headboards or losing any voices. When they were done, they laid in bed naked for a while, holding hands. Maya felt insecure, but Miles assured her that her body was perfect.

After they decided they should probably get ready, Miles kissed Maya once more and told her he loved her for the 200th time that night. But it seemed like he really meant it. Maya got dressed with a smile on her face. She even stole one of Miles' jumpers. An oversized red one that she'd never seen him wear. They met in the living room and started watching a cheesy horror movie that happened to be on TV. Maya still winced at every single gory thing. Miles just laughed and kissed her when the fake blood poured from the fake wounds.

Katie got home around 11pm with a couple fresh hickeys noticeable on her neck. "Don't you say a word." Then she stormed up to her room, probably to cover them up as well as she could.

"At least I left no marks." Miles said, kissing Maya's neck and sucking on it just a slight bit. A shiver went down her spine. Now Maya knew why Katie always had hickeys all over her neck. Because they felt like heaven. The neck had to be some sort of erogenous zone or something. "Oh my god, Miles." She basically moaned out his name, then clapped her hand over her mouth. "That voice was pretty sexy actually. Next time." They both just smiled at each other. The sexual stuff was still new to them.

Katie came back into the room and sat down on the couch next to Miles. "What did you two do tonight? Maya, you're glowing…Oh my god. You didn't. Did you use a condom?" Miles and Maya both felt their faces get hot.

"We didn't, Katie. God! We just watched movies and made out a little." Maya knew this was a dumb lie, since Katie would probably figure it out soon, but tonight was not the time to talk about sex. She was all sexed out all of a sudden and didn't want to think about the night. Miles just nodded with what Maya said, and Katie gave them a look as if she knew they were lying, but let it go. She popped some popcorn and watched the movie with them. When the Matlin parents got home they were happy, talking about some motivational speaker they saw. None of the teenagers listened, but when they finished talking, Katie took a shower and the Matlins made themselves dinner.

Miles and Maya quietly went upstairs by themselves. "I want you again, damn it." Miles said roughly. "Yeah." Maya wasn't sure if she wanted to have sex quite yet again. She was sore, honestly. She kissed Miles hard and ran her hand down his pants as casually as she could while they kissed in the hall. They broke their kiss when they heard Katie's shower end. "Tomorrow, maybe." Maya said, removing her hand and leaving her boyfriend turned on and eager.

That night she wrote about the sex with Miles in her journal and how she felt… She wrote the date, as usual, then wrote freely. She never used an eraser in the journal. It made things more real.

"Tonight I did something with Miles I never thought I'd do until marriage. We had sex. I wanted stuff like that with Cam but he wasn't into it. I love Miles. I do. I do. I do. The sex was really nice and he was really nice about it and gentle and I just…. I don't know if it was the right thing to do. But it's too late and telling him I regret it is not the answer. I worry that I'm not over Cam. I thought of Cam when Miles called me beautiful. I didn't want to. I really didn't. But I did. My mind drifted to Cam a lot. Anyway, I don't feel too good. I feel kind of bad about myself. Like a whore. But part of me has never felt more alive. So, this is it tonight. I still love Campbell stupid Saunders. Bye."

It was a short entry, but it really captured how she felt. Conflicted. She loved Miles. More than anything, but was he the guy she was destined to marry? She couldn't have sex with a guy then just break up and forget. But…that was what Katie did with Drew. And Tori with Zig. Probably Tristan with Fab. A lot of people. Did sex mean anything?

This question kept Maya up all night. It made her wonder if sex was anything more than just like kissing. That people hyped it up or something. She wasn't sure. It sure felt different than kissing. Her parents went to bed, Katie snuck out with Marisol at about 3, and she heard Miles whimper in his sleep. She wondered if he had a bad dream and decided to go check on him quietly.

But the dream Miles had was not a bad one. When Maya came in Miles was naked, wiping something out of the front of his boxers with a tissue… Semen. He'd had a wet dream. Awkward. "Oh, I should…go." Maya whispered. "No, please." Miles grabbed Maya. "I had a dream about you. I need you with me tonight."

So Maya climbed in his bed and set her head on his pillow, despite everything her mind was saying. Miles climbed in with only a pair of fresh boxers. He pulled her on top of her. He was hard as a rock down there and Maya felt it pressing against her. "Wow, hey." Maya tried to be comical, but Miles was so turned on…

He basically made out with Maya's neck and she whimpered into the pillow. It felt so good. Better than anything in the world. She was now turned on too, and it was 4am. "I want you." Miles whispered. "Me too." Maya replied.

They couldn't have sex at 4am, could they?

Well, they did. They had sleepy sex in Miles' bed. It was less romantic, but it sure felt better. They did it a little harder that time and Maya had to hold her moans in her throat. Only a few moans escaped, but they were caught by Miles' neck that Maya was sucking on hard. She knew giving him a hickey would be hard to hide, but she needed to have her mouth occupied. They both orgasmed and Maya had crazy hair by the end. She snuck out of Miles' room after he passed out and checked the clock. It was 4:45 and she'd have to get up for school in 45 minutes. So she just got in bed and laid there till her alarm clock went off.

At breakfast they exchanged smiles and Maya saw the hickey. It was faded… How? She'd just done it about an hour ago and then it was super dark. She wondered to herself how many hickeys he'd had and how he knew how to hide it so well...

"Where's your mind at this morning, Miss Maya-moo?" Mr. Matlin asked, handing her a plate with eggs on it. "Uh, nothing. Just sleepy." Maya disregarded the dumb nickname, knowing that starting something with her dad was pointless because she'd lose. Mr. Matlin kissed her forehead. "You two should get to school now. Don't want to be late on a Monday morning. Not a good start to the week."

Miles, being his usual charming self, said something charming as hell and then they left. "Last night…wow." Miles said in the car. Maya just looked forward and nodded. "I love you?" Miles said, waving his hand in front of Maya's face. She gave him a half smile and kissed his cheek. "School time." She muttered to herself…Preparing for the hell that was Degrassi on a Monday. Kids who had weekends full of alcohol and parties were still hung over, nerds were over chipper because they probably did so much homework or discovered a new bacteria over the weekend, it was just never fun. And of course the first face Maya and Miles saw when they came in was Zoe Rivas. Regular sized face now. And she seemed satisfied… What had she done this time?