Hello followers and favoriters, I am so sorry it has taken me a little while to update. I haven't been feeling to well and been a bit off of my A game but I have finally written chapter sixteen so please enjoy and chapter seventeen will be up soon. Also big hello to my new follower Wickedicecream thankyou for your support ^.^
The sound of hysterical mad laughing echoed through the room Lawliet and I opened our eyes, they suddenly filled with shock and horror as B raised his head, completely unharmed
"You two are really fucking stupid, you don't listen a single word that gets said, I'm have Shinigami blood mother fuckers, you can't kill me"
Another lot of laughing penetrated us, how could have been so stupid?, of course a bullet would have done no harm to Beyond Birthday, what could have we been thinking?
"Yes I can" Lawliet suddenly said
B looked at him curiously as he turned to face me
"Light, the Death Note, did you burn it all?" Lawliet asked me
"Yes, I told you that I was going to" I said almost defensively
"I wonder if it would be possible that not all of it was burnt, could it be possible that there is enough blank paper that has been untouched by the flames to be able to write his name on it." He said to me quietly
I had very little doubts, the fire often burned on and off for days, it was going to be a less than 1% chance that there was going to be any trace of it left
"I don't know L, I doubt it" I replied
"But it is worth taking the chance in case there is right, if there is we can end this all now, it will all be over and we can continue to live our lives" he said looking at me with wide-ish puppy dog eyes, the bruising around his eyes and made them look a lot less wide then they were normally
"You're right; I will go back to the house and see if I can retrieve even just a small piece. It is worth a go"
Lawliet nodded. I kissed his forehead and started to leave the room.
"Stay" I said pointing at B who gave me a demented smile.
I couldn't almost quite believe that I was traveling back home just to see if there was enough paper. I was exhausted that I was sure I was going to end up falling asleep at the wheel if I didn't keep focused on the task at hand. I had prayed silently that this was going to work and I had hoped the boys were alright and had managed to stay out of trouble. I was 100% sure that no one had seen the car after I had killed the cop so I should have been safe driving through the streets, back home.
It was a miracle that I managed to stay alive the drive back. The house was completely silent when I arrived home; it left a sinking feeling in my stomach. I climbed up the stair case and to the front door, unlocking it with my key card. I peered my head through. The house was just as it was when I left, except for the pile of dishes in the sink; at least I knew that had eaten
"BOYS?" I yelled out
Suddenly the sound of stomping feet came running into the lounge room and all three of the jumping at me latching on.
"Where is Daddy L?, is he alive?, what happened?, where is he?, why were you gone so long?" Mello asked as quickly as his brain would let him speak.
"He is fine boys, everything is fine. He will be coming home shortly. I just need to get something and I will go and get him" I replied.
I tried to move as best as I could with the boys attached to me. It was a sigh of relief that I had turned off the fire place before I had left to go to Osaka that first time. I dragged myself with the kids still attached to me to the fire place and I began to rummage through the ashes looking for even a small piece. My eyes widen as I saw a piece that was about the size of a mini milk pot, the ones that Lawliet drank straight from whenever we went to coffee houses.
"Pen" I said,
I felt Near detach from me and run and grabbed a pen from the desk and handed it to me, I took off the lid, I was about to put the pen to the paper when I had a second thought. I knew that Lawliet should be the one to do this, not myself. I placed the cap back on and put the paper and the pen into my tracksuit pants pocket
"Alright I have to go again and get your dad" I said to the boys standing up
"We are coming with you" Matt said forcefully
"Yeah we are coming with you, you can leave us alone again, that's child neglect" Mello replied
"You really have no choice in the matter, we are coming with you whether you like it or not" Near said looking at me with discontent in his dark eyes
"The car only has two seats
"Shotgun!" Matt called out
"I will sit on Matt's lap and Near can sit on yours and when Dad gets in Near can be put in the boot" Mello replied
"I will put you in the boot" Near argued
"Yeah how are you going to make me?"
"Enough! Alright, if you are coming get in the car now, we are leaving"
At least their company meant plenty more arguing and debating that would surely keep me awake. It was a relief to finally feel like things were going to go back to normal. At least somewhat anyway. I knew that my soul had been tainted after I killed the innocent officer, which was something that was going to plague me until my death. It was going to be the one thing I would see repeatedly in my mind when I slept, I could feel it.
I was sure that I was going to die, I was sure that L and the boys would go on to live without me and I was sure that even though it would have B to kill me it was probably Karma, I don't know what it was, I couldn't explain it but a part of me was somewhat disappointed. I by no means wanted to die, I didn't want to be stripped from this world or from what I had gained but maybe I had believed that death is what I deserved.
"Light, it's been a while" I heard a low growling voice.
I could feel him looking over my shoulder, just hovering there
"Ryuk, I was wondering if I would see you again, I was sure even with the small piece of the Death Note you would appear again at some point"
"Who is he talking to?" Mello turned to ask Matt who shrugged his shoulders
It hadn't even occurred to me that the boys would not be able to see Ryuk; they had probably thought I had finally lost my mind
"Have you become mentally unstable?" Near asked me
We had climbed into the car, Matt had sat down first with Mello on his lap, and I had got into the driver's seat and Near had crawled onto mine. I was lucky that he was so small so he didn't weigh a lot, it would have been hell on my already exhausted legs.
"No I have not become mentally unstable; I am talking to a Shinigami"
Near made a snickering sound at me and Matt and Mello just stared at me like I had really lost my mind
"Who are these small humans?" Ryuk asked his gaze going from Near to Mello and then to Matt
"They are my small humans, my sons, Near, Mello and Matt"
"Light are you saying that you had children in the short time I haven't seen you, how is that possible?"
I slapped myself in the face; it was like having a very stupid, very annoying fourth child.
"I didn't have them, they came into our custody"
I could feel not only confused eyes of Ryuk's on me but the boys had been looking at me just as confused and with concern, I couldn't believe that they had really thought I was crazy, but to them I was simply having a one sided conversation with nothing. I suppose I would have looked crazy and after everything I had been through in the last forty eight hours it would have been plausible.
"Our?" Ryuk asked
I was becoming frustrated; I didn't have time for the Shinigami's non-sense. I started the car and drove off in a hurry with Ryuk still hovering above my head
"Mine and Ryuzaki's, L's" I sighed
"HA! You mean the same guy you were trying to kill?"
"Things change Ryuk, a lot has changed since we last spoke, and things are different now. I have a much greater enemy and L and I are lovers" I tried to explain in simple terms
"Well, humans really are interesting" Ryuk replied giving a loud, deep laugh
Feeling his eyes on me had reminded me of B, a thought that left my skin bunching into goose bumps
"Ryuk?"
"Yeah?" he managed to stop laughing long enough to answer me
"Is it possible for a Shinigami to breed with a human resulting in offspring?" I asked
"Hmm, it's hard to say, since I have never had the urge or felt such a thing for a human I really wouldn't know, but I suppose it could happen. Why do you ask? Are you concerned about one of the miniature humans DNA origins?" He asked
I had to pause, why would he say such a thing? Why would he make an assumption that I was concerned about where the boys had come from? I had to admit I was curious as to who their birth parents were and what they must have been like for them to turn out the way they had. I had suddenly become extremely concerned, if a Shinigami and a human could bear a child, which was clearly evident because of B, then how many other humans have bred with Shinigami and bore children. Lawliet is a byproduct of a human-Shinigami relationship too but with no physical traits of being so, was it possible that Ryuk could sense Shinigami in one of the boys? Without neither myself nor Lawliet knowing? After all we knew nothing of their birth parents. I was now extremely worried.
"Ryuk if you can sense something you need to tell me now"
I tried to make it so the boys didn't know that Ryuk and I were talking about them. They were probably having a hard time trying to understand that I wasn't crazy and that I was actually talking to another physical being, but without them touching the paper they were only hearing my side of the conversation.
"I will tell you if you give me an apple" Ryuk started his insane laughter again
"DO I LOOK LIKE I HAVE A FUCKING APPLE RYUK!?" I yelled and then quickly closed my mouth
I couldn't believe I had just sworn in front of the kids. I felt an incredible amount of guilt
"You do realize that you just cursed didn't you?" Near asked me looking at me with judgmental dark eyes
"Yes I know, I am sorry just please try and ignore what I said" I almost begged quietly and as lovingly as possible
"You shouldn't swear dad, it's not only unnecessary but it also makes you look intellectually ugly" Near carried on
Intellectually ugly? What on earth had he been exposed to be able to come up with such non-sense?, I had to forget about that and find out what Ryuk was hiding. I knew there was something, as one of their parents I needed to know if one of our boys had also been born with Shinigami blood. There was no guarantee that if one of them were that they were going to end up a mentally unstable crazy psychopath like B but then there was also a chance that they would be something like that. None of them had a red tint to their eyes but neither did Lawliet, all of the questions I had were distracting me at the task at hand. I would have to go to L first and interrogate Ryuk later.
After an hour in busy traffic and having to listen to the boys argue and Ryuk peering over my shoulder listening into their conversations, laughing every now and then when one of them threw a clever insult at one another, we arrived back at the building where I had left Lawliet and B, who was hopefully still chained up. I knew that Lawliet was firm and he did what he had to get the desired result but I also knew how compassionate he was, if B was able to convince Lawliet to unchain him then I was going to be left with possibly a dead fiancé and escapee. I had to shake the thought from my head. I turned off the engine and took the keys out of the ignition. I looked at the boys who had all stopped yelling and arguing and looked at me with anticipation.
"I need you guys to say here"
I received moans and whines in response
"Look I know that you want to come with me, but you can't see what's in there. Your dad is in pretty bad shape and… you just can't see what else is in there"
"Is it that man from the tape, the one with the red eyes?" Near asked
"Yeah, and I can't let you boys be exposed to that. Complain and whine all you like but that's where I stand on this. Please just respect that. Ryuk is here he will look after you, if he wants a bag of apples he will do as I am telling him. I am just going to go in there, get L and then we will be out, I promise" I looked at each of them and smiled.
"Make sure nothing happens to them, do you understand"
I turned to Ryuk and gave him my serious gaze
"Yeah yeah whatever" He said
That was his way of saying yes, he would do anything for apples, so at least I had some leverage and I knew he was going to do what I had asked him. I picked Near up and got out of the car and sat him on the driver's side seat before closing the door and enabling the alarm system. If the doors were open at any time a shrill alarm would let me know and I would be able to get to them quickly.
I made my way to the front entrance. Once I was inside I ran to the room where they had been left. I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw that everything was as I left it. Lawliet had been sitting, crouched on the floor and B had his red gaze fixed on his brother.
"Law'?" I said
I reached into my pocket and pulled out the pen and paper
He stood up and put his arms around me.
"I am glad that you are alright, I was worried that something happened to you" I said to him
"I won't give up that easily Light" he replied and pressed his lips against me cheek
"Here" I said to him placing the pen and piece of torn Death Note into his hand
He took them gently and looked down at the two items and to B. He approached him and crouched down in front of him
"This is part of a Death Note; it is the only definite way to dispose of another human being or Shinigami. I had never even imagined that I would have to use this, for any purpose. I know what kind of destruction it causes but I believe it is the only way you can be at peace. I know that you have had a life that has been displeasing to you and I understand that everything has also been rather complex and exhausting for you. I have never wanted to see you die BB, I have never wanted to be the person to murder you but you need to die, you need death in order to be released from all the pain, hate me as you will, that does not concern me. I am sorry I have to do this but I really do not see any other option. I do not deserve your torture and neither does my family"
"WAIT!" a small voice came from the door
I looked to the voice and turned bright red with fury. Near was standing there with Mello, Matt and Ryuk. I wanted to kill that nuisance Shinigami, how hard was it to make sure they didn't get out of the car?, and why didn't I hear the alarm?
"I disabled the alarm" Matt replied smiling an accomplished grin
The boys had rushed to Lawliet and wrapped themselves around him, gripping him tightly. He still held onto the paper and the pen with both between his thumb and index finger
B Began to laugh hysterically, his laugh penetrating my very core, it was like hearing a thousand nails scrapping down a thousand black boards
"Hello there Shinigami, so nice to see you again"
I looked to Ryuk and then looked at B. His eyes, his eyes weren't even looking at Ryuk. I looked again switching my gaze between Ryuk and B and there was still no eye contact. B wasn't even trading glances with Ryuk; it was lower, more closer to him.