I had woken up several times that night to see if he was still there, I could feel his body next to mine but once I was asleep it would have been easy for him to get up without me noticing and shoving a pillow in his place. He was always exceptionally quiet when he moved around which is why if nobody was expecting it he could suddenly sneak up on someone and say something which would cause the person to jump or nearly die of a heart attack. But he had been there the whole time.

The sun had begun filling up the room, I had winced my eyes shut as tightly as possible but the sun was unbelievably bright. The warmth on my face was strong and even though I wanted to escape it, it was probably a good time as any to wake up

"Law—" I whispered as I tried to wake up from my relaxing doze

"LIGHT!" I heard the high pitched voice before my eyes focused on the shadowy figure in front of me. It had been Misa.

"Oh Light I can't believe your still in bed your such a sleepy head, but I guess that means that I can climb into bed with you for a snuggle"

I quickly moved, so much so that I rather fell out of the bed instead of climbing out of bed, then I realized I had only been wearing sleep pants, I quickly searched the floor for one of the shirts Lawliet and I had taken off last night, I grabbed his first so I put it on

"Light you're so silly that's Ryuzaki's shirt not yours"

"What is you want Misa?"

I was going to have to be nicer to her even if I had to flirt with her a little I needed to get her Death Note and burn it.

"Hmm, well Light you haven't asked me to kill anyone lately so I thought I would come ask you why, you have your phone switched off or have you lost it again? silly mighty-lighty"

She had been the most nostalgic and annoying person I had ever met and I found it hard to tolerate her. How on earth did she get in anyway? and where was Lawliet? I had to make sure he was still alright after last night.

"Misa did you see Law I mean L when you came in?"

"Mm-hm he is out there sitting like weirdo reading something, he is such a perv you should have seen the glare he gave me when he let me in" she replied

I never thought of Lawliet being a jealous type, it was rather amusing, He didn't glare at people he looked and sometimes stared in puzzlement but never shot a glare at anyone

"Misa, you would do anything for me right?" I asked

"Yes of course, what do you want me to do, kill L?"

I suddenly went into a panic, I couldn't believe that I had completely forgotten the Shinigami eyes. She had traded half her life for the ability to see ones real names and life spans. I needed to calm the situation since she already knew his real name, if he had ended up dead because of Misa it would be the first time I was going to murder a female and I would not have taken a single second to do so, L was everything to me.

"No, no don't do that, I need to you to come with me and we are going to burn the Death Note, do you have it on you?"

"Of course"

She reached into her shirt and pulled out the black note book with white writing on it which I had assumed was some kind of language that the Shinigami used. It had been quite some time since I had seen my Shinigami Ryuk and I couldn't see Rem anywhere so I could only assume they had some important Shinigami things to do, but now I had burnt my Death Note I had doubted I would even be able to see him now anyway.

"Great come with me, please" I held out my hand and she blushed as she took it. I led her out of the room and into the lounge room where Lawliet was sitting, reading well rather pretending to read. I turned my head to look at him and winked, it had made him gently smile.

"Ok throw it in"

The electronic fire had be burning off and on for the last few days, it had started coming in cold.

"But Light why exactly am I burning this?"

I placed my finger against my lip; gesturing her to be quiet I couldn't let her catch on the Lawliet knew everything.

"Do you want Ryuzaki to have us killed?" I whispered to her, she was never too bright so I could see this working

"Of course not!" she yelled

"Then place the Death Note in the fire and walk away from it" I said in a stricter tone, she had thrown it in and I smiled as it went up in blue flames, I knew she no longer had her Shinigami powers or the Death Note, L and I were safe.

"Hey perv, why don't you take a picture? it might last longer" she turned and said to Lawliet who had his face completely covered with the book so it had been impossible for him to even be looking

Now that both Death Notes were gone, I was going to be able to get rid of Misa from my life for good.

"Misa you need to go now and never come back, I don't want to see you again, do you understand" I said harshly

"Ha? but WHY!" she whined in her high pitched squeal, dog would have been able to hear her. I wanted so desperately to get rid of her, my life without Misa would have been divine.

"Misa I am not in love with you, I never have been and you were aware of that, I could never be in love with you because I am in love with Ryuzaki, I have been for a while now. He is who I want to be with" I said calmly and as nicely as possible

"But you're a man"

"Yes" I replied

"And he's a man"

"Yes"

"So that means you're – Homophobias!" she yelled

I felt like slapping myself in the face, even Lawliet had lowered his book and looked at her in an amused shock. Was she actual serious? Could she possibly be that dimwitted?

"Homosexuals" I replied to her

"Yeah whatever! I don't believe it, I don't believe that you two are Homophobia's, there is no way, your too good looking Light and he is just a pervy weirdo THIS CAN'T BE TRUE!" She yelled again stamping her feet and flailing her arms about.

I looked at Lawliet who had looked like he had seen a car accident; he couldn't quite believe Misa's stupidity either. I left Misa's side and walked over to Lawliet who had placed the book down on the couch; I stopped in front of him and turned around back to face Misa.

"I don't know why it is so hard for you to believe that it is Ryuzaki that I love, but since I am sure you won't leave until you have proof I will show you proof"

I turned back around to Lawliet and I dropped to my knees, I was slightly shorter than him since he was in his typical crouched sitting position. I placed my hands on his cheeks and pulled him in close to me.

"Are you alright?" I asked him

"I have never felt better" he replied

I took his lips with mine and I kissed him passionately, he placed his arms around my sides and held me tightly. I could feel her eyes on us; she was not happy and now that the Death Notes had been destroyed there was no way for her to kill either of us. We pulled our lips apart so we could take in some air, I rested my forehead against his chest and listened to the heart erratically beat in his chest, he was feeling fine.

"I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW! HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL ME THAT YOU AND RYUZAKI WERE TOGETHER, HOW COULD YOU STRING ME ALONG LIKE THAT! I HATE YOU SO MUCH, YOU WILL PAY FOR IT" she shouted

I turned to face her

"I had told you from the beginning, when we first met, that I would pretend to be your boyfriend, you knew damn well I didn't love you"

"YEAH- YEAH WELL YOU- YOU SUCK!" she yelled again before storming out of the room and out of the building, slamming the door behind her.

"Well that was pleasant" Lawliet replied

"I feel like a very annoying weight has been lifted off my shoulders, just one more demon to fight and I think I am done fighting demons for a while" I got off of the floor and sat beside Lawliet, I picked up the book he was reading, rather pretending to read, and read the title. I smiled when I realized what it was, I opened up to the exact page he was looking it.

Matsuda had this idea of taking photos of all of us so that he could make some scrapbook of the task force that caught Kira. We had been completely unaware of this of course so when he had taken the photo, not only were Lawliet and I cuffed together but it had somehow looked as I had my hand in his lap, which in actual fact I was picking up a pen I had dropped and Lawliet had a mouth full of cake so it had looked like he was in completely paradise. Lawliet ended up stealing the photo once it was processed had had stuck it in Hamlet by William Shakespeare, the only book I had actually ever seen him read. He had been looking at that photo even before I was rudely awakened.

"I can't believe you still have this tucked away in here" I smiled and closed the book again

"Well at least I know that is safe and that no one else has any suspicion it is there"

It was only when I had looked back at him that I had realized the dark shadows under his eyes had somewhat faded, they were so much lighter and he looked so different. Not less or more attractive, just more alive and his skin had looked a lot less pale to.

"When did you wake up this morning?" I asked him, completely mesmerized

"Before the sun was up, I have been contemplating something" he said almost shyly

"What is Lawliet, is everything alright?" I was somewhat concerned, what if after last night he had decided it wasn't what he wanted after all?

"Yes, everything is fine. I had been taking into consideration what you had said yesterday, about informing your parents about our relationship, I think that perhaps I should be informing those to whom I consider to be the closest thing I have to family. Watari and some of the people at Wammy house" he said

Wammy House had been an orphanage for gifted children that Watari had founded, Lawliet had lived there for five years and whilst it was all the way in England he had a lot of people there who cherished him just as much as I did, including three of the most irritating children I had ever met. However they were important to Lawliet so I had accepted them. I had first met the terrible three just after I had met Lawliet it was surprising really, I could have never pictured him as being a parent , he was far too childish himself but when those boys were around it was like seeing him in a completely different light, when the eight, nine and ten year old were in his presence he seemed to have an everlasting smile, until they began fighting and he looked like a terrified deer about to be hit with a truck, that was when I took over. Even though Lawliet and I weren't together at the time when I first met the brats, I could still feel my heart flutter when I found him leaning against a door frame, with a soft smile on his face, his arms crossed in front of his chest and one leg crossed over the other, I guess at that time there was no need for his deductive skills.

"You mean the boys?" I asked him

"That is where I am having the problem, you know better than anyone that I am quite fond of Near, Matt and Mello however although highly intelligent I am concerned that they will simply not be able to process what, if I chose to tell them, I was saying to them"

When I saw those three boys it was like looking through a time capsule each of them were so much like Lawliet in their own way that I had honestly wondered if they were not somehow related. Even though Lawliet had left England and the orphanage to come to Japan and work as a detective with the guidance of Watari, he still made sure that he visited the boys when ever he could. They had arrived just before Lawliet had decided to leave but before he did he formed great bonds with all of them even though the youngest was only three when Lawliet left.

Near, age eight, had looked like a miniature Lawliet, although his hair was snow white rather than jet black, he was splitting image other than that, the same messy hair, the wide large dark grey eyes, even his poor posture was exactly the same, he was the youngest and yet the most intelligent. He was exactly like the man I had fallen in love with, although instead of chewing on his thumb, Near played with his mop like hair. Watching Near and Lawliet play chess or even a simple game of Scrabble was like watching an ultimate fight of intelligence, they adored each other but because they were both so competitive and Near being a child and Lawliet having a childish nature it often called for a referee, anyone could swear they were father and son, if not at least siblings.

Matt was the middle child and the least intelligent but what he lacked in book smarts he had in technology smarts, the nine year old red-brown haired emerald eyed boy knew technology like the back of his hand, if anything was broke he could fix it and he could hack into even the most secretive files at nine he had all the potential of becoming the world's other greatest detective, anything that was a secret Matt would find it out. Although he would have a lot more potential if he didn't wear those ridiculous white goggles with orange lenses and with his day consisting mostly of gaming. Even for a child he has a dry sense of humor; it was hard to tell if he was serious or joking which was Lawliet all over. The last time I had gone out with Lawliet and the boys and Matt had begged me to take him to the newest gaming store I had been told what a beautiful son I had although it created an unusual feeling with in me, I did also feel proud, if someone were going to connect me to any of the brats I was glad it was Matt.

Mello, the eldest child, ten years old looked a lot more innocent then he was, a sweet looking blonde haired, blue eyed boy who had an avid love for chocolate and when he and Lawliet were taken out in public it is like looking after a pair of spoiled brats, they rushed to anywhere that sells anything sugary and Lawliet will spoil him to his heart's content with chocolate. He is however different than other two children and Lawliet because he is extremely social, the poor kid would strike up a conversation with a lamp post if there was no one else around, you can also guarantee that where there is Mello there is Matt, it had somewhat embarrassed me the last time that I had seen them when my father had said that it was like looking at miniature versions of Me and Ryuzaki, Mello and Matt were attached at the hip most of the time and somehow he had compared that to us.

"You do realize that even if you don't tell them, they would have a find a way of working out what was going on between us, especially Mello, if he caught onto the something being different then it was last time don't you think he would encourage the other two to push for answers?" I said

"Do you think that they would understand though, I mean do you think they could grasp the concept of you and I being in a relationship that is supposed to be typical of a man and a woman and not two males?" he asked me

I shrugged my shoulders

"They are smart boys Law' Whether you decide to tell them or not I think they will have a way of finding out that their Idol is in love with the guy they call Mamma L"

It had been Mello that had started calling me Mamma L, Lawliet and I had always been friends and we did spend a lot of time together, we worked to together and since we were each others only friend we hung out a lot socially to so whenever the kids visited here I would typically be around, mostly at the request of Lawliet. Once Mello had started calling me Mamma L the other two followed suit, I had already had a sneaking suspicion that mine and Lawliet's relationship was not a typical friendship and there was going to be something more to us in the future. It had only really bothered me in the beginning, but somehow I learned to grow accustomed to it if they didn't call me Mamma L, then I knew something wasn't right with the cheeky brats.

"Hmm I suppose you right in assuming that, there is a 94% chance that, if they to see us now they would notice a difference in the way he had behaved around each other" he replied

"Would it be a great difference though?" I sat back against the back rest and thought about it

"What exactly do you mean?"

"Well think about it, how much different were we around each other before we were lovers to how we are with each other now, if you took away the kissing and the sex wouldn't it be very much similar to how we were before. I mean both of knew we loved each other, even back then and even though we hadn't expressed it we still acted towards each other as is our love was apparent, why else would have Mello started the Daddy and Mamma L pet names for us, perhaps without knowing it we were already acting like a couple without the physical part, we were and are best friends in love with each other, just now we express our love openly instead of silently" I said to my lover

"That's rather interesting, and perhaps you are correct, subconsciously we had already been acting like two people in love with each other even though there had been no verbal agreement about how we had felt towards one other, even though we were just friends when the boys last visited maybe they saw something between us that we were just being ignorant to"

"Exactly" I replied

Lawliet placed his thumb against his bottom lip, he was processing the discussion in his mind, and he was trying to think back to when the kids were last here and trying to remember how we had been with each other. I looked down at my watch. it was nearing lunch time it wouldn't be long before Lawliet would be craving something sweet and I had to go speak to my parents.

"Would you like some privacy to speak to Watari? I have to go and speak with my parents anyway. I know you had said that you would come with me but I think it would be most comfortable for you if you spoke to Watari alone and the last thing I want is anything to happen to you if my father happens to become angry"

I wasn't sure how my parents were going to react but my father had a temper on him, he could become easily angry as he could become easily happy and whilst I had never seen him act out in violence, I didn't know if breaking the news that I was in a relationship with Lawliet, who he knew as Ryuzaki was going to be reason for an outburst

"In saying that Light, I am concerned about your well being, if anything should happen to you I –"

I stole his words with a kiss I didn't want him to be worried or even the slightest bit scared, I could tell that he was by the look in his eyes. My father was the chief of police and as a cop he did have a lot of aggression that had built up over the years, I was worried that this may make him lash out, but I had been prepared for it. Regardless of what he would say, my life was with Lawliet now

I pulled my lips away from his, I could have sworn I felt a warm tear resting against my cheek, just the thought of anything happening to him hurt, it was a ball of fear I had with in me, what if my father did lose the plot and resorted in something drastic? what if even though she was a brat Misa was serious about her threat? What if I lost him? It hurt to feel like that, to think like that. I could have been the one that ended up hurting him , and I hated that, I hated it so much I wanted to cut my own heart out and hand it to him on a big silver platter just so he knew that while Kira and I shared the same body, I don't think I was Kira, I couldn't have done anything to the panda-eyed detective, I couldn't have he meant too much to me even before I made love to him, even before I admitted that I loved him.

"I won't let anyone hurt you" I replied to him, I could even feel the choke in my voice; I tried to cover up the pain I had aching in my heart.

"Light" he said and wiped the tear off of my cheek

"I would kill for you" he continued and found my mouth with his again.

Did he really mean it? if it went horribly bad would Lawliet resort in violence? I couldn't believe it for a second. I knew him and despite the fact we had turned to violence on each other before I couldn't see him acting out on someone else, did he really love me that much? Had the previous night woken something inside of him? Had making love to him been the physical proof that above anyone else he mattered most to me? It was a beautiful and yet frightening thought.

I stood up and began to walk away from him; this was going to be one of the hardest things I had ever had to do, tell my parents that their so called perfect son was completely devoted to a man, not just any man but Lawliet. I was completely captivated by the world's greatest detective and nothing, or no one was going to stop me, if he was prepared to kill for me, I was prepared to kill for him and if worse came to worst I would have no hesitations, at the moment it was us verses the rest of the world and we were a force not to be reckoned with.