Forgive me in the most extreme way there possibly could be. Here is the new chapter please do not kill me!!!!
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"Sure Bells…but can I ask you what's going on?" She said.
"You can, but I can't really talk right now, I'll explain later, I owe you big time!" I said.
"Yeah, I know. Alright well, I'll talk to you later Bella." She said.
"You too Ang." I said and hung up the phone and turned to Jasper and his family.
"I guess I'm not done lying either." I said miserably.
Jasper wrapped his arms around me tightly, and held me.
"It'll be alright love, I'm here." He said, and I melted into his arms.
"Jasper can you take me home?" I asked him, partly because I was practically passing out on his couch, and also because Edward kept on glaring at me from across the living room.
"Um…sure Bella, give me a minute, I need to go talk to Carlisle." He said rising from his spot next to me and then placing a kiss on my forehead. I looked around the room after Jasper and Carlisle left. To my pure shock, and discomfort only Edward and I were left in the Cullen living room.
It was a long awkward silence until Edward, yes Edward actually started talking.
"So you like to sing?" He asked looking off in another direction. I was so startled by his sudden speech that I jumped a little.
"Y-yes." I answered. He suddenly got up and looked at me. "Come on, we have a studio in here, Jasper's going to be a while, so…I thought…" He looked back at me with a strained expression.
"Say no more, you had me at the word 'studio'." I said smiling. And he led me down a few long hallways before opening one of the last doors in one of the last hallways I thought could possibly fit in his house.
Ok, so one word. Amazing. This studio had everything complete with the glass window and mic, and speakers and all the buttons that I have no idea what they do. I was almost giddy, and I could see Edward crack a small half smile out of the corner of my eye.
"Alright so…go on ahead." He said smirking.
"Oh, no, no, no, no! You first, I can't sing first, nuh uh no way!" I said pushing him into the sound booth, I could tell he didn't want to but once he was in there…it was like he was another person. He smiled and was motioning for me to flip a switch on the front panel, luckily I must have found it cause I could hear Edwards voice now.
"Switch over to song number 4, you do see the flashing red numbers right?" He said, and I rolled my eyes.
"Yes, I can see Edward." I said and pressed to arrow and got to the number four.
"Well, you never know." He said smiling.
"Whatever, just get on with it." I said gesturing to the microphone in front of him and he nodded and I pressed play. Then his voice filled the room, and I sat down on one of the padded chairs and watched him.
"I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but can't move
I can't look away
I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but can't move
I can't look away"
I stared at him in shock, his voice was amazing when he wanted it to be, it sounded to sweet, and controlled, very not Edward, but I liked it.
"And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feelings taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know"
He smiled at me, then his face turned serious again, as he continued singing.
"It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to have the feelings
And look to other way
And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feelings taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here
Been waiting here"
Then his face snapped up to mine and our eyes met, and he didn't look away as he sang, and I felt the blush rise on my cheeks.
"Just so you know
This feelings taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Whoa…
Just so you know.
Whoa…
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Just so you know
Just so you know"
He walked out of the sound booth and smiled at me wickedly. "Your turn." He said pushing me into the booth and shutting the door.
"Alright, alright, alright, I left my CD in there just go to number 8 and I'll show you have it's done." I said.
"I think I have a bit more experience than you." He said seriously.
"Experience is nothing when compared to sheer talent." I said smiling, now press the button."
"Nobody believes me when I tell'em that you're out of your mind
Nobody believes me when I tell'em there's so much you hide
You treat me like a queen when we go out
Wanna show everyone what our loves about
All wrapped up in me whenever there is a crowd
But when no one's around…
There's no kindness in your eyes
The way you look at me it's just not right
I can tell what's going on this time
There's a stranger in my life
You're not the person that I once knew
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do
Then they would see a stranger too"
He looked at me curiously, and I looked down and continued singing. I couldn't stand his stare. Yeah this was about Edward and how he only showed his true and aggressive side to me when we were alone, but silent and perfect when there were people around.
"Did I ever do anything that was this cruel to you?
Did I ever make you wonder who was standing in the room?
You made yourself look perfect in everyway
So when this goes down I'm the one who will be blamed
The plan is working so you can just walk away
Baby your secrets safe…"
I looked him right in the eye.
"There's no kindness in your eyes
The way you look at me it's just not right
I can tell what's going on this time
There's a stranger in my life
You're not the person that I once knew
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do
Then they would see a stranger too
Such a long way back from this place that we are at
When I think of all the time I've wasted I could cry
There's no kindness in your eyes
The way you look at me it's just not right
I can tell what's going on this time
There's a stranger in my life
You're not the person that I once knew
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do
Then they would see a stranger too"
There was a long break in the music, which only left time for more eye contact, he tilted his head to the side and I looked away awkwardly, so when the music picked back up I was relieved.
"There's no kindness in your eyes
The way you look at me it's just not right
I can tell what's going on this time
There's a stranger in my life
You're not the person that I once knew
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do
Then they would see a stranger to"
I went to get out of the booth but Edward was holding the door shut. "One more." He said seriously.
"Aw, come on just let me out of here!" I whined.
"Nope, come on just one more. Try something slower, something to bring out your voice more." He said.
I sighed and walked over to the microphone.
"The only kind of deep voiced song I have is number 10 but you can't laugh at me!" I warned.
"I wouldn't think of it." Then he paused. "Okay maybe I would think about it, but I never really would." He said smiling.
"Whatever just play the song so we can end the song fest." I laughed.
"As you wish." He said and he pressed play, cause the music started flowing. I closed my eyes and took a breath.
"Don't know much about your life
Don't know much about your world
But don't want to be alone tonight
On this planet they call earth
You don't about my past
And I don't have a future figured out
And maybe this is going too fast
And maybe it's not meant to last
What do you say to taking chances?
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below,
A hand to hold, or hell to pay
What do you say?
What do you say?
I just want to start again
And maybe you could to show me how to try
And maybe you could take me in
Somewhere underneath your skin!
What do you say to taking chances?
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
A hand to hold, or hell to pay
What do you say?
What do you say?
Uh huh, I get beaten down
But I always come back for more
There's nothing like love to pull you up
When you lying down on the floor
So talk to me, talk to me
Like lovers do
Yeah, walk with me, walk with me
Like lovers do
Like lovers do
What do you say to taking chances?
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
A hand to hold, or hell to pay
What do you say?
What do you say?
Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world"
This time I ran out of the booth before he could trap me in again but he was still staring into the booth and not looking at me. So I started to get a bit worried after a few minutes had passed so I poked his shoulder.
"Uh, Edward, I'm done." I said laughing. And his eyes flashed up to me.
"That was amazing." He said. I couldn't help blushing.
Quicker than I realized Edward was up and standing right in front of me with his topaz eyes boring into mine. I took a quick step back, and he smirked.
In reality I wasn't that far from him, he was right, right in front of me before I had taken my step back, so…I guess we really weren't that far away anyway.
He reached his hand out and brushed my cheek with his thumb. "You're amazing." He breathed, and his breath hit me like a mack truck, sweet, and delicious almost causing me drool, but Jaspers was the same way I suppose.
WAIT! JASPER!
I snapped out of my moment of insanity real fast after that. I bolted out of the studio door without a second glance backward, and down the hallways as quick as I could, desperately trying to find the living room.
Needless to say by the time I reached the living room Jasper was already there waiting for me. Ah, Emmett was there too.
"Bella!" Emmett boomed jumping off the couch he was sitting on and scooping me up into a huge tight hug. "Well I'm glad you're okay with our little secret, but let's keep it a secret, right?" He said smiling and he put me down and I stumbled a bit and ran right into something hard. I looked up and saw Jaspers amused face. He was enjoying my confusedness.
I stuck my tongue out at him, but he only pulled me into another sweet hug. And I smiled against his shoulder.
I heard a muffled pair of shoes slumping into the room, and turned my head a little bit to see Edward rounding the corner from the hallway that entered into the living room. His eyes skipped past me and landed on Jasper, I really couldn't make out his expression, I wonder if it was one that Jasper and his family saw often.
In that moment Alice came flying down the stair and slapped Edward right across the face. It was the most random and strange thing that I ever saw. Then she just walked away leaving Edward to stare after her.
"Whoa, what was that about?" Emmett said looking at Edward, but Edward just sighed and shook his head, and his eyes flashed to me. Instinctively I cringed back from his glare and into Jaspers chest, he just shook his head and walked off somewhere else in the house.
"How about you take me home now Jasper?" I said quietly.
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