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Chapter 3- I'll wait

"Then... I guess maybe we shouldn't be friends at all."

Kensi looked at him, mouth agape. She felt something on her chest, something that was, unfortunately, very familiar. It was her heart breaking in tiny little pieces. She stood up and ran out of the door.

Kensi ran past Callen, ignoring his shouts.

"Kens? Kensi!"

Callen didn't understand why she was ignoring him. But he could tell, by the way she ran, that Kensi was angry and sad. And that made him go into 'overprotective brother' mode. He stomped into Deeks' room and glared at him, making him cringe.

"What did you do?" barked Callen.

"I don't want to talk about it."

Callen was fuming by now, and Deeks wasn't helping.

"Listen, I think you're forgetting that Kensi is my little sister. Whatever you did - fix it."

The senior agent didn't give Deeks a chance to explain and left him alone with his thoughts. He knew he had hurt Kensi, but it hurt him being with her, pretending he didn't love her, because he couldn't lie to himself. He was tired of censoring his own thoughts, of trying to convince himself that he wasn't head over heals with his partner.

Deeks remembered the crash. He had gone out, for the first time in two months, only due to the fact that he had no food left. On his way to the grocery store, he saw Kensi crossing the road, right in the middle of the intersection. She was so close, and right in the path of his car. Of course that now, Deeks knew it was just another hallucination, like the was he'd been having for days before that, but it just looked so real. He stepped on the brakes, hastily stopping the car. He was vaguely aware of the sound of a honk, and then there was a blinding to the side of his skull. He had welcomed the darkness and knew his last thought had been about Kensi.

The rest was a bit hazy. He only recalled waking up and seeing Kensi... The relief of seeing her and knowing that she was okay, only to have that relief replaced by hurt and sadness. Kensi admitted that being friends wasn't enough for her, but he wasn't ready to be in a relationship, at least not yet. So Deeks decided it was best to simply not see her for a while.

But as he thought back to his hallucination, he wondered what would've happened if that really were Kensi, if she died. Deeks would never have the chance to tell her how she really felt.

Quickly making up his mind, Deeks jumped out of the bed.

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Kensi parked her car in her driveway, barely being able to see through the tears. After getting inside, she curled up on her couch.

Another man, another man left her. Somehow they alway did, but she couldn't blame them: Kensi was a mess, she was broken. First, her dad, her hero, her best friend. Kensi knew he didn't think she was a mess, but he still left her, altough not willingly. Then, Jack. She had tried so hard to help him with his meds, appointements, everything, but he was gone.

And then there was Deeks. Peraphs the most important of them all, he was the one who always understood, the one who could see right through Kensi. She had put him through so much, hurt him so bad, when she left him, just because of her stupid fears.

Suddenly, she heard a knock on the door. Kensi didn't budge and waited for the person to go away, since she wasn't really in the mood for talking. But the person on the other side wasn't going away, and sighing, she opened the door.

"Deeks!"

Marty Deeks standing outside of her door, still clad in the hospital flannel pants, seemingly out of breath.

"How did you get here?"

"I convinced a nurse. Can I please come in?"

Nodding, Kensi quickly stepped aside.

"Uh... Yeah, sure, come in."

Deeks hopped to couch and sat down, groaning in pain. Kensi sat down on the couch, her eyes still a little puffy from the tears, and admired the awkwardness of the situation.

"So... why did you come here?"

He started playing with his fingers, avoiding her eyes.

"I, uh... well, just after you left, Callen came in and talked some sense into me. He said I had to fix what I did, and then I started thinking. The truth is, Kensi, the reason I crashed yesterday... was you."

"Me?"

He felt weak for what he was about to say, but he knew this was finally the time for them to talk.

"Yeah. I'm sure someone already told you, but I haven't slept in a while. And when I was driving, I- I saw you, crossing the door, almost getting ran over by me. So I wondered what would happen if you..." he took a shaky breath. "If you died. And I realized that I would never forgive myself if I never told you the truth."

By now, Kensi was nearly crying again. God, what happened to the kickass federal agent?

"What truth?"

"That there really is a thing here," he gestured to the two of them. "between us, and I feel like everything, the flirting, the banter, is leading to something bigger."

Kensi couldn't think of an answer. How could one possibly match the what Deeks had just said?

"I know."

"But I don't think I'm ready, just yet. I'll be, eventually, so I just need some time, but I still need you as a friend. I'm sorry for what I said."

For the first time in two months, Kensi finally smiled. Altough small, it was still a smile.

"I'ts okay. I shouldn't have left."

Kensi smiled again, and took his hand.

"I'll wait."

I hoped you liked chapter 3. For some reason, I wasn't really sure about posting this chapter, I kinda think it's a bit worse than the others.

So, a guest wrote that he thought Deeks was a bit agressive. For the guest, first of all, don't be sorry for saying what you think, like you say in portuguese: não levo a mal! I accept every type of review (unless someone says something really hurtful). I think that Deeks was a bit agressive, too, but he needed time to think. And thanks for the compliment! I've been studying english for about 11 years now.

To all of my lovely readers: I have two exams next weeks, geography and german, so don't expect a very big chapter. I'll try to write as much as possible, anyways.

Please review! =)

-Laura