Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyashsa.
Kagome's POV
I held my breath bracing for the pain that was to follow. I was really in for it. He clawed at my back as he entered me for the final time for his own fulfillment. When he was done he made me turn over as he picked up his belt whipping it with his strength against my backside from my shoulders to my upper thighs. I held my breath, held my tears, held my hopes for when he would leave. I didn't know what else to do. He left my in a pool of my sweat, blood, and his juices. Pain seeped through my entire body. My opening throbbing with a swollen pain that gives off a heat. I knew I couldn't pee for another 15 minutes minimum. I can feel the bruises across my worn body starting to pool; they are as hidden lakes just waiting to be spilt over. In my attempts to push myself up several times, my arms giving sooner and sooner with each try. I found myself wondering if if was even going to make it to school today. I use what effort I have left to turn my head over. I can see my school clothes. A cute knee length skirt, it's shimmering red with nude stockings and a race back tank top sporting a the words "Be Kind" in bubbly letters with various cartoon characters holding and high-fiving each other. Tears are pooling at the corner of my eyes as I move my gaze the the black leggings and black long sleeve to replace my stockings and wear under my tank. I can't wear what I want, not and keep them from seeing. That life is over. Thirty-six minutes have passed before I can finally pick myself up. The variety of fluids crusting and flaking off where it's had the time to dry while the rest create a gooey trail that turns my stomach several times within a matter of seconds. I rearrange my clothes so that they are appropriate to my current situation and stagger to the bathroom silently. The few tears that managed to escape cooled the warmth radiating from my cheeks as I walked. As I turned on the water I caught myself wincing to the sound of it coming out and hitting the floor. I hung my head with a heavy but silent sigh.
I stopped and looked at myself in the mirror. Same as I usually see, patches of deep purples and blues giving me the look of a human calico. Except I wasn't born this way. I have to put on a ton of make-up to cover up some of the ones on my collarbone, the deepest and most fragile among the ones I can see. The hickies I can never seem to be able to cover. Another deep sigh escaped my body as I got in the shower. Everything hurt under the hot water but as soon as I stepped in I knew I have to be quick as to not disturb Naraku's shower. I focused my mind on what I'm going to do once I get out and start for school. I'll meet Inuyasha on the way as I have every single day since we were young. He's stuck by my side all our lives. I still never seemed to be able to let him in on what is really going on in that house, in his house. I cant bear the idea of telling him. He might agree with Naraku, even take advantage of me just as Naraku does. He is my one and only friend. I'm not going to risk losing him to the depravity of man.
There he is, his long silvery hair reflecting the early rays of light as they creep along the horizon as he waits in the same spot he's always waited.
"Morning!" He said as he caught her stride, his enthusiasm at seeing her again can be seen in his eyes, a solid golden pool deepening as you hold his gaze.
"Morning." I whispered.
"Kagome, what's wrong?" He asked, concern twisting his friendly features into a look so full of worry and love that feels so foreign to see given for me.
"It's nothing, I'm just tired is all." I start to slow as an overwhelming feeling comes over my body. I can't take lying to him any more. My knees buckle beneath me as I collapse onto the ground. I curl myself into the tightest ball I can manage with the severity of my injuries feel. Despite only being 16 I already feel as tho I've lived much, much more life than that of my rotations on earth. Maybe I've gained some wisdom, but what I know I've gained is crippling me.
"Kagome…" He dropped down beside me wrapping his arms around me. "What's wrong Kagome? Are you too tired? Ill? Do you need to see a doctor?" I picked up my chin and was surprised to realize the tears are finally overflowing down my cheeks once more. I tried to take some shaky breaths. I tried to stand - no good. I fell right back down onto the side walk. He dropped down at my pace without an ounce of hesitation. "Why are you crying?"
"Inuyasha... I'm scared." My words scarcely above a whisper. He tipped my chin up again. He had heard every word but his soft face is now very stern around the edges.
"Why are you scared?" he asked. I almost can't here him as I start falling into those golden pools housing my reflection. I have to confess. He has to know what I'm doing to myself every day. I take another breath.
"It's Naraku. He's…" I hesitate attempting to slow my pounding heart, "he's... been hurting me.. severely...I can't go on." I start to pick up speed as my anxiety take over. "I didn't mean to lie to you for so long! I couldn't help myself. I was so scared."
We sit in silence for about thirty seconds before I blurt out the first thought to push against my lips.
"You probably think I'm awful..."
My heart continues to attempt to increase speed.
"You probably agree with him...I'm stupid..."
I can feel my body tensing in anticipation of the violence to come.
"Go ahead.." I close my eyes and take a steadying breath. "Hit me too."
He just keeps staring at me.
"...You might as well. Hell," I began tearing clothes away from my body to hurry it along. "Screw me right freaking here if that's what you want I can't fight this anymore."
"Kagome." I looked up to see his face twisted into the horrified expression of a broken hearted man. I keep my head down once again. I whisper.
"Yes?"
"I'm not going to hurt you. Whatever he did is wrong. Did he beat you?" I just nodded. He made himself take a breath as he started to vibrate with palpable rage. Despite this I opened my mouth again, still only whispering.
"And more."
"More!?" He jumped up looking in the direction of my house, his sudden actions causing me to flinch away instinctively.
"What else has he done?" I just looked at him. I tried to speak but I couldn't say anything.
"Did he…no, he wouldn't! He couldn't…your lying! You're a bitch for lying you can just deal with your stupid lies on you own!" I can hear his voice berating me cruelly. I raise my eyes to see he isn't speaking. I'm imagining cruelty. All I can do is look at him while he wraps me in a hug and he too beginning to cry. How can he believe me?
"Why are you crying?" I whispered in his ear.
"How could anyone hurt my angel?" He replied in my ear. I'm so confused. I don't understand why he isn't mad at me for lying or being stupid. I once told my now ex-best friend. She had told me I was stupid for not doing something earlier and that it is my fault now. That was when he was only pushing and punching, before he started forcing himself on me but just trying to coax me after the beatings.
"Inuyasha…" He pulls back looking me in the eyes so intensely my heart changes it rate of flutter once again. "There's something else."
"He couldn't have hurt you any other way could he?" It pained me to see him hurt so, I just didn't understand why he was hurting as well.
"I'm not scared for me. I'm used to the beatings, and the….rapes." The last word came out a whisper.
"You shouldn't have ever experienced it at all!" He flared. I was about to respond but my voice caught in my throat as I catch sight of a blue hummer slowing down as it drove by. He's seen me. Naraku knows I am with Inuyasha. We are going to pay dearly for this.
"Inuyasha, he's seen us, Oh we're going to get it. I'm not scared for me Inuyashsa." I can't hide the panic on my face as the words ran out of my mouth before I can even process what I'm saying.
"I'm pregnant."
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