I couldn't help but gaze at him from across the other side of the couch. It was incredible how he managed to captivate an entire room. Each of the detectives including my father was hung on every one of his soft spoken words. I watched as he sat in his usual crouched position rubbing his big toes against each other and stopping every now and then to chew the tip of his thumb nail.

"Kira has not made any moves recently, there has been a block of time, since yesterday afternoon where we have not heard or seen anything Kira related. I would like to say that this is a positive thing but the longer he remains inactive the harder it becomes to catch him. I want you all to be on your toes for the rest of the afternoon , keep an ear out for any reports and please answer your phones if they should ring it could be anyone calling in about information regarding the Kira murders, I am sure I do not have to remind you that sharing any information regarding Kira to the public is prohibited unless first instructed by me. I hope that despite his silence so far that you are all still committed to catching and prosecuting Kira"

It almost made me cringe listening to Ryuzaki's words. I had tried to remain unresponsive, I knew what he was saying was simply because he could not allow the task force to become aware that Kira was in fact dead and buried because Kira was me and I had disposed of the killer. We were going to have to plan this in the best strategic manner possible, I had no doubt that we were going to be able to accomplish something close to perfect between my brain and his there was a fool proof plan just waiting to be dug up.

I watched the detectives nod and their mouths move in reply but somehow it all seemed so silent, Ryuzaki's words still sinking in making me feel uneasy and guilty for what I had done.

I had never felt guilt the whole time I was killing as Kira, that was something I could not lie about. I was doing the world a favor I was creating a perfect place to live and I could not see how what I was doing was wrong. I had been so caught up in trying to make the perfect planet that I had forgotten my usual principals, which was the first thing I had said after the first two deaths had sunk in, after I realized the true extremity of what I had did, it was murder, they were two living breathing human beings and despite their cruel and nasty actions I had killed two men, it was only because of my stubbornness and my ability to manipulate, even my own mind that I had convinced myself that it wasn't murder at all, I should have listened to my own reasoning back then, but then if I had I would not have met Ryuzaki, so in its own way the Death Note was a blessing to me because now I had felt truly happy, I had felt things were actually perfect and it gave me a great sense of gratification. But still there was a part of me that couldn't help but wonder what kind of world Ryuzaki and I could have created together, two of the best minds in Japan, the world's greatest Detective and the most intelligent university student in Japan, it could have been great.

I watched as the detectives made their way to a set of roller chairs on the other side of the room that sat under desks which housed numerous amounts of computers. I could hear their murmurs behind me. Even though Ryuzaki's words were spoken purely for my benefit I could only imagine how much it still struck him knowing what I had done, I was ashamed to know that there was a time where I wanted him dead, even until recently. Maybe I was the awful person that Kira had been called, since I was Kira I couldn't help but think about every harsh and cruel word I had heard the detectives, my father and even Ryuzaki say about him, even if I had told Ryuzaki that I was Kira on the first day we met, would he have still had the same thoughts? Would he have had me arrested right there and then? I was absolutely sure of it. I had made the right move of telling him the day before instead of a year ago.

I turned my gaze back to him, he was chewing on his thumb nail again, I had to smile. It was hard to believe that he was eight years my senior, he just seemed so childlike. I looked at the dark shadows under his eyes, they had been there every day since we met and he had probably had them long before then too, it was a sign of his severe sleep deprivation, I couldn't lie, I was concerned about him, sure he was the best of the best but even the best needed to sleep, I was going to have to find a way to get him to sleep, even just for an hour, I couldn't even imagine what he would look like without the dark markings, but with or without the panda eyes I had still thought he was beautiful.

"Light?" his deep voice called out to me

I turned to face him, he was no longer chewing on his nail and was looking at me with a spark of light in his eyes, it was often hard to tell if he was exultant, miserable, annoyed, euphoric but even if he didn't show the emotion with the rest of his face, because his eyes were so dark he was hard to read, at least for everyone else anyway, for me it was quite easy I had known him better than anyone so all it took was one quick glance and I could tell, or at least guess what he was feeling.

"Yes?"

"I have been contemplating on a move after the Kira case has been solved"

"What do you mean Ryuzaki?" I asked with genuine concern in my voice

"I would appreciate it if you would come work with me on my cases, I am confident that you would be of a great help to me"

He replied

"Does this mean you no longer suspect Light, Ryuzaki?" I heard my father's voice in the background

"I am less than 1% sure that Light is in fact Kira. I have not been able to find anyone who matches me on intelligence in the past and I am 90% sure that if Light agrees to join me that we will have no troubles at all solving cases, even if they match the Kira case in difficulty" He replied to my father, who had a beaming smile under his thick black moustache hair.

"Ryuzaki.."

I was slightly lost for words, I knew that I would be a part of his future but to be able to work alongside him too, it was the ultimate fantasy and honor. I would be working side by side with the world's greatest detective, there was going to be so much I could learn from him, and a lot I was sure I could teach him too and side by side we could learn together.

"I accept your offer" I continued, my father let out a loud chuckle of joy and Ryuzaki smiled a loving and warm grin at me,

Soon my father's strong hands were patting me on the back, I couldn't help but wonder if he would still be patting me on the back if he knew how I was planning on thanking Ryuzaki for such an amazing opportunity, was he really ready to put Kira behind us and move on? I had to contain my excitement my father would know something was up if I acted overly excited

"Thanks dad" I simply said, he gave me one last pat and went back to his station

"Watari?" Ryuzaki called out

The older grey haired, grey moustache man appeared from the kitchen wearing a white apron and holding a wooden mixing spoon

"I am going to need a celebratory cake if you don't mind, I am in need of something sweet" He stated kindly

"Yes, of course" Watari smiled and walked back into the kitchen.

All I could do was wait until darkness approached, everyone would go home and Ryuzaki and I would be alone once more. I couldn't help but think of everything that had happened between us since we had met.

I had noticed it very early on, Ryuzaki hated physical contact and yet he had no trouble shaking my hand the first day we met, he had never shook any ones hand, at least while I was around. He defiantly had no problems hitting me, even though I was the one who had thrown the first punch and even when he took care of me, right from the beginning there had to be something that made him feel comfortable with me. From the moment he started suspecting I was Kira the contact hadn't stopped between us, although it was not often it seemed to me that I had been his exception, what was it about me in the very beginning that made him disband his typical rules? I knew that I was going to have to ease him into a relationship, although my longest relationship was a loveless one at least on my part and it was with Misa I still had a grip on how a relationship should be and I knew that Ryuzaki had not been in love before, he hadn't had someone love him before which was probably why he froze up every time I kissed him, he was not used to someone paying such loving attention to him, I loved Ryuzaki very dearly but I couldn't help but worry that I was not going to be able to help him accept the love I had to offer him, and wanted him to have.

"Is everything alright Light?" He asked me

I shook my head out of my trance of questions and worries, it wasn't like me to be worried but when it came to the matters of the heart, but it was Ryuzaki's and it was not something I was going to be able to shrug off like I normally did.

"Yeah of course, just in shock I suppose. I think I need some coffee"

I couldn't believe I was lying, he had asked me once if I had ever told the truth from the moment I was born, I had told him like every human being there had been times I had stretched the truth but never intentionally tried to hurt anyone, I guess that was a lie because I had said I wasn't Kira and when I had confessed that I was, I knew I had hurt Ryuzaki, even if he was trying to ignore the hurt I was not stupid, I knew it had killed him. Now I was lying to him again

great start to a relationship Light, great start.

We both stood up and we walked to the kitchen, although Ryuzaki was completely useless in the kitchen and relied heavily on Watari, I however liked to do things for myself including getting my own coffee. The kitchen was empty but I could smell the cake baking in the oven, Watari must have ducked out to get some ingredients that he needed. Once we were in the safety of the kitchen, Ryuzaki closed the door behind us

"The last thing I want to do is accuse you of lying Light, but I can't help but assume that you are not alright, contrary to what you had just said"

Damn his observations. He knew me better than he knew himself

"I am concerned, I have tried to shrug what I am about to tell you off but it seems almost impossible. I am worried that I will not be able to control myself when I am alone with you, even last night while we were in bed I had to force myself not to do anything to shock you, I do love you Ryuzaki and what concerns me is that perhaps the amount I do love you will push you away, I understand no one has loved you in the way that I do and that only makes me fearful that too much of love will only make you distant from me"

He looked at me with his deep dark eyes and then quickly to the side counter, he lifted himself up onto the top of the counter, letting his legs hang from the edge it was strange to see him sitting so normally, as if he could read my thoughts he soon pulled his legs up and sat in a crouching position, which tugged on the chain that linked us together, pulling me close to him

"I see. I can understand your concern Light, however let me offer you something that may assist you in being able to get rid of such a thought. I am twenty eight years old, and in twenty eight years I have neither expected or demanded any form of love, friendship or other wise, simply because I have believed for a long time that one such a myself does not deserve anything but loneliness. You once asked me why I indulge in sweets much too often and I can tell you that somehow I find comfort in the sugar, it is almost as if whilst I am eating things that will probably be the death of me it takes away any bitterness or sourness I have within me. I have not been loved be anyone because I have not been suitable to anyone, because I am stubborn I will refuse to change who I am, hypocritical as that may seem seeing as how I more or less demanded you give up your life as Kira. Between not believing I deserve love and not being suitable for love I have merely kept to myself. You were the first friend I had ever had and that filled me with an unfamiliar joy but I accepted it openly and since you have told me that you love me I have accepted that openly too, without debate to sexual orientation, without questioning if it were wrong or right I have simply accepted what you are offering, because Light, despite my initial thoughts you have made me believe that perhaps I deserve love"

I could feel my cheeks and my heart warm up. As I suspected I had been worrying about something that I shouldn't have. Perhaps that was still a childish part of me that I would have to learn to grow out of, Ryuzaki loved me, how could I even begin to believe that he would try and hide from that? He had been more mature about my confession of my love then I had been, whilst I spent moments questioning it he had accepted it for what it was, no questions, no debates. Before I could say anything to him he began to say something more

"Furthermore stop worrying about if I trust you or not, whist your confession about who you were threw me through what felt like a Vortex, I have no reason now not to trust you, you had taken the chance to tell me your deepest darkest secret, even though you had no idea if I were bluffing about not being able to be part of your execution if you were Kira, you told me anyway. I can put Kira behind me, as I hope you can too. The past is called the past for a reason Light. My focus is the future and having you working and if you agree to it, living alongside me too"

I had been so concerned that it was all going to be too much for him but he had offered me a job to work with him and was now asking me to live with him, I had been so foolish. Ryuzaki had taken this seriously, it wasn't just a one off thing, it wasn't a false trade of love it was the real deal and perhaps if I had spent less time questioning us and more time just accepted what we had was real and between best friends then I would have saved myself a lot of unnecessary worry. It was any wonder I hadn't given myself a hernia

I stood in front of him, looking up into his eyes. He didn't even have to smile with his mouth for me to know that he was happy with our, or rather his conversation. My cheeks had been slightly blushed with pink, I had felt embarrassed and also flattered. Of course I was going to accept his offer to live with him, it was not only convenient for working purposes but I couldn't imagine not being able to spend as much time with him as possible. One thing I had taken from my actions as Kira was that none of us knew, unless you're a Shinigami or have Shinigami eyes, when our time was up and being with Ryuzaki was what made me happy so I was going to make the most of it. I didn't even want the coffee anymore, just him.

"I want to kiss you" I whispered to him. I placed my hand on his cheek, and my other hand on his knee.

"It is risky, some one may walk in" He replied turning his gaze to the door, I gently encouraged him to look back at me

"I don't care Ryuzaki" I replied

I pursed my lips against his, we closed our eyes and our tongues brushed against each other in an open mouthed deep, long, passionate kiss. I felt his hand shift from under mine and suddenly a strong grasp in between my legs, I hadn't even realized I was already as hard as a rock until Ryuzaki had squeezed me over my pants. I felt a moan escape my mouth, a cavernous, robust moan that floated between our locked mouths. He pulled his hand and mouth away from me and slid off the counter, reaching into his back pocket and retrieving his key for the cuffs

"Wait" I said before he could unlock us.

"I have an idea" I continued. I pulled him to the door and I opened it, I looked down and noticed I was still hard.

"You should go first" I said, he smiled a cheeky smile and led the way

"Where exactly are you planning on going to?" he whispered to me

"Bedroom" I replied.

Everyone had been busy staring at their computer screens and phones to even notice that Ryuzaki and I slipped right past them without raising any suspicion. It was a rush knowing that we were doing something most would consider unorthodox in a building that was currently occupied by five other people other than ourselves.

We walked to the room, closing the door quietly behind us, I reached for the lock and turned it barring us in and everyone else out. I pushed him hard against the door, completely forgetting it would have made a profound noise to those on the other side. I waited a few brief moments before continuing, making sure that no one had heard the door, once I knew it had fallen on deaf ears I eased the key out of Ryuzaki's hands and unlocked the chains around our wrists. I bunched the heavy metal in my hand and placed it and the key silently on the wooden desk that had always been completely empty. I pressed my body against his, even though we were both completely clothed I could feel each curve, each small muscle of his body against mine. His manhood entirely at attention and poking my inner thigh. I placed my hand against his chest, as much as I wanted to make love to him it was going to be impossible, it was going to be somewhat painful and we couldn't be loud and I had no doubt that either of us would be able to be silent, the last thing we needed was the task force coercing their way through the door and being surprised by Ryuzaki and I in the process of making love. I could feel his heart pounding hard against my hand

"Are you scared?" I asked him

"Not at all, while this is completely new to me it doesn't frighten me; if anything it fascinates me knowing that I am treading unfamiliar territory without hindrances or concerns"

As much as I loved Ryuzaki I sometimes wished he had a yes or no answer, he always sounded so calm and he described things in detail, it was a display of his intelligence but right now it wasn't about intelligence, after all it wasn't his brain that was poking me quite forcefully.

I took my palm away from his chest and pressed both of them against the door, securing my lover against it. He was standing completely straight and may have even been just a slightly bit taller than I was now that he wasn't slouched over. I took his mouth with mine eagerly and fervently. I could taste the sweetness on his tongue all the sugary treats he enjoyed and left a permanent syrupy taste in his mouth. I hadn't been much of a dessert person myself but his mouth was like my own personal honey pot, each stroke of my tongue against his was like licking a block of pure honeycomb. His fingers delicately slipped under the hem of my shirt and tickled my skin as he traced small lines upon my flesh, it sent a shiver up and down my spine. I pulled my mouth away from his and we both opened our eyes. It was going to be hard to stop myself now that I had started, I promised myself that our first time together was not going to be about lust, it was going to be romantic and fueled by love. You didn't have to love someone to lust for them and I loved Ryuzaki so I didn't want him to let me do whatever I felt like doing to him just because we were both very lascivious. My breathing was strong and heavy, he reached up and pushed my chestnut brown hair out of my eyes, eyes that if were anything like his, wide and dark with excitement and filled with unbridled passion.

"You're going to have to tell me to stop Ryuzaki, like I said I don't think I am going to be able to control myself around you when we are alone" I gasped through the deep breaths

He lowered his hand from my face and firmly grasped the clasp on my pants, he didn't move his hand he just gripped it, he knew just as well as I did that we could not be having sex right now, not in present company. Even though I was concerned about how it was going to feel and I was worried I would end up hurting him I still wanted him badly.

"I am sorry Light but I won't be telling you to stop, I do not want you to stop" he whispered to me