Music of My Heart Chapter 9: Cheater, a twilight fanfic

Ok, i know that this is different from the original one that i had up here, but i just like this better, and i hope you do too

It was time to go to band practice, and I didn't want to. I got into my truck anyway with some lyrics that I had been working out on my own. When I reached Conner's house I could already hear the music flowing from the garage, but there were already several cars parked in the driveway so I couldn't see in.

As I weaved my way through the cars I heard someone start singing.

"I've tried, to hide
But I can't sleep at night
Everything I think about
Makes me feel like a version of myself

They tell, their lies
And we all synchronize
Look to, the sky
Because it's almost over"

Finally I made it through all the cars, and I saw two things that surprised me, first was that it was EDWARD who was singing, and second was that Landon was perched on one of the couches that Conners mom had put in the garage for us to relax on.

We want, the truth
Give us the absolute
We need, your help
Cause we've got nothing

We want, the truth
Give us the absolute
We need, your help
Cause we've got nothing left to lose
I know, we've tried
This thing a million times
But put me out
Cause I'm on fire"

I lingered just outside the garage watching everything and no one noticed me. Edward had a great voice.

"Don't talk, if you
Are going to tell me the truth
Don't tell me you know
You've got everything under control

We can't have it all
But we can break the fall
This time I'm letting go
Cause I can't take it anymore"

"Cut!" Yelled Conner spotting me, and jumping down from the stage to give me a huge hug, it hurt, mostly because his guitar was still hanging across his chest.

"Oh! Sorry!" he said realizing my discomfort, then we both laughed.

"It's cool. Oh, and so was that song!" I said amazed. He nodded.

"Edward wrote it, and since you were a little late he wanted us to run through it. Great, huh?"

I nodded.

"So what's he doing here?" I asked referring to Landon.

"Oh, Landon and I have become good friends, so he wanted to come down and watch us practice, so I said sure." He said smiling oblivios.

"Great." I said sourly. "well I brought a song with me, you guys already have the music and learned it I think." I said.

"Which song?" he asked

"Together." I said meekly.

"Yeah, we've learned that one." He said smiling, then he walked back over to the guys. "We're going to be doing Bella's song now. Forgotten, we've learned it aleady." He said.

"They nodded and I hopped up onto the stage and Edward handed me the microphone letting him hand graze mine, which was totally unneeded.

"Alright, let's start!" Conner yelled and he started started strumming out the notes.

"You can only move as fast as whose in front of you
And if you assume just like them, what good will it do?
So find out for yourself, so your ignorance will stop bleeding through.

Only one thing
big enough to fill the void that's inside of you
It's just a breath away. You can breathe today.

So many, Lies swarming, Around You, You're suffocating
The empty, shape in you,
Steals your breath you're suffocating

Logic forces me to believe in this and now I've learned to see
and I can only say what I've seen and heard and only you can choose
And every choice you make will affect you, search your own self

You can breathe today,

So many, Lies swarming, Around You, You're suffocating
The empty, shape in you,
Steals your breath you're suffocating

Big enough to fill the void that's inside of you,
It's just a breath away

So many, Lies swarming, Around You, You're suffocating
The empty, shape in you,
Steals your breath you're suffocating

You can breathe today
Breathe today"

I finished with my eyes resting on Landon, who smiled up at me. I rolled my eyes and lept from the stage. I needed some water or something, my throat was feeling dry.

"Hey, Conner! Do you have water or something?" I asked him. He was still on stage messing around with his guitar with Jasper.

"Yeah! I the fridge, help yourself." He said.

"Thanks." I replied.

"I'll get it for you Bella." Landon offered and as he got up his phone started to ring. "Can you answer that for me, and just talk till I get back with your water, I have a call I'm waiting for and I can't miss it." He said smiling and I nodded.

I picked up the small black phone, and clicked TALK.

"Hello?" I said into the phone.

"Hello, um…is Landon there?" It was a girls voice…it sounded like one that I knew too.

"Melony?" I asked unsure.

"Y-Yeah." Came the stuttering response.

"Mel! It's me Bella! Oh, I've missed you so much!" I squealed.

"Bella?! Oh my God! How have you been? I know that Landon transferred to your school but I didn't realize that you'd stay his friend…or mine!" She said excited. Now I was confused.

"Why wouldn't I Mel?" I asked.

"Well since Landon and I slept together right before you moved I didn't think you'd…" She kept talking but I wasn't listening, I was too busy looking at Landon. Who was standing just feet from me with a smile on his face and I bottle of water in his hand.

"Yeah…I know weird right? Well I'll tell him to call you back Melony." I said my voice already hoarse as I let the phone drop from my hand and I landed with a thud on the couch.

"I can't believe you would do that." I said tears in my eyes.

"B-Bella what's wrong?" He sasked concerned reaching his hand out to touch my shoulder.

"Don't touch me!" I squealed my voice rising and cracking as I tried to hold back my tears.

"Bella, can you please tell me what's going on here?" He asked desperate.

"How could you Landon!? How could you sleep with her?! We had just broke up! I loved you!" I screamed and the tears began falling down my face. Everyone and everything became quiet and every pair of eyes in the garage were on me, and Landon and the scene unfolding.

"Bella! It was an accident it was just one night!" he said trying to defend himself.

"You were supposed to be MY boyfriend!" I yelled at him. "Not Melonys'! And how could you bring Melony into this?! She was my best friend." I said breaking down burrying my face in my hands.

"Bella, I'm sorry! It was just one night, we were both a little drunk, and couldn't drive so she crashed at my house, it really was an accident, I hardly remember it!" He said lurching forward to take me in his arms.

I fought against him. "Don't touch me! You're filthy! I can't believe you!" I yelled pushing at his chest. Everyone still watched us, everyones face was shocked, and angry. Conner looked sad and sympathetic, after all he had invited Landon over.

"Bella, I always loved you, I still do. It was just a mistake." He said looking at me helplessly. "Why do you think that I came here? Why do you think I left home to come and find you? I needed to be with you again, I couldn't get you out of my head." He said.

"Looks like you wasted the trip. You should have never come here." I said wiping tears from my eyes. "Can…can you please just leave Landon?" I asked. "We…we have to practice and I don't think that I…could focus with you here right now." I said.

He nodded. "Bella, I really am sorry." He said.

I just looked away from him, standing with my back turned on him until I heard his car pull out and drive up the street. It was then the I collapsed to the ground in tears in my knees.

After that there was a mad scramble to get to me. Conner was apologizing for letting Landon come to our practice. Chase was spitting a slur of curses that were directed at Landon. Edward was standing further away than the rest silently. Jasper had his arms wrapped around me, trying to calm me down.

"I'm…" I was going to say "I'm alright." But I needed to rephrase it, so I did by saying. "I'm going to be fine." I said getting up and seperating myself from Jasper.

"But can you guys help me with something?" I asked them. They all nodded, even Edward. "Great, it may take awhile but I just thought of a great song. And I need to perform I tomorrow." I said attempting a smile.

Finally after an all night practice, it was time for music class. It was time for me to do my new songs. I was only going to do one, due to prompting and support from my band they convinced me to do two. The first one would be our normal music, then we'd slide my song in right beside it. It was a great plan.

We were all sitting in music when Mrs. Levinski called out band up, and we started to play our first song.

"Slipping down a slide
I did enjoy the ride
Don't know what to decide
You lied to me
You looked me in the eye
It took me by surprise
Now are you gratified
You cried to me

La, la, la, la, la

Don't turn around
I'm sick and I'm tired of you face
Don't make this worse
You've already gone and got me mad
It's too bad I'm not sad
It's casting over
It's just one of those things
You'll have to get over it

When I was feeling down
You'd start to hang around
And then I found your hands all over me
And that was out of bounds
You filthy rotten hound
It's badder than it sounds, believe me

La, la, la, la, la

Hey, you gotta get over it
Hey, you gotta get over it

It's too bad I'm not sad
It's casting over
It's just one of those things
You'll have to get over it

Don't turn around
I'm sick and I'm tired of you face
Don't make this worse
You've already gone and got me mad

You'll have to get over it"

I found his face, it was already sad and regretful, well if he felt like that now, I couldn't wait to see what his face would look like after this next song. Oh, it was going to be hilarious. The teacher opened her mouth as if to tell us to get off the stage, but the music picked up again. We were by no means done.

(A/N you need to read these lyrics to fully understand everything. It's the perfect song to go along with this)

"It's strange to think the songs we used to sing
The smiles, the flowers, everything: is gone
Yesterday I found out about you
Even now just looking at you: feels wrong
You say that you'd take it all back, given one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said yes...

You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice before you let it all go
You should've know that word, bout what you did with her

Would get back to me…
And I should've been there, in the back of your mind
I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet...
You should've said no, baby and you might still have me

His face was ashen and sad. Not quite sad enough though. Not yet.

You can see that I've been crying
And baby you know all the right things: to say
But do you honestly expect me to believe
We could ever be the same...
You say that the past is the past, you need one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said yes...

You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice before you let it all go
You should've know that word, bout what you did with her

I can't resist... before you go, tell me this
Was it worth it...
Was she worth this...

No... no no no...

You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice before you let it all go
You should've know that word, bout what you did with her

His face was totally heart broken and I watched shocked as he got up and walked out of the room slamming the door behind him.

"Miss. Swan that was nice, but do you think that we could hear one by Mr. Cullen, if you don't mind?" She said ticking something off on her board.

I looked across the room to see Edward already getting up and making his way over to the stage. He hopped up and gave me a bright smile, a real one.

"You did great." He said giving me a hug. I awkwardly got off the stage and went to sit in our bands corner. Then the music started again and Edward started to sing.

"Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again"

Wow he was great.

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

I couldn't help but think that he was singing about something real, something that happened to him, I just didn't know what.

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

His eyes met mine, and they burned with something I'd never seen them burn with…love. Wh-what the heck was going on?

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight"

His eyes were still on me as the crowd stood and clapped for him, like really, really clapped. They must have really liked it. I was still frozen, what in the world had that look in his eyes meant?

I wish I knew.

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